from beijing to Dresden. now here since one day. what is the mission here?? spread optimism.. that's the only thing that germans need. Optimism.. when you have this people can be highly happy here.

they have a lot, they have more. they just need optimism.

looking around the faces. standart german slop. sitting in the barber shop. waiting to talk with him over blackbird. maybe it will be interesting maybe not. I don't care. my only expactation is to learn as much as possible. to learn which price would make sense etc..

i don't need to sell, i don't need a order from him actually it would be fine when he don't likes it, but i want to understand if I should visit more barbers or not.

leaving the homeland, rain... going to the mother land.

China is a great place.

Leaving konstantin... People have doubts, people have doubts about every shit. I put the label on. Either I die or get it done.

We have a insane great product. Better than anything that is out there.

keep in mind when you take investors ln board. You litterly want only there money. Anything else doesn't matter. The reason they exist is money, not contacts, not advice, money.

You can get advice from everyone for free.

sitting here in the coffee... i know the robots will come.. but everyone is working on it. hmm.

anyway. thinking about space.. listening to books. bringing blackbird to people.

learning through AI about the world and anything.

green woods. unusial. green. green. woods, woods, field.

NATURE.

since i was 3 weeks in guangdon.. nature feels really unaturall.. haha. but beautiful.

now driving through Beijing nature and going to the temple of heaven. rivers. green.

naaaa nananana naira hey Jude

Just some artists. Artists truly change society.

listening to John lennenon with Kosti the grinder...

Finished Dune.

We will have water needs... on other planets.

And robots everywhere on earth. Idk but I want to.be involved with this.

Cutting hair for.10 RMB at a open plaza... looking old men playing cards. Women's dance on the plaza.

Sleeping in the mass. "Love is the answer"

Waiting months for the reply from her. And then? Nothing? Nothing? Queens on the TV. Singing Bohemian. And more.

Strange world. Mama. What is this for? What does wolrd wants from mee? Mama, what did you thought? In my age? Mama, what does matter? Mama, what do matter? How Mama, how to matter?

What are we? What I am? Why so many questions?

What is the reason of it all? Galileo??

Usul?

May?

April, April.

Thankful for Mo, he is the first real believer. Invests 9k€ in us. In me. To see. To see. How we perform. Let's see. Making a great product, the best product.

Caring about the problem, solving the problem.

konstantin arrived.. working on blackbird... grinding. sleeping in RJ models office, laughing, shiffering, shaking, singing, dancind, playing chess.. a gratefull time.

tomorrow we fly to beijing. and then I fly 4 days later to germany to see my family. family.

why? why? what is the reason of humanity? why, wahat do we try? here? what is the mission? to understand the universe. to seek truth in the universe to expand.

why is the universe their? waiting for us? why? why?

In the ears the family and again with wet face leaving the space. After encountering stupid people that think they do good with enforcing rules. Stupid rules. Leaving the battlefield, because it feels like that... to move on a new field. Generate a new field.

It's the same again, communities, where stupid individuals inforce rules, because they think for all but in reality they just think stupid. Leaders that are not supposed to me leaders but got the role because no true leader would do this submissive tasks.

Getting in the manager role, because of sucking and beeing kind and not of skill. That are the evils.

Going out with tears again, knowing the chapter of the space... is now, ending. But when things end - new things start. It serves me well as a nighting place it served well.

No heading out for the unknown.

Having emotions in the head, because family in my ear. Smiles on the face and tiers on the eyes.

Listening to the German time.. thinking about the A-Park. Thinking about they, about her, about the times...

WTF... how did I came from there of being now here. Here in China, alone. Alone in this empty engineering junkies club.

WTF... How did it happen.

Missing my family and the times. The times where you just were a random dude. Now I'm still a random dude but with the mission to help humanity explore the universe. This changes everything. WTF.

Discussing with partners. Saying bullshit to their timelines. Recieving parcels from partners. Saying bullshit to products. Thinking about humanity, executing stuff...

Ski Aggu in the ear... and chinese kiosk ahead. Seems to bee ironie.

Dear Christian,

i hope it is not to weird, but I rather speak english than german these days, because I live mainly in San Francisco and Shenzhen, where everyone is speaking english with me. So thoughts come more vividly in my mind. 

I truly believe that humanoid robots is the way for humanity to solve most of the scarcity of products and services and get into a state where you can have most of the things that you want for free or very low cost. 

I also see that most of the really promising one gets designed in the US and China and manufactured mainly only in China. 

These days Germany and Europe looses more and more the manufacturing capabilities to China and Car's will not be the monopoly of Germany anymore. 

I think these days that it would be very bad when Europe has not also some Robotics unicorns and need in the future to only by from China chinese robots or go with Elons versions. 

So what are germans good in? 

making things very precise, and beautyfull and taking a lot of effort into itterative design. I think when I want to have a robot at home, that it should also look good and feel good and be as simple as the iphone 1 to interact with. 

For that porsche design studio came into my mind. Because Porsche is one of the greatest german brands out there. 

And I think actually that car makers are very suited for making humanoid robots. 

We see it also.. most of the players in humanoid robots are car players: Xpeng, Tesla, Hyundai, Toyota to name some of them.

okay why does this matter? 

I'm just a stubborn 20 year old with a mission in mind...

I dropped out of school because it was boring and worked the last one year on understanding how technologies and the world works, i have no fear of risks, because there is nothing to loose. 

I just wondered is there someone in porsche / porsche design studio to build trust with, to maybe have brainstorming sessions, to think about the future in bold ways to invent something new, with the old style of porsche. 

I had a dream of what would it take to work with porsche together on a humanoid robot, as a joint venture, as a project, as just some brainstorming first, idk.. but I think it could create a next magical product for europe and for the world, and i like magic. 

• maybe because my dad was a magician :)

I will be back in Germany in Mai, in the rare case someone want's to meet in person.

Best, Tade

wtf, why do I spent time working on anti-dandruff shampoo?

wtf? why not `? it is fine to just get something done. and then go to the next..

wtf??

right now i solved the bottlenecks of getting packaging and shipping bag samples in the next days.

i still sleep night by night in the storage room of the Chaihuo makerspace. haha, i have there is to little idk.. it is not really a "decke" but yeah sheet of material lets say. that I use. and a small pillow. and yeah the matress idk i think it was actually a sunshine "liege" that you normally take to the beach... anyway what i want to say, it is a bit hard. but now i got more used to it and i actually get some sleep overnight.

also I found out how to click the buttons of the light switches in the right order to not have all night long a flickering and blinking light one... (the first night was very bad). I also find out how to use my big jacked as an kind of second peace of material to put over me. and i found out that i don't hear the moskitos when i just put airpods in, which is more then 60% of the solution. It's only the sound that makes me nervous, not when they actually sting i think.

and I found out how to best package all these things so I don't have to spend every evening long time to setup my stuff and also can hide everythign away at the day so nobody figures out that i sleep in this room.

actually the biggest worry for me is just that i get kicked out.

feel like a common theme :)

anyway eventually it will happen, it is just a question of time. but for now it works. if you don't have ot high expactations haha.

I also read rigth now this interesting book from Norton Wang about china and us.. very good.

Oh and i got so many message from people that are very close that say, no i don't want to invest. fun haha.

Hey Tadeus, entschuldige das ich noch nicht eher geschrieben habe. Vielen Dank für die Materialien. Sieht sehr spannend aus.

Ich habe mich dafür entschieden mich erstmal nicht zu beteiligen. Tut mir leid dass ich keine besseren Nachrichten habe. Wenn du möchtest kann ich auch noch mehr ins detail und ins feedback gehen.

Ich bin mir sicher du findest genug Leute und hoffe du hast Erfolg mit dieser Idee

Lieber Tadeus, ja dein Gefühl liegt da richtig. Ich habe gerade nicht wirklich die Möglichkeit Geld da hinein zu investieren und ja es ist herausfordernd mich nicht schlecht damit zu fühlen. Und schön wie du es umschrieben hast, ich gebe dafür gerne die Liebe und Gute Energie für Dich hinein...wenn das Produkt dann irgendwann bei uns zu kaufen ist, dann würde ich es gerne an Jorrit zum probieren geben und es an andere weiterempfehlen...So maybe a bit money can flow at this way. But also thanks that you share all with me!! And a good vibe for your blackbird...möge er hoch hinaus fliegen! Alles Liebe Mama

Hallo Tadeus, ich habe mir die zugesandten Unterlagen angesehen und bin der Meinung, dass die Vermarktung sehr schwierig wird. Zu beachten ist auch die EU-Kosmetikverordnung siehe link. https://www.it-recht-kanzlei.de/kosmetika-rechtssicher-verkaufen-kennzeichnen.html. In Deine Blackbird-Kosmetik möchte ich nicht investieren, da ich darin viele Probleme und keine durchschlagenden Erfolgschancen sehe. Vielen Dank für Die Vorstellung des Produktes, vielleicht kannst Du andere Unterstützer überzeugen. Viele Grüße, Günter

Hier einige Bemerkungen/Hinweise zum Projekt mit einigen ausgewählten Erfolgsfaktoren : An welchen Markt habt ihr gedacht? Habt ihr eine Analyse durchgeführt? Es gibt in Deutschland schon viele Produkte (Marken und No Name) auch über Friseure vertrieben! Der Markt ist gesättigt und man muss über Barbershops in den Markt kommen. Die Kunden für dieses Preissegment gehen sicherlich regelmäßig zum Friseur/Barber! Von dort muss die Werbung kommen und die Empfehlung! Diese Kunden setzen eher auf Markenprodukte. Die Zusammenstellung der 4 Komponenten ist sehr gut? Gibt es diese schon am Markt? Wurde auch an eine Zusammenarbeit mit einen Markenherstellet gedacht?
Bei Vertrieb in Europa müsst ihr an den rechtlichen Kram/Nachweise denken. Können morgen gern telefonieren! Haben von Mittwoch bis Freitag Ella bei uns, Kita hat Schliesstage! Liebe Grüße Oma und Opa!

Lieber Tadeus ich bin dein Papa und unterstütze dich gern im Notfall. Für Deine Geschäfte such dir Geschäftspartner. Da bin icb nicht Der Richtige. Ich wünsch Dir viel Erfolg. Und wenn alles schiefgeht, dann bin ich da. Liebe Grüße Oliver

maybe interesting.

texting business partners to order food for me to a different location. going to a shop and buying peanuts for the last dollar. eating yum yum noodles with water from the watercooker sneaking into the gym to shower.

did not someone said that founders and billionaires have the best jobs...

yes it is an adventure haha.

what I'm doing the whole day? I basically just ask allways: what is the bottleneck right now. then i find a solution.

this is what i do all day long. 16h a day. all day long.

so when I can speed up the pace of solving the bottleneck... as faster i solve one as faster I go..

so this is what I do.

asking: what is the biggest bottleneck. focusing only on this one. solving it.

next....

next...

next...

quite efficient.

Walking through the high-tech city of China and only sleeping in the makerspace in the big shipping room and buying with the last dollar a small package of peanuts and having since one day no real food anymore and now eating the peanuts like magical nuts.

oh and I still practice my chinese.

the last 4 nights I was sleeping in the makerspace storage room on a small provisiorical bedlike staging, not comfortable but a way to lay. I layed there allways from roughly 1am to 8am. Sometimes with moskitos, but every day, by day i got more used to it.

In the last days i finalized with urgency the products and went to a factory to get a nice travel case. I found a good solution and will have my first sample in my hands by the end of this week.

I called with family and friends to get initial setup costs covered of roughly 10k. it feels weird and difficult but also nice. because they don't invest in the product, they invest in me. I had some good conversations.

Wolfram was very kind. He had not so much money, but a lot of good points and good thoughts. Very cool.

I also started contacting people from instant delivery companies like delivery hero and wolt.

And we nearly finished the website so it is production ready.

I had one they where there were litterly 0 cash on my bank account and i ate nothing the whole day. Then later just out of the blue i got 50 euro taschengeld from my dad. this was the first time he really send me something like this without asking, thank you. and random that it came in this moment.

I read right now the book of a guy that compares china and us, very interesting. I also read The Machine that changed the world right now.

sorry, there was just so much happening in the last days it is diffiucult to write everything down. but still have nice sstories around it.

i got done: all conversation for with family and friends. finished design for envelepe and blackbird usermanuall finished website finished sample in production for system case went to two system case factories. went from guangzhou to shenzhen finished one book started two new ones had calls with my mom and Flora contacted last mile delivery people had a product photoshooting, drove to other area for that. - have professionel product pictures now and some other stuff that i can't remember anymore.

it's fast. it's a hurricane.

people tell it will not work. thinking.

yes so right now this is the situation. i feel a bit pressure because i take money from my family. i feel a bit good, because I move forward.

today i have to leave china somehow and come back in. i will go to hongkong border and then back. excited.

yes so right now I sleep, wake up in the makerspace. go to war, solve biggest bottlenecks. sleep.

i also contacted some family and friends to make some convertable loan agreements with them to finance the first batch order for the products.. we want roughly 10-15k so 20k is the target. with that we can make 20,000 units and bring them on the german market.

drops are falling from the sky on the sky city area. Design sky city reaching in the clouds, clouds reaching for the earth. And chinese people reaching for their heads. Everywhere chinese people running with hands on their head. funny. Me just waling slowly through the rain and enjoying the feel of nature in my face. the last night i slept in Chaihuo again. from roughly 3am to 8am.. I'm right now really at the limits and have roughly 15 dollars left on every acounts or in total to spend. so not that much. In the last two days I got all the finalized pieces for the bottles and inside the bottles done, I got everything done for the user manual.. now the biggest bottleneck is the system case. I traveled yesterday to one system case maker for 2h. the person was really bad. I thought he invites me for food, then he said I should pay... anyway it was a big money waste. but a good learning. when you don't like people from the start, don't work with them. I spend a bit longer with him and then worked a bit from his office. but he is a really bad guy. so I blocked him and said far a well. this is something that I'm MR. bamboo label guy Leander Kirschner very thankfull for, the learning: "when you see red flags, they are probably also their".

I read in the last days the book the algorithm. henhao.

I read the quantum physics book..

last night and today I developed a side to fill out convertable loans very fast. I wrote the software for it.

and I drove 2hours from the case factory to chaihuo makerspace to work from here...

i right now feel a bit empty, becuase i did not slept so much. the biggest bottleneck is right now the system case. my idea is to start first with the inner pieces and then later give it a coating so it has a high quality, maybe metal feeling. maybe we can give it a metal spray or something. maybe we can just use a spray to bring the aluminum on it.. like a aluminium coating or something. so the material feels great.

I also had a good call with konstantin yesterday, actually two good calls where we talked a bit about the option of using the GmbH or making a new US company. I, we choosed to use the german GmbH.

the last two days I was just mainly grinding to get things done without spending money. I litterly develop right now in a other country a new product line + life here without trying to spend any money. this is not easy + with the urgency that everything needs to be 3x faster than the people here are used to.

I litterly just sit in their peoples office and say i will not leave until we get xyz done today. Today I just sat there and said. I will sit here until we get it done.

And done there are all the time people telling me that it will take 7 days, 10 days, cost initial fee and I allways just say bullshit, bullshit, bullshit.

Now I have to figure out how to get a setup and tooling fee from 10,000USD down to 100USD. we will see. but 10,000 is bullshit.

idk how, but I just ask at any given moment when i don't know what to do.. WHAT IS RIGHT NOW THE BIGGEST BOTTLENECK and then focus only on this. and go all in hardcore on it and do not think about any other thing before not a clear solution is in work.

this is how I work basically the whole day. from one bottleneck, to the next bottleneck, to the next bottleneck... etc...

just thinking and then full thrust focused. then again question, what is the biggest bottleneck rigth now? then again full thrust forward.

a bit like a rocket ship that accelerates, recalculates, accelerates etc..

quite heavy, but i get things done.

the two sprays came allready out phenomenally. Now we fix the shampoo bottle and I think about how to make it an even better product. something that is a truly 10x compared to all other solutions out there for dandruff..

I think one of the main goals is insane fast detection of what kind of shuppen you have (digital dermathology praxis + (can be real person or AI that just shortly analyses a picture of your head)) - and then shippment to any location in Germany in under 24h. I think when we achieve both of these things, this would be a huge gamechanger for me as an customer.

A great byuing experience, a fast delivery, a great using experience a great result. thats all I want.

today in the morning we went up in the hotel and the guy from yesterday pulled up in his black limousine to go to the color store. we drove there i choosed a color. I asked the girls that worked their for advice. in general girls and womens have better sense for easthetic then men have.

then we took a taxi back to the main office of the cosmetic factory. I worked the whole day there. I learned chinese, I watched videos, I had a call with konstantin. Okay, nice. So this was all.

I started making sure we have new progress with the people that make the user manual and new progress with the people that make the system case. I was very annoyed because the system case people did not made progress. they did not started to work.

then the company booked me again a hotel, i got some food and now it is agian night late night and i go to bed. 00:24

love you Papa for that.

this makes me really happy.

there are 36 email in my folder and I check them all at once to delete because it is spam. And then there is a headline Scalable Capital "wir haben ihre Einzahlung erhalten".. WTF?? who paid the -804€ for me. It can only be Olly. why? thank you. I'm confused. thankfull for that.

now there is one headache less. only the pkv is there. so not only the other stuff anymore. thank you Papa.

what a fucking dayy: 00:40, staying in a nother payed hotel on a friend of a friends company.

In the morning I woke up in the hotel and made some thoughts on compliance text and wording on the cosmetic bottles, then I went outside got some food in the street stores, I also figured out that one floor under my hotel a gym exist. So I went into the gym for roughly 45min. Also randomly a met the boss of the cosmetic company that I work with just in the hotel, very random, before the gym I got a milkshake.

After the gym i took my luggage and walked 500 meters through the crowded streets, went through caterpillars and teared my roller luggage through sand until I arrived at the office of my cosmetic partners. Actually I have to figure out how they are called, i quote them so often, but don't know the name of the company, that is not smart. So I arrived and started emediatly working with Ekko on the important stuff. he actually got all the things done that we discussed yesterday. I'm proud on this guy, he manages his poor english skills very well and is smart and one of the single chinese people that I actually can ask: what do you think? and I get a usefull answer. I can also push him to work hard and fast. I think I can more and more rely on him. so he got the right bottle + the right pump had + the right other stuff done. This is very good. I then tried to figure out with him what are the next bottlenecks and one of the things was to finish the design. So I said to him: "bring me to the designer". And he brought me to a room next to ours and i said down and was there with translater and gesturing in every way possible and worked with the designer. The designer was actually incredible capable and we got in maybe 1-2 hours all changes done and the complete design ready, we got everything ready, I checked all ingredients, changed health claims to more german compliant phrases. then when this was ready I said down again with Ekkko to figure out the next bottleneck, so the next bottleneck was to actually make the finished bottles. So he said to me that it will take 7days. I said to him, bullshit! When I would give you today 1,000,000 dollars that you will get it done tomorrow, would you get it done tomorrow? And he said probably yes. So we talked a lot back and forth, I talked a lot back and forth with the boss. We also discussed the price for 4 bottles roughly 14 RMB (so for the finished set it was 1,70€ actually) for the full set (4 bottles + ingredients and stuff inside etc..). So after some hours of discussion and how we can get it done faster (it was allready evening around 7pm, i did not ate anything but some fruits, i went step hy step through it what is the bottleneck. So my first question was, what take so long, what is the problem? They said the wrong colored material is not in the factory? so i asked where can we buy the right colored material and he said nothing.. then we figured out the material is not the problem it is just the color. that he has not the color their. then i ask, it can not take 3 days to just buy color, where can i buy color? call the person that buys the color. so we called the bottlemaker... the bottle maker said it will take 5 days. i said bullshit, i can buy color tomorrow for him and bring it to him if he needs it. they loughed, they wanted to do different things, spray my bottles or whatever, but i kept asking, and asking and asking, what is the problem? what takes so long?

and allways saying bullshit. so it was around 21:30 and I aked why do we not go tomorrow to the bottle factory and get it done by ourselves. btw. tomorrow is sunday :).. but i know chinese people work on every day! And then just the boss said for fun, why do we not go now? And i said yes, yes, yes. lets go now. So we went to the car instantly, called the bottle maker factory owner on the way that we are on the way to his factory to loot it :)... no not to loot, but to make trouble ang get progress done. They asked me, are you hungry? and i said. yes, I'm hungry for progress. later I asked guss, are you hungry and he said, yes, I'm hungry to get things done, i think he can learn quite fast.

so we arrived at 22:00 on saturday evening just at this factory, lights burning people working, machines working. we went around looked for material for our bottles, and for colors, no colors their, so the boss said. lets go to a other factory, so we dorve 10 min to a other factory and listened to ABBA and Country Roads, full of energy, to check for sample colors and show me the machines and process. I was vlogging, filming and going crazy with my friends. We started to have a lot of fun on this adventure, we were the super troops to get progress done. then we drove back to the factory from before. The owner organized food, and we discussed how to get things done fast. We discussed material and we discussed color. at around 23:30. We had everything fininshed everything cleared. I managed to agree with the owner to buy directly tomorrow in the morning at 9:00 am the correct color and i will join him. So they booked me a hotel nearby, we drove to the hotel, actually one of the people from the cosmetic team Gus will also stay at the hotel to come together with me tomorrow to the color men. Yes. Then I checked in in my beatiful hotel room. Then we went next to a nighclub, very bad one so i instantly left and now I sit here on my bad and think what the fuck. We got a lot done, very good.

now sitting here i think how stupid sometimes thinks like are when people say to you, it will take xyz days. and how i just sit in their office, or stand in their factory until they get it done.

also today i had a 1h call with ivan, this was really cool one, we talked a lot about china.

but again for me it is crazy to see how fast you can go, when you don't accept timelines from other people and just ask, why does it take so long and then say bullshit. haha i like the word bullshit.

most timelines are bullshit. good night. it is 01:11 and tomorrow at 9-10 he will pick us up and we go buy colors.

business class, highspeed train, 308kmh.

yesterday I started in the morning where I got picked up from a driver of HONEST automation on of the biggest rotor automation line builders in the world. They picked me up in my little poor hotel in the worker place nearby RJ models. We drove for 40 min. through the city and arrived at their headquater, their we saw automation lines, real world winding stations and more. I saw how hightech motors get made for Car companies like tesla or byd. I saw how actuators for robots get asembled and more. Then we went together to have lunch. I went with two people one men and one women. the women told me that she will be soon in Berlin for a fear. So i recommended some places to go in berlin, like the Panoramapunkt, and she told me also that she will drive to Prague then. So I recommended here to make a stop in Dresden :).

after Honest i got picked up by a other driver from their office to go to the biggest Die Casting Machine Producer in the world (LK Machinery). LK also bought Idra 2016. So i got a presentation and then we walked through their massive factory. massive. i think 7 or 8 buildings all full of diecasting machines, welding station, cnc stations, etc... massive. big cranes mooving 3000 tones around in the air. big heavy machinery loadings on trucks. very impressive. very cool. roughly 600 workers work there he said. after that i said in need to go to guangzou so the guy from LK drove me to the highspeed train and bought me a business class ticket from shenzhen to guangzhou. It takes only 3o min. I went in, very cool comfortable seats. the train started, after 5 minutes we were at 308kmh... insane fast. then suddenly i got a snack box, water and then again lunch. just all in this 30 min. I did not finished my lunch fully, when they service women said to me, next staion is yours, make yourself ready to leave please.

so I packed my stuff and was in Guangzhou. There at the station I took a Didi roughly 50 min. to the offices of the makers of the Cosmetics.

