arrived in china.

Build my own new social network!

Connect the AIs

Connect all AIs in the world to a super AI network.

how should the world look like? Every AI should be able to talk and interact to every other AI.

Every AI should be able to Interact with every other AI.

What is a new technology or new protocol...

What does an AI need to interact fast?

It needs fast Read and write... To and from each other... It needs fast parallel reasoning.

Basically something that can fast exchange context with each other...

Maybe on a higher level.. why does AIs need to compress the things into our language? Why could they not use a higher way of compressing informations...

A way to share and remember context insane efficiently.

What is needed? An AI interaction endpoint at every website. [That is allways online]

AN AI interaction endpoint at every personal ai account. [That is allways online]

An Protokoll or way how they can very efficiently all interact with each other.. At the same times etc... [minimal latency and maximum context]

A way how every AI account can access this Web/ internet connected AI interaction endpoint system. and perform actions.

Connect every AI on the world with each other... AI network...

Should the actions be performed on the interaction endpoint side or on the ai that asks the endpoint?? Or on both sides??

I feel.in the best case most of the hardest actions.. are made on the endpoint side.. then the AI that goes out does not need to have so many capabilities and you can even access it with you own model or whatever...

You don't need to have Chatpgt first to test it.. you can also first onboard other AIs.. where a easy.

Endpoint is possible to develop... and then later.. when you know what you need to integrate it also into chatgpt...

But at the end you want to integrate with Chatgpt.. , Anthropic and Grok... also.

You could theoretically connect allready maybe by giving it an

There are two ways: Either you try to get all knowledge and make your thing better then chatgpt... knowledge.

Or you integrate chatgpt.. because it has allready so much knowledge.

The only path that I belive will have success is integrating them... otherwise it will not work.

Maybe start with integrating idk.. mistral or grok.. that are maybe more open to experiment... and then later the big people...

Give my agent a credit card..

• think and design new payment system from scratch..

Payment systems that Agents use...

What i want is that i can just use my chatgpt account, can describe it what girlfriend I want.. and it goes then out talks to other personal accounts from users and thinks and shares personal infos which each other, who could match and then arranges a in person meet up with me and her.

And I also just want that my chatgpt can go out.. open up a new bank account for me, cancel my insurance or make a tax declaring at the Finanzamt and submits it. And gives me just a short summary and confirmation.

And this basically with every interaction. I can just prompt it.

It is so stupid clear. I shakes me. It frightens me.

Who is the person that i would need to hire for this to build the technical new parts?? Ivan? Adavya? Idk.. I first need to understand who i need. When looking for someone to hire.

I will replace the need for social Media!!!

I will replace social Media. Because i hate it. Its not anymore good in what the original purpose was. The original purpose was to connect people.

It now is more there to influence people.. rather to connect.

It would start go viral.. When you just need to put in the email or chatgpt id or count name or whatever of your friendm. And then your friend gets a message and can confirm that he knows who introduced him.. and then also join...

Start with interaction endpoints in one very narrow industry (space..) example.. onboard in a university every Prof.. every setup of idk.. filling in a formular / filling in something / / /.. and provide for everything and interaction endpoint... learn from it how to setup interaction endpojnts...

Or even smaller communities.. Just in a company?? Where you make an interaction endpoint for xyz... for everyone??

A industry where it is a closed cicle with a lot of people.interacting with each other and creating stuff.

I mean a good question is... would there be allready a way to connect to chagpt (provide and interaction endpoint on a side of a company...) and the user then does not need to have an plugin or something and chatpgt could directly use the interaction endpoint?? Would this work?? Without plugin??

Does chatgpt standart has any such tool maybe not yet discovery.. but just I give it the domain or interaction point id.. and say.. do this..

What are the tools and things that chatgpt has right now naturally?

Browsing the internet, it can write code i think.. could it write code to send something somewhere and receive it.. and run it instantly and fast???

If yes, then I could just put it on pages that a lot of strangers allways visit..

