tomorrow we go back to Germany (DD). weird, to go somewhere and speak english again. weird to go somewhere were most of the people build agencies and b2b saas. but we will see. it feels good, but also weird. we will se what happens.

but in the last days looked a bit around the profile pictures of old friends and class people... they live a different life. it is really interesting to see. I think i grew a lot in the last year, learned a lot. it feels weird this days when other people say they build the million dollar empire. for me it is brining humanity forward.... and it will be automatically a billion dollar contribution. it is less about earning the money for the earnings sake, it is more about bringing humanity forward. helping intelligence grow forward, helping humanity just survive and go bigger and bigger...

human intelligence has to evolve greater and greater and explore the universe and above. we have to bring our selves forward, we have to bring the human race forward. Humanity is really unique, when you look at all the other animals around us, none of them are as creative as we are. so we should evolve humanity to greater greatness to keep this creativity alive.

humanity should evolve.

I feel fresh, strong again. I fucked polytopia. today made 3 pages for the pain magazin. I think there is a lot to do in this world. :) Where outside in the sun. there were a group of people (23 people) that were playing music together. just strangers in the park, it is allways on Saturday there... this was really nice. So yeah, we went to the park and I was there sitting, and it was a really beautiful scene because all these people were just playing music there, and they don't really know each other, but it was really magical. I was sitting there with my laptop a bit like a stranger, but it was kind of good. I worked on the Pain Magazine, 3 pages for the Pain Magazine, and this was really nice.

I was also listening to the biography of Nikola Tesla and walked around in the park, saw all these people, and I realized again that all these people are not connected in the real world; they're connected in the digital world (like on social media) everywhere. A lot of them are lonely in the real world; they don't have the connection, the interaction is missing.

Everyone is like listening to their own music, has their own headphones in, and has no clue what other people do, no clue what other people think, no clue what the other people are actually good at and what problem they have.

So you see all these people looking in front of their black box called phone, and everyone is in their own digital world. I assume like people spend way more than 8 hours a day in the digital world interacting with people all over the world, but not with the people right next to them.

This was one of the things I was thinking of: that having love in the world is actually a really good thing, and that we have less and less love and sex and therefore less reproduction. I have it by myself, like the thinking of having someone that you love and that loves you. It's like a really human thing, so in my opinion, it's something that we should not lose as humanity because it will lead to a more robotic and less human-like world.

If we want to tackle things like space travel, space living, and going and understanding the universe, we should still be happy because the greatest work was done with a bit of happiness and humor. So for that, we need more real-world connection.

I think the main problem of it is that in the digital world, we are used to having all this background information about the person before we meet him or before we interact with this person. We can look on LinkedIn or on Google or Instagram, all his background things, what he's interested in, who he likes, what I like, what his problems are. In the real world, we don't have this. We have kind of uncertainty. When you meet a new person, you don't know anything about the person. When you see a person on the other side of the street, you don't know anything. So it's uncertainty, and as we know, uncertainty is worse than bad certainty.

There is this great Uber example where they just delete the uncertainty of how long your taxi needs to come to you, and it's better to know for you when you know that it's taking 10-15 minutes that it comes to you, then when you don't know that it's in 4 minutes there. Uncertainty is a really big thing for our human brain, and when we have the same as uncertainty in the real world when we approach other persons, it makes sense that we are used to the internet where we have all information, and that we then also do our main interactions on the internet because it is less uncertain.

To solve the problem of loneliness, we need to bring less uncertainty into our interaction in the real world. We need that you and me know some information, some common shared knowledge, already before you interact with me in the real world. The problem is, we cannot see them right now. We don't know what the other person on the other side of the street is doing, how he is earning his money, what problems he has, if he is a single or not. The uncertainty is there.

And this is not only a small problem for some people, but it's a problem for humanity because when you have less real-world interactions, we have less love, which leads to less sex, which leads to less kids. We see clearly in the data. It is predicted that in 2050, human society is on the tipping point, it's on the peak of birth rates, and then we decline again. This is bad. We should grow; we should still grow as humanity, and one of the reasons is that in most of the Western countries or older countries (China, US, Europe, Japan) they have declining birth rates.

One of the things is that we don't interact with so many people every day anymore because we are more individualistic. We meet less people. We have more technology, we have more money, and therefore we are more in our self-owned world with tech.

In the poor countries, they don't have this, so they are forced to interact. We in the Western world have an easy way to interact with other humans via social media via the internet. This storm leads to things that we see in the trends. We see clearly a trending decline of birth rates, and there are some people that do already something against it (Musk is like having 14 kids and other people that have a lot of kids), but this is not the solution.

The solution needs to be that everyone has more kids again, everyone is happier, and everyone has more love.

what do I want: a girlfriend. a true problem. a mission to save humanity. a billion dollar company.

I WILL NOT GIVE UP.

talked yesterday longer with zion... he has contact to steven bartlett and one of elons friends was his mentor. the world is small. thinking today about what is most important for humanity to solve. to do? why is this in a weird way so difficult but also easy?

took a walk a listened to some bach. play polytopia with konstantin and zion. i will win.

cutted video for Zion nearly ready. Me started making 3d things in AR. having now pain Magazin. Made podcast yesterday. thinking about problems that are pain for humanity.

oh and there is one more... give me a fucking insurance that is fair payed + has insanly good customer service! all insurance (especially health insurance) has horrible customer service! automate claim processing and fraud detection with AI. build it. i will found when you reach out to me and have money.

same for tax advisors. currently we pay 4k a year with our gmbh for a german tax adivor, what a bullshit?!... this can be fully automated and driven by software + AI, someone needs to build the frontend AI and the backend software that automates the "jahresabschluss and sortierung"... and have a Tax Advisor license.