I sat down and said: I'm dissapointed. there is not enough progress, we have to get things done. Here is my plan. So we sat there from 7pm until 23:30pm and worked out everything for the smell, for the ingredients, the bottles, the sprays. We worked hard. After we finished I asked him what his favourite song is. I played his song and we played chess. I wanted to celebrete this grind. I also said to Ekko, when we get good quality and sell 100,000 units I will invite him and his girfriend to germany for 5 days and pay for it. lets see.

then Ekko brought me with my luggage (very funny with a bigger luggage) on his scooter to a nearby hotel, he payed it and I checked in. same hotel like 2 weeks ago when I was here at the cosmetics company before, very good. Then i read for 1 hour the interview of the DJI founder and chatted with Ivan.

here some cool notes of the DJI founder: Give me peace to accept what I cannot change; give me courage to change what I can change; and give me wisdom to distinguish between the two ——this is the essence.

Later: What do you think is the best incentive for good people? Wang Tao :The money must be in place, and incentives for talking about money without money are all PUA. Then create an environment where they can seek truth: less politics, less layman-in-chief, and less self-aggrandizement for managers.

Wang Tao :Now I will view the company as a system where entropy continues to increase, and management as a process where entropy continues to decrease.

it is very rare that the DJI founder gives interviews so this was very nice to read. it was released only three days ago.

what do I do here? What de i hear here? What do I do here? alone in china. Just with Lennon and my imagination in my head. Scrolling through classmates pictures, thinking about their profile, what do you do? What do you do? And whe is she doing? What is everyone doing? What is everyone doing? What is everyone doing in this empty world??

Where is the meaning? Some people start screaming, Some people start tearing, Some people start missing, Some people start writing, And others just dreaming.

Now sitting in a small hotel room with a bett of stone, a toilet that is stinking and water is leaking. Wondering about the world, Wondering about humans, wondering about doing good, helping humanity go forward, become a space exploration and happy civilisation. Still stay creative and meaningfull.

Yesterday I visited a Die Casting Machine Maker in person, huge, huge die casting machines where hot aluminium gets with pressure injected in a mold and the mold gets hold together by insane amounts of clamping force to make the cast even and beatifull. I think they did not took me serious. Here was this 20 year old guy wanted to talk with them about buying 10-12 casting machines and did'nt even have product drawings of his robot. Did'nt even have a clue what he wants to manufacture in this machines.

sometimes I'm said, sometimes I'm happy, it changes. but also not. often I just don't mind, because I get used to pressure and things. random. I really look forward to a writing from May. I hope she will write soon and some kind words. Idk I have the feeling that she had trouble with his boyfriend and she left him. wondering. wondering.

I also had a call with Flora yesterday, not much to mention.

Yesterday I had 3 Meetings with different Chinese Machining companies, with Linkerbot, that manufacture tendon driven hands (like teals) but very expensive 99,000 RMB per hand. The day before I had calls with: Master Group, NIDE, Jingdiao, World Precise and my dad. And yesterday with: Neoden, then visit in person Zhenli, then Linkerbot, then meeting in Person World Precise, today Tederic, JDM Press, Longhua Die Casting, Befanby,HACNT, and then chess with kosti.

right now konstantin makes me sometimes a bit said. I feel it is more a competetion between us then a team. We don't work on the things right now so much together, we read different books, take different learning paths, idk id don't want that the friendship goes each others way, I feel like I want to still have him as a friend. Buy I dont't want to feel needy, that i have to work with him. I said to him again that I want to start the next company with him together but it felt needy. i think it is just a problem of me also that i just need to be confident that he sees it in the same way and that I don't care. That I'm just keeping executing and the force will lead me. But sometimes it makes me said not having him here next to me. I really trust him and like him. So Konstantin, we will see where this is going. Right now there is a trend of loosing connection and living out of each other. Maybe he just also spends a lot of love right now to his girlfriend and therefore there is not so much more energy anymore for other friends.

He does not do anymore so much that I say to him, and I don't do anymore so much that he says to me. I think this is the main point.

I'm not open anymore from thoughts from him, and he is not open anymore for thoughs from me.

I think this is the next challange, the next mountain for our friendship, the next test for our friendship if it will sustain times like this.

it is insane to see the machineries like a die casting machine in person and see how they are made of. I think one of the best things to learn how something works is to see how it gets assembled and manufactured at scale. This makes you understand the machine so much deeper and just faster. So just when you want to understand something, go to the factory that produces it and see how raw material gets made into the piece. Also i figured out, for every machine, there exist a other machine. Everything is just stacked. The person who produces the product, buys machines from a machine maker to make it, the machine maker buys the machines from a other machine maker to make his machines, this machines get also made by other machines, this stacks on other machines. It is all just machiens stacked on each other then produce the next one.

happy morning now with JOHN. it is 10:18 and i will keep working now. I look forward to sing with my mom some songs.

In the last day I contacted roughly 20 machinery companies that make machines that i likely use in my factory model. To talk with them and afterwards get 3d models from them for the factory. Today I had 4 calls with them. 3 of them trash one of them promising. I scheduled insane many calls and meetings for the next days. I text with 20 of them at the same time. I also think now more about the actuall layout of the factory, how many lines, where etc... I'm still working from RJ Models office, I negotiated a hotel nearby down to 15€ a night, by saying that the AC is broken and the windows don't really close in my room. I await the progress of the Blackbird products in the next days.

Had yesterday a niece call with Konstantin and two rounds of chess, I won both of them.

Ivan texted me... I still think that he wants to hire me haha... But I want to hire him.

Also weirdly i texted flora and she responded, we will have a call tonight.

Also my dad texted me, we will have a call in some hours.

So yeah, I just go with the flow, with the Taoism.

I feel like a alien on a other planet. Walking through the worker areas nearby, old buildings, poor people, small sits, starring. Starring. There are only them and me. Nobody else. Nobody. It's like you have a red bulk on your face... Buying with sign language a stick of pineapple, or two sticks of pineapple. Starring. I feel like I'm in a movie and someone is shooting me in the slums of china's workers.

All this workers in their miserable clothes, me in my finance founder pieces. I stick out.

Orange plastic stools, cheap food for cents of euros. Me walking between them like a alien.

I wonder what these people think, see. What they think im doing here.

Grey sky, grey fabrics, day by day. And then an alien.

All look different then me. All speak different then me, alien world.

"the world is my classroom and life my teacher"

I think the second thing would be to keep beeing admirable and do crazy things so they respect you, you have to earn their respect every day. Have insane physical shape, have insane projects, have insane good mood, have insane etiquette. Be someone who they can admire and look up to. Help deeply with any project just without they asking, just push it forward help and be admirable. A bit like Leon Richters dad. He organized big parties with Leon together, he is doing business with him together etc...

You have to earn your respect for your sons every day.

While I sitting in the RJ office and listen to JD Rockefeller and eat fresh sliced mango, I think about how could I get a better, deeper relationship with my son's in the future? We have this weird thing in our one side of our family (Mehls) that father's never have a really deep, great relationship with their sons. And on my other side Schuberts they have a deep relationship, but these are also women's. So how can I be a dad that has deep relationship and conversations with my girls and son's? Often the best way to get a completely different solution is to also do a completely different process. To do the opposite of what the others did... so what would be the opposite?

First of all.i think having a lot of son's would be good. Having 10 children, maybe 4-6 sons. This would allready bring the odds higher that some of them.have a deep relationship with me. The other things have be thought through yet. But I think 10 children is a good start.

did today something very scarry, very very scarry... you know when you ask a women for a date? and you hope she says yes, but you have the feeling that it can only be a know and therefore you don't want to face reality? I asked Alex if he want's to join my company. Quite scarry. I said to him think about it. I expect either no answer or a no in the next days.

Also today I connected with Diecasting machine makers and Stamping Machine makers to get allready the partnerships for the real factory and get 3d models of the machines from them, so I don't need to waste time designing 3d model scatches.

I also had a very long talk with Alex about Confucius and Confucinism and Taoism. Go with the flow, go with the River. Alex invited me for lunch and then we went to the DJI headquater, he could give me an visitor invitation and I went into the DJI headquater. We talked there about Frank Wang and DJI culture, very interesting. He had a very cool system where he has a puzzle made of medals and for every year in the company you get one piece of the puzzle. There is one puzzle that is finished after 10 years and one that is from year 11 until year 20. Very smart to keep people working and staying, very cool puzzle idea.

I also had a call with all the people that are in the Hotel with my family having eastern right now, it is really incredible to see them, how they have eastern together and me beeing here. But nice. So yeah they have a good time in germany hopefully.

I then worked from RJ Models to get some stuff done, I only got done to contact 5 Die Casting machine people and 5 Stamping Line companies, with one of them I allready made an appointment for next tuesday to visit their company.

I then at 22:30 went back to Alex place, listened in the car to Rockefeller and when I arrived bought fresh Mango and Melon and Blueberries. I love china for their good fruits. Everywhere the fruits are cheap and insane high quality and they cut it for you in the store, what a love. So they cut the melone, the mango for me and i went up to Alex with the fruits, we talked and ate fruits, he shared some deep thoughts and things that happened to him, he had to stay in the hospital and thought he will die soon... this changed a lot in his mind. He went then for 6 Month traveling all of China. But he will not die luckily soon. I asked him the scarry thing. And we talked about his girlfriend and my experiences in Las Vegas. I said to him: If you can promise me to figure out the skillcashe, i will promise you to show you the world and that you can learn from the smartest people in US and europe how they solve hard technical problems. The thing he cares about right now is how other smart people do their work and to make decisions without pressure.

Thats the two main points for him. if I can actually help him with this, it will be more likely that he joins the team.

Okay good night for now.

A Skillcashe is a seperate section in the humanoid robots brain that is reserved for learning skills instantly and storing them for fast use. The skillcashe does not change the foundation model of the humanoid robot, but stores specific and 100% individual skills that are acquired by observing, listening and sensing with all possible sense of the humanoid. The skillcashe can be activated on commmand or in later humanoid version will be activated by the main foundational model when it recognizes oppertunities to learn. The skillcashe is a seperate section that interacts with the main model just as beeing there as knowledge. The main foundational model can acess the skillcashe to performed individual learned tasks. The skillcashe is a bit like cursor AI has skills. The agent in cursor has certain skills that he can select, like taking a screenshot or browsing the web. These skills are backed in from the start. In our skill cashe this skills get acquired based on sensing and observating and then can be used from the main foundational model like cursor agent can use the skill of taking a screenshot. The skillcashe is more a databank for a certain action that is stored in a seperate set of weights and don't interfear with the main foundational model. The skill cashe has a limit of how many skills are able to get stored. The skill cashe does store actions in a very highly and data rich format so that a action get be imitaded very accurately. The skillcashe does not actively communicate with the main foundational model, moreover the foundational model cann use the skillcashe if needed and acces it and give it instructions to perform the skill "cook me my favourite breakfest eggs" or "cut my hair as usial". The skill cashe is very sensible when it is in learning mode, changes of the weights happen very fast and all movements, obervations get backed in with a higher multiplicator then usial, data gets multyplied directly on the flow and backed in. When the skillcashe is in learning mode / in alert it will learn new skills in seconds from observing the human.

Sitting in the car to alex place to sleep at his couch. Thinking about how to best get forward with the factory. I set up the deadline for the 12.4. Today I got first 3d printed versions of machines in different scales, very cool. So j probably choose 1:200 or maximum 1:150 scale. With 1:200 the model is roughly 3,50 wide and 7,50 long. But maybe this is actually wrong. My guess is that is actually will not take this mich space. But we will see. In reality 3,50 x 7,50 at a 1:200 scale would roughly be 1,000,000m². But I think I can eliminate enough to make it way smaller. My biggest question is now how to get the full factory layout on paper or figma. It seems like I have to go now into the needy gridy what parts are actually manufactured where. But we will see. Got today a good amount of reference packages for the 3d model guys done. Bought also a 3d model of Optimus. We will see. But it is an exciting sideprojdct anyway and I learned so much about manufacturing allready. Let's see if I can finish this model.

laying right now in the library and learning chinese with HelloChinese app, now i took a short break to share my thoughts of the last days. The last two days I had incredible nights in the Vienna Hotel near Baon. It was the same hotel where I was also together with Konstantin one month ago. The great thing of the Hotel is not the rooms or the service, the great thing is the location. When you go out on the street in the evening there are 40-60 food drucks all next to each other, all making fresh chinese food. You can buy a mango smoothy fresh made of fresh mango for 12 yuan or get noodles for 12 yuan. Everything costs 12 yuan haha. You pay directly with Wechat by scanning a qr code, no cash. You can just order at any food truck and then go to the next one and order etc... you don't have to wait at the foodtruck until it is ready, you just go around and remember where you ordered something and then you go around again and pick it up everywhere. Very nice.

Yesterday I worked all day long from RJ Model, i organized the paperwork to get the import license for my cosmetics, designed and 3d modeled with the partner of RJ Model the railway system for the factory, learned Chinese, started conversations with BYD and other companies to see their factories and figure out if they could supply my factory with batteries.

I learned with Chatgpt and Grok how battery cells work and what 4680 battery cell means. Actually the first number is the diameter and the second number is the lengths. Most battery names are just called 40120 or 5078 or whatever, kind of fun.

Yesterday in the evening Ray invited me to go for dinner with him, we went in a very good steakhouse and ate a lot of steak, salmon and other incredible things. We went their with his Lamborghini Urus, kind of fun he has the sterring whell on the right side, because it is a hongkong car. We ate their until 22:00pm and then went back to the factory, I worked at the factory until 0:30 and went then to the hotel.

also yesterday I watched the new donut lab battery reveal videos, their marketing is really good, and actually very creative, I wonder at which scale they can manufacture the batteries and how fast chinese companies could supply me their batterie cells. I think it will not take this long.

So now I checked out of the hotel and sit here in the Library in Baon learning chinese.

Sitting in the car with time in the ear and time feels not real. Eyes are with tear, but heart without fear. Sometimes I miss my Mom. And now, I got a very kind audio message from her. Where she describes, how my actions sometimes inspire here to be also more brave. That makes me feel a lot of pride. That is one of the most beautiful things to hear. That gives me new reasons... to matter.

Now I'm driving to RJ Model, I checked yesterday in the Vieanna Hotel in in Baoan, now I'm driving to RJ Model to build my factory.

I hope to see them all in person soon.

Yesterday I slept at the couch in the RJ office. Yesterday in the morning at 6:30am the cleaning women walked me up. Later the boss came to.me confused and asked if I slept in the office...? I said yes.

Now I went last night and tomorrow in the hotel to don't piss of the Ray and get a shower and wash my clothes.

Yesterday I made the model with the team for the Die Casting machine and stamping machine.

Yesterday my second version of Blackbird products got ready. They will arrive today at the RJ office so I can test them.

Yesterday I started thinking about what is the most effective way to bring things in the factory from A to B?? Maybe a railway? A railway would be cheap to build, cheaper then AGV or stuff like this.

I'm thinking right now a lot about what machines do we actually need? And what could easily be done by humans? Because everything that can be done by humans can we later way more cheaply replace with the humanoid and so we have a lower setup cost of the whole factory and later a standardized machine interface (the humanoid robot) that is easier replaceable and adaptable for new production needs and scalable faster.

Now I arrived at RJ.

today I worked from the office of RJ Models. They gave me a very big office, big room, nice stool and couche etc... today I will also sleep here :) In the morning I went here and met the team that works with me together on the Model, we discussed the project and I started after some time after the project testing software to create CAD drawings and 3d Models, I found one that actually is very good, called Zoo. I tested a bit around and created a Model of a Conveyer belt, robot arm and assembly process. I tested also other things like designing a actuator with it. It is basicly vibe CAD. But at the end of the day today I figured out that I loose the big view when I craft the details by myself. This is not good. So I started thinking about how to make it better. I texted the team a long message:

"Also I need a 3d designer from you that creates with me together / for me the simple structures. I feel that I think to much into to small details right now and the learning is not the learning that it should be. I don't care so much about the actuall actuator design, i care about the process of machines, conveyers and conections, I want to spend time thinking on this, this is way more important then the small detail drawing generating process. so please find me someone who i can work closely with that can make low detail 3d stuff to then get it as a model.

this is very important, we need to learn fast and be fast, we will not be fast focusing on the details of a robot arm or anything else, this is also not what matters. wat matters for me is factory layout and process layout visualiced in 3d. I need someone where I can just make a small scatch on paper and then the person can make the very, very low detail 3d object and make a model from it. It will also not be that much different models, because we try to use as many same things as possible on every route. I think the scale should be 1:150 or 1:200 with as much small details ass possible. Also we try to make the factory as much human based as possible (for every task where a human can do the task, we should use a human, this brings down initial setup cost for the factory, which is important! and later in a future where Humanoid robots are everywhere we have a constant machine (humanoid) that does what the humans did before. In this way we will have probably a 10x lower inital setup cost of a usial factory in this size and later a scalable machine that easily can fit into the place of the human, because the conveyers and transport and processes are allready designed for the human. In this way after my thinking I believe we can have humans (later humanoids) in every assembly step. (look at the pictures). the things that probably clearly need machines are the casting line, the stamping line, the the injection molding line for the shells. it is very stupid to design anything with a robot arm to assemble or connect something, because it will be a very costly machine and we will design then the things around for a robot arm. When we think of a human needs to assemble it, we think allready ahead for the future where (robots replace this task of the human) and have way, way lower initial machining cost. When we see this, we will actually not need to make to many 3d models, because we use as often as possible humans and only need 3d models of the heavy machines and conveyer belts and materials. Therefore I highly want because of speed and for me to keep thinking about the bigger picture to have someone from you doing actually the file generation. This is also a good constraint, because it means that the things don't have to many details and also are heavily biosed to simplicity and having the same models as often as possible. This constraint is good, because this will bring also the real world cost of the real factory down.

to conclude my thinking I believe machinery Models are only needed in: Zone B: (Casting Machines, Stamping Machines, CNC Machines) In Zone D: (SMT machine for chip placement for custom PCBs) in Zone M: (injection Molding Machine for shell parts). This is not a lot: this are 5 machines in total. Where I believe your designers will be able to figure out how to make a good model for the Model.

All other Zones and things are human (humanoid) based. This will substantially bring the initial setup cost down and build for a future where humanoids are existing. When we think of a task where a custom made machine costs 200k-300k USD or a human that gets then replaced by a 20k USD huamoid the second option wins.

We should get as fast as possible to the first layout to itterate on how things are conected efficient and how and where how many humans are needed to reach the scale of 1,000,000 robots output a year."

i hope we get this solved tomorrow.

Yesterday evening was laos really cool, I texted Alex again if I can sleep at his place, and he said for sure. So i brought some cookies and cakes and we talked again a lot. I shared with him my story of school and not doing the Abitur, I shared with him some pages of my diary. He was really impressed and inspired by it. Randomly I told him that I'm from dresden and he showed me then that his backround picture of his Laptop is Dresden in Moonlight. My dresden, how random. There is this random chinese guy and he has Dresden In moonlight as backround picture.

I got sleepie, so I slept. Next morning he drove me to the RJ Model headquater.

Today I also had a long call with konstantin, this was very nice, I showed him what I worked on and what experienced the last days. He told me about how he met the father of his girlfriend the first time. I showed him the whole office here and the model production.

now I'm gonna to sleep again at the couch here. See you tomorrow.

"sometimes I feel crazy, just beeing without anything, but naive to change the world"

i can't hold the tears back anymore and start crying in front of my Grandparents. They are some thousends of km away and I have to say to them that I will not be there at eastern like promised. I will not see my mother in Person, I will not have the opportunity to tell them adventures from the past month in person. We talked 2 hours with each other.

Yesterday I was at three Model Makers to make sure I visited all major Model Makers in Person in china first, before deciding with whom to build my factory. The first one was RJ model. He is the biggest Model Maker in the world and i instantly liked him. He started his company in a young age 24 and just worked his ass off until he came their. He asked for money from their friends and family to get the things running, it was painful i believe. He said I inspired him after we talked f0r 2h and I thought I trust him. So in my mind was clear this will be the person that will help me to build my factory.

I think he will loose a lot of money with my model, but he believes in it, he believes in me, maybe more then I do. Therefore I trust him. He randomly said, when I talked about my story, how i slept in shitty hotels and traveled the world, that I also can just work from here.