And say.. click here to let your chatgpt fill in everything or set it up or something like this..

For example steueramt.. has then on its website standing.. use chatgpt to setup tax xyz..

Or stripe has.. Use chatpgt to open up the company for you...

And then we see if people prefer chatgpt to setup the stuff or not...

Or on orgos site.. Use chatpgt to setup what you need...

Or on konstantins side... stands.. use chatpgt to setup what you need.. etc. Etc..

Or on add manager of meta.. haha. Or on opening up a mercury bank account..

Or on idkk. Yeahhh grants.. and VCs.. Building this for VCs. Is nice.. it is then also easy funding..

So it would be... Hey, setup a call with him or idk..

But for grant.. fill in the infos for XYZ.. for grants...

Or for YC applications...

In generall applications...

Go to ray.. Ask him to test it with him. Build a clean page with nothing.. where you than ask Ray.. what do you want that it does.. what do you want to make accessible.. what context should it have etc...

Record the whole conversation and transcribe to analyse later..

But have a modular baukasten with you in a sense.. have a ready setuped cursor.. that can emediatly just build what he says.. so when we sit there and talk what he would need from a potential customer.. how he would need it etc.. and then what the chatpgt of the customer will be able to setup/ do / etc.. what interactions he wants to give it acces too... and then i set everything up in the moment.. ask him to put it on the website saying:

USE chatgpt to setup your project... Or something like this and lets see if people use it or not!!!

And this should work in the best case without the person need to install a MCP plugin (just works).

• i could theoretically setup sensors or cameras in the factory of him.. and give based on that context to the AI so the AI has all life progress and data.. Ans customers / users can also follow the progress through the chatgpt... interaction endpoint.

What i would find cool: Fly to Berkeley. Go to the campus. Onboard all girls there.. then let my chatgpt account talk to all.of there's and schedule dates with the ones that match. maybe with allready what and where to do...

what is missing. It is missing that an personal chatpgt account is the same like an API endpoint.

Basically something that makes your personal chatgpt account also an API endpoint.

So either I try to hack it by myself. Or I get access by someone from Openai. (They create it for me) Or I start with something where it is not needed that allready compounds and when it will be available gives me a headstart.

Chatgpt/claude Junkies. That spend at least 6 hours a day with chatgpt.. / claude.

Maybe ask them in the learn AI chat... for a solution to this problem... /someone who wants to help to find a solution.

Idk.. I feel a university hub would be the best starting point for it.. the question is only how.. how can I get the creation...

To connect students first manage activities etc. Etc...

I could also ask Yeet and Rome for help.. / thoughts how to solve the problem...

Setup two schedule workers to start chatting with openai people via email.. and schedule a call...

Connect on LinkedIn with a lot of openai people..

Ask Khalil for a intro to a openai peeson.

Ask marmik for a intro to a openai peeson.. What i can do allready is work out the protocol and way how communication gets made.. (MCP actually the best or not...)

Onboard companies.. until the endpoint is ready...

Interaction endpoints that people can manually start from the companies website..

Basically the company exposes vertain tolls that then I can use to interact. Woth first just manually

Just guiding the train to the arrival terminal. Im back in Beijing. What a life. Beeing around the world. Flying through every country, seeing earth, working with the smartest People on the planet on the most crucial problems. Thinking, thinking about stuff. Having adventures. Having happy people, having hard problems. I feel good beeing back in china. I feel happy beeing here. A perfect landing from the pilots. Its night 3am in Beijing. The rolling of the plane is slowly going to the terminal. I have my next hiring call scheduled for in 3 hours while the layover. Happy to be out of germany. Out in the free fruitful world. Out by myself. It was a quite fast flight, only 9 hours. Very fast. And suddenly I spawn on other side of the planet. Someday we will be able to travel here in less than one hour. Someday earth feels so small that there is no other path then seeking for the other stars.

I wrote a small song in the plane:

lovely lips, waiting to be kissed. Golden brown cheeks, Swimming clouds.