also i just want a personal lawyer that i can talk to everytime and that is sending out messages for me so they seem legit... why can not somody build an ai lawyer + backend system that can send out legit lawyer terms emails and that can allways support me. for example mahung xyz.. but you don't have to pay for reason xyz... normally the big company allways wins against me. but when I would have a legit lawyer then not anymore... so just someone have to build a legit AI lawyer with a working backend and lawyer license.

fixing german ICE wifi might be actually meaningfull for some germans.

it's a new year. 2026. filmed today again with Zion to make some money. I'm still thinking what is the most important thing to work on in my life right now... living here the kind of moovie that people know from founders. but in real. beeing with my best friend in San Francisco, learning, working all day long... Couch surfing. I'm in AR now at the edge of technology, i know what is missing. good applications. so I could build something that matters to humantiy there. but is it actually the biggest? also fun that zion is basicly building what I had in my head allready 8 months ago. (datawallet). we play a really surreal game, because one win, will be worth billions but no win is allways complete loose. it's assymetric. played yesterday some soccer with some higschool kids. enjoy highschool, becuase it is not so long as you think. but i learned again and again, that health is important. today I have muskelkater.

Invest in Memes – No One Rides Elevators… if you can’t say it in a meme to customers, recruits, and capitalists … no one is going to care. Messages and positioning need to be ready to be transmitted through memes / in short repeatable clips (that are compelling to share).

AR is the future... because everything gets more clean. you will have no real buttons, no real inputs anymore... everything is just there with software.... Your watercocker can get updates over night and get better... can get more buttons... it is the next wave for hardware to make them interactable with AR.

Dear Tade,

It’s pretty hard to say in the abstract - a lot depends on your specific skills, passions, and ideas for what would be commercially viable.  Also, you’d have to consider the timing of automation possibilities in case AI timelines are short.  I’d say in general things that make the world more cooperative or that makes the human-AI relationship more positive sum could be promising - but what that means in practice largely remains to be figured out.  There might also be opportunities somewhere in speeding the use of a given level of AI capabilities for beneficial applications (such as for health or for improving human deliberation or discourse).

Good luck!

Nick

The future of humanity needs tl ve preserved, we are just so great beeings.

Today: Read Biogrfie for 5h. Podcast about elon 1,30h. Future of Humanty and existential risk of swedish researcher, read paper from him. Posted 10 LinkedinPosts. Articles about humanities biggest problems. Email to swedish forscher.

played today for 9h until 6am civilisation VI, completely stupid. now deinstalled everything. it does not bring me forward to build meaningfull stuff. it is just stupid timewaste. it is also not fun. it is just stupid timewaste

LinkedIn is like Clash of Clans... A game where you have to upgrade sruff and attack the algorythm. Lets see until which "Rathaus" i come.

porn is sometimes still in my mind. Not good.

Today we made a new demo day in the hacker house where we couchsurf right now. It is now 1:02am I'm still crystall clear and sharp minded I again ate to much coffee beans, crack for the cheep. But it is awesome, I'm so sharp with it. I bought today again a new one. Konstantin is writing on his paper how to create great companies, I was working on posting 20 LinkedIn posts, they got some good tracktion (one with 10k impressions and one with 30k).

We made a walk in the San Francisco bay park and I saw a family singing Christmas songs, I joined them for 3 songs and sang heilige nacht still nacht on English with them. They where impressed by my good voice. We also today did something that we do very seldom, watch something just for joy... we watched MR.Bean at christmas! Insane, it is art on the highest level.

I also kept reading my biographies and learning about tech.

In my learning diary today: Charlie Chaplin: "Life is a tragedy in close-up and a comedy in long shot."

Good speeches and propaganda has one clear enemy that gets attacked multiple times... a good speech focuses only on one enemy.

Some thoughts:

Germany is still the 3 largest economy by total gdp output after US and China... But we are more and more lacking behind. I made some research over the last days. What I found out was that we are very good in engineering and also in heavy manufacturing, we are good in services in general for worldwide B2B, but what is missing are the big tech consumer players that have high margin with software and data. We have no Google, Meta, Microsoft, Apple, LinkedIn, Snapchat, (YouTube)... when I think of stuff that I use on my phone there is no big German / European player. Why does it matter? because they are the high margin business models and they have the data...

So we in Germany miss the big tech consumer software players.

Secondly I was thinking what is the problem for me of starting a startup in Germany right now? I found two major points.

First: I cannot fire someone fast (if you read biographies of great founders, this was always crucial) the employee has in Germany to many rights that you have not the ability to kick out people of the team fast. Because as we know one spoiled apple spoils very fast all other apples - same for teams.

Second: People in Germany are not anymore used to suffering and working 6–7 days a week, they also want to enjoy life. I feel this is still different here in the US, where you can pay people 750k a year salary but then they also grind all night long.

I was curious about what you think about it...?

Because you seem like thinking a lot about Europe and Germany and how to speed up progress again.

it's basically penetrating a wall with a hamour and when you just take a hit everyday it is only a matter of time when the wall brakes. trust in time.

add: I texted also the 6th time person from tokenize It to cancel the contract with them that every month leads us to pay 580€ randomly to them.

And i figured out... I just will keep messaging them until they cancel it. I don't care how often they say no. they said allready 8 times no, and if it's one more 8 times. I don't care. and I figured out this gives enourmous power and strenght. Because I know over time they will give up and I will win. To learn that you just have to keep beeing stubborn is the greatest weapon was allready so often helpfull for me. and you then can get everything.

I hope nobody will read this here... if so, please keep it for you.

today is christmas, and I worked yesterday until 3am and woke up at 10 today... my family is celebrating in germany. I started working on LinkedIn posts yesterday. I posted 10 to test what might work and what not. then I delete the bad performing and only keep the good performing... and analyze why they performed good, to get better.