So after I visited the two other model makers after RJ Models I texted Ray and wrote:

Hi Ray, you were right, the other appointments were mainly a waste of time. I really appreciate your openness and want to work with you and your company on the model. There is only one catch that I'm asking for... I want to have a small room at your office / the apartments, where also your employees live. I don't need anything luxurious, it can be very scrappy. I can also pay for it. So that I can work the next one month from your place, the model is right now the highest priority. If you can arrange this, I would love to enter the partnership with you and the company and would be happy. Best, Tade

He replied at the same evening with "yes, fine".

So today I worked on the factory Model and how the first Actuator line is designed. To make 3 models of it in 1:200, 1:150 and 1:100 to figure out which scale is most suitable. It is the most complex part of the factory and the heart of it, where scales matters most.

So I will arrive tomorrow in the office of Raw and work from his place to get the Model together with his team as fast as possible done.

After I finished the conversation with my Grandparents it is clear I will stay here in china, I miss all of them, and hope to get stuff done here. There is still pressure of tide money supply and fast itteration. The only thing that matters now is getting the Model done as fast as possible. Highest FOKUS on this.

Today I was sitting at a place and eating randomly came a officer (police men to my table) he smoked a cigerette, I offered him food and we ate together lunch.

Yesterday Evening I texted Alex again, so I brought fruits and we talked about life and the universe and I slept again on this strangers couch.

also today it started raining: i had airpods in my ear, it was a bit emotional music, i started getting emotional, and it rained from my eyes too. I just thought, what do i do here in china, alone, why me? why does it matter to you to change the world? why does it matter to matter so much? now I'm sitting here in the coffe and think. think about the things. Tomorrow I will be at Rays office working to get the Model done. The Model. I think the Model needs a Name, it is rubbish to say allways the Model, how could we name it? Godot? idk. I was also reading today waiting for Godot, i read from start to end. quite weird, maybe it is Godot.

now I'm sitting here and think if it is fine to text Alex again to sleep at his couch tonight.

OH and btw. it is actually easy with ai to design a factory. if you want to do it, just do it.

okay, now let me get some fruits and water.

china, china, china, I love china. had yesterday a insane bad night in Chaihuo makerspace, no sleep all night long fight with Moskitos, then the cleaning women came in at 6 at attemptim to sleep came finally to it's end. I want to a coffe nearby to get an very needed espresso and started answering all factories and messages that came in for the products that I developed the past days. Also i got very excited because the new sample version 4 arrived at 11am at the makerspace (less then 24h shipping). I put it on and was happy, It was very good progress in the right direction after round 3 was very bad. I like it and wear it now every time. There are only some small things to change (shorter sleeves, wider collar, and maybe a small tade imprint at the sleves and so nobody will spell my name wrong when I meet them.) So this was a up after this bad night and cool. Then I sat down and thought what are the bottlenecks actually for helping coming the future of robots true. Building robots is a solved technical problem, building robots at scale is not a solved problem. So I sat down took some carton from the makerspace, my pencils and started drawing a factory layout on it for 1,000,000 robots yearly output. I drawed it until evening. Then was thinking how can i test if what I do makes actually sense in reality, then i thought, why not building a small scale factory first to test against reality and then building the big one. So I messages 6 Building and Architecture Model Maker in China Shenzhen. In the midday I was eating at this resteraunt nearby the chaihuo makerspace again and met a guy from DJI. We talked a bit, he was very smart, he built the Mavic air 3 in DJI. We exchanged wechat. I texted him later if he wants to meet at the evening again.

Meanwhile in Chaihuo I got nearly kicked out, because they want that I pay for a membership, but i couldn't pay it. But somehow i was talking my way out of it and was allowed to stay for two more days.

I drawed the factory layout and until evening. Before I met with Alex from DJI I had two appointments scheduled for the next day with Architecture Model Makers, me and Alex met at 22:30 and went for a walk.

We walked everywhere and talked about humanity, how to explore the universe and china. At 00:08 am I asked him if he might have a free couch for the night. He said yes, so I packaged all my stuff at Chaihuo, we went to his Big Rover offroad car from a Chinese unknown company and drove to his apartment for 40 min. We talked on the way about the meaning of life and what work matters. When we arrived he showed me around, his whole appartment where full of technology, litterly stacked up to the cealing everywhere, he showed me dozens of small tech projects he did and random pcbs and whatever, the whole apartment looked more like a factory then living room.

At idk 2 i went on the couch after I confirmed the appointments with all other model makers for the next days and slept. It was nice, because there were no moskitos.

Today I then woke up at 9:30am, said goodbye to Alex and went with the Didi to my first appointment at 10:30am with Green something modelmaker. They where really kind and showed me around it is a family business run by wife and husband, very kind people, we then had Lunch together and after spending 2-3h with them in total they drove me to the other Model Maker (their competitor). I arrived at the other Model Maker and was showing and discussing with him again my factory layout and how to make a smaller scale model of it. We discussed about the realworld size of the factory around 1,000,000 square meters (which means 1500 x 700 meters roughly) and when we would scale it down 100x that it would then be 15 meters x 7 meters, which is quite large, so we were thinking about scalling it down to 200 so that it is 7,50 x 3,50 meters. We were discusses how to split the whole model maybe in 2-4 pieces so I can walk between it to see more details and how to bring my rough ideas into real 3d models and design them.

After this I went with Didi again to a other part of shenzhen to meet a engineer that i got introduced to that is interested in robotics. I showed him my factory and we talked for 2h about robots.

After that I booked a Didi and a hotel nearby for 19€. The hotel was in the last corner in the 22 floor of just a random building. On all didi drives I refined my factory and scheduled meetings with other Model Makers to see most of them in person.

Arrived late in the hotel confirmed all 3 appointments for tomorrow with other Model makers, brainstormed with the clothing team about some changes, made orga for the Blackbarry stuff.

Started learning with the HelloChinese app for 1h.

Made two explain documents for the factory.

And now it is 00:13 and i go to bed.

what a day again: I will just sleep on the couch of the Makerspace tonight, because money supply gets tied. Had today in the morning breakfest in the hotel I overnighted. Then took a Taxi for 1h hour to a casing and PVA boxes factory. For me it is still incredible to see women and men to the whole day sitting somewhere and just doing the same stitching over and over again. The one women were working there for 11 years and she produces 3000 boxes a day. We designed my box for the BLACKBIRD Anti dandruff system, it was a good meeting, we just had the conversation with the chinese translation app taobao all the time. They showed me around, showed me their Die Casting machines, their sample production, their material preperation, their packaging lanes. We discussed the product for roughly 1h and then I got again invited for lunch with them. I had the best chinese noodles so far that I ever ate (handmade from Xianji people). People from Xianji are especially good in making handmade noodles he told. Then I took a nother Taxi (4o dollars) for roughly 90 min. to the area where I was allready one month ago near the Chaihuo makerspace and DJI headquater. Here I met with a design studio to discuss how to build humanoid robots at scale in China and make them beatiful. Afterwards I sat in a coffe and watched some interviews and youtube videos about elon, Jensen and Checky chan. Then I ate agian noodle soup in a small chinese local store and now I sit here in Chaihuo hoping that all the people leave soon so I can just sleep here on the couch and nobody get's mad. OH in the time in the coffe and taxis I read Rockefeller Biography and also made all the conversations to get the samples for BLACKBIRD BARRY and the custom design packages for it. Also my partners from the Clothing factory got their v4 sample ready for me and shipped it to me, it will arrive tomorrow here at the Chaihuo makerspace.

today was a crazy day: I arrived at 4:30am at the airport in Guangzhou, there picked me a driver up from the hotel and brought me to the hotel, I checked in the hotel at 5:30am. I slept until 10:00am got then down got a small breakfest, because the cook was so kind to still make something small just for me (breakfest was allready over), I went out walked a bit around, got some watermelon for 1,50€ half a kg or something. Then at 2pm a other driver and two guys picked me up from the company I was meeting with (it was one sales person, one translater and the manager of the company all three picked me up) and we drove to their factory. Their we got a factory and I got a explanation from 6 people that showed me around how they manufacture shampoo and any other cosmetics at scale. Then we went in their show room, where they had hundreds maybe even thousends of different products they made for all people over the world, from shampoo to parfume etc... all very beatiful with nice boxes etc. the showroom was very beatiful. the whole factory was very clean. Then we went in the business room and I met the "Boss". We trank tea and discussed my products for roughly 1h and 30 min. with all the other people. we were really productive brainstorming, arguing etc... they prepared allready samples for me jsut in two days and it was nearly perfect of what i wanted. so now we discuessed everything so they get the final samples ready in 5 days. crazy, 5 days for a complete new product and bottle design etc.... crazy. it was really fun. Then they invited me to have some food with them. so we drove 40 min. back into the city (the factory was located outside of the city) and got into a very nice restaurant with a round table, we set down and suddenly insane amounts of food got brought in. I had ultamive tasty chinese food and we talked about everything that came to mind, china, germany, chinese addiction to phones, german addiction to phones, good things bad things. We "gambeyed" a lot, but I'M not used to drinking so I skipped every second round. It was 54% Vodka or something, they (we) finished the whole bottle. A bit drunk I was, but I tried to not drink to much, but also be kind and have some fun. It felt okay for me to drink today since some month again something. It was the right setting. we were 6 people and they asked me, hey what do you normally do after drinking? And i was idk... you can decide... so they proposed to go in a bar or a karaoke bar/adults club. I'm not so shure who decided at the end but we went to this club to sing karaoke with womens that we don't know. I was allready expecting the worst and that this might be very not nice, but I'm allways eager for new experiences so, just do it. We went in and set on couches and suddenly 6 womens came in. They were telling something about themselves and then the chinese people were like no... and the womens left the room, very confusing, it felt very weird and like people have a dating swipe app but in real life with real womens. so they swiped them away and again 6 womens came in., they swiped again, but one stayd with one of the guys. Anyway it was really weird and i don't liked it. It was making womens to reallife tiktoks and more object like. this was not nice. So then the managerin came in and was like talking to the other chinese pople and they translated that she organized a women that can speak english for me. so i was okay, so worstcase i can just talk a bit, thats fine. After some minutes there was sitting right to me a women that could speak a bit of english and left to me a women that spoke just chinese. So i started with google translator after some time some conversation with them about if they are happy, how long they work allready there and a lot of questions, that are probably for them completely random. After I asked them for the meaning of life the one women was to confused to answer. anyway. the english speaking women was very kind, and she told me that she studied art in university. So i asked here to show me pictures of her drawings. after that I asked her if she can order paper and pencil to paint. And then we just painted for 1h in this club :)

I think the other factory guys were a bit amused but for me it was super cool, we just painted. At the end I jsut wrote some kind words on this paper, without that she sees it and gave it to her before we left, no number exchange, no meeting later, just some kind words that she should believe in her self. That felt really good and now laying in bed I hope she just has some more motivation for life. anyway the boss of the factory then drove me to a hotel nearby and I got with two other guys of the manager to the hotel reception they checked me in the hotel, payed the hotel room + breakfest for tomorrow and came with my stuff (they carried my luggage) to my room. We said godbuy and I was very happy. Now I'm laying here in bed and just think about this crazy day and sleep. tomorrow I will see two other factories. But this people from today were all insane kind. China business is insane how you get treated from your partners I guess. So I got today I free food, drivers, Hotel, breakfest, club, samples and so much more. very exciting time to be here.

yes now I'm gonna sleep.

lets say the problem would be to build one Billion workers. how would you solve it?

arrived in China. allway when I see this elon products I just feel so thankful and i look up with such a pride. It seems like everything that is truly important he has a feed in. this makes me annoyed by also very glad to know that somone really capable is doing good. it really makes me emotional to see a elon product, because they are allways a major leap forward, not a small step a quantum step. and they make me allways excited about the future. okay so I admire him, he is one of the greatest people and I'm grateful that I live in the same time with him. But also pissed, because where do I then matter? what is as important but not elonized yet? or should we compete with elon? but why? more find a leap forward that is truly leap. I think we want to travel in space someday on my own personal way like you want to travel in your own personal way with your car. Would this be a major leap forward for humanity to have the posibility to travel completely by ourselves in space? Secondly if we want to create a world where everyone can have everything, we need to make everything that everyone wan'ts insane cheap. The bottleneck for this is cheap energy and cheap work. both invorces each other. with cheap work we can produce more cheap energy and with cheaper energy labour gets cheaper if it is based on energy. So the main questions is how can we get substantial more energy and how can we get substantial cheaper labor -> to create a world where all your products that you can imagen of are so cheap that you can get them.

a other major leap forward would be to build cities on other planets, infrastructure on other planets (water infra on other planets) all this things.

I wonder how elon computes somothing to check if it has enough leap forward.

Who I am?

what is important for me? shared adventures with people.

What I'm bad in?

• follow rules that are stupid.
• respect people that are stupid.
• loosing games

What I'm good in?

• influencing people
• teaching
• writing
• breaking rules
• making fast decisions
• generating ideas

What do I want to learn now?

Technical execution.

"what do you mean by this?" "designing and building as much as possible by myself on a complex technical execution task.

"why not building a robot for that as challange?" "I build a robot?" "YES!, why not?" hmmm. I ...... .. robot. Irobot

I'm laying half sweating half trying to show that I'm not one of them. but I surely are on the banch of the best hotel in Bali. The 5 star or whatever Hyatt recidency. And I'm not a guest and sometimes worried they kick me out. The beautiful garden in the middle looks like a big minecraft temple that someone build in 100h play time and with care for every detail. Same backround music like in minecraft is reaching my membranes of my ears. I hear water flowing in fountains next to me that is more blue than the schlumpfs in tv. and I'm reading essays of a girl that i met in Arcadia. She is in here essays wondering around trying to find meaning - and describing every situation as a screaming in silence and love for everything. A tearing apart between love and not understanding and wondering. And I feel like me. It feels like the thing that I'm in. The mass of hiding in an prunk of beatifulness to find meaning? Why do I want meaning at all? why not just a simple normal life? anyway. She is talking about learning. and He is talking about learning. Yesterday konstantin send me a very long message where he described his focus on learning, he reading 35 books and only care about that. And he is right. So I'm sitting here in the minecraft world and wonder. wonder about, what do I want to learn?

What I am here for?

What is meaningfull?

maybe it is only to share good moment with others? to share more moments with others. this is something she is proposing in her essays and writings. maybe she is right.

anyway yesterday I sat also here in this Minecraft world and painted something for the real world. Created something for the real world. I beatifull product so everyone gets his hair sculp free of dandruff.. haha this sounds so much not meaningful. It's a side project from me. I have the factories found in china, I will meet with them in two days. I will see first prototypes of my thoughts in 3 days. funny how fast things can go when you are alone? I'm wondering. could everyone be this fast? or is it my learning that made me fast? I designed yesterday everything from product feeling to user manuell. I created a fully skatched out short story as user manuell. I'm really proud on it. it is art. I focus to make this the best product possible. For me. it is something I do mainly for me? is this meaning?

doing something for yourself and then sharing it with others??? so in this perfect Bali day sitting in the Perfect Minecraft mention - do minecraft characters also wonder about meaning?

right now in the moment the chief of the gastro here came to me.. we know each other after I'm spending the last two days here. He is looking for contacts in china so i can visit there the Hyatt? did I lied my way into this? idk.

the stuff knows me, the people know me, but they think I'm a guest of the Hotel. I'm not. hmm.

okay anyway yesterday i basically build the core components for the product to get dandruff away really cool. So today I'm wondering again. it was to fast yesterday. Now there is the questions again. what todo today? wonder`?

I wonder about the brain and how we learn concepts about the world so fast to transfer them into physical skills? how does nature do this?

okay. let me play a bit more minecraft.

bring it to reality as fast as possible to actually test. One learning that I made with crafting my own half-zip hoodie is to not try to long to test everything in software and modeling, but just test it in the real world. Get the things as fast as possible to the real world and test it against reality. It seems alike with the spacex appraoch in this aspect and now after I'm reading the spacex book intro I realize that I made the learning with this zip hoodies and only therefore it went so seamless. and holy shit were the hodies bad and failed. all of them where throw away peaces but it was really natural to learn in this way. no I try to keep this as a method in my arsenal. Bring things into reality as fast as possible.

A good friend of mine is absolutely obsessed with Disneyland. We’re talking full commitment — goofy hat and all. A few years ago he splurged on a room at the hotel right inside the park, specifically because guests get in an hour early. The plan was simple: the moment the gates opened, he’d sprint across the park and grab a fast pass for his favorite ride before they were gone.

He made it to the kiosk within fifteen minutes of opening. Already sold out.

He stood there stunned, probably looking as devastated as he felt, when a Disney employee noticed him and walked over. “Is everything okay?”

He explained what had happened. She listened, nodded sympathetically, then asked: “And how does that make you feel?”

“Well... I’m kind of bummed out.”

She smiled. “Anything else?”

“I mean, I’m a little upset.”

She smiled again, waiting. “Yes... anything else?”

“I’m...” He paused. “I’m really disappointed.”

Her whole face lit up — like he’d finally said the magic words. Because he had.

“Well, we can’t have that, can we?” she said. She walked over to the kiosk, punched in a code, and printed out three passes.

I’ve thought about that story a lot since my friend told me. Because what he stumbled onto — almost by accident — is one of the most powerful tools you have in any negotiation, any difficult conversation, any moment when you need someone to actually help you.

Two words. I’m disappointed.

Here’s why they work so well.

Every other approach puts someone on the defensive. You make an argument, they counter it. You explain why you deserve more, they explain why you don’t. You get frustrated, they get stubborn. The whole thing devolves into a tug of war where nobody wants to be the one who gives ground.

But “I’m disappointed” does something entirely different. It doesn’t accuse anyone. It doesn’t assign blame. It doesn’t make the other person wrong. It simply implies — quietly, powerfully — that you expected better. That you deserved better. And it puts the other person in a position where they genuinely want to make things right.

I saw this play out again with another friend who was preparing for a job offer. He’d done his homework — he had a pretty good read on the title they were going to offer and roughly what the salary range would be. And he was already pretty sure it was going to come in lower than he thought he was worth.

“So what do I do?” he asked me.

“Easy,” I said. “When they make the offer, pause. Take a breath. And then say, I’m disappointed. Then explain, calmly, what you were expecting and why.”

Two days later he called me back. It had worked like a charm.

The thing is, “I’m disappointed” is disarming in a way that almost nothing else is. It doesn’t start an argument. It starts a conversation. And it signals — without any hostility — that the gap between what was offered and what you expected is real, and meaningful, and worth closing.

Now. If you want to level up even further, there’s a technique that doesn’t require any words at all.

The wince.

In any negotiation, the single best response to an offer you don’t like isn’t a counter-argument. It’s not even “I’m disappointed.” It’s saying absolutely nothing — and letting your face do the work.

A slow, almost involuntary wince. A slight intake of breath. The expression of someone who was hoping for better and is genuinely trying to hide how much that number stung.

Then silence.

I cannot tell you how effective this is. The other person — almost reflexively — starts filling that silence. They explain. They justify. And often, they start improving the offer before you’ve said a single word. Because nobody wants to be the person who caused that wince.

Together, these two techniques — the words and the wince — work for the same fundamental reason. They appeal to something basic in people: the desire to be seen as fair, as generous, as someone who did right by you. Most people, given the chance to make you feel better without losing face themselves, will take it.

You’re not putting them in a corner. You’re giving them a door.

The next time someone makes you an offer that falls short — a salary, a contract term, a fast pass at Disneyland — resist the urge to argue your case. Skip the spreadsheet of reasons you deserve more.

Just pause. Let your face fall. And say the magic words.

I’m disappointed.

Then wait.

(Marc Randolph)

I left Wolframs house to protect my brain.

i was shortly to leave the house to never come back only the rational financial kept me here. the way to mold the world is to be insanely naive with yourself and don't listen to the garbage that others tell. protect your brain for garbage.

the best marketing is winning "enzo ferrari" people are attracted to winners.

every masterpiece of its creation speaks the language of the creators.. so if you want to make a masterpiece make it speak your language of the creator.

"a masterpiece speak the language of it's creator" - enzo ferrari

i know I can get everything done I want. in the moment where I just add. I either die or will get it done.

I want to build great products. I want a great robot that replaces the phone and becomes this machine that is truly beatiful. I want to give it the soul to make people not to give up.

like me. I never, never, never give up. just keep going.

random silly things to not forget: interview in bags (John lennon)... Silly walks - monty python falling in sleep - Mr Bean

the first succescsull consumer robot that actually sparks joy in people. the first 100k of them. that inforces optimism and human to human interactions.

i could place my own humanoid on top of the mount everest in 30 days? should we?

i think we can only win together.. Konstantin

sometimes I just walk around wondering about the world and everytime I wonder I get a bit more old.

heard today to a lot more John lennon interviews and Ren Zhenfei interviews. we are all artists. and the best was for a artist is to take life not to serious. just do random things sometimes. just lean in.

i was yesterday in the night all the time thinking about robots and couldnt sleep.

truths second:
since I know that Konstantin is sometimes reading this stuff I'm not that open anymore. Hmmm. difucult to be open to people that you want to respect you.

I really like him.

truths:

I'm right now in Bali with a bank account near Zero but a deposit I can go into -500€. I fly back to China in 7 days. I will have no place to stay there yet. But I think I will just sleep on the couch in the maker space.. haha hihi.. yes like all the startup people do I guess. that sounds great but that is actually teribble :)

I also said to my grandparents that I will be on eastern with them together in germany. A flieght to germany costs around 480 USD right night. That makes the math a bit harder considering my current bank account. I also have to still pay the PKV for this month's 330€ or something like this... yeah this thing is the most annoying thin in my life so far. But maybe also the thing that just makes sure that I not only lazy chill at friends place because the bill wants to get paid every month. anyway it's the carma for the insurances I sold.. i guess.

Now realizing more and more the artist side. I think art is the highest form to make humans feel emotions. And if you can get this done through technology it is a huge happyness factore for humanity. So it's still in my mind, what will be the most important things for humanity in the future?? I think longterm everything comees down to exploring the universe. Means everything that helps to accerlerate this is a step in the right direction.

My physical condition right now is really rubbished, my lags hurt and my heat is burning. But I think a got with the Marathon a brain update that was crucial. the either "I will die or get it done" update.