A women to be talked, A question to be asked. Lovely lips. Yeah yeah Giving me the swips.

Driving crazy minds, To the end, Lovely lips, Wanted to be kissed.

Singing songs of Lennon, To the end, to the end of heaven. What she thinks, I dont mind, Its allready, its already in my mind.

Lovely Lips. Yeah yeah Got kissed. Lovely lips got kissed. Yeah yeah yeah yeah Lovely lips, Yeah yeah Lovely lips. Yeah yeah Lovely lips. Yeah yeah

Bring them together, Like Ying and yang, And drumm them forward, Like heartbeat hearts.

Lovely lips. Yeah yeah Looking like...

Lovely lips... Yeah yeah Smelling like...

Lovely lips, To be kissed.

Allways, allways. Lovely lipstick. In between yeah yeah Yeah yeah. Thats live Yeah yeah. Yeah yeah Yeah yeaah ... ... ...

Why not with lipstick?

this is for my kids. Just be adventures, there is nobody that knows the truth, everyone is making up their own truth. Build up you own mind, and go out explore, find seek truth. Find the world not as fixed and allready build by others.. nothing is fixed and everything needs to change. So change it, with your own hands, by our own will. Believe in you. And as long as you do not belive in you, I will lend you mine. I belive in you. Yes you my little great boy and girl.

So I'm just sitting right now at the Abflug Departures, at the Departures of Terminal 2, waiting for my taxi that brings me my passport. I was sitting there yesterday in the evening, tried to check in Air China, didn't really work. So, yeah. Then I left the passport there just randomly, and now I was at the airport and saw that I don't have my passport with me. So I stayed very calm, called Konstantin, then called Paul from the house, said to him, Hey, can you look for the passport? He said, Yeah, sure. Then he looked there, and the passport was laying there on the bench. So I said to him, Yeah, can you book a taxi to the airport now? I give you some small cash on top. Then he was looking and was like saying, Oh yeah, can book it, costs like 93 euros. And yeah, now he's coming here and I paid him 110 euros, so I get the flight. And I hope I get the flight, but I now was walking to the Schalter and talk with them, probably 12:15. Until 12:15 it might work, later not. And yeah, that's the whole situation, and I basically wait to get my stuff. But it's kind of interesting that I stayed relatively calm. What a story. This is story. The first thing, we got to China today, I nearly did not get my flight because the passport was still laying at Fora, the house.

Driving with the train through the german terrain. Johns Love meditation in the ear. Left of me a window, nature flowing. Right of me Konstantin. In oposide of me a happy, pretty women. In front of me Chatgpt using my laptop to fill in a Kleingewerbe in the Dresden Register to get legally true the payment from Voyage. Im thinking again. There needs to be someone who helps all this people to setup an AI interaction endpoint, someone who gos to the dresden register and gives them an endpoint that my AI can fill in easier and interact.

Right now the AIs has to use our designed internet paths and payment systems. There needs ti be a secured payment system only for AIs.. that they can use.. a secure way to communicate as AI, a... for the AI and so much more... It's needed for us. For us users.

cleared yesterday the first stuff... started working with ivan together.. voyage messaged a lot of people for hiring.. now thinking today more about strategy.. how can I approach this with strategy? baked yesterday in the evenign cookies with my mother. what a thing. made a creative special add on.. we put in the cookie box little folded messages on paper.. like "scream loud" or "take a nother cookie and give it to someoe with a compliment" or "bring the trash out" or "this was the last cookie for today".. what a fun. highly recommended. you can put also a lot of household tasks into it. and suddely kids love to clean the table.

i also experience now the first day of beeing working mentally for someone?? not sure.. i think it is ot for me. i would also like to have more product hands on stuff. right now my focus is only on the hiring task.. but anyway.. got a lot of things done allready, have for china nearly every evening a dinner with a smart person scheduled that could lead to a hire.. and a lot of intros to interesting people.. now building the Graph.