Also yesterday was the first day after 7-8 months where I am at Zero "schulden" again. We had for 3 hours a long conversation, me and konstantin over money and then made everyting set to zero his bank accounts and my. We cleaned everything up. deleted bank accounts so everyone of us has only one.

oh, one more thing, people at arcadia didn't liked us anymore. So we called 15 friends to take us over on a couch and got to one new place after some struggle with the bart. We are now near the San Francisco Golden Gate Park, actually really beatifull. Yesterday at 23:00 we went to a grocery shop, everything was raining and we bought for 110 Dollars groceryies and made the best chicken wings with rice and coconut milk sauce ever. We ate them like people that did not ate for a long time a good meal (was actually also true, we didn't ate over the past week something) because of lack of money. so this was a meal from heaven. How could we bought the stuff?? we got the first payment of the deal with Zion to make a video production for him for 6k.

Yeah so time here is kind of painfull but also the greatest ever. it is freedom.

I also finished the Benjamin Franklin Autobiographie and Biographie. Now I started a 44h Biography of Adolf Hittler. It is interesting to see how he catched and captivated the masses.

We figured out that we can listen to every audiobook on nearly 2-3x and get things so fast done this day.

I also started to love coffee beans. I allways just eat them raw. They are like crack for me. But hopefully not so devistating.

We are still searching for meaning. But the fog gets clearer.

Oh and the 10 posts i made yesterday got today allready 7k impressions, this is good for analyzing.

today I work on the spectacles AR glasses application.

Yesterday I wrote a long letter to my other grandparents that I normallly don't do so much..

Sex is still missing.

this will be the first day of the days where I take more care about how I write what I write here... I be carefull is one of the most important trades to make something great. I decided that this here, I want to be something great. something with real inner thoughts, struggles, emotions and inteligence. so let's start:

"Greenlight" today i got a new greenlight, suddenly in my bank account was standing +300€ and there was no other way, then that it came from them. from the most loving grandparents I have. Money: money makes you happy when you have no money. money makes your actions bigger, when you have allready money. money is a measurement of how much value you bring to the world. so when you earn low money, you bring low value to humanity. So it is guid to thrive for money, because you only become a lot if you bring value for humanity. I think people don't want to believe this. because they are envy. money also makes you not a bad or a good person. money just amplifies everything that is in your personality. and since every human has a dark side, oyu just think that these people are more mean or do more bad, but in reality they just play a bigger game and therefore their dark side is also bigger. MONEY JUST EMPLIFIES, it is like a good Megaphone, the megaphone doesn't make you ssay good or bad things, it is still the person behind it. But the megaphone makes you hear this things louder. So when the person has dark thoughts, you hear them louder. When the person has good thoughts you here them louder.

And since humans are trained to see the bad things, or the enemy's better then the good sides of something we just get lost focusing on bad stuff of rich people. Therefore a lot of people don't like rich people.

They don't understand the law of amplifying.

today something weird happened. We got Money. and it is interesting how fast you then come into the mode of spending it.

i got today a christmas present from my dad via amazon, we now interact more again with each other, this is good.

i bought books from people to learn more about history, I bought Benjamin Franklin, Adolf Hittler and some other biographies. "I would allways spent money for a good book".

flights to germany still 340€

flights to germany still 370€.

I watched yesterday a doku about how the iphone actually got produced. Learning: "everything is a process", there where no such thing like one great Idea of the iphone and then they build it... it was a konstant struggle with it and refinemend, refinemend over a long period of time. so basically everything is just a process. every great thing that we think got invented from one smart person, was just a long process with a lot of smart people involved in it.

Everything is a process.

no sitting here in the Haas in Berkely, everything empty, I'm the single one student here. there are no other people on the whole campus. everything empty.

today got clear that I will be for the first time in history not with my family at christmas. This is like a migratory bird that went south alone to find the right place to life and love. it is not easy. and it is painfull.. it is the rule of everything. You allways want what you not have, and you appreciate it more if you have less from something. These days I appreciate my family more then ever before. I'm proud, loved and in love with them. But still beeing here in US to catch more greenlights.

what should change in the world? Humanity should not die. Humanity should further develop and get stronger. Humanity should be happy.

the only difference between people writing an exam and us is that we get our grade not direct afterwards. Our exam is building the greatest consumer brand and company out there to make billions of lives better. I truly believe this is my meaning of life.

second day where we slept on the couch here in frontier tower: elon musk "i think if you want to start a company you have to have a high trashhold of pain"

looking everything about the best entrepeneurs.. how they worked, what they learned, analyzed and read biografies of all of them.. together with konstantin we look every old possible video of elon, steve, lary ellison and everyone that created great companies.

how they get teams together, what they focus on, how they showcase products... etc... how they speak. It's like we are doing what people normally do before they have to write an exam. they learn everything they can about the topic. We do it for great companies.

my plan: finish filming job, programm AR glasses, go to snap office get AR glasses, go 24. to germany, meet family, programm more AR experience, go to munich, show it Darius, get 50k, go to bali, then india, then china, build first janta product.

i want a bit more movie type shit again. what do you think?

stories to tell: -birthday present from konstantin (cake with arcadians) -4 chicken in bag party + morning Eli with gun -china dinner with chinese guys -china clothing brand office idk there are more.

there are some simple things to get more confident that allways work: fresh haircut skincare workout smile +travel

had today call with doug, sales call with zion to make production video for them... Konstantin yesterday made like for 350$ a some design work. I feel motivation again. I see a small stripe on the horizont.. the fog is getting less dense. isnt it interesting.