I'm still confused about love in my head. I think every day right now about Miu. But I text with others. Maybe because Miu left me around this time 2 years ago, and it was the hardest, maybe because I still love here. I mean I'M really certain that I still do. And I believe in here. She said she want's to fight for the love. So let time evolve. I just want here and nobody else. All other girls where just fun but not care. She is the person that I care so much that I have nights without sleep. I made here as bag picture of my phone again. She is really beautiful. okay never mind. Please don't tell anybody about it.

Also one rule that I figured out is that when things appear simple at the wide shot they allways get more confusing when you look at them with a "Lupe". It's same about life. Where to go? What to do? Who to love? from the wide it appears simple in the details lie the maniac.

You could say I'm living my best life here on Bali, like a king with houseceeping mades and shores with great waves. with free food and no pay. With timely time for everything my brain just wants to do. With the holody that normal people look forward every month while their working. It's not my life. but it's good to experience parts of it now. Because then I know that the money I will have someday will me not help to buy this experience and with it happyness. I'm an adventurer. and all the Millions, Billions in Stock shares will be used to have bigger and bigger adventures. Thats what excites me.

So Bali is great as long as you are away soon again. But to slow. But to much focues on them selves and happyness of themselves not enough on humanity. People come here to tune out. I want to tune in to help humanity evolve. I want to see humanity between the stars. I want humanity beeing stronger, more exciting, more capable, more adventured then when i came to this place. I have everything I need. So now it comes back to humanity to put a dent into the universe.

whenever I'm in people i want to give hope. I had a lecture that I gave for 13 year old children some days ago in a school here in Bali. I talked about my adventures. I ask a lot of questions to them. what they love to do.. what they care about etc.. but the main thing for me was to give them hope that they can figure things out. and they will.

I have hope. I'm excited for the adventures ahead.

i was thinking if I just don't like Indian womens as people to be arround with, but i discovered more. This is again a time where I face a person that has fear of respectation. Dia is the Wife of Wolfram where i stay right now, and I sense a lot of fear in her. If I would be allowed to make a guess it is that she comes from a more wealthier Indian family that have high expactations in here and she fears if she meets them or not. She tries therefore to be very smart and be on every topic with a good opinion. But that's the problem. You can't be on every topic a person with great knowledge and then fall into the trap of talking things that are not true.

I figured out that i don't like this kind of people. Becuase they project their fear on you. They just make you feel more fearfull, because they can't deal with their own and have to share it. But fear is from my understanding not really helpfull to go forward. When you have fear you go backwards. So if you want to go forward for me fearlessness helped.

It is very difficult to deal with this kind of people. Because on one way i don't care to be honest, which will make here some trouble, on the other way I don't want to shit up relationships with Wolfram, which will certainly happen when Dia don't likes me.

But I figured out, that truths is still the best approach to it. because otherwise it will brake yourself. Just tell the truth.

It makes me think here.. she allready transfered some fears from here to me.. for example the fear about smakes in the night... I don't like this. I'm an adventurer, for that fearlessness is needed. So I'm quite happy to leave Bali soon to not be around here anymore. Probably the last time also I will be in Bali.

"Fear is the path to the dark side. Fear leads to anger. Anger leads to hate. Hate leads to suffering."

imagen - John Lennon:

Imagine there's no heaven

It's easy if you try

No hell below us

Above us only sky

Imagine all the people

Living for today

Imagine ther's no countries

It isn't hard to do

Nothin to kill or die for

And no religion, too

Imagine all the people

Living life in peace

You may say I'm dramer

But I'm not the only one

I hope someday you'll join us

And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions

I wonder if you can

No need for greed or hunger

A brotherhood of men

Imagine all the people

Sharing all the world

You may say I'm a dreamer

But I'm not the only one

I hope someday you'll join us

And the world will live as one.

John Lennon, he is a real artist. Listen to a lot John Lennon songs. He has great texts. Watched many John Lennon interviews. He was a dreamer. but a peaceful one.

ran two days ago 42.2km, ultra hardcore Bali sun, A Marathon. now I'm tired but grown.

A robot in your home. A thought in your mind. A feeling in your heart.

I promise I will come back to you. When the earth is beneath me and people know me. I promise I will come. There is nothing more to fight for. Mi you. There is no pain that can hold it back. Promise.

I was dreaming of the past, and my heart was beating fast. What exciting is this kind, living always in my mind. Talk to me about your fears, want to see all your tears. tomorrow.

Perhaps you like to her about me about this. Probably for me it’s different than for you. But I feel special sometimes as well, but it gets less important when you are with people they don’t care. My sister for example sometimes said literally, that she thinks I’m a bit special (meaning different), but that’s in a way something she likes the most about me:]. I’m surrounded by Physicists. What can I say? I feel very neuro typical, now it’s okay to be a bit autistic;). Being special is at least some how alive. I like you.

Normal time for our route to the summit of Mount Agung: 4:30-6h. I convinced my two guides, Ketuk and Reka, to try to set a new record.

We started at the basecamp at 0:46.

The first stage of Mount Agung we ran uphill. One of the two guides was not fit enough. I then carried his backpack through the darkness. Unfortunately we still did not move forward fast enough, which is why I decided to leave the backpack on the path so that guide Ketuk, who was a bit behind us, could find it.

So we left Ketuk alone halfway up the route and guide Reka and I climbed faster than before through dense fog up steep slopes and loose volcanic rocks. Reka also ran out of breath and had a monstrous cramp, so 1 km before the summit and 500 vertical meters before the summit I took his backpack and jumped up the mountain ahead, closely followed by Reka.

We arrived at the official summit at 4:10. With a new record for this route of 3h 24min.

Because we were so fast, we then had to wait about 2 hours for the sunrise, as mentioned above. In the picture you see me after we waited 90 minutes in icy cold at the summit for the sunrise. We sheltered behind a rock and froze :)

Sunrise at the summit was around 5:50. Ketuk arrived at the summit around 6:10.

After sunrise at the summit we jogged down the mountain again, faster than expected without a break, just Reka and me, Ketuk followed behind.

We ran downhill without a pause and arrived back at basecamp after 2h 30.

There we had noodle soup.

She gift me a rose, And I don’t see her. She gift me a rose, And I don’t remember. Only wise men make Discovering it for him. Why a red rose? She gift a red rose, And was in love for a dozen years. Was a dozen the end? Wise men now discovered the rose for him, but will he play? She rhymes on play, It's the month of flowers, After the 4 Moon how grandfather said. It's her with that.

a robot in every home is only a question of time.

the next very big companies will be played around robots.

it is very likely that the way you interact with most of the internet will be through a friendly robot. not rectangle with input keys, it will be just like a person that does everything you want. If you book flights you simply discuss it with your friend robot, if you want to text someone you just say it to your robot... most of the communcation and internet activities will go through a robot.

humanoid robots will have certainly the biggest impact in the next decades of humanity on our living on earth and the progress acceleration towards space. As faster we get well working humanoids as faster we get efficient manufacturing to go cheaply to space and become a multiplanetary Civilisation. It is clear that some day for every room on earth there will be a robot. The question is now who will build this future? Humanoid robots will be the most exciting thing to work on to shift humanity in the right direction. It might be that these kinds of robots also replace the phone. Why? because when I can call, messagae, make pictures all through my robot this are the core functions of a phone. Maybe I get tired of scrolling social Media and only need big screens when I actually need to design things. Google maps is not needed, because my robot simply can show me the way. It is a friend for every human that will get build. Every human will have an robot friend. Tesla is ramping up optimus production in the next 3 years. Now is the time to start or it is to late. There will be no second wave.

And we will need robots to fix the perception like him.

Deutsche negativity of some People is insane bad. He is just so short minded. So insane short minded @Dominik. Only speak English with. Elon is right. I'm rather optimistic and wrong than pessimist and right.

I don't know. Right now it feels like I stood up from a big party. But It is not true. It's not good right now that I stand up at 2 PM and work and do stuff until 6 AM. It's a bit broke, broken sleep cycle. But I will fix it tomorrow, tomorrow I will skip one night completely and then go early into bed again. But yesterday we made an adventure, we climbed a hill, I don't know it was maybe 20 km in total. I think the hill was at, I don't know how high it was but we started at 5 PM and it was already raining a bit. And then we climbed the hill, it got dark and was raining and was really crazy adventure. adventure. So we went on the mountain and we were there at like I think 8, like it was completely dark and when we were on the top of the mountain it was completely raining and insane, like everything was wet. And we had just our normal shoes on, our normal clovers and went through the forest and through nebula and like fog and all these things. and yeah we met one guy that was jogging up there and was also completely wet and shaking and then we went down like one and a half hours again or like two hours at least and I think we just walked in the rain around four hours a bit more like five hours at least and yeah it was crazy because everything was dark it was like in a horror game. And we just kept on walking and we were like on the highest mountain and then walked back. We also had one person with like rain stuff on and I lied. And he was completely confused why we walked there right now. He was like: Hey come with me down! Come with me down And we were like: No we go up! We go up! And then he was like letting us up at the end Yeah it was also fun that when we walked down there were some drinking vending machines So we got some drinks So this was really exciting yesterday And then I just listened to the last of the 5 books of Robert's series, Robots and Empire, of Isaac Asimov.

today I ask konstantin for help. we will se if he can help. to build the AR Social Interaction I need.

finished the next book of Isaac Asimov and thinking about love. Maybe everything I do is just driven by the want of love? Why is love that weird? Why is attraction that weird? Why are you allways attracted to the things you don't have, the things you can't get? How can you then be attractive to a women, without offering yourself to here? Because offering yourself would make you unatractive? Hopefully I find it, soon. I really want to share love with someone, it would give meaning. Also I thought today again, what is actually the meaning of humanity? WHY? I only could think of: "exploring the universe", maybe thats the meaning. Going into the unknown. Let curiosity drive us. Maybe stubborn curiosity is what actually takes us apart of Robots, AI. Maybe curiosity is the one skill that humans are best in. And the purpose of it would be greater and greater biger and biger curiosity. And the universe has endless posibilietes for it. Maybe it is curiosity that drives the people to bring things forward.

Right now is not easy, but also not hard. It is just. I'm reading all day long this books from Asimov and they are one of the greatest peaces I ever read. They are wonderfull beatifull and you never can guess the ending. You allways get trapped. It is such a insane creation from a human. And it is such inspiring. And it is such truthfull about us, about earthly humans. I learn a lot about humans by seeing us through the lens of a Robot. And know my question comes... is the most meaningfull thing now to get as fast as possible to truly great robots? When the goal is to explore the universe and be more curios would be robots the best thing to work on right now?

Thats allways in my mind. What is the best, the most meaningfull the thing I should work on. And I feel everyone has opinions, but nobody truly can answer it for yourself. I'm annoyed. Im allready thinking of a name for the robot company, I would go in honor of Isaac Asimov, in honor to his great writings, in honor to his contributions to society. I think it is valid to name it after him, but not boring after him. After his finest creation of the first one. Irobot Irobot should be the name of the company. to bring asimovs books to live.

and maybe later convince this person that it is attractive to be with.

maybe robots are the solution.

in the last days I also tried to get the side project of AR-glasses on Snap Software running, but Lensstudio is just trash. It is insane confusing and bad designed. They just should make it all without an interface and give cursor the ability to have fully acces on it. Not this stupid shiddy thing that they have rn. Their tool is really bad.

It is nice to see how fast konstantin gets better in Chess. He got his first draw against me. But I was quite abgelenkt, because we were in a Chinese Massage. Yes Chinese Massage (4 Germans) one roughly 30, one roughly 50... It was pure german excitement and a evening of insaness. Chinese Massage is an experience for sure. they fired our feeds and beaten our legs, they said on our backs and washed our feeds. Yes random.

Also I met a Chinese founder, he started his company with 18, quite nice to see him. He is now 26. told some stories, could be a good hire ( has 15 mitarbeiter + hiring the best of them with him).

I got 1700€ from my grandparents to survive (the last portion of my education fund) I assure you, you invested in the best education possible. I learned in the last year so much, that is quite insane. It is the invaluable education of a curios mind. Thanks, Stephan, Thanks Heidrun, for your constant support.

Also I feel still very conected to mother Mom, I hope she will train for the Marathon and we take on the challange. I recommended here the book of David Goggins.

Accasionally i have conversations with Maya.. Since I know that she has a boyfriend, this annoys me, idk why. But I don't want something from here. But i want that she admires me.That she wants me, like she told me damals. But this feeling is what i get here in china instead. I got so many girls blicke as never before, every conversation with a girl is "your handsome", "your so handsome"... it strenghtes the self, hopefully not to much. But chinese girls are still a mystery. But I appreciate all the compliments and it must be the climps of how it would feel when your famous. Even the Massage women wanted to make a picture with my. But I mean I'm also special :) I come to the conclusion, that I'm wired to change the world and that this is something that makes me special, but also something that gives me big duty to also suffer the pain that comes with it and try.

in some days I will fly to Bali to see the Onkel of Maya, yeah quite fun, she doesn know. But I meet with Wolfram Thurm, one of the Mentors I have. He is the mentor that gives spiritualität together with a founder mindset. A bit steve j. like. He has a Indian wife and lived long in india. He took a special route for himself and I like special people.

Today i came to the thought that china is not the ultimate best place to be. But there is also no other on earth. It is just earth. Every part has some unique things, and when you know the map you can play the map. So I will just play earth. and take the things where they are. And it downed on me that chinese people are insane good with hardware tech, but they are also insanly addicted to it. Especially Phones. And if I have kids I will bring them up in europe. is everything right right now? idk. It feels to slow. It feels not like progress. thats my bigggest concern. Everything seems to go so insane fast. And I'm still figuring out the meaning of life?

Also today I finished the second version design they will produce it in the next two days and then I will meet with the team again to make the next itteration. Quite cool to design your own perfect piece of zip-hoody.

and Freshwater. Freshwater will be relevant. I'm only not quite sure how.

I think i have the duty to find out the truth about humanity and bring humanity forward to explore the universe. may the force be with you.

Where will it be in 10 years?

Two people on a walk, both on their phone, both in their world. China

Two people on a date. Both on their phone, no word. China

Chinese people are addicted technologist.

iRobot after Isaac Asimov

chinese girls are weird. was on a date with a chinese girl. afterwards she tested me, went through random questions about sex. It was very confusing. Seems like she had a genuine distrust. Sad.

I meet a lot of chinese girls, and was allready chatting and making dates with some of them. It is quite interesting this culture difference. Also I think they are a bit afraid, most of them were never outside of China, which is crazy. One thing here in China that i don't like is that the people are all so insane edicted to their phones. This is not that strong in Europe. Here they doom scroll so mutch. But I also figured again out, I want someone that is smart, that cares about me, that is my biggest fan, no matter what. Sex is cool, and i would love to have some sex again but, without love it is like coffee without Milk. It solves your needs, but no more.

Idk why. but it is something that is in my had. Why are girls in my had so much? Because now gotten 20 and the evolutional things kick in? Or because of the absence of genuine love of a girl? Or, idk.. I get so many side watches here.. litterly every girl. Blond Hair, Blue eyes you call it. So it is kind of easy to get a wechat from a girl here, but then the whole Chinese culture gets interesting. When I chat with one, they are sometimes so mysterious. I really love girls that are strong, that know what they want and take it. I feel like this is something here in China that is more often. They ask me for a date. They ask me if we can meet. I like that.

But yes. In my mind is still only the person for true love... But it will need time.

To find a crime: Motive Opportunity Means

If you have a hard question and can't find a answer... inverse. Inverse, inverse. It often gets easier.

How could we make sure that Robots will help human connection?

Inverse: Or how could we make Robots that will make us more lonely and dependent and disconnect to each other?

We are living in a world where human connection gets more and more lost, I want that back. I will fight for it. If we don't find a way, humanity will decline and vanish some day.

Their strengths were: The robots, Their low population, Their long lives.

Their weaknesses were: The robots, Their low population, Their long lives.

(The Naked Sun)

AI is not helpfull in predicting and designing new innovation that is needed for the future, because all thoughts of AI are just based on the things that are possible today and don't have the human flaw of starting something with believing in the base concept, but that would not work with the math today. Therefore AI is helpfull in researching problems and trends of problems that exist and figuring out if they are true. But solutions that come out of AI are allways allready thought and either not smart or allready build there comes no completely, completely new thing out of AI. Because it wants to be true. And it is only true when it uses the Math of today. But most innovations of tomorrow are not possible with the math of today. For that you need a stubborn, stupid huma ns.

Spend the whole day coding on the AR interaction App. Talked long with Aaron about SF and co.. Had a call with my dad. I think he gets more happy again. But still it makes me sad. There is no real conection. Conversations are on surface. I had some tears in the eyes after the call.

figuring out what the most important things are for humanity in the next 5 years??? robots? drones? water in space? Autonomous Cars? AI Personal Agents? etc...

played yesterday first round of chess with konstantin, he is actually not bad. Won twice. Ordered chocalate and berrys at 3am in SZ (took 25 min.) exciting. Still going high urgency hardcore for the zip-pulli for me. is fun.

having all the time discussion with konstantin what is most important, what will have impact? still believing also in Janta....

it's like a game, where you allways when you go one path you never no what you figure out... but it's a fun compupter game.. starting grinding agian more? What is in the next 5 years the thing? ???

• Building a small scale Water Harvester for the Moon. (5000L a day)
• Building a small, fast deployable reverse Osmosis container (20.000L output day)
• Building a functional 200L day output at 50% RH box that is powered by grid energy, as small sized as possible and has a automatic filling system for bottled water.

Not allowed to leave before not ready!

The moments we remember nost are the moments where we had pain and didn't died.

Yd: -conected with prototype makers -read elon biography -cleared Snapchat glasses -Mo Bar -making math with numbers for water harvesting. Td; Making math with numbers for water harvesting. Texting w Jonathan meier, Role-playing Elon Musk with grok going through numbers. Setting timer for decision (in 12h) listening Elon Biography.

right now is not enough suffering.

for me it is so beautiful to see that most of having success with a startup comes down to will. When you have the insane will, you will drive urgency insane, you will go insane, and things go insane. And it is so beatiful to see this hard things that then happen. Starting and building a startup is like extreme sport. You need insane will and toughness, because it is so painfull and so much shit comes to you. At the end it just comes down to how much pain can you suffer. If you have a high trashhold of pain, you have good odds.

I read today the Elon Biography again, and it is so beatiful, how they just go urgent crazy, fix random valves on random eylend with tools that are normally used for completely different things. He has such a beatifull cretivity based on curiosity and urgency. When I read this I can sometimes tears in my eyes, because it is so beautiful. This hard insane things, that nobody believe they would get, I got tears in my eyes when I heard how tesla flies the 4 launch attemp falcon one to the small eyelands and in the plane the pressure valves pop so they have to cut of stuff while flying in a plane and engineer under insane time pressure in a airplane on a rocket. So beatiful, and then the 4. attempt worked. and elon and everyone was thinking after the second attempt it is over, after the third everyone was crashed, but he just said, we do it, we do it. and you know what, he did it. the 4. one worked. The launched rockets from a pirate eyelend, slept in tents and ate from a barbicuel grill gulash and stake. what a story.

I my eyes get wet when I hear this kind of stories. the stories where nothing matters, where it is a art between survival and extreme sport. It is the same for the macintosh days, for the early iphone, for so many really great things, for the production hell of the tesla model 3. I just feel pride for them. This is the type of adventure that i want to have... insane deadlines, insane urgency, insane goals, insane adventure. People sign up for the adventure.

i get very emotional when i hear the stories of these great adventurers. and you know what, adventure is only fun to tell afterwards when you suffered on the way.

Best tip for healthy diet... It only stuff that existed allready 200 years ago. Brokoli is brokoli stake is stake... it should look like it comes straight out of nature.

it is kind of clear that when openclwas has right now so fast so many users that especially use it so much.. that in 6-12month it will be a product for the mainstream. But how will societiy shift when everyone has their own openclaw, everyone there own personal assistant... I know writing one year ago this document of what i think will come true in the future and change the future... and maybe a lot of stuff is right of it... (look it up when you don't trust). but more important i talked with Nick from arcadia about it, basically will be a phone then still be the preferred medium of interaction? will we all still look at these screens? there are two options.. option number one the screen integrates more with us... via something like AR... option two we delete the screen, so that we go back to we just have a voice and fingers to text, or thoughts to text and our main interactions will happen with our AI assistant layer.

idk why but i still think about all this stuff and I'm allways have fomo when I think about how much is happening there and yeah to be part of it. it's crazy. also a lot of people these days say software is dead.. I'm not sure... i think a specific thing of software is dead, but not software itself and it is very likely that we need more and more software in the future. Maybe it just changed as what we see as software.

snapshot in the times now: "the times are like the wildwest, everyone gets funded when he has todo something with AI.. everything that is AI related is big and can have potential growht, every 2 months there is something new insane related to AI. it is wildwest pure. it is goldmining it is the time where fortunes get made and started. it feels crazy to be in this time, but the whole biggness of it we only will be able to grasp later" tade

today I was thinking with konstantin a bit about a family and friends round that we could make with our family.. I think it would be a honor to have them as the first investors. But yeah money is cheap so we could also get just some from other people. But imagen my Mom would hold stocks from my company, would this not be nice? we have to figure it out. First I need to check if from first principles our thoughts make sense.

talked right now with a german a bit on german.. He is a very well know founder in Germany. A lot of people would admire him. But honestly he is stuck in his small thinking. He is a bit stupid by the conventions. I would not hire him. It is interesting to see how germans often get caught in this? Why do they need a licence to do something? why do they not be able to just do it?

the future is bright. I just imagen a small farm for my mom, with a Freshwater Colossus and she making insane good fruits, salad etc... She can be part of Freshwater she can show how good farming works with Freshwater, I see it.

the ironie is that we build something that migh get valuable, but we have no money to buy food. today when I walked through the city shenzhen, with the knowing that this backage of peanut nuts is the food for the day, it felt weirdly good. Maybe I'm wired, because I know I strive in pain. And actually there is no one helping you when you have to figure out new things. you are responsible for it. no one will build the stuff for you. so today is a great day, idk why but I feel free. I'm free of money, because I have nothing and it's only the mission, the mission that matters. Making Freshwater abundant anywhere on earth. Helping two billion people, helping humanity grow. I think we have to figure it out. And all of the other companies are to slow, to afraid, I don't trust them that they find a way fast enough. We have to break the way for them, we have to show them that it's possible, so they can go and copy and redesign and we get Freshwater witout limits.