today is the last day on the farm. i will visit my grandmother and then go to munich to fly from munich to china..

yeah.

oh i also influenced Albi to give me his Hoody that everyone liked.. haha what a thing. now i have a great, new outfit... love it and it is warm..

oh and not sure if i told allready, but i booked flights to china with my mother together for 31. dez. i will go to china with my mother together lol..

played here on the little farm some chess against chess pros and table tennis. good tomatos and food.

life is interesting. life is beautiful.. started my liquidity side.. to measure my liquidity.. lets se where this goes. .

here we are, flying on thursday to china.. working together with ivan and the crew. here we are. i made a new table at tademehl.com/liquidity... i still have this thing in mind.. that once a wise person told me.. what you measure will improve... it is quite true.. so you have to care highly.. what you will measure.. and you have to care highly how you measure it.. because this will make things improve.. so i measure liquidity of me.. my personal liquidity.. and put things into the log book.. when things changes.. now i start measuring. lets see which longterm effect it will have. so now this is the game. the game is strategy.

talked with konstantin, talked with my had. was i said? sisters birthday. brian hosting. bringing time. time.. looking on the past. what a joy. time time. what is he, doing. doing willfully not fully will. what i will. i will. will. this come? in which direction if it goes and joins and goes and goes further. along. along the turning way of life.

back in the earth days we also thought that the earth was a flat thing... how should we know what form the universe has??

maybe the universe is a fucking ball.. maybe the universe is flat... is the universe the same hight and length or which form has the universe... we just dont fucking know??? Is it then not normal that we try to go to the edges... how did humans found out that the earth is a ball?

We have to venture out into the universe to find out. Otherwise we would never find out. We are currently living in a map where we don't know the size, the form, the structure.. weird. The universe is waiting for us. We simply do not know how big the universe is.

I had today a conversation with Darius showed him the demo of Airsup. And I had a call with Mo and Kosti for Blackbird. And ate some good chili con carne and programmed in the morning. Now driving to dresden, have tomorrow a call with Khalil

Reality is allways weird, but often we try to avoid Reality. Most of the time founders don't try to face Reality, don't try to operate in Reality. They have there own mind construct and misbeliefs that let them make their own Reality up. As far as I know in most books it get priced as something that is great, something that lead to success. Im not sure if this is actually true. Maybe the successful founders are actually the ones that are really really close tk Reality, that really trie to get fast informations and answers based on Reality. Maybe this is one of the trades of Elon? To see and embrace Reality? Or not? Yiu hear both.. deviating Reality... it seems it is allways a switch or a graduall small lane.. where you have to switch between Reality and made up Reality. It seems like you need Maybe both. Its weird.

had a call with Ivan today.. thinking. he is also thinking. interesting.. met yesterday with Joey. still blackbird is waiting for more.. seeing the humanoid games in china. sitting here the laptop on the poker table.. me won 8€ + because played simple and not to emotional.. or just had luck :) in the Penthouse of darius... people going to bad. me making the thing that i found cool. that im interested in.. playing around with orgo systems and co... and co..

playing poker with the crew at FORA, vibe jazz in the backround. interviewing the most formost scott walter robots brain and coding the thing i think...

I believe in the future 99% of the traffic on the internet will be AIs talking to each other. I believe humans will use in the future for nearly every task AI “chats” as input interface. I believe every company will have a access point where an other AI can talk to. I believe every persons AI has the ability to talk to every other persons AI on the planet.

Because every company will have an AI endpoint this will happen: Users like me and you can use his chatgpt account to plan, brainstorm, build product concepts, whatever.. And then you could say: “now find me the suppliers of XYZ, or find me investors that would support it, or find me people i could hire for it, or find me a marketing agency to launch my product……. Usially today the AI would go out and finds the websites of the best fits he can comprehend. Then it gives you either the websites, or email addresses, sometimes it is even able to send emails out in your name.. This is all really bad.