I could go home for christmas theoretically? lol. and today something weird happened. darius called me, he actually appreciates my willingness to do things that other people would not do. he actually was one of the single people that would bet on me, when others think controversal. I highly value this. he would invest 50k with his new fund when we get the thing running and can showcase him the social interaction app. thats motivating... also what is the win in the game of products... the win is developing faster in silents then anybody als and then release something insane great with a big bang. the big bang is the moment where you can be proud. so there is no other way to play the game. just build it until it is so good that you have to show it to people. I finally figured it out, what the game it is that we crafters, sellers, builders, play.

isn't it interesting?

I watched yesterday all the old videos with konstantin and we experiences a lot. actually a lot. this is awesome.

there is light on the horizon.

life is kind of weird. it is the first time that I will maybe not have christmas together with my fam? or maybe not? when we have fast enough some cash in idk, 5k or somoething i would go for it. maybe there is actually a way to do it. I have tomorrow a call with a guy for christmas video stuff. I will close with him the deal and then we will go to germany for christmas.

but in generall it is actually interesting what life does with you, when you try to change the world. but also don't know yet what... what is important? love, friends, experiences, impact.. money, what is not important? dump people. but actually there are a lot of people in the void. and less people that actually build. konstanin is a builder. he is doing stuff very fast and just build them. appreciate this.

a good haircut is worth millions of self confidence.. so buy it :) Saw the girl that I was looking for over the last weeks... went to her, asked her, got a "I have a boyfriend", but feels good. Now uncertenty is away. Uncertenty is way harder than getting a "no". Nice.

struggling around with uncertainty is really painful. But i figured out that most of the great people had this period. I talked with Spencer Kinney, he was in this for two years straight before now he had something that seems to work out with the greatest investors in the bay area you can get. He started working on 4 completely different things before. Same story I heard from Sophie Defauw, he know founders that changed a lot and then built the successful wolrd changing thing. We are playing here a power law game... so everything will feel like failure... and success is unimaginable 1000x bigger. So there is nothing like everage pain and everage succes. this game is eather you are in the state of death or you win very, very big.

we changed the location from Berkely Arcadia to 20 min walks away Berkeley Hills. Thanks to Eli AI-Shamari, he lets us stay at his founder co-living here in the mountains for free for two weeks. We still have a shortage of money, but I still told the girl that I met yesterday and we walked the fire trails around to see the whole buty of berkely and San Francisco in Moonlight, that some day "I will change the lives of millions of people", but she had a friend. But like men do, they think this doesn't matter so I was trying to poje here out of the relationship, not so good. So we went back, but we talked about live, sex and mission and it was kind of cool, maybe around 7°C. Eli made here a big party and we had firsthand the standart american experience. One guy called Shaileesh brought 4 chickens in a bag with him.. other people brought wine and coocies and we created ginger bred houses. Still most of the time im thinking about what is truly true. What changes the world.

today in the morning I stood up and went upstairs to the living room and the first thing that I see is Eli with a gun shooting coca cola cans - America I guess. Second one was I called the two 14 year old girls to coach them in the right direction. And then Konstantin cutted my hair, no I look like a half chinese but german boy with "Topfschnitt".

Berkely is such a oddly place. Sitting at strada, walking around the law school, seeing the bell tower and all this young people. I called yesterday in the night the mom of the girl that I talked with... she lived in Dresden 20 years ago. Now she is an AI tutor at deepmind, together with his husband. His doughter really impressed me, but she has a friend.?

no I'm sitting here, it feels a bit like a switzerland alps Hut, in the hills with great view and the friends you work and party together. I'm really thankfull to have such an experience rich life.

had today a good talk with my mother also about china and us... I'm really thankfull of beeing so close with my mom.

also there were this Lary Ellison talk when he was young... He was also in Berkely :) Same for steve Jobs... he was in Berkely... Same for xyz. so many great people have a relationship to berkely, I Like it.

also there was this girl today at strada... I watched here, I saw here allready again 4 times before there.. today I putted a self painted business card in her back. maybe she will message me maybe not. I don't have the expactations for it, so I only can win.

now I'm sitting on the roof of the law school seeing the sun and listening to the only 01099. "ich bin auf dem weg keine zeit zu verlieren... sag wie soll es anders sein?"

Berkeley is the best place in the world to search with this 8 Billion other humans for the meaning of life. It seems like that everyone, age 57, age 38, age 28, age 21, age 18, age 15 are looking for it.

We all suffer with it, we all search for meaning, we all search for a place in a world. And everybody thinks that he is the only person that faces this... THIS IS WRONG. I founder that everyone is at enytime in search of meaning and the correct answers for life. Which leads to the "erkenntnis" that it is allways like this... that I have to like it. because I will otherwise hate my whole life. Thankyou Wolfram Thurm for this opening thoughts.

Today happened also something very special. the first time since two years my dad become a HERO for me again. He was one of the major people that built a School from scratch in Dresden for 50 Million Euros. This is insane.. He lead two of his kids to the best magicians in their age groups in germany. I'm finally proud of him again for something - which brings me to tears. I'm really proud when I hear this.

Having parents that are Hero's feels as is one of the most important thing.

He constructed kind of a factory for educated humans from scratch. There was nothing before... There was just dirt farmland erea and know is standing there one of the most hightech waldorfschools in Germany. He constructed the buildings, made sure to get goverment support, got investments from other people, made decisions, took the risk with 10 other people on their own sholders when it fails. thats bold. Thats strong.

But he also told me about his "visions Suche" which showed me... everyone is all the time in search. I thought you figure it some day out. But it seems not to be true...

The only thing that changes is that you get more used to it over time.

also I'm not scared anymore. you know, I will never die, by not having money anymore. It will maybe be disgusting, but never so that it is killing you.

we got today 2 weeks more of free housing, which is very helpfull, because it will lead to time, where we can just think and build.