When i walk here through the citiy. all the areas where waterfalls are, where water is flowing, it makes a area so much more enjoyable, it makes a area give a nice cool, give a nice feeling. So water in cities can give them insane upgrades, insane ways to feel better.

And some day in space, water has the meaning of life. But now is the time to build, now is the time to create, now is the time to invent. I gratefull to have Konstantin on my side.

it will be a painfull road, but a road worth walking.

I hope giving May the proposal to read Becoming frome Michelle Obama made here not think weird about why this book. I choosed it because: Because she is a women that is highly respected and I want that May also becomes a women that gets highly respected.

but it was stupid, i just relied on the 205k positive reviews, but did not read it before. It was not the greatest book, but I hope she still learned some stuff from it. I hope she got not the wrong impressions of my intentions. I never should recommend people books again that i did not read.

Nevertheless I'm right now in contact with Darius, yesterday met Aaron Rau ex founder lockhard here in China, was fun. We celebrated new year with other forigners and chinese people in a rented apartment. I also scheduled a call with the guy who was researching Ultrasonic stuff for water harvesting.

But my main time spend is reading books and engineering the machine that builds the machine. In the last days I made the full concept for the autonomous MOF-303 plant and we concept for Foundation 1 our first prototype. We have to be insanely urgent all the time. There is no time to rest, there is no time to wait. Everything needs to happen with high urgency. We need to have a positive flow. Momentum is important for moral.

One of the best thing to help people is to communicate tk them, that they matter.

Urgency is the most important thing to get things done together with an insane iron will. We need to solve this water problem for humanity soon. We have no time of 10-15 years to figure it out. We have to build the factories now, we have to scale now to solve the problems soon.

It is the most meaningful work a person can do right now. I'm sure!

to get to 10 Billion FAD we have to build a factory that can output 4 20.000 Collosses a day, when we want to get to 100 Billion FAD, we will need a factory that can output 40 Collosses a day.

Freshwater is the ultimate basis for humanity's survival. Freshwater is used 70% in Agriculture, 20% in Industry and 10% in Households. Combined, this leads to a global Freshwater consumption of 4,000 Billion Cubic Meters per year.

We have 35,000,000,000 Billion Cubic Meters Freshwater on earth. And all Earth water combined is around 1,400,000,000 Trillion Cubic Meters. So when Freshwater is missing it is clearly a distribution or conversion problem.

Where is how much Freshwater missing? 2 Billion people lack fresh Household water, mainly in poor hot areas on earth, which leads to death.

Industry uses around 800 Billion Cubic Meters Freshwater annually mostly for critical processes. If it comes to a lack of Freshwater factories and facilities have to shut down and stop production. We already see a lack of Freshwater can stop building new factories and Datacenters in some regions, it is already hard to get approval for factories in some US states and southern parts of Europe when they use too much Freshwater. In industry the main source of Freshwater usage is cooling, without cooling Nuclear Energy, Geothermal Energy, Cloud Computing Clusters and AI Datacenters do not work. Therefore cooling Freshwater demand is rising sharply based on Energy Facilities, AI clusters and Hyperscalers building compute.

The second biggest water use in industry is Cleaning, without freshwater for cleaning factories stay dirty, we don't want that. The third one is processing and especially food, drinks and Chemical industry, if we still want their products they need to have Freshwater.

Agriculture loses $300 Billion USD annually due to missing Freshwater, with a rising trend because earth gets warmer. We fix it or have less food. This is a worldwide problem that not only underdeveloped countries have. Also southern parts of Europe, and some states like California face drought losses.

In summary all three sectors, Households, Industry and Agriculture rely heavily on Fresh Water and already face water scarcity with a rising trend.

An especially strong rising trend happens in water Demand for Data Center Cooling: Going Deeper into AI related Freshwater Demand: US datacenters consume today directly around 80 Billion liters of Freshwater yearly. Every new built Datacenter consumes additional freshwater. With predicted growth of 10-15% yearly and by 2035 a direct water demand around 300 Billion liters/year. It is today the fastest rising industry for new Freshwater demand. Elon Musk and Sam Altman already often refer to, that the speed to turn on a new AI Datacenter is mostly limited by Power and Water.

Freshwater is the basis of humans and humanity's creations. We see a constant global demand rise and a sharp demand rise in some industries. Long-term it is not only a lucrative business but also can be the most meaningful work you do in your life. We can transform African deserts into flourishing nature, help people in Chile survive and transform our cities into green beautiful oases.

Through global warming effects droughts get stronger and depletion of groundwater faster. We have to solve Freshwater conversion and distribution to make sure the future is bright. Freshwater should help humanity grow.

The KPI to measure against a company should measure how much Freshwater arrives at destination short "Freshwater At Destination" - FAD. First Company goal should be in 5 years 10 Billion FAD yearly to cover AI datacenter Demand and help farmers.

After I talked with researchers in the field here some quotes from them on my questions:

In your research or personal experience, do you encounter real people already affected by water problems today, such as farmers, industries, or local communities? "Yes. Official monitoring and agency case records document farm, industry, and community impacts already occurring: crop stress and yield losses during seasonal droughts (EU/JRC), drying of wells and subsidence where groundwater is over-drawn (USGS), and supply restrictions during multi-season deficits (EEA and national water authorities)."

Do you expect water scarcity to become one of the major global challenges for humanity in the future? "Yes. UN-Water/UNESCO's World Water Development Report 2024 and WMO's water reports both characterize water stress as a systemic and growing global challenge crossing sectors (food, energy, cities, ecosystems) and regions. They call for integrated management, demand reduction, loss control, and diversification of supply, with agriculture a central focus."

some days are now over.. we are definetely not fast enough and moey runs out. we need to be way faster. I developed in the last two days a factory layout for how producing MOF-303 in large scale (2 tons a day output, high quality)... the factory is called MEGAMOF. here some specs of the process idea: Raw Handling + Inline Static Mixing ↓ Microwave + Pressure Reactor ↓ Vacuum belt drying + Inline Quality Sensors ↓ Modular RAG Packaging

Konstantin in the meantime was thinking and building the first prototype Foundation 2 which needs to be ready in the next days. I ordered first material for MOF-303 production, quite of fun, now I have this white powder and chemical in my hotel room. We itterated a lot of how to design the Foundation 2 and how to make it working. We are now going for a lot of cycles, probably one every h so min. 24 cycles. We also went deeper into ultrasonic water harvesting and how to use this in a better way. I'm constructing the plant so that we get a lot of MOF. I also refined the Mission text again and we started making a People Pool of people we should hire, because they are great and will help us.

some stuff from the work just here to have it stored: MEGAMOF notes: "Raw Handling + Inline Static Mixing ↓ Microwave + Pressure Reactor ↓ Vacuum belt drying + Inline Quality Sensors ↓ Modular RAG Packaging

bottlenecks:

MOF-303 is very expensive. we need our own factory for it.

We need to output 4 of 20kL devices a day. so how do we manufacture it in mass? we should allready start thinking about what kind of machines could produce it how? from raw materials to finished product.

Plan MEGAMOF: factory Name: MEGAMOF factory price to build: needs to be less than 15 Million. (to reach a 5 year runtime price of MOF-303 of 5 dollard per 1kg) which would mean for a 40kg 20kL output device a renewal price of 200USD + service sallaries. so basicly nothing. [+ the initial material costs) factory dayli output: 2000kg a day. (2 tons a day) working 365 days a year.

Factory Input: raw materials Factory Output: clean, fully finished 99%+ purity, MOF Surface Area 1300-1400 m²/g -> packaged on Harvester RAGs and sealed.

process should be from input materials to output finished Rags. Rag sizes and versions should be fast interchangable for different versions of products / to produce different MOF Rags at the same time. it should be simple and easy to connect a new Rag version to the whole machinery to test fast new products and small batch sizes.

Creation process of MOF should also be relatively fast, we don'T want to have a big pile of stocks allways. Best Case MOF would take a maximium of 1day for one round... So the stuff that I put yesterday in is tomorrow finished MOF.

So that we have allways a Maximum of only some days of raw materials and finished MOF at stock piles. Also it should be fast possible to change ingredient sizes and versions.

So how could we make MEGAMOF efficient and fast and create every day 2 tons of MOF-303?

first principles: What is it, atomically? MOF-303 is aluminum atoms linked by pyrazole-dicarboxylate (PZDC) molecules into a porous crystal lattice. It's like Lego: Al^{3+} ions (from AlCl3 or similar) snap to deprotonated PZDC ligands (C5H4N2O4) in water, forming Al(OH)(PZDC). Byproducts: NaCl salt if using NaOH base. Physics/Chemistry Basics: The reaction needs: Mixing: Dissolve solids in water to get ions/ligands mobile. Activation: Heat (~100°C) to overcome energy barriers for bonding/crystal growth. Time: Hours because diffusion and nucleation are slow in solution. Separation: Pull out solid crystals from liquid (gravity/filter/centrifuge). Purification: Wash away impurities (salts, unreacted stuff) to hit 99% purity and high surface area (pores must stay open). Drying: Evaporate water without collapsing the structure (gentle heat/vacuum). Packaging: Load onto "RAGs" (your modular harvester units—assuming these are like adsorbent pads or cartridges).

[Start: Raw Materials Handling]

• Inputs: AlCl₃, PZDC linker, NaOH, Water (automated feeders/pumps) ↓ [Inline Mixing]
• Precise ratio blending on-the-fly (no tanks, just metered injectors) ↓ [Microwave + Pressure Reactor] (Core: 5-30 min residence)
• Continuous tube: Pressurize to 2-10 atm, microwave heat to 120-180°C
• Crystals form rapidly; AI sensors tune power/pressure ↓ [Inline Separation & Washing] MAYBE WE CAN DELETE THIS STEP! MAKING MOF IN HIGH QUALITY WOULD DELETE IT.
• Filter/centrifuge solids from liquid; quick water rinse to purify ← Dashed Recycle: Water/salts back to mixing (green loop) ↓ [Vacuum Drying]
• Gentle evaporation (vacuum belt, solar-assisted) to preserve pores ↓ [Quality Check & Sizing] DELETE MILLING PROBABLY
• Inline sensors (e.g., for surface area); gentle milling if needed ↓ [Modular RAG Packaging]
• Robots load MOF onto interchangeable RAG units, seal for shipping ↓ [End: Finished Sealed RAGs]
• Output: Ready-to-use, high-purity MOF-303 modules"

MOFproduction: "works with Chinese number: 100g 1H-Pyrazole-3,5-dicarboxylic acid monohydrate (H₂PZDC·H₂O) important: CAS 303180-11-2 https://www.leyan.com/search-result?search=303180-11-2 (buy) https://www.bidepharm.com/products/303180-11-2.html (buy as backup) https://www.haoreagent.com/ProductView.asp?ID=291196 (call them to buy)

500g Sodium hydroxide (NaOH) [white powder, high Grade, 99,9% purity, CAS: 1310-73-2] https://www.haoreagent.com/en/Search.asp?Keyword=1310-73-2&imageField3.x=0&imageField3.y=0 (call them to buy)

1000g Aluminum nitrate nonahydrate (Al(NO₃)₃·9H₂O) CAS: 7784-27-2] https://www.haoreagent.com/ProductView.asp?ID=4224 (call them buy)

2L Methanol CAS: 67-56-1 https://www.haoreagent.com/en/ProductView.asp?ID=3500 (call them buy)

5L Deionized water: CAS: 7732-18-5 https://www.haoreagent.com/en/ProductView.asp?ID=4089 (call them buy)

What do we need? to buy for some more batches:

50g 1H-Pyrazole-3,5-dicarboxylic acid monohydrate (H₂PZDC·H₂O) important: CAS 303180-11-2 5g Sodium hydroxide (NaOH) [white powder, high Grade, 99,9% purity, CAS: 1310-73-2] 100g Aluminum nitrate nonahydrate (Al(NO₃)₃·9H₂O) 5L Deionized water 2L Methanol

Equipment / what we need: Planetary ball mill or something to

for one batch of 2g dry MOF: 1H-Pyrazole-3,5-dicarboxylic acid monohydrate (H₂PZDC·H₂O) — 0.75 g Sodium hydroxide (NaOH) — 0.26 g Aluminum nitrate nonahydrate (Al(NO₃)₃·9H₂O) — 1.62 g Deionized water — 2 mL (milling) + ~200–500 mL (washing) Methanol — ~200–500 mL (washing/soaking)

Dokument Everything when we build it and test it! One person needs to be responsible for documentation of test!

Other ways to make MOF-303:

The grinding way (what we talked about before): You mix and grind the stuff by hand or with a machine. It's easy for small amounts and uses mostly water.

The heating way (called reflux): You mix everything in water, heat it up to boiling in a pot with a lid that catches the steam, and stir for 4–8 hours. This makes bigger amounts (like 100 g or more) and is good for growing nice crystals. You need a hot plate and a simple setup to catch the steam.

The sealed heating way (like in a pressure cooker): You put the mix in a strong sealed bottle or metal can, heat it to 100–150°C for a few hours or days. This is for even bigger batches but needs safe tools to handle the pressure.

Microwave way — You mix the stuff in water and put it in a microwave oven for just a few minutes (like 5–10 min). It heats very fast and makes the powder quickly. Needs a special microwave-safe container, but it's one of the fastest methods.

why not just using a pressure cooker??? why not test every version of production of it?

craft first working MOF. craft device for 10L dayli water output.

right version: pyrazol: https://www.alibaba.com/product-detail/High-Purity-3-5-pyrazoledicarboxylic-Acid_1601454379147.html?spm=a2700.shop_plser.41413.2.48747275WpMhdI same: https://www.alibaba.com/product-detail/High-Purity-3-5-pyrazoledicarboxylic-Acid_1601442606335.html?spm=a2700.shop_plser.41413.5.48747275WpMhdI

would also work with this: aluminum chloride hexahydrate (AlCl₃·6H₂O) (instead)"

Hiring someone who builded datacenters and worked for a big hardware construction datacenter company could be valuable... He has knowledge about the problem and has connections to bring big water projects on board.

Could you not put theoretically a water harvester on a high building and let it harvest water from the air and then you let it just drop down the high building and then you can generate energy by having some turbines in it and you use the kinetic energy to create electricity.

great storylines of people that worked 12hours a day and now look back: https://www.linkedin.com/posts/jonmcneill1_i-wrote-the-algorithm-to-highlight-the-framework-activity-7404897050560995328-MIuX

we build a small one, we build a bigger one, we build the factory, we deliver the product.

Now responsible to get it done. 10.000.000.000 FAD in 5 years.

The story of unlimited abundant water at everytime will be for earth one of the greatest achievements we can have. It will give all living areas nature back.

One of the major things that we need to solve for space is water. Freshwater was in accident history the base of all life and it will also in space be the base of all life.

I think we have to get in space as fast as possible to don't blow our selves up out of boredom. We need to find a enemy in space, maybe some alien life or some harsh invirement. When we find a enemy in space we will come more together on earth. Therefore I think it is important to go to space, to make it habitable as fast as possible, to prevent fighting on earth. By going into space it is like Columbus, there are thousands of free empty square meters that wants go get discovered, used. When we make space more accessible it will help more people to think again about how to make the pie bigger and not play in a earth bound zero sum game.

Space could be the greatest pie increase for humanity since evolution brought us here.

We could make a Water Generator that costs you 5 years the same water price per liter like you pay today and then is free. After five years water would be free!

Cost 40.000€ -> generates 20.000l a day. Five years runtime leads to 0.001€ per Liter. Every Liter afterwards would be free.

Testing Konstantin if he can overcome his ego or not. He cares about legacy.

Had a long Conversation with Pablo to help him. Added all lenght numbers to my bookshelf. Listened to napoleon Biography. I'm really proud on how many books I read I think this is a huge advantage. China is a great country and we have to learn a lot from them. There are things thar are wrong here, but a lot of good progress is made. It is very unique feeling also when you go around and your are watched by everyone, you are the only of your kind and everyone looks at you with big eyes, like you are famous. That's insane. In china it is still like this. Your automaticly a attraction as an white western person. I like this.

last days here in China, Shenzhen, making a lot of deep thinking work about water Scarcity and Water problems. Diving deep into the villain, programmed internall apps for myself to work better, made a awesome bookshelf for this site. Talking to chinese people about China, living here in an great apartment, everything is very cheap.

had the important conversation with konstantin, i vergave him.

"If your the smartest person in the room, your in the wrong room"

scouted chinese Hakathon and met other founders here. going from place to place.

hiring notes: Pablo Berlanga Boemare Nadav Shanun Binh Pham Ivan Bokarev Hiteyjit Singh Gujral Yigit Kilicoglu

read today: Excellent Advice For Living and The Nvidia Way in under 5h this was crazy speadrun. + programmed 3 applications.

war of mind: arrived in Hongkong in China. this will be an interesting visit. not because of the place, but because of the people. not because of the people that are there, but because of the people that are with me. this couold go very wrong. I figured out in the last 24h that I don't need one particular person to change the world. I'm capable and smart enough for that and I can dominate. There are a lot of smart people out there. I got so fast progress like in the last weeks not just on the last 24h. Enemies are good, to fight harder. When someone attaks me, I kill him.

I figured again out the fairness is one of the most immportant values for me. fairnes how you play, how you judge, how you deal. Things that are not fair, gives me insane outragous energy. It gives me insane pain, but insane pain as fuel.

To have said, I have so many good things right now todo i developed a lot of prompts in the flights for helpfull aplications. I saw in the last days this lightspeed mode of building and thats great. I got to this point here not by accident. I have the mind that is wired to win. I won so far nearly any game i played, I dominate the games I choose, I make my own rules, to make sure I win allways. So also know I play after my own rules. Fuck people that don't play in my game, and those who do, i will crush.

I can do everyone things that he would not imagen of himself. By understanding what a person cares of I can easily shift him in my ruleset.

Konstantin for example right now cares about his love and girlfriend, so anything related to this will have high emotional appeal to him and can be used. He also cares about learning and improving himself and it is important for him to be special. He also cares highly about his appearance (wears muscle shirts, to seam strong) and bought a lot of new expensive looking bags. All this things should be aware when you want to make him do things that he is not imagining himself of.

My goal in the next weeks should be to prepare him as best as possible and make him execute again faster.

this was only one of many examples. but by knowing what the other person cares of you have the levers in the hand. You can make the person feel anything you want to.

a other important thing is to allways shoot back fast, to be prompt, to fire back questions. When there is something you want to adress you should adress it with a question. this is the best way to get into a mind of a other person and stick. because it is a tarned atack. when you attack right away it will not go directly into the mind.

one of the greatest things to make people behave in the way you want is to say what kind of expactations you have in them.. how high your expactiations are in the other person. People want to live up to other peoples expactations, because they know they get rewarded when they reach it.

so by just telling someone you have very high expactations that he will do xyz very good... he will just do it to life up to your expactations.

one very important thing is that when you tell things and want to get that other people act on your actions you need to be super confident when you tell your things. you have to fire fast questions and use as less as words as possible.

as more words you use as more it sounds like a lie.

last: eye contact is insane when you can develop an deep eye contact it will allways work. just look someone really deep in the eye! really, really deep! and at the and of your sentence, or when you state something. you have to use deep starring at the right moments.

it is funny, but today i believe more then ever before that i will change the world. and that we will build one of the most meaningfull startups in the world. i have the mind that got wired this right way, now it is only a question of time.

Suddenly it all makes sense! It's 2am and I can not sleep, but everything makes sense.

if you want to be a leader, try to critize less and engage more.

love: when you don't have it you get crazy, when you have it you get crazy, love, why is it hurting?

Brüssel is the city for love. The city where you can feel pleasure. The city so beautiful that everyone is happy.

What a Insane day. 2,3 beers and a lot of strangers. I ran today into so many strangers and they were all so kind. I went out of the central station and talked to random people to get the route to the city center... they also were tourists and didn't had a clue! So we promptly sat together in a Bar and trank a Beer on their grades! They were 16 to 17 years old, but super smart! Then I went to a random Event I applied in the train. It was about startups and policy makers. Their I met a incredible smart women and his men (actually) the boss of the event. Because the women liked me, she invited me to a private Dinner with the other VIP guests. So after the event we were sitting in this private restaurant space and having conversations with European leaders and policy makers all over the world. Asking a lot of questiosn to a person who build several startups and is highly respected! Had good learnings of the talk with the women about women. Just give safety, attention, care. Then J left and went to my hostel... their sitting some Spanish people, beautiful girls. Was joking with them around and promptly got invited for a Beer. So we went out to a nearby pub. 8 people 3 girls 5 boys. And we had quite fun :) What a incredible. Now I lay in my hostel at 1:31. A bit trunk but fine. A adventure.

going with 203km/h through the storms of snow that is clunking on the sides of the window while listening to Hans Zimmer, an exciting life is the greatest gift that a man can ever have. Going from a small Village of a friend, to a bigger town of europe and from Brüssel to Hongkong. I'm grateful for myself. That I had all the things in the past, all the influences that made me to this person today. I'm weirdly wired now in the way that I have the chance to change the world. So it would be a shame to not try it. I have the skills, the bravery, the confidence to make my own rules, to make my own game, to win allways my game. Sometimes wonder how. And I urge to all the great pains and pleasures, the open minded parents, the loving Granparents, the annoying school kids, the fastest thinkers, the books. I believe there is nothing like free will, so I should be very, very thankful for all the influences of the past. Because it were the right influences.