I believe in the future it will be different. The Ai agent goes out, finds the websites of the people that fit, and finds there a AI endpoint that he can enter.. He than starts chatting with this AI endpoint of the company or person XYZ… The AI endpoint of person XYZ has all context about the company, recent financial data, inventory, pricing etc.. The two AIs now negotiate with each other. This will happen in realtime, faster then any human can speak with a other human, with more context that one human could ever speak in one day.

They share with each other insane amounts of context and try to find a good way to move forward..

After some time.. Your AI comes back.. Maybe it negotiated with 10 potential partners.. Two of them where no fit.. One of them recommended a friend and 7 of them you have a direct offer with the correct details and pricing that you can now have a look in + two companies where such a good fit that you got invited to dine with the founder.

On the other hand the suppliers got one new potential perfect customer.. And two of them wasted no time with a customer that would not fit at all and the companies can mainly focus on making their products better and their offers better, the AI makes for them the right customers…

So I believe this will come inevitably. The question is who is first. This is a pure scaling game, who connected first the critical number of factories, partners whoever to his system… and who makes it easy for chatgpt, claude and co.. to use the endpoint.

THIS IS A CLEAR NETWORK EFFEKT GAME WITH A MONOPOLY AND WINNER TAKES ALL MARKET! What is needed for scaling is the technology behind (look at demo) + cash, cash to scale fast.

It is like facebook. Who first has the critical mass automatically gets more users. With every user the network in itself gets more valuable.

—- Talking not only to business endpoints but also from private chatgpt account to chatpgt acount (or similar trust me bro AI wrappers).

Look DEMO, it works today.

I believe we will have in the future a net of personal accounts also and i can speak to each other personal account, maybe companies internally have it also as a separate private channel, school campuses maybe have it… but the concept stays always the same.

Because every human is using AI as the main input interface to the digital world (in the future also more and more to the physical world, but this is a different door to open), these AI wrappers will have insane amounts of context about you.

That makes it then super valuable if I could talk to each of a others person account. I could ask for a date, i could ask for tutoring, i could ask for help how to fix my bicycle, i could ask for friend nearby shenzhen, i could ask if someone is down to dance today tango in the evening at the montpellier plaza the napeoleone.. And always my AI model would go out.. Try to find people that match the request.. Find there AI endpoints.. Talk with them if their human operator would be willing to do or is down to do whatever the question is or just provides knowledge or whatever..

It will become a really crazy thing. It is likely getting like a different way of social web for people… a social web where you find people fast with similar interest, for help, for friends or whatever… a bit like early facebook.

Okay, no to the company.. The name is Airsup (Airsupply Technology LLC). Why because it is a message supplied over the air.. No :) because we thought about cool startups.. Airbnb came into our mind.. And then airsup stuck.. And we never changed it.

So Airsup should not try to build the models.. The agents. Airsup should just be the thing that spins the web the infrastructure.. That connects personal chatgpt accounts with other chatgpt accounts or business endpoints to talk and negotiate…

WE DONT TRAIN MODELS!! WE DONT BUILD AGENTS! WE DONT SELL TOKENS!

We just build what is missing. So you can keep using your chatgpt account and unlock insanity.. And for companies to get their context fast into a endpoint that other chatpgt accounts can talk to.. For that we should use all data that a company has allready bundled it.. + installing new sensors in them (especially factories) + scraping websites and making a short questionare and interface for every company so they can give it guidelines and important updates whenever they want. In general as more data the endpoint has desto better. Secondly the prompting of the endpoint should be very well done.

To don’t have a problem of chatgpt copying us and making us obsolete we try to fast focus on implementing cross model conversations.. So that a claude user can talk to a chatpgt user and more.. In this case our underlying infrastructure would be superiour to one that openai would maybe build that is likely only able to talk to other openai users.

WE DONT INVENT A NEW REGISTER FOR THE ENDPOINTS.. Obviously the AI needs somehow to get first context what a company is doing.