I think when you ask a lot of young people what they are most missing these days it is connections with the people direct next to them. It’s weird, we live in a hyper connected world but still everyone is telling about loneliness.

Today we live in two worlds, there is the digital world and the real world and we spend more time in the digital than in the real world on a given day. For me it makes no sense why we have to live in two worlds. Why can't we have one merged world?

There is one company that tries this, but they really don’t get the point. They try to replicate the phone in front of you. I think they are villains and they would get the complete monopoly about connections when they are the company that succeeds. They are the villain.

this thing should be built by people that truly have a sense of art. Otherwise it will hurt humanity.

currently we learn to endure pain... but I wrote this allready one year ago, and again the year before. maybe this is just life?

i have this thing in mind and it is not leaving. a hyper conected world in realworld. conectivity and informations presented seamless and in realtime. You have just by a blink of your eye all available informations about a person. you can ping, experience people in your own world but in the real world.. imagen you inviting your friends playing a overlay of the realworld together. Imagen you can generate every artefact that you want direct in front of you. imagen having like you have different maps in polytopia, you having different real worlds that you can select every morning to play?

when you just look in the faces of young people this is interesting. You see all there worries, all there struggles and yu know the interesting thing is. Everyone has it. Everyone has his own shit they struggle with. Is this not insane? is this not insane that our brain allways searches for something that it can struggle with? it lies in human nature.

What would happen if you could see fro every person struggle? What would happen if everyone shares his struggle with the people around them? Would people help each other? would this create extraordinary less pain in the world?

would a perfect world come out of beeing hyper conected in real life? right now we spent more time beeing conected in the artificial world then in the real world. which leads to less relationships in the real world, which leads to less sex in the real world, which leads to a declining humanity.

what if we could create this same conection / conecting feeling but in the real world? Why not just pining a girl that is sitting next to you instead of waiting until she puts of her headphones...?

why make womans allways weird things to your mind in the wrong situations?

now I'm in the fighter mode. Nobody will kill me, nobody will win against us. We will destroy them. Nobody will stop us in making the world a better place. I truly believe this and janta will be know in not so long time.

we will fuck you!

tokenizeIt is fucking us 6 more month :)

missing my family. coding here to change the world and singing christmas songs by myself. no money, no family. just work and changing the world to a better place.

First: When I was 14, I convinced my dad to open a stock account for me and I started investing. I put all my savings into it, and it quickly grew to €3,000. Then I thought I was the smartest person on earth and started investing in riskier things. One week later, I had lost almost everything. I was 15 at the time and I thought my life was over. I had messed it up. I deleted everything and stopped for a month.

Then I realized that life goes on and that I could learn and improve. I went deep into company analysis, fundamental analysis, and every book and source of knowledge I could find about investing. By the time I was 17, I had built my portfolio back up to €20,000.

This lesson was extremely important for me because I learned that life always goes on. In the hardest moments, it is just a matter of keeping going, learning, and pushing through. I have had several moments like this growing up, and I think I am in one again right now. It is painful, challenging, and also exciting, but most of all it is the moment to push through and reach greater heights.

Second: The most important thing is not which dragon you fight, but who you fight with.

When I was 16, I worked as the youngest intern in the biggest insurance company in Europe, and I had the best coach in the entire company. Not only that, but the department I worked in was the youngest and the fastest-growing in Europe.

This taught me not only how to deal with rejection, which you get a lot of in sales, but more importantly that the people around me have the biggest influence on my success. Since then, I have taken this very seriously. I would rather be hungry than be surrounded by the wrong people.

This also applies to the company we are building. It pushes me to only hire people I genuinely admire and want to become more like myself. In my opinion, this is one of the most important lessons of my life because it affects every part of it. I always try to surround myself with greatness to become a bit greater myself.

Third: Not caring about other people’s opinions is a skill I developed over time by actually executing on things.

I learned that when you care more about the mission than about what other people think, you get much further. I dropped out of high school at the end of school, not because it was too difficult, I was actually very good at it, but because I believed I was learning the wrong things.

Everyone told me to stay and said it was the stupidest decision of my life. Today, I believe it was one of the most important decisions I ever made. It proved to me that it does not matter how strongly people tell you not to do something if you truly believe in yourself and make your own decisions.

Since then, it has given me a strong sense of being different and trusting myself. That trust leads to higher self-confidence, which then leads to faster execution and faster learning in every area of life.

I'm confident it was the right decision, but it still feels horrible.

the first time I fired someone from the team. It's actually not nice. It's sad. You pull from someone else the visions, the motivation, the work etc.. from the earth. It's horrible.

Yotam -> Fired.

if you would decide for beeing special or beeing hungry, what would you choose? i think I'M special. I'm different and therefore I need to do everything that other people don't do. My live is forced to do things that seem not possible to the normal ones. the world is very difficult when you try to make things simple.

"I think we just have to have fun and appreciate the situation, some day we will look back and very likely say -> this was actually a fun time. this was the time where I had nothing to eat, don't know anything, but also nothing to loose. So enjoy the time" It feels this days hard to enjoy, because we are pushing on the limit, to build something that helps all of humanity. we sacrefice our own life to help humanity make progress forward. this is the bigger mission.

but still it is not everyday fun. not every moment is fun. there are moments more often, where we don't have money to afford food.

but arcadia is the best, we are living in arcadia with the smartest people in the world and get every day exposed to it.

Arcadia will and has shaped me allready in the best possible way.

simplifieng does magic. Steve Jobs, Elon Musk and 20 other biographies that I read have in common that the great people try to delete "unnecessity". I try to practice it too.

teaching people and yourself is allways highest priority!!!

reading is the path to succes.. when I can read everything 3x faster I will be 5x faster then the other people. I read currently on 2x pace everything that I need.

like bill gates said: read a lot of biographies. AGREE. Biographies is the best source to learn about live without experiencing it. Biographies have a naturell filter for good decisions. You experience the most succesfulls peoples decisions and thoughts in First Person View.