I think there is no rule that I have to obbery, no border i have to be afraid of, no claim a can't make. I believe one of the greatest skills of great people is to make people do things they were not able to do by themselves. gratefully I'm blessed with that.

lesson: the most important aspect for it is to exame the other person like a nurse would do before he implants a new hart, to seek the things that make the other person emotional, to find the truths about what he cares. When you know what HE is carrying about, you can carry him around.

if you tell a other person about what you care about, he has the greatest weapon to make you do things. I allways ask strangers: What do you care about? it is such a harmless question, that can lead to so great outcomes.

"Dear May , it is good to hear, in the small village it is difficult to extract knowledge about the world. And physics is about the world. Sometimes it brings you even to other continents. I expect you know how important you can be for the world when you start doing the extra curiosity that is not in the curriculum. With this hindsight I urge you to listen to the Biography of Michelle Obama. Maybe you escape not only exams, its mainly people that holding other people cuffed. My love is them who thrive. Best, Tade"

wonderings of a 19 year old - origin of thoughts?

Before you think a thought, it must first be generated through electrical signals, which means the thought already exists before you consciously think it.

So the thought is not created by you yourself, but by something else. The subconscious.

The subconscious prepares every possible thought you could think in the present moment and brings into consciousness the one that has the highest action potential across the sum of neurons. In this way, the thought that is most likely to fit your situation is promoted into your awareness.

Thoughts are therefore just a chain of influences that have entered consciousness through certain triggers. No human is truly the master of their own thoughts. Our subconscious is the master. We can only think the things that our subconscious allows into consciousness.

How, then, do new thoughts arise?

Influence -> stored in the subconscious -> triggers a thought.

Since thoughts themselves are also influences, a thought triggers another loop:

Thought influence -> stored in the subconscious -> triggers a thought.

Thus, we can say that all our thoughts are linked to the previous thought, plus all the other influences we absorb.

This means all thoughts depend on the influences we perceive.

Through this chain, we can say that none of your thoughts simply appeared out of nowhere, but always build upon the previous thought.

Now the question arises: Was there something like an original thought, or are all our thoughts merely the result of external influences acting upon us?

In other words, are we just creatures who have never truly decided anything in life, but have been completely shaped by our environment? Is it the case that we, as our own soul, as our own person, have never had and do not have any influence over our own thoughts?

Because everything arose from external influences?

Are we merely creatures wandering around, pushing and changing one another, but unable to change ourselves?

Like a marble statue that cannot change itself, but can only be shaped by the sculptor.

Are we the same kind of marble statue, trapped within ourselves, without the ability to shape ourselves, dependent on the things that shape us?

We might say, no, I can decide which influences I accept and which I do not. But is that truly your own decision, or is it also the result of the chain of thoughts?

Is every decision you make therefore not truly coming from you, but actually formed by external influences?

What is the self? What am I?

Are we our influences?

We are our influences.

I am only your influences.

Your influences are me.

Are we different only because we have had different influences?

What would we be without our influences?

Just a body.

Does our soul arise only through the influences of others?

My soul is your influences.

Without your influences, I am soulless.

The soul does not exist.

The soul arises with influences.

Humans do not have their own soul.

It arises only through your influences.

Humans don’t have their own soul.

It only arises through your influences.

crazy.

If we actually have no free will, and everything we observe and consume ultimately shapes what we think, do we then have the power to recognize this and change our consumption habits and influences through willpower?

If we assume that 100 percent of our thoughts, and therefore our personality, are influenced by what we consume and observe, then it seems clear that the only way to influence our own thoughts and personality is to change what we consume and observe.

The problem is that you would not truly be able to decide this through free will if all the thoughts that led you to change what you consume are themselves the result of your past consumption and observations.

What do I mean by consumption and observation?

Consumption is everything you can perceive through your human senses: sight, hearing, smell, taste, and touch.

Observation is everything that enters your mind after an internal or external trigger. Most commonly, your own thoughts trigger new thoughts. It is not free will, but a chain of observations.

The only way I can explain it right now is this:

The possibility that you can think about changing what you consume and observe is itself only the result of past consumption and observations.

So you did not decide by yourself to think about this topic. It is the result of a chain reaction of your personal experiences, your past consumption and observations.

For example, the idea that you can actively change your surroundings is not truly your own discovery. It is the result of a past trigger. In my case, it was most likely a book I read, articles about the brain, and a discussion with ChatGPT that led to an understanding of the brain and then to conclusions about free will.

With that conclusion, new neurons fired and brought from the unconscious into consciousness the thought:

“I can only change my surroundings to change what I think and who I am.”

But do I have free will to decide how I will change my surroundings? Not really.

All your thoughts about how and why to change your surroundings are also just a conglomerate of your past experiences.

It feels like you have the free will to change your surroundings, but in reality, you do not.

Does this mean your entire life is predetermined because you cannot change anything through actual willpower?

You could say yes. There is no way to change your intentions by your own will.

However, there are infinitely many possibilities, so it is not possible to predict your life precisely. There is also great uncertainty about which other people will trigger which forms of consumption and observation in you.

The most predictable impact on your life likely comes from the people you interact with. All of them shape your personality by triggering neurons to fire.

So you do not have free will to change things unless you are triggered from the outside. You must observe or consume something that creates change.

It is like this paper. You would not be thinking about why and how to change who you interact with without the trigger of reading this page right now.

You could argue that once you understand this, it is an advantage. More importantly, it may be a duty to spread it. Because the moment someone else reads it, they have the possibility of being triggered and therefore of changing something in their life.

I believe it is a positive trigger. A trigger that can help people move forward in life. Because they can then change what they observe and consume, ideally toward better influences.

It is not their free will that creates change. It is the trigger combined with their past experiences.

You could say that the moment you enter the world, your life is already framed. Every thought after your first neuron fires is connected to and shaped by what came before.

Your first neurons begin firing around week five of pregnancy as an embryo. From that point on, you are exposed to what you consume and observe.

That leads to your thoughts.

Your thoughts lead to your personality.

We are simply the accumulation of past experiences combined with current triggers.

stuff i read in the last months:

Steve Jobs Biography + every youtube interview (80h) + all other writings from him + Becoming Steve Jobs

Charly Munger Biography + a lot of lectures and speeches (10h)

Nikola Tesla Biography + Autobiograpy + research about inventions

Napoleon Bonaparte Biography

John D. Rockefeller Biography

Robert Iger Biography

Mattthew McConaughy Biography

Marc Randolph Biography

Barack Obama Biography

Warren Buffet Biography + lectures + shareholder meetings (15h)

Tony Fadell (Build)

Project Hail Mary (Sci-Fi)

The Meaning of it All (Richard Feynman)

High Output Management (Andy Grove)

The Inevitable (Kevin Kelly)

Super Founders (Ali Tamaseb)

Crossing the Chasm (Geoffrey A. Moore)

The Diary of a CEO (Steven Bartlett) + all behind the scenes things, internall things everything we could see about podcasts (90h) ++ 100h of podcasts with him

Adolf Hitler Biography

Ren Zhengfei Biography (House of Huwai)

Jeff Bezos Biography (Amazon unaufhaltsam)

Benjamin Franklin Biography + Autobiography

Henry Ford Autobiography

Alber Einstein Biography

Atomic Habits (James Clear)

Foundation (Isaac Asimov)

I robot (Isaac Asimov)

The story of China (Micheal Wood)

Elon Musk Biography + all youtube videos from him + all Speeches (90h) + all written stuff from him + all high viewed company videos from SpaceX, Tesla, Neuralink, Boring (70h)

Nearly all Paul Graham Essays

Peter Thiel (Zero To One) + Peter Thiel lectures (10h) + Peter Thiel biography (max chafkin)

Ray Dalio (Principles for Dealing with chaning world order)

Flow (Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi)

Phil Knight Autobiography (Nike)

Ray Croc Autobiography (MC donalds)

Richard Branson Autobiography (screw it lets do it)

Jack Ma Biography (Alibaba)

Arnold Schwarzenecker Autobiography

Bill Gates Autobiography (Source code) + all old videos of microsoft and him (20h)

The Innovaters Dillema (Christen claytonsen)

Mr. Beast internall playbook + all behind the scenes stuff

Atomic Habits (James Clear)

Hjalmer Schacht Autobiography

A simple guide to since (Isaac Asimov)

humanity: humanity will need to go into the universer deeper and deeper to meet with other life forms to learn from them to overcome the challanges ahead that we don't know of yet. It will be the greatest adventure in mankind so far, we have to develop trade routes to other alien species and information exchange with intelligent life on other planets. It is very likely that they use completely different energy sources, completely different materials, completely different food. We can use this to bring our own technology forward.

for us as humanity it is the next major step that we have to get right. protect our earth and build up the solar system around us. it is crucial to make it a steady progress that allwas keeps going one. It needs to create big industries so more mony driven people want to spend time building things for it. We should make sure to haervest water (energy) as fast as possible in space, we also need to grow food and animals on other planets as fast as possible. We have to research new ways of propellent and ways to increase a speed of a spaceship to travel faster and further. We have to geoingeneer moon and mars so there is less faliure points. We should make permanent space bases where everyone could just go, like a plain ticket. We should develop good food for space and make space visits a usiall thing to highly keep excitement up. We should invest billions in space education for small children and make schools that just focus on making you from birth to 18 years old a good space flighter and fighter to overcome the biggest challanges we have in space. We need to develop small personal spacecrafts, that can stay in a hunger nearby GEO, so people can own and rent it. We have to make people want to use their own spacecraft as everyone else. Personal spacecrafts will give people the capabilitys to be creative and we will have way higher progress, because we have a lot of random people up there that do random stuff. in the moment we give a person autonomy with a personal spacecraft, we give him autonomy to explore by himself.

we should develop a good method to get out of the Athmosphare of the earth, so we don't allways have this risk of exploding rockets on ground here and the supper wastefull fuel burn.

there should be an elevator or something to a LEO / GEO station. Earth has enough material to build this.

humanity has to make earth and earth living great and go to other stars. humanity has not to die before we not found other aliens! we have to connect, I want to talk to other intelligent life forms, from other planets!

booked rn the trains to brüssel. I will go there in two days. so long I have time to think here. my life is incredible... I go to so many countries, thats huge. I learn every day... every day the things i want. I live my life. I'm with friends. I have fun... all this things. it is insane.

i feed my brain with creativity food. Sci-Fi is one of the best on the large scale thinkings... feed your brain with the things that it should output. nurrish it like a plant, only the inputs are what brings outputs, there is no unique or unknown new idea generation in our brain... it all comes from what you put in. Our brain is just a special Computer that can use what you input and compute it. but when you input trash it also has only trash to compute.

today i started reading some science fiction. I contacted some Dermatologie people to fix dandruff. I thought about the world. what problems need to get solved. I watched founder podcasts, from sam, elon, tesla and some other tech related stuff. i played dart with ludwig, we constructed the dart board on the wall, what a fun.

the greatest time is now. sometimes you feel that nothing is happening, but instead everything is happening now. you grow yourself to the highst of tomorrow by laing good moral, educational fundament today. today to lay the ground for tomorows scyscrapers, today you plant the seeds for tomorrows corn, today you oberve the world for tomorrows mind. the day today is the most relevant for your future.

so treat it sparse. treat it with high value and think twice if that what you do today is the things that you want to shape your tomorrow's.

make living on earth as beautiful as possible, go to other planets and make the same for them.

it is really random to see people that are stuck into one place. They are also bound with their mind to their place... This is crazy. it makes so much difference where you are. so when you don't want to be stuck with your thinking. Don't stay to long at one place. Because otherwise you will get lost.

This lostness, nobody can help you with. If you not want to become them, don't stay long. you will become them. You will become the people that are around you. We are not self minded, we are not self driven. you will become what you observe. because it is the only trigger that goes into your head. it is the only thing that comes into you. we have no free will. so the things that shape us is what we observe.

first night at ludwigs place done. it is a small village, he lives here with his girl. they are cute. they love each other. love is great. they play music, they learn for school. they are here with 60 other students. me feeling good but also stuck here. it is small nothing happens. a good place to come to yourself. no listening to expresionissmus music (1907 started)... and thinking about impressionismus (1890) started. it is so interesting to see all this things, connect with my own world model. and to see how stupid these people in school learn. they learn for tests, exams, not for live. they don't connect knowledge to their inner world model, to their inner thoughts. they have no intrinsic motivation for learning. dropping out of school was one of the most important things to actually truly learn and don't get behindert from school to learn for live. school hinders you in learning for longterm, by giving you the incentives in the shortterm. school don't gives you a A when you understood something and conected it to your world model and stored it for the longterm, school just gives you a A when you know something in the moment, in the snapshot. thats the flaw. I love learning. I learn every day. as much as possible. it is great.

also i think about, I have this urgency, I want to start today.. want to invent today tomorrow there is allways this urgency.

now I'm here in this small village in and it feels good, but bad for my urgency. there are so many questions.. what is the most important problem to solve for humanity? what is the best place to change the world? is there a best place? or is it the earth in generall? what is the best person who should help me.. etc. etc. live ist a mystery that keeps getting longer, when you solved a part.

I'm very proud of my learning diary. it is the most expensive, valuable, thing i have. it is the thing I care most of. i think a learning diary and reading biografies ist the best thing to learn and understand life.

life is beatifull and full of adventure. adventure keeps you young.

yesterday in the ICE I met a 71 year odl guy. He was a professor at the TUM... but also a high level Siemens engineer for long time and had projects all over the world. he started his own company and helped his sons also with it. He made other researchers famous and talked 2h about life with him. He just loved life. And therefore he was fit. Young. He just was positive minded. He had his own flying license and still flew plains with 71. He told me that in the worst moments often the most powerfull thing is just a smile.

I talked with him about humanity, energy and water. About what is important in the future. He said. the most important thing that he trys to say to young people is encouragment to just be bold, to just start.

I also repaired my phone yesterday at a samsung store. interesting, I was not pissed of to pay 120€ it was just a thing. got today a 100€ gutschein from samsung... everything comes back. yesterday I left hiteyjits place. I learned there what it means be gastfreundlich. They where insane gastfreundlich. probs to the mother of him, she was incredible. Also the dad, he didn't judged, the most impressed me.. that the dad explained a problem that he right now faces in the work... and said. maybe you have ideas guys at the evening table. that was the coolest thing I ever saw a dad doing. it was so encouriging to think about his real world problem in uncommen tech ways.. to try to solve it. it gave the feeling that we can do everything. when you want to encourage people to think... just state the technical problems you face at the evening table and let everyone actually comment, brainstorm about it. thats fun.

it is interesting to see things after you got perspective. now I was in Germany for 10 days and appreciate San Francisco more. There is a certain global care, a certain care for humanity, a certain art in building things, that I just only experienced in San Francisco so far. Here a lot of people just think about making money. which is fine, but it is not thinking on a bigger level. in San Francisco a lot of people where driven by making money, but they cared also about the meaning a lot.

in the last days I lived in a room at Hiteyjits place in Munich. Great family, this was great visit. I felt like the holy guest. I think back in the days, when people traveled, this was allways like this. You as an guest, got the highest priority. I liked this. We should treat guest more often like this. We should be good guest.

A guest is only a good guest, when he let himself getting served and is showing is thankfullness with high gratitude. Beeing a thankfull guest is not easy. Because your job is to make the people that serve you feel good. but it created great pleasure for you and your servers when done well.

tipp about guesting:

• allways give the admiration to the person that actually made the things. when you have something that taste good, find the cook that made it, when your room is preetty find the person that designed it. Don't give the host the gratitude give it to the actuall maker.

Yeah, so I'm just sitting right now, it's 1 am, in a bed here at my grandmother's, and just thinking a bit about life. What is the most important thing? It lasts like two days. I figured out that when you share your knowledge, you learn more of it than probably the person that you shared with, and that it's so crucial to have a positive-minded thinking and you don't complain. You're mainly thinking about how to make it great and I hate people that always think about money. I hate people that always think about every decision being driven by "can I afford it?" and "do I have enough money?"

I had some experiences today and like all these small people they are all talking about yeah this is cheap so this is a cool thing or this is expensive so this is a bad thing. The whole mindset is only around if something is cheap or not. It speaks for itself when you only hunt for cheap things, you will have a cheap life and cheap lives don't make fun. I want an exciting adventure. I'm living for an adventure. I'm living for changing the world. I'm living for making humanity greater. I'm living for doing things that other people never would dream of. I figured out I really want to spend all my lifetime on it. I don't care about optimizing for pleasure. I don't care about optimizing for comfort.

I was like today skiing and it's boring. Skiing is boring. Skiing is lame. I want to do things that are meaningful. I want to do things that are crazy, so crazy that people think they are nearly impossible. I just right now watched a behind-the-scenes of the MrBeast Games 2 and it's such an inspiring incredible thing to see how big you can make things and how great things can be. So everything can be bigger. I would say in the last month, especially in San Francisco, I developed a very good feeling for pain. I am very used to painful situations, so my threshold of pain went more up. I think this is one of the most important things for founders because a company is kind of like a filter for pain for problems. Because all the easy problems get solved by the people in the structure, your people that you hired, and only the hardest problems get to you. So you get daily only the hardest problems that nobody else in your company could solve. It's kind of like you're walking into this room of fire every day and it's burning and you need to figure things out. You can't run out screaming; you have to figure it out.

I'm really surprised but also I know that my brain is kind of wired in this weird way, so I have the obligation to also use it in a very helpful way. There was this girl called Eve and she really annoyed me because she pressured my ego. She was like "not doing what I wanted" and normally I can make people do what I want, but she was different. One of the things that she tested in me is "what is actually the most important thing?" And what I wanted to say is "I have this high brain pain pressure but the things that still annoy me are like women's stuff". So maybe this will change some day, but this is like one of the hardest tests right now.

It's also insane how much the difference is when you actually pursue greatness and don't settle on the average.

How small the world is, and that the whole world is developed by humans. That Misa Beast, Elon Musk, and Bill Gates aren't super humans, they're still humans, and that when they got there as a human, you can too.

That it is kind of a thing of like learning, it is just how fast you learn, and the best thing to learn is like to be curious. So I'm really proud that I learn special things, I learned things that nobody else learns because I didn't attend at university, and I see more and more the value of it.

So thank you, thank you for this wiring in my head.

Some stuff that happened today:

• I was like very early, standing up and went with my dad skiing.
• It was fun, but it was not this kind of fun because I knew that I could also learn and grow in this time.
• This is like cool and But I hate it I hate it to don't grow and learn.
• So when we came back I listened to the biography of Hjalmar Schacht that back in the Nazi time made was like in the Reichsbank president.
• I listened to some Charlie Munger speeches, I listen to his speech from a Navy SEAL.
• I took to behind the watch the Behind the Diaries series stuff and not behind the Diary, Mr. Beast behind mr. beast.
• I don't know it feels good, It feels good, It feels good.
• Now it is 1 am, and I just would love to not sleep and just grow faster and faster.

learnings:

• Deprival superreaction syndrome is insane strong... when you thought you had something allready and then loose it is kind of as painfull as when you actually lost something you allready had. I'm aware of this, but there is no way to avoid it even in the moment I'm aware of it, it is painfull.

• take it slowly with women. before you attack, before you have to find out everything, every motivation, every situation, every backround... only then you know how to attack best and pull it of. data is key... if you don't have enough data, attacks are based on luck. It is better to take longer time and gather data...

• navigate in the right direction. don't play to offensive. make her admire you, don't be the dog that is bagging for food. then you allready lost.

• be confident in yourself and don't praise to much. But praise the things you think are truly true.

it is interesting and weird... and it is better to have a women as a friend when you want a girlfriend then playing offensive and crashing the relationship. because the women as your friend knows other womens, which could lead to other introductions and gives higher odds of discovering new unknown territory. so when you play slow and gather more data, you not only can prepare a attack better, but the likelyhood of meeting a new perfect girlfriend increases exponentially with every women friend you also make on the way.

don't waste your time!

okay fuck you

met Eve. she is the brightest mind I ever met. She will change my life. She will become my wife. nature brought me the diamond I was searching for.

bin wieder in DD... nach 6 Monaten high tech, English speaking society. It's kind of insane how small the world is today.

we don't need to wait anymore 5/10 years for having a big travel to a other country. It is easy to just book a flight straight away. This is easy.

Recoreded a podcast with my grandmother and grandfather so my kids can some day see it and know what they were up to.

Currently sitting in the wonderfull building of the "Kulturpalast"... were here often for concerts. this is one of the best places in Dresden to see a lot of young people working. This is great. here are still young people grinding. maybe not grinding to change to world. but at least grinding to change their own lives.

I had on the farm of my mom a very good conversation with my mom about the world models of us, of us crazy people that think they can improve humanity forward. it was very interesting, learned a lot by just telling what I think. This is really unique. Also figured out by myself by telling it that the most important thing to learn fro a vounder is to overcome shit. to don't run out in panic when there is a burning fire. but to try to extinguish it. this is the single most important trade. grid and not giving up + overcoming pain. high pain, high high pain. So the last 6 months were a good learning of this. learning of how to overcome certain pain. Of how to deal with situations were other people would be hopeless. learning about what to do when you have no money.

it tough a lot. and it was insane helpful.

now sitting here between 100 students in the library shows me again how unique the stuff is. I follow my own curicullum, my own rules, my own way. but with uniqueness comes more pain. and I don't want to say that these students do not also suffer some day. but, but they have more certainty. and uncertainty is one of the greatest pains for the mind.

for me it is adventure.

tomorrow we go back to Germany (DD). weird, to go somewhere and speak english again. weird to go somewhere were most of the people build agencies and b2b saas. but we will see. it feels good, but also weird. we will se what happens.

but in the last days looked a bit around the profile pictures of old friends and class people... they live a different life. it is really interesting to see. I think i grew a lot in the last year, learned a lot. it feels weird this days when other people say they build the million dollar empire. for me it is brining humanity forward.... and it will be automatically a billion dollar contribution. it is less about earning the money for the earnings sake, it is more about bringing humanity forward. helping intelligence grow forward, helping humanity just survive and go bigger and bigger...

human intelligence has to evolve greater and greater and explore the universe and above. we have to bring our selves forward, we have to bring the human race forward. Humanity is really unique, when you look at all the other animals around us, none of them are as creative as we are. so we should evolve humanity to greater greatness to keep this creativity alive.

humanity should evolve.