I think it is the right decision to fire Yotam from the team. He is not capable enough. We have to be rigorous or we will die.

Talked with a chinese VC today, they are insane termsheets. Be carefull. But they are also way more outcome driven then US VCs -> probably because they have less money.

We now built JANTA -> to create the biggest tech company in the world. I think our biggest product will be AR. Because AR will fundamental change how people see the world.

this is interesting. some weeks ago I started making konstantin think better infiltrated in him the thinking of true thinking and now he is doing the same on me and is infiltrating the thing of skilling up yourself into me. hard but true.

healthinsurance is actually pain. trying to raise small amount to don't die.

arrived yesterday back in the US, wuhu. now grind it out to get some angels and build the product.

the aircrofts lifts up slowly his wheels from the ground and with every breething of a second we see more and more of the skyline of Shenzhen. and it feels again like a moovie. It feels like beeing part of the greatest live possible.

with less then 20 dollars left in total but a life worht living. a live like a movie. and I'm highly thankfull for that. sitting here in the plain again. seeing all this "fremd" people.. seeing the clouds. sitting next to my best mindshared person and experiencing the world. the world in his roughness, beaty, flaws, richness, lovlyness.

thinking about how to make the world a better place. about how I can contribute. about to make things that matter happen and help to make this place here on earth, here in the solar system more exciting and worth living for everyone else.

I'm very gratefull of experiencing this kind of movie.

tommor morning before we flew at 1pm we visited a big clothing brand and manufacturer here in China. they produce so high quality products - a t-shirt for 6-9 dollars, a hoody for 11-16 a zipper for 12-18... and allready shpped here. the women in the entrance bought us food for breakfest in a local small shop and showed us the chinese breakfest tradition. she was so kind and she was so happy that we were there. it was kind of stunning. all the people want to make pictures with us and you feel like you'r the god, the hero. thank you for this awesome experience China. we so clothing, in the highest quality. for big western brands... all manufactured there. and she showed us around. -> then we want for 1h with the DIDI (uber) to Shenzhen airport, made a very seamless checking and while waiting for boarding having calls with US/europe investors to make the thing happen. idk. what to say.

also yesterday was a crazy day. we visited 4 hardware Factories that assemble and produce chips and other electronic boards and devices.. the one company builds boards for Infineon,nvidia, intel and other major players!!! everything here in Shenzhen and the cities around. it is incredible to see how hard these people work here to make the live in our western cultures happen. we got invited for dinner from our last company that we visited and had a incridible rich and foodfull dinner with them. we head around 4h dinner all chinese quisine and tradition, they showed us around and told about China, Chinas plans and what is important for them.

actually we in the US think a lot about China and worry.. actually China don't really thinks about the US... they just think about how they can grow faster and develop faster. they don't really care about US.. they care about China. also she told us and a lot of other chinese people told us the same... that China is now heavily trying to improve their quality of products.. they hate the image of bad quality for made in China products. they want that this is a sign for high quality.

the evening was also out of a moovie. they payed for everything. they invited us to local other stores to drink hot milk and experience chinese culture... when we wanted to leave they wanted to wait all the time until our Didi is arrived. it was a long wait... because we had again a lot of trouble with the chinese firewall and app system. everything gets blocked and when I wanted to connect with the chinese women on WeChat... I needed to auth... with my ID to get here contact. so this is something that is really annoying here. we were at an local egg store 2 day ago and konstantin needed to use his ID and need to make a KYC for his scrambled eggs.

so the whole experience is a movie. sometimes it feels like a escape room, sometimes like your the prince, sometimes just like humans living there live.

Shenzhen is clearly developing very very fast... all of China is developing very very fast.

I'm thinking sometimes what are the problems of other people? when I see people what do they struggle with?? because it deemed on me, that actually everyone struggles with something. i'm currently thinking of a girl. not only to fuck, but to have love. just love. also Idk. if chinese girls are my type. but we will see. and this money part, we need to solve this problem of insurance, we need to make the world a better place -> so we have to find someone who supports this!

thinking in thee plane / flight about how we get this deal over the finishline... from where and whom. currently flying above shanghai and getting insane good food and service on board. flying to corea and then from korea to SF. --> and hopefully they let us into US... otherwise idk. this would be very, very bad if not. -> then we have the last money to get to the hacker house. and then we need to find a angel to back us.

flying to China Shenzhen... isn't it insane :) see the world at 20 and make the life insane. like a moovie. feeling the movie here. and all this experience together with a loved person.

i feel very thankful for that. also I feel like life is for every human the same... there is no human in the world that has no fear, or nothing that he is not worrieng about, or that he is not sure about or stuff... like that. every human is fighting the same game. isn't that insane?

the insanity of life. is that we allways think other people that have what we have, other people have only good days, other people have only fun, other people only have success................ thats wrong.

it's me flying right now above the clouds. it's mee seeing the world. it's me living a assymetric life.

broke but insane.

someday I will look back at this time -> I will have a lot of money and think. what the fuck was that a awesome time... where you didn't had a lot of money and just was broke but going insane in the world.

thankyou for having an insane live.

when we were boarding the airplane -> we were not fully checked in. so they pulled us out. we were the last people. they phoned around and just 8 people were talking, clicking in insane speed on their computers. and dadaa.. the tickets were in our hands 3 minutes later. they asked for visas and stuff... I was thinking oh no shit. did we missed something? but no. we just were right.

the thing that nobody tells you is that the only way to get a joyfull live is to bake it full of joy and enjoy it. i feel like a loot of humans have this problem. they don't see the beaty of live anymore.

Okay, we go all in.

I texted Muis mom.

"Hi, bitte erzähl Miu nichts davon. Wie geht es euch? Wie geht es Miu? Kannst du mir sagen ob sie aktuell einen Freund hat oder ähnliches und ist sie schon in Australien oder noch in Dresden? Liebe Grüße, Tade"

Saw this bolivood moovie with the Indian heroes. That didn't wait. They just do it. Gor inspired from them to just start...

I feel like I need here just mentally. If he can love me like this here. Without money but with a mission. Then she is the right one.

She knows me best. She believes in me. She can give me the energy to get this 10M round done.

Maybe I got right now more trouble. But live is only fun with trouble.

Miss u

every application based on social interaction will work good.

ar will change how we see the world. it's not a replacement of the phone, it is something completely different.

the thing that will make AR going viral are social interaction applications.

we live in a world of screens and we screen the hole day long and the best thing we do is screening... everything happens on screens.... we are a screening society.

what we do is putting a overlay of the real world, putting a flexible screen into an onto the real world. my guess is that the most viral thing of it will be seeing informations in realtime about other humans. store informations attached to humans... not somewhere in the web.... just directly atttached to a human beside his face. looking into a street seeing what the people do, which music they here etc... these days the displays gotten good enough (META Displays). the killer applications will be everything that searches the net... and helps to kategorize people / storing informations about people around there head etc... I think the first thing that you allways want to have when you look at a person is: -Name -Age -Backround -Current Goals -what you talked about before with this person.

I can imagen everyone living in a different world but all in the same place. Why should not everyone have their hyper personlized world. Why should not everyone have the ability to change the colors or the brightness of their real world?

also I sleep here on a selfmade couch bed in the living room basement in arcadia. it doesn matter. it's shitty. but the right people sourround us. therefore it is good.

we have no mony to spent anymore... just 500 dollars for the next 2 weeks. thats not a lot. because we also go to china etc... so basiclly we have nothing. but we will survive. we allways survive. and the goal is to fight the problem. but for context my later self is hopefully proud of me not giving up.

-teached yotam. setted some goals. new tasks for the next days... it's just about executing the right things. fast. I like how we right now shape the company after our own thoughts how we bring things in to grow faster and build the best working team together. started with the book rule. everyone can put into everyones else calender just a book to read with a deadline. and when there is this book. everything else does not matter. the only thing that matter is to finish this book until the deadline. because growing and teaching is the most important thing. I kind of like this. secondly we really have as our advantage communitacion and fast execution. the is the highest lever that we can pull. we keep going with the podcasts. keep going with the other stuff and just allways pull the levers of faster... and better communication, which lead s to not working on stupid stuff.

how I'm? idk. if everything will work after plan. I feel like there are so many unknows. and we need to be so fast. that is insane. also this money raising part of 10M preseed is a huge thing. for firsttime founders raising 10M some people say maybe insane. so wee need to know why we actually need so much. to defend it and articulate it clearly.

-were today together with yotam and konstantin in escape room -worked on the risk model the hole night. -listened to book from book rule (jensen huang..) -started outreach to angels. -had 4h disscussion with konstantin and Yotam -had discussion with konstantin about how to integrate yotam... + how to upgrade comm. and learning. -booked flights back from china to SF. -> btw. idk if they will let us in. hopefully. I mean we make this country actually great. so we try to change something here in the country. so this is important! -there are so many things that can go wrong. and so many things that can go right. the difficult part is to go into the right direction and don't get messed up by noise. so the most important part is that we solve the problem. the problem of a bad health insurance that everyone hates.

i'm not exciting about it, I'm not worried about it... it's just a thing that have to get done. and so far there is noone that I trust that will solve that problem. no other company that I have seen. nobody. so we are the only valid company in the world that actually might be able to change this. so we should allways keep going. no matter what. no matter how hard we are to die. this problem causes people pain. and thats not needed!

today was demo day here in Arcadia... is cool to see some smart people presenting their ideas. and also I appreciate way more know this place here. the pixels come together... there were so many interesting people here in Berkeley, living here and building great stuff. I'm really thankful to have this sourrounding here, this berkeley sourrounding.

btw. I did not wrote a lot in here in the last days. i have some doubts on Yotam. He is not the smartest person... but idk. the people that he said are impressing are not impressive. had a long convo. with konstantin about him. I'm not sure... every story of founding something succesfull is that you hear you need to be hyper pickey about who you pick for your team... so why do we have Yotam on the team? he is not technical, not really smart and also has a limited mindset. but he is maybe fast in execution. actually I think konstantin grew a lot over the last year. he got also decent technical, so I'm proud of him. and proud of his mind how it developed. I think I pushed him especially good into the direction to question more things and ask more often if this is actually true.... he often now these days troubles me up with the term. this migh not be true. which mean he developed this good sense.

also I figured out that actually asking good questions is the most important skill these days. there are answers for everything but the questions are the streets to new answers.

so developing the magic of questions is all the time worth high.

also here is so much noise in SF.... so many people that have a startup. but a startup means nothing!!! a startup could mean you started yesterday... or you have millions of users. so don't trust people that say they have a startup. everyone can tell stories. view can actually build.

called with Joey (hiteyjit) today. I think I could help them to get motivation again to keep going. That's good.

I want to thank to Julia Harms, Rome Thorstenson, Marmik Chaudhari, Spencer Kinney, Yiğit Kılıçoğlu, Alessio Toniolo, Erik Bach Ryhl that right now here in Arcadia make me think faster.

I started developing as a leader the plan with Konstantin and Yotam, how the most customer friendly insurance on the planet integrated in a new health system could look like and what we need to build.

We sat down foe 4h and made the tasks ready fir the nwxt 6d. Idk. Where this will go and if after the next 6d I will say it was wrong to go with a random guy named yota to explore and build stuff. But I trust my gut. And my gut says it is worth testing it.