I feel fresh, strong again. I fucked polytopia. today made 3 pages for the pain magazin. I think there is a lot to do in this world. :) Where outside in the sun. there were a group of people (23 people) that were playing music together. just strangers in the park, it is allways on Saturday there... this was really nice. So yeah, we went to the park and I was there sitting, and it was a really beautiful scene because all these people were just playing music there, and they don't really know each other, but it was really magical. I was sitting there with my laptop a bit like a stranger, but it was kind of good. I worked on the Pain Magazine, 3 pages for the Pain Magazine, and this was really nice.

I was also listening to the biography of Nikola Tesla and walked around in the park, saw all these people, and I realized again that all these people are not connected in the real world; they're connected in the digital world (like on social media) everywhere. A lot of them are lonely in the real world; they don't have the connection, the interaction is missing.

Everyone is like listening to their own music, has their own headphones in, and has no clue what other people do, no clue what other people think, no clue what the other people are actually good at and what problem they have.

So you see all these people looking in front of their black box called phone, and everyone is in their own digital world. I assume like people spend way more than 8 hours a day in the digital world interacting with people all over the world, but not with the people right next to them.

This was one of the things I was thinking of: that having love in the world is actually a really good thing, and that we have less and less love and sex and therefore less reproduction. I have it by myself, like the thinking of having someone that you love and that loves you. It's like a really human thing, so in my opinion, it's something that we should not lose as humanity because it will lead to a more robotic and less human-like world.

If we want to tackle things like space travel, space living, and going and understanding the universe, we should still be happy because the greatest work was done with a bit of happiness and humor. So for that, we need more real-world connection.

I think the main problem of it is that in the digital world, we are used to having all this background information about the person before we meet him or before we interact with this person. We can look on LinkedIn or on Google or Instagram, all his background things, what he's interested in, who he likes, what I like, what his problems are. In the real world, we don't have this. We have kind of uncertainty. When you meet a new person, you don't know anything about the person. When you see a person on the other side of the street, you don't know anything. So it's uncertainty, and as we know, uncertainty is worse than bad certainty.

There is this great Uber example where they just delete the uncertainty of how long your taxi needs to come to you, and it's better to know for you when you know that it's taking 10-15 minutes that it comes to you, then when you don't know that it's in 4 minutes there. Uncertainty is a really big thing for our human brain, and when we have the same as uncertainty in the real world when we approach other persons, it makes sense that we are used to the internet where we have all information, and that we then also do our main interactions on the internet because it is less uncertain.

To solve the problem of loneliness, we need to bring less uncertainty into our interaction in the real world. We need that you and me know some information, some common shared knowledge, already before you interact with me in the real world. The problem is, we cannot see them right now. We don't know what the other person on the other side of the street is doing, how he is earning his money, what problems he has, if he is a single or not. The uncertainty is there.

And this is not only a small problem for some people, but it's a problem for humanity because when you have less real-world interactions, we have less love, which leads to less sex, which leads to less kids. We see clearly in the data. It is predicted that in 2050, human society is on the tipping point, it's on the peak of birth rates, and then we decline again. This is bad. We should grow; we should still grow as humanity, and one of the reasons is that in most of the Western countries or older countries (China, US, Europe, Japan) they have declining birth rates.

One of the things is that we don't interact with so many people every day anymore because we are more individualistic. We meet less people. We have more technology, we have more money, and therefore we are more in our self-owned world with tech.

In the poor countries, they don't have this, so they are forced to interact. We in the Western world have an easy way to interact with other humans via social media via the internet. This storm leads to things that we see in the trends. We see clearly a trending decline of birth rates, and there are some people that do already something against it (Musk is like having 14 kids and other people that have a lot of kids), but this is not the solution.

The solution needs to be that everyone has more kids again, everyone is happier, and everyone has more love.

what do I want: a girlfriend. a true problem. a mission to save humanity. a billion dollar company.

I WILL NOT GIVE UP.

talked yesterday longer with zion... he has contact to steven bartlett and one of elons friends was his mentor. the world is small. thinking today about what is most important for humanity to solve. to do? why is this in a weird way so difficult but also easy?

took a walk a listened to some bach. play polytopia with konstantin and zion. i will win.

cutted video for Zion nearly ready. Me started making 3d things in AR. having now pain Magazin. Made podcast yesterday. thinking about problems that are pain for humanity.

oh and there is one more... give me a fucking insurance that is fair payed + has insanly good customer service! all insurance (especially health insurance) has horrible customer service! automate claim processing and fraud detection with AI. build it. i will found when you reach out to me and have money.

same for tax advisors. currently we pay 4k a year with our gmbh for a german tax adivor, what a bullshit?!... this can be fully automated and driven by software + AI, someone needs to build the frontend AI and the backend software that automates the "jahresabschluss and sortierung"... and have a Tax Advisor license.

also i just want a personal lawyer that i can talk to everytime and that is sending out messages for me so they seem legit... why can not somody build an ai lawyer + backend system that can send out legit lawyer terms emails and that can allways support me. for example mahung xyz.. but you don't have to pay for reason xyz... normally the big company allways wins against me. but when I would have a legit lawyer then not anymore... so just someone have to build a legit AI lawyer with a working backend and lawyer license.

fixing german ICE wifi might be actually meaningfull for some germans.

it's a new year. 2026. filmed today again with Zion to make some money. I'm still thinking what is the most important thing to work on in my life right now... living here the kind of moovie that people know from founders. but in real. beeing with my best friend in San Francisco, learning, working all day long... Couch surfing. I'm in AR now at the edge of technology, i know what is missing. good applications. so I could build something that matters to humantiy there. but is it actually the biggest? also fun that zion is basicly building what I had in my head allready 8 months ago. (datawallet). we play a really surreal game, because one win, will be worth billions but no win is allways complete loose. it's assymetric. played yesterday some soccer with some higschool kids. enjoy highschool, becuase it is not so long as you think. but i learned again and again, that health is important. today I have muskelkater.

Invest in Memes – No One Rides Elevators… if you can’t say it in a meme to customers, recruits, and capitalists … no one is going to care. Messages and positioning need to be ready to be transmitted through memes / in short repeatable clips (that are compelling to share).

AR is the future... because everything gets more clean. you will have no real buttons, no real inputs anymore... everything is just there with software.... Your watercocker can get updates over night and get better... can get more buttons... it is the next wave for hardware to make them interactable with AR.

Dear Tade,

It’s pretty hard to say in the abstract - a lot depends on your specific skills, passions, and ideas for what would be commercially viable.  Also, you’d have to consider the timing of automation possibilities in case AI timelines are short.  I’d say in general things that make the world more cooperative or that makes the human-AI relationship more positive sum could be promising - but what that means in practice largely remains to be figured out.  There might also be opportunities somewhere in speeding the use of a given level of AI capabilities for beneficial applications (such as for health or for improving human deliberation or discourse).

Good luck!

Nick

The future of humanity needs tl ve preserved, we are just so great beeings.

Today: Read Biogrfie for 5h. Podcast about elon 1,30h. Future of Humanty and existential risk of swedish researcher, read paper from him. Posted 10 LinkedinPosts. Articles about humanities biggest problems. Email to swedish forscher.

played today for 9h until 6am civilisation VI, completely stupid. now deinstalled everything. it does not bring me forward to build meaningfull stuff. it is just stupid timewaste. it is also not fun. it is just stupid timewaste

LinkedIn is like Clash of Clans... A game where you have to upgrade sruff and attack the algorythm. Lets see until which "Rathaus" i come.

porn is sometimes still in my mind. Not good.

Today we made a new demo day in the hacker house where we couchsurf right now. It is now 1:02am I'm still crystall clear and sharp minded I again ate to much coffee beans, crack for the cheep. But it is awesome, I'm so sharp with it. I bought today again a new one. Konstantin is writing on his paper how to create great companies, I was working on posting 20 LinkedIn posts, they got some good tracktion (one with 10k impressions and one with 30k).

We made a walk in the San Francisco bay park and I saw a family singing Christmas songs, I joined them for 3 songs and sang heilige nacht still nacht on English with them. They where impressed by my good voice. We also today did something that we do very seldom, watch something just for joy... we watched MR.Bean at christmas! Insane, it is art on the highest level.

I also kept reading my biographies and learning about tech.

In my learning diary today: Charlie Chaplin: "Life is a tragedy in close-up and a comedy in long shot."

Good speeches and propaganda has one clear enemy that gets attacked multiple times... a good speech focuses only on one enemy.

Some thoughts:

Germany is still the 3 largest economy by total gdp output after US and China... But we are more and more lacking behind. I made some research over the last days. What I found out was that we are very good in engineering and also in heavy manufacturing, we are good in services in general for worldwide B2B, but what is missing are the big tech consumer players that have high margin with software and data. We have no Google, Meta, Microsoft, Apple, LinkedIn, Snapchat, (YouTube)... when I think of stuff that I use on my phone there is no big German / European player. Why does it matter? because they are the high margin business models and they have the data...

So we in Germany miss the big tech consumer software players.

Secondly I was thinking what is the problem for me of starting a startup in Germany right now? I found two major points.

First: I cannot fire someone fast (if you read biographies of great founders, this was always crucial) the employee has in Germany to many rights that you have not the ability to kick out people of the team fast. Because as we know one spoiled apple spoils very fast all other apples - same for teams.

Second: People in Germany are not anymore used to suffering and working 6–7 days a week, they also want to enjoy life. I feel this is still different here in the US, where you can pay people 750k a year salary but then they also grind all night long.

I was curious about what you think about it...?

Because you seem like thinking a lot about Europe and Germany and how to speed up progress again.

it's basically penetrating a wall with a hamour and when you just take a hit everyday it is only a matter of time when the wall brakes. trust in time.

add: I texted also the 6th time person from tokenize It to cancel the contract with them that every month leads us to pay 580€ randomly to them.

And i figured out... I just will keep messaging them until they cancel it. I don't care how often they say no. they said allready 8 times no, and if it's one more 8 times. I don't care. and I figured out this gives enourmous power and strenght. Because I know over time they will give up and I will win. To learn that you just have to keep beeing stubborn is the greatest weapon was allready so often helpfull for me. and you then can get everything.

I hope nobody will read this here... if so, please keep it for you.

today is christmas, and I worked yesterday until 3am and woke up at 10 today... my family is celebrating in germany. I started working on LinkedIn posts yesterday. I posted 10 to test what might work and what not. then I delete the bad performing and only keep the good performing... and analyze why they performed good, to get better.

Also yesterday was the first day after 7-8 months where I am at Zero "schulden" again. We had for 3 hours a long conversation, me and konstantin over money and then made everyting set to zero his bank accounts and my. We cleaned everything up. deleted bank accounts so everyone of us has only one.

oh, one more thing, people at arcadia didn't liked us anymore. So we called 15 friends to take us over on a couch and got to one new place after some struggle with the bart. We are now near the San Francisco Golden Gate Park, actually really beatifull. Yesterday at 23:00 we went to a grocery shop, everything was raining and we bought for 110 Dollars groceryies and made the best chicken wings with rice and coconut milk sauce ever. We ate them like people that did not ate for a long time a good meal (was actually also true, we didn't ate over the past week something) because of lack of money. so this was a meal from heaven. How could we bought the stuff?? we got the first payment of the deal with Zion to make a video production for him for 6k.

Yeah so time here is kind of painfull but also the greatest ever. it is freedom.

I also finished the Benjamin Franklin Autobiographie and Biographie. Now I started a 44h Biography of Adolf Hittler. It is interesting to see how he catched and captivated the masses.

We figured out that we can listen to every audiobook on nearly 2-3x and get things so fast done this day.

I also started to love coffee beans. I allways just eat them raw. They are like crack for me. But hopefully not so devistating.

We are still searching for meaning. But the fog gets clearer.

Oh and the 10 posts i made yesterday got today allready 7k impressions, this is good for analyzing.

today I work on the spectacles AR glasses application.

Yesterday I wrote a long letter to my other grandparents that I normallly don't do so much..

Sex is still missing.

this will be the first day of the days where I take more care about how I write what I write here... I be carefull is one of the most important trades to make something great. I decided that this here, I want to be something great. something with real inner thoughts, struggles, emotions and inteligence. so let's start:

"Greenlight" today i got a new greenlight, suddenly in my bank account was standing +300€ and there was no other way, then that it came from them. from the most loving grandparents I have. Money: money makes you happy when you have no money. money makes your actions bigger, when you have allready money. money is a measurement of how much value you bring to the world. so when you earn low money, you bring low value to humanity. So it is guid to thrive for money, because you only become a lot if you bring value for humanity. I think people don't want to believe this. because they are envy. money also makes you not a bad or a good person. money just amplifies everything that is in your personality. and since every human has a dark side, oyu just think that these people are more mean or do more bad, but in reality they just play a bigger game and therefore their dark side is also bigger. MONEY JUST EMPLIFIES, it is like a good Megaphone, the megaphone doesn't make you ssay good or bad things, it is still the person behind it. But the megaphone makes you hear this things louder. So when the person has dark thoughts, you hear them louder. When the person has good thoughts you here them louder.

And since humans are trained to see the bad things, or the enemy's better then the good sides of something we just get lost focusing on bad stuff of rich people. Therefore a lot of people don't like rich people.

They don't understand the law of amplifying.

today something weird happened. We got Money. and it is interesting how fast you then come into the mode of spending it.

i got today a christmas present from my dad via amazon, we now interact more again with each other, this is good.

i bought books from people to learn more about history, I bought Benjamin Franklin, Adolf Hittler and some other biographies. "I would allways spent money for a good book".

flights to germany still 340€

flights to germany still 370€.

I watched yesterday a doku about how the iphone actually got produced. Learning: "everything is a process", there where no such thing like one great Idea of the iphone and then they build it... it was a konstant struggle with it and refinemend, refinemend over a long period of time. so basically everything is just a process. every great thing that we think got invented from one smart person, was just a long process with a lot of smart people involved in it.

Everything is a process.

no sitting here in the Haas in Berkely, everything empty, I'm the single one student here. there are no other people on the whole campus. everything empty.

today got clear that I will be for the first time in history not with my family at christmas. This is like a migratory bird that went south alone to find the right place to life and love. it is not easy. and it is painfull.. it is the rule of everything. You allways want what you not have, and you appreciate it more if you have less from something. These days I appreciate my family more then ever before. I'm proud, loved and in love with them. But still beeing here in US to catch more greenlights.

what should change in the world? Humanity should not die. Humanity should further develop and get stronger. Humanity should be happy.

the only difference between people writing an exam and us is that we get our grade not direct afterwards. Our exam is building the greatest consumer brand and company out there to make billions of lives better. I truly believe this is my meaning of life.

second day where we slept on the couch here in frontier tower: elon musk "i think if you want to start a company you have to have a high trashhold of pain"

looking everything about the best entrepeneurs.. how they worked, what they learned, analyzed and read biografies of all of them.. together with konstantin we look every old possible video of elon, steve, lary ellison and everyone that created great companies.

how they get teams together, what they focus on, how they showcase products... etc... how they speak. It's like we are doing what people normally do before they have to write an exam. they learn everything they can about the topic. We do it for great companies.

my plan: finish filming job, programm AR glasses, go to snap office get AR glasses, go 24. to germany, meet family, programm more AR experience, go to munich, show it Darius, get 50k, go to bali, then india, then china, build first janta product.

i want a bit more movie type shit again. what do you think?

stories to tell: -birthday present from konstantin (cake with arcadians) -4 chicken in bag party + morning Eli with gun -china dinner with chinese guys -china clothing brand office idk there are more.

there are some simple things to get more confident that allways work: fresh haircut skincare workout smile +travel

had today call with doug, sales call with zion to make production video for them... Konstantin yesterday made like for 350$ a some design work. I feel motivation again. I see a small stripe on the horizont.. the fog is getting less dense. isnt it interesting.

I could go home for christmas theoretically? lol. and today something weird happened. darius called me, he actually appreciates my willingness to do things that other people would not do. he actually was one of the single people that would bet on me, when others think controversal. I highly value this. he would invest 50k with his new fund when we get the thing running and can showcase him the social interaction app. thats motivating... also what is the win in the game of products... the win is developing faster in silents then anybody als and then release something insane great with a big bang. the big bang is the moment where you can be proud. so there is no other way to play the game. just build it until it is so good that you have to show it to people. I finally figured it out, what the game it is that we crafters, sellers, builders, play.

isn't it interesting?

I watched yesterday all the old videos with konstantin and we experiences a lot. actually a lot. this is awesome.

there is light on the horizon.

life is kind of weird. it is the first time that I will maybe not have christmas together with my fam? or maybe not? when we have fast enough some cash in idk, 5k or somoething i would go for it. maybe there is actually a way to do it. I have tomorrow a call with a guy for christmas video stuff. I will close with him the deal and then we will go to germany for christmas.

but in generall it is actually interesting what life does with you, when you try to change the world. but also don't know yet what... what is important? love, friends, experiences, impact.. money, what is not important? dump people. but actually there are a lot of people in the void. and less people that actually build. konstanin is a builder. he is doing stuff very fast and just build them. appreciate this.

a good haircut is worth millions of self confidence.. so buy it :) Saw the girl that I was looking for over the last weeks... went to her, asked her, got a "I have a boyfriend", but feels good. Now uncertenty is away. Uncertenty is way harder than getting a "no". Nice.

struggling around with uncertainty is really painful. But i figured out that most of the great people had this period. I talked with Spencer Kinney, he was in this for two years straight before now he had something that seems to work out with the greatest investors in the bay area you can get. He started working on 4 completely different things before. Same story I heard from Sophie Defauw, he know founders that changed a lot and then built the successful wolrd changing thing. We are playing here a power law game... so everything will feel like failure... and success is unimaginable 1000x bigger. So there is nothing like everage pain and everage succes. this game is eather you are in the state of death or you win very, very big.

we changed the location from Berkely Arcadia to 20 min walks away Berkeley Hills. Thanks to Eli AI-Shamari, he lets us stay at his founder co-living here in the mountains for free for two weeks. We still have a shortage of money, but I still told the girl that I met yesterday and we walked the fire trails around to see the whole buty of berkely and San Francisco in Moonlight, that some day "I will change the lives of millions of people", but she had a friend. But like men do, they think this doesn't matter so I was trying to poje here out of the relationship, not so good. So we went back, but we talked about live, sex and mission and it was kind of cool, maybe around 7°C. Eli made here a big party and we had firsthand the standart american experience. One guy called Shaileesh brought 4 chickens in a bag with him.. other people brought wine and coocies and we created ginger bred houses. Still most of the time im thinking about what is truly true. What changes the world.

today in the morning I stood up and went upstairs to the living room and the first thing that I see is Eli with a gun shooting coca cola cans - America I guess. Second one was I called the two 14 year old girls to coach them in the right direction. And then Konstantin cutted my hair, no I look like a half chinese but german boy with "Topfschnitt".

Berkely is such a oddly place. Sitting at strada, walking around the law school, seeing the bell tower and all this young people. I called yesterday in the night the mom of the girl that I talked with... she lived in Dresden 20 years ago. Now she is an AI tutor at deepmind, together with his husband. His doughter really impressed me, but she has a friend.?

no I'm sitting here, it feels a bit like a switzerland alps Hut, in the hills with great view and the friends you work and party together. I'm really thankfull to have such an experience rich life.

had today a good talk with my mother also about china and us... I'm really thankfull of beeing so close with my mom.

also there were this Lary Ellison talk when he was young... He was also in Berkely :) Same for steve Jobs... he was in Berkely... Same for xyz. so many great people have a relationship to berkely, I Like it.

also there was this girl today at strada... I watched here, I saw here allready again 4 times before there.. today I putted a self painted business card in her back. maybe she will message me maybe not. I don't have the expactations for it, so I only can win.

now I'm sitting on the roof of the law school seeing the sun and listening to the only 01099. "ich bin auf dem weg keine zeit zu verlieren... sag wie soll es anders sein?"

Berkeley is the best place in the world to search with this 8 Billion other humans for the meaning of life. It seems like that everyone, age 57, age 38, age 28, age 21, age 18, age 15 are looking for it.

We all suffer with it, we all search for meaning, we all search for a place in a world. And everybody thinks that he is the only person that faces this... THIS IS WRONG. I founder that everyone is at enytime in search of meaning and the correct answers for life. Which leads to the "erkenntnis" that it is allways like this... that I have to like it. because I will otherwise hate my whole life. Thankyou Wolfram Thurm for this opening thoughts.

Today happened also something very special. the first time since two years my dad become a HERO for me again. He was one of the major people that built a School from scratch in Dresden for 50 Million Euros. This is insane.. He lead two of his kids to the best magicians in their age groups in germany. I'm finally proud of him again for something - which brings me to tears. I'm really proud when I hear this.

Having parents that are Hero's feels as is one of the most important thing.

He constructed kind of a factory for educated humans from scratch. There was nothing before... There was just dirt farmland erea and know is standing there one of the most hightech waldorfschools in Germany. He constructed the buildings, made sure to get goverment support, got investments from other people, made decisions, took the risk with 10 other people on their own sholders when it fails. thats bold. Thats strong.

But he also told me about his "visions Suche" which showed me... everyone is all the time in search. I thought you figure it some day out. But it seems not to be true...

The only thing that changes is that you get more used to it over time.

also I'm not scared anymore. you know, I will never die, by not having money anymore. It will maybe be disgusting, but never so that it is killing you.

we got today 2 weeks more of free housing, which is very helpfull, because it will lead to time, where we can just think and build.

I think when you ask a lot of young people what they are most missing these days it is connections with the people direct next to them. It’s weird, we live in a hyper connected world but still everyone is telling about loneliness.

Today we live in two worlds, there is the digital world and the real world and we spend more time in the digital than in the real world on a given day. For me it makes no sense why we have to live in two worlds. Why can't we have one merged world?

There is one company that tries this, but they really don’t get the point. They try to replicate the phone in front of you. I think they are villains and they would get the complete monopoly about connections when they are the company that succeeds. They are the villain.

this thing should be built by people that truly have a sense of art. Otherwise it will hurt humanity.

currently we learn to endure pain... but I wrote this allready one year ago, and again the year before. maybe this is just life?

i have this thing in mind and it is not leaving. a hyper conected world in realworld. conectivity and informations presented seamless and in realtime. You have just by a blink of your eye all available informations about a person. you can ping, experience people in your own world but in the real world.. imagen you inviting your friends playing a overlay of the realworld together. Imagen you can generate every artefact that you want direct in front of you. imagen having like you have different maps in polytopia, you having different real worlds that you can select every morning to play?

when you just look in the faces of young people this is interesting. You see all there worries, all there struggles and yu know the interesting thing is. Everyone has it. Everyone has his own shit they struggle with. Is this not insane? is this not insane that our brain allways searches for something that it can struggle with? it lies in human nature.

What would happen if you could see fro every person struggle? What would happen if everyone shares his struggle with the people around them? Would people help each other? would this create extraordinary less pain in the world?

would a perfect world come out of beeing hyper conected in real life? right now we spent more time beeing conected in the artificial world then in the real world. which leads to less relationships in the real world, which leads to less sex in the real world, which leads to a declining humanity.

what if we could create this same conection / conecting feeling but in the real world? Why not just pining a girl that is sitting next to you instead of waiting until she puts of her headphones...?

why make womans allways weird things to your mind in the wrong situations?

now I'm in the fighter mode. Nobody will kill me, nobody will win against us. We will destroy them. Nobody will stop us in making the world a better place. I truly believe this and janta will be know in not so long time.

we will fuck you!

tokenizeIt is fucking us 6 more month :)

missing my family. coding here to change the world and singing christmas songs by myself. no money, no family. just work and changing the world to a better place.

First: When I was 14, I convinced my dad to open a stock account for me and I started investing. I put all my savings into it, and it quickly grew to €3,000. Then I thought I was the smartest person on earth and started investing in riskier things. One week later, I had lost almost everything. I was 15 at the time and I thought my life was over. I had messed it up. I deleted everything and stopped for a month.

Then I realized that life goes on and that I could learn and improve. I went deep into company analysis, fundamental analysis, and every book and source of knowledge I could find about investing. By the time I was 17, I had built my portfolio back up to €20,000.

This lesson was extremely important for me because I learned that life always goes on. In the hardest moments, it is just a matter of keeping going, learning, and pushing through. I have had several moments like this growing up, and I think I am in one again right now. It is painful, challenging, and also exciting, but most of all it is the moment to push through and reach greater heights.

Second: The most important thing is not which dragon you fight, but who you fight with.

When I was 16, I worked as the youngest intern in the biggest insurance company in Europe, and I had the best coach in the entire company. Not only that, but the department I worked in was the youngest and the fastest-growing in Europe.

This taught me not only how to deal with rejection, which you get a lot of in sales, but more importantly that the people around me have the biggest influence on my success. Since then, I have taken this very seriously. I would rather be hungry than be surrounded by the wrong people.

This also applies to the company we are building. It pushes me to only hire people I genuinely admire and want to become more like myself. In my opinion, this is one of the most important lessons of my life because it affects every part of it. I always try to surround myself with greatness to become a bit greater myself.

Third: Not caring about other people’s opinions is a skill I developed over time by actually executing on things.

I learned that when you care more about the mission than about what other people think, you get much further. I dropped out of high school at the end of school, not because it was too difficult, I was actually very good at it, but because I believed I was learning the wrong things.

Everyone told me to stay and said it was the stupidest decision of my life. Today, I believe it was one of the most important decisions I ever made. It proved to me that it does not matter how strongly people tell you not to do something if you truly believe in yourself and make your own decisions.

Since then, it has given me a strong sense of being different and trusting myself. That trust leads to higher self-confidence, which then leads to faster execution and faster learning in every area of life.

I'm confident it was the right decision, but it still feels horrible.

the first time I fired someone from the team. It's actually not nice. It's sad. You pull from someone else the visions, the motivation, the work etc.. from the earth. It's horrible.

Yotam -> Fired.

if you would decide for beeing special or beeing hungry, what would you choose? i think I'M special. I'm different and therefore I need to do everything that other people don't do. My live is forced to do things that seem not possible to the normal ones. the world is very difficult when you try to make things simple.

"I think we just have to have fun and appreciate the situation, some day we will look back and very likely say -> this was actually a fun time. this was the time where I had nothing to eat, don't know anything, but also nothing to loose. So enjoy the time" It feels this days hard to enjoy, because we are pushing on the limit, to build something that helps all of humanity. we sacrefice our own life to help humanity make progress forward. this is the bigger mission.

but still it is not everyday fun. not every moment is fun. there are moments more often, where we don't have money to afford food.

but arcadia is the best, we are living in arcadia with the smartest people in the world and get every day exposed to it.

Arcadia will and has shaped me allready in the best possible way.

simplifieng does magic. Steve Jobs, Elon Musk and 20 other biographies that I read have in common that the great people try to delete "unnecessity". I try to practice it too.

teaching people and yourself is allways highest priority!!!

reading is the path to succes.. when I can read everything 3x faster I will be 5x faster then the other people. I read currently on 2x pace everything that I need.

like bill gates said: read a lot of biographies. AGREE. Biographies is the best source to learn about live without experiencing it. Biographies have a naturell filter for good decisions. You experience the most succesfulls peoples decisions and thoughts in First Person View.

I think it is the right decision to fire Yotam from the team. He is not capable enough. We have to be rigorous or we will die.

Talked with a chinese VC today, they are insane termsheets. Be carefull. But they are also way more outcome driven then US VCs -> probably because they have less money.

We now built JANTA -> to create the biggest tech company in the world. I think our biggest product will be AR. Because AR will fundamental change how people see the world.

this is interesting. some weeks ago I started making konstantin think better infiltrated in him the thinking of true thinking and now he is doing the same on me and is infiltrating the thing of skilling up yourself into me. hard but true.

healthinsurance is actually pain. trying to raise small amount to don't die.

arrived yesterday back in the US, wuhu. now grind it out to get some angels and build the product.

the aircrofts lifts up slowly his wheels from the ground and with every breething of a second we see more and more of the skyline of Shenzhen. and it feels again like a moovie. It feels like beeing part of the greatest live possible.

with less then 20 dollars left in total but a life worht living. a live like a movie. and I'm highly thankfull for that. sitting here in the plain again. seeing all this "fremd" people.. seeing the clouds. sitting next to my best mindshared person and experiencing the world. the world in his roughness, beaty, flaws, richness, lovlyness.

thinking about how to make the world a better place. about how I can contribute. about to make things that matter happen and help to make this place here on earth, here in the solar system more exciting and worth living for everyone else.

I'm very gratefull of experiencing this kind of movie.

tommor morning before we flew at 1pm we visited a big clothing brand and manufacturer here in China. they produce so high quality products - a t-shirt for 6-9 dollars, a hoody for 11-16 a zipper for 12-18... and allready shpped here. the women in the entrance bought us food for breakfest in a local small shop and showed us the chinese breakfest tradition. she was so kind and she was so happy that we were there. it was kind of stunning. all the people want to make pictures with us and you feel like you'r the god, the hero. thank you for this awesome experience China. we so clothing, in the highest quality. for big western brands... all manufactured there. and she showed us around. -> then we want for 1h with the DIDI (uber) to Shenzhen airport, made a very seamless checking and while waiting for boarding having calls with US/europe investors to make the thing happen. idk. what to say.

also yesterday was a crazy day. we visited 4 hardware Factories that assemble and produce chips and other electronic boards and devices.. the one company builds boards for Infineon,nvidia, intel and other major players!!! everything here in Shenzhen and the cities around. it is incredible to see how hard these people work here to make the live in our western cultures happen. we got invited for dinner from our last company that we visited and had a incridible rich and foodfull dinner with them. we head around 4h dinner all chinese quisine and tradition, they showed us around and told about China, Chinas plans and what is important for them.

actually we in the US think a lot about China and worry.. actually China don't really thinks about the US... they just think about how they can grow faster and develop faster. they don't really care about US.. they care about China. also she told us and a lot of other chinese people told us the same... that China is now heavily trying to improve their quality of products.. they hate the image of bad quality for made in China products. they want that this is a sign for high quality.

the evening was also out of a moovie. they payed for everything. they invited us to local other stores to drink hot milk and experience chinese culture... when we wanted to leave they wanted to wait all the time until our Didi is arrived. it was a long wait... because we had again a lot of trouble with the chinese firewall and app system. everything gets blocked and when I wanted to connect with the chinese women on WeChat... I needed to auth... with my ID to get here contact. so this is something that is really annoying here. we were at an local egg store 2 day ago and konstantin needed to use his ID and need to make a KYC for his scrambled eggs.

so the whole experience is a movie. sometimes it feels like a escape room, sometimes like your the prince, sometimes just like humans living there live.

Shenzhen is clearly developing very very fast... all of China is developing very very fast.

I'm thinking sometimes what are the problems of other people? when I see people what do they struggle with?? because it deemed on me, that actually everyone struggles with something. i'm currently thinking of a girl. not only to fuck, but to have love. just love. also Idk. if chinese girls are my type. but we will see. and this money part, we need to solve this problem of insurance, we need to make the world a better place -> so we have to find someone who supports this!

thinking in thee plane / flight about how we get this deal over the finishline... from where and whom. currently flying above shanghai and getting insane good food and service on board. flying to corea and then from korea to SF. --> and hopefully they let us into US... otherwise idk. this would be very, very bad if not. -> then we have the last money to get to the hacker house. and then we need to find a angel to back us.

flying to China Shenzhen... isn't it insane :) see the world at 20 and make the life insane. like a moovie. feeling the movie here. and all this experience together with a loved person.

i feel very thankful for that. also I feel like life is for every human the same... there is no human in the world that has no fear, or nothing that he is not worrieng about, or that he is not sure about or stuff... like that. every human is fighting the same game. isn't that insane?

the insanity of life. is that we allways think other people that have what we have, other people have only good days, other people have only fun, other people only have success................ thats wrong.

it's me flying right now above the clouds. it's mee seeing the world. it's me living a assymetric life.

broke but insane.

someday I will look back at this time -> I will have a lot of money and think. what the fuck was that a awesome time... where you didn't had a lot of money and just was broke but going insane in the world.

thankyou for having an insane live.

when we were boarding the airplane -> we were not fully checked in. so they pulled us out. we were the last people. they phoned around and just 8 people were talking, clicking in insane speed on their computers. and dadaa.. the tickets were in our hands 3 minutes later. they asked for visas and stuff... I was thinking oh no shit. did we missed something? but no. we just were right.

the thing that nobody tells you is that the only way to get a joyfull live is to bake it full of joy and enjoy it. i feel like a loot of humans have this problem. they don't see the beaty of live anymore.

Okay, we go all in.

I texted Muis mom.

"Hi, bitte erzähl Miu nichts davon. Wie geht es euch? Wie geht es Miu? Kannst du mir sagen ob sie aktuell einen Freund hat oder ähnliches und ist sie schon in Australien oder noch in Dresden? Liebe Grüße, Tade"

Saw this bolivood moovie with the Indian heroes. That didn't wait. They just do it. Gor inspired from them to just start...

I feel like I need here just mentally. If he can love me like this here. Without money but with a mission. Then she is the right one.

She knows me best. She believes in me. She can give me the energy to get this 10M round done.

Maybe I got right now more trouble. But live is only fun with trouble.

Miss u

every application based on social interaction will work good.

ar will change how we see the world. it's not a replacement of the phone, it is something completely different.

the thing that will make AR going viral are social interaction applications.

we live in a world of screens and we screen the hole day long and the best thing we do is screening... everything happens on screens.... we are a screening society.

what we do is putting a overlay of the real world, putting a flexible screen into an onto the real world. my guess is that the most viral thing of it will be seeing informations in realtime about other humans. store informations attached to humans... not somewhere in the web.... just directly atttached to a human beside his face. looking into a street seeing what the people do, which music they here etc... these days the displays gotten good enough (META Displays). the killer applications will be everything that searches the net... and helps to kategorize people / storing informations about people around there head etc... I think the first thing that you allways want to have when you look at a person is: -Name -Age -Backround -Current Goals -what you talked about before with this person.

I can imagen everyone living in a different world but all in the same place. Why should not everyone have their hyper personlized world. Why should not everyone have the ability to change the colors or the brightness of their real world?

also I sleep here on a selfmade couch bed in the living room basement in arcadia. it doesn matter. it's shitty. but the right people sourround us. therefore it is good.

we have no mony to spent anymore... just 500 dollars for the next 2 weeks. thats not a lot. because we also go to china etc... so basiclly we have nothing. but we will survive. we allways survive. and the goal is to fight the problem. but for context my later self is hopefully proud of me not giving up.

-teached yotam. setted some goals. new tasks for the next days... it's just about executing the right things. fast. I like how we right now shape the company after our own thoughts how we bring things in to grow faster and build the best working team together. started with the book rule. everyone can put into everyones else calender just a book to read with a deadline. and when there is this book. everything else does not matter. the only thing that matter is to finish this book until the deadline. because growing and teaching is the most important thing. I kind of like this. secondly we really have as our advantage communitacion and fast execution. the is the highest lever that we can pull. we keep going with the podcasts. keep going with the other stuff and just allways pull the levers of faster... and better communication, which lead s to not working on stupid stuff.

how I'm? idk. if everything will work after plan. I feel like there are so many unknows. and we need to be so fast. that is insane. also this money raising part of 10M preseed is a huge thing. for firsttime founders raising 10M some people say maybe insane. so wee need to know why we actually need so much. to defend it and articulate it clearly.

-were today together with yotam and konstantin in escape room -worked on the risk model the hole night. -listened to book from book rule (jensen huang..) -started outreach to angels. -had 4h disscussion with konstantin and Yotam -had discussion with konstantin about how to integrate yotam... + how to upgrade comm. and learning. -booked flights back from china to SF. -> btw. idk if they will let us in. hopefully. I mean we make this country actually great. so we try to change something here in the country. so this is important! -there are so many things that can go wrong. and so many things that can go right. the difficult part is to go into the right direction and don't get messed up by noise. so the most important part is that we solve the problem. the problem of a bad health insurance that everyone hates.

i'm not exciting about it, I'm not worried about it... it's just a thing that have to get done. and so far there is noone that I trust that will solve that problem. no other company that I have seen. nobody. so we are the only valid company in the world that actually might be able to change this. so we should allways keep going. no matter what. no matter how hard we are to die. this problem causes people pain. and thats not needed!

today was demo day here in Arcadia... is cool to see some smart people presenting their ideas. and also I appreciate way more know this place here. the pixels come together... there were so many interesting people here in Berkeley, living here and building great stuff. I'm really thankful to have this sourrounding here, this berkeley sourrounding.

btw. I did not wrote a lot in here in the last days. i have some doubts on Yotam. He is not the smartest person... but idk. the people that he said are impressing are not impressive. had a long convo. with konstantin about him. I'm not sure... every story of founding something succesfull is that you hear you need to be hyper pickey about who you pick for your team... so why do we have Yotam on the team? he is not technical, not really smart and also has a limited mindset. but he is maybe fast in execution. actually I think konstantin grew a lot over the last year. he got also decent technical, so I'm proud of him. and proud of his mind how it developed. I think I pushed him especially good into the direction to question more things and ask more often if this is actually true.... he often now these days troubles me up with the term. this migh not be true. which mean he developed this good sense.

also I figured out that actually asking good questions is the most important skill these days. there are answers for everything but the questions are the streets to new answers.

so developing the magic of questions is all the time worth high.

also here is so much noise in SF.... so many people that have a startup. but a startup means nothing!!! a startup could mean you started yesterday... or you have millions of users. so don't trust people that say they have a startup. everyone can tell stories. view can actually build.

called with Joey (hiteyjit) today. I think I could help them to get motivation again to keep going. That's good.

I want to thank to Julia Harms, Rome Thorstenson, Marmik Chaudhari, Spencer Kinney, Yiğit Kılıçoğlu, Alessio Toniolo, Erik Bach Ryhl that right now here in Arcadia make me think faster.

I started developing as a leader the plan with Konstantin and Yotam, how the most customer friendly insurance on the planet integrated in a new health system could look like and what we need to build.

We sat down foe 4h and made the tasks ready fir the nwxt 6d. Idk. Where this will go and if after the next 6d I will say it was wrong to go with a random guy named yota to explore and build stuff. But I trust my gut. And my gut says it is worth testing it.

Basically the goal is to build in 6 days a fully production ready and functionell insurance that was never done before + a new health system around it that nobody build so far so detailed and integrated. Sounds cool? Yeah, it's a lot of work.

It's meaningfully work.

From a company perspektive we tap into the most valuable thing in this century (data). So our goal is to collect and connect as much data sources as possible aggregate it under one user and the mage magic with it.

Today I feel actually really good. Because today since a long time I see a clear path again hiw this might work.

Still yotam in our room is searching, I hate him for that. But yes the founder livestream is really boring but we get free food here, what is good. The outside is not as beautiful as Berkeley, but you need contrast to value what is good.

Without contrast everything would seem Grey. So we need the bad stuff to see good. We need poor people to feel rich, we need unhealthy food to eat healthy.

The only way to appreciate stuff is by seeing a contrast. So when I go and travel alone that's the best thing I can do, because often we see a contrast.

Today there where some "mahnungen" I'm briefcases so yeah, was not so cool when my mom sent it to me. Hopefully she will be not so worried about it.

And still there is this weird -750 bill from scalable that doesn't go out of my had. So it is the struggle in the building and always changes of moods in every second that make it so.... yeah.

You always get kicked in your ass wgen things work good. But you also always overlive things that are hardly bad, where you think that's the end.

arrived at the actioners house for the actioners week... (https://live.actioners.com/). feels a bit tasteless and empty everything. this is crazy but, arcadia is one of the single places that actually feel like family so far. Arcadia is a family. here it feels again like artificially grouping people but with out conection with each other. But we will see. so far not the place to live longer then for some days.

so for me the most important thing si to help humanity solve some important problems.

idk. why but elon nailed it: "if we are succesfull does it matter to the world"... this is maybe the single best question to qustion your work.

but the believe to have a meaningful live is burning.

today I coded mainly right.. helped the german waldorf girls @freya to get a interview with tokio hotel and follow her dreams. I mean to believe in yourself is one of the most important things you need to learn. I actually believe these days it is the most valuable skill that you can have. because executing is not anymore a thing of smartness... because we have these days smartness in a bottle (AI) which means you only need to have the will and believe to start executing.

the last weeks was a bit weird. because i was not really motivated to execute stuff... because it was very diffiucult to understand the world. by understand the world I mean. it is dificult to understand why humans life and what is the meaning of life. so yeah. this brought me to read Nitzsche, Socrates, Asimov, Biografies of Obama and other stuff that I could found.

also the china thing made everything more and more confusing. idk why. but I feel that china might be the most important country in the future. because all this americans worry about and china only focus to get stronger. China works. US demonstrates. but this makes the whole scene more weird. because every european founder says to you... "go to US, when you want to have meaning". but this is not actually true maybe anymore? but people say it.

also I started to watch porn again. Idk. why but probably to have a time don't thinking about how the world looks and what the role of humans are.

this thing made me very thoughful and confused. like why do we exist as humans? how are we different to AI?

but most important the question that is still floating in my had is: what is the most important thing to work on.

idk why... but allways when I start something i think emediatly is this actually important. which often leads then to the conclusion no.. and my motivation goes down...

I found out that I have this 3 month cycles. I have an idea or a thing.... i go deeper in it I understand the problems -> new idea is coming into my head... think it is a better one... and the cycle starts from new... this is bad.

anyway.

it is so difficult to find out what is true and what not about life.

but I feel this makes you go forward. founders are basically people that predict the future and then try to build on this prediction.

so it feels that I should learn how to predict better. but for this I need to understand the world.

so today I helped the german girl (she is 14, smart). -programmed my stuff (this site to the end, so that it is now officially on the web). -still thinking about my goals for this year.

i was calling this year (living my 21 year on earth.) the year of achieving. every goal this year is something related to an achievement... the last year was the year of learning and experience... this year is fully achieving.. which means executing a lot of stuff..

my grandfather and grandmather donated me 500€ just on my birthday for the china travel. Im really thankful for that. I was a bit scared from it. because it was just out of the blue and I looked on my phone. but I'm actually so thankful. thanks grandpa, and grandma. your the best that I could imagen. I want to give them back so much. They are truly great. i'm currently still broke in a sense that I have zero money and our gmbh has a runway of 1-2 month ish...

but this thing makes me also shown I don't want to be dependent on my family. i want to have the succecfull startup. i feel the chip on my shoulder, because there is no other way. there is only the way of having success with the startup. id dropped out of school. so they expact that I will get things running. I also believe in it. but I still have fear. and doubts.

I just wrote this at 2am so it is still valid to say it is the 3. november. :)

sometimes I think I'm crazy, sometimes I just want to change the world and sometimes I only want to be a kid again.

Today was my 20. birthday. yeah. and actually it was really cool. but not that cool that you expected. I worked mainly and had a video call with my family. We were calling the day I showed them berkely. because I'm rigth now in the USA in berkely. actually.

it was really cool to see my family together again. i mean there is some bad vibes some day. and mom, dad are not happy with each other. and this spreads over. but today was cool.

also my one grandmother that I do not have so much contact with had a awesome thing to tell about how they produce there morning act.

• yeah so took some call with founders from sf for insurance -> im still not sure if this is the way to go...

• figured out today that i need to set goals. because that's the only way live is not so confusing. Goals makes live easier to understand, because you can channel your focus on things that you think are important.

• also I still believe we have no free will and everything is actually only a matter of what we observe which leads to, that our goals are also only a matter of what we observe. yes, but hopefully I observed good things.

• im still broke (around -600€ on the bank) but confidente to change the world to something positive. I still believe that those who think they can change the world and thos who think they can't are both usually right.