Basically the goal is to build in 6 days a fully production ready and functionell insurance that was never done before + a new health system around it that nobody build so far so detailed and integrated. Sounds cool? Yeah, it's a lot of work.

It's meaningfully work.

From a company perspektive we tap into the most valuable thing in this century (data). So our goal is to collect and connect as much data sources as possible aggregate it under one user and the mage magic with it.

Today I feel actually really good. Because today since a long time I see a clear path again hiw this might work.

Still yotam in our room is searching, I hate him for that. But yes the founder livestream is really boring but we get free food here, what is good. The outside is not as beautiful as Berkeley, but you need contrast to value what is good.

Without contrast everything would seem Grey. So we need the bad stuff to see good. We need poor people to feel rich, we need unhealthy food to eat healthy.

The only way to appreciate stuff is by seeing a contrast. So when I go and travel alone that's the best thing I can do, because often we see a contrast.

Today there where some "mahnungen" I'm briefcases so yeah, was not so cool when my mom sent it to me. Hopefully she will be not so worried about it.

And still there is this weird -750 bill from scalable that doesn't go out of my had. So it is the struggle in the building and always changes of moods in every second that make it so.... yeah.

You always get kicked in your ass wgen things work good. But you also always overlive things that are hardly bad, where you think that's the end.

arrived at the actioners house for the actioners week... (https://live.actioners.com/). feels a bit tasteless and empty everything. this is crazy but, arcadia is one of the single places that actually feel like family so far. Arcadia is a family. here it feels again like artificially grouping people but with out conection with each other. But we will see. so far not the place to live longer then for some days.

so for me the most important thing si to help humanity solve some important problems.

idk. why but elon nailed it: "if we are succesfull does it matter to the world"... this is maybe the single best question to qustion your work.

but the believe to have a meaningful live is burning.

today I coded mainly right.. helped the german waldorf girls @freya to get a interview with tokio hotel and follow her dreams. I mean to believe in yourself is one of the most important things you need to learn. I actually believe these days it is the most valuable skill that you can have. because executing is not anymore a thing of smartness... because we have these days smartness in a bottle (AI) which means you only need to have the will and believe to start executing.

the last weeks was a bit weird. because i was not really motivated to execute stuff... because it was very diffiucult to understand the world. by understand the world I mean. it is dificult to understand why humans life and what is the meaning of life. so yeah. this brought me to read Nitzsche, Socrates, Asimov, Biografies of Obama and other stuff that I could found.

also the china thing made everything more and more confusing. idk why. but I feel that china might be the most important country in the future. because all this americans worry about and china only focus to get stronger. China works. US demonstrates. but this makes the whole scene more weird. because every european founder says to you... "go to US, when you want to have meaning". but this is not actually true maybe anymore? but people say it.

also I started to watch porn again. Idk. why but probably to have a time don't thinking about how the world looks and what the role of humans are.

this thing made me very thoughful and confused. like why do we exist as humans? how are we different to AI?

but most important the question that is still floating in my had is: what is the most important thing to work on.

idk why... but allways when I start something i think emediatly is this actually important. which often leads then to the conclusion no.. and my motivation goes down...

I found out that I have this 3 month cycles. I have an idea or a thing.... i go deeper in it I understand the problems -> new idea is coming into my head... think it is a better one... and the cycle starts from new... this is bad.

anyway.

it is so difficult to find out what is true and what not about life.

but I feel this makes you go forward. founders are basically people that predict the future and then try to build on this prediction.

so it feels that I should learn how to predict better. but for this I need to understand the world.

so today I helped the german girl (she is 14, smart). -programmed my stuff (this site to the end, so that it is now officially on the web). -still thinking about my goals for this year.

i was calling this year (living my 21 year on earth.) the year of achieving. every goal this year is something related to an achievement... the last year was the year of learning and experience... this year is fully achieving.. which means executing a lot of stuff..

my grandfather and grandmather donated me 500€ just on my birthday for the china travel. Im really thankful for that. I was a bit scared from it. because it was just out of the blue and I looked on my phone. but I'm actually so thankful. thanks grandpa, and grandma. your the best that I could imagen. I want to give them back so much. They are truly great. i'm currently still broke in a sense that I have zero money and our gmbh has a runway of 1-2 month ish...

but this thing makes me also shown I don't want to be dependent on my family. i want to have the succecfull startup. i feel the chip on my shoulder, because there is no other way. there is only the way of having success with the startup. id dropped out of school. so they expact that I will get things running. I also believe in it. but I still have fear. and doubts.

I just wrote this at 2am so it is still valid to say it is the 3. november. :)

sometimes I think I'm crazy, sometimes I just want to change the world and sometimes I only want to be a kid again.

Today was my 20. birthday. yeah. and actually it was really cool. but not that cool that you expected. I worked mainly and had a video call with my family. We were calling the day I showed them berkely. because I'm rigth now in the USA in berkely. actually.

it was really cool to see my family together again. i mean there is some bad vibes some day. and mom, dad are not happy with each other. and this spreads over. but today was cool.

also my one grandmother that I do not have so much contact with had a awesome thing to tell about how they produce there morning act.

• yeah so took some call with founders from sf for insurance -> im still not sure if this is the way to go...

• figured out today that i need to set goals. because that's the only way live is not so confusing. Goals makes live easier to understand, because you can channel your focus on things that you think are important.

• also I still believe we have no free will and everything is actually only a matter of what we observe which leads to, that our goals are also only a matter of what we observe. yes, but hopefully I observed good things.

• im still broke (around -600€ on the bank) but confidente to change the world to something positive. I still believe that those who think they can change the world and thos who think they can't are both usually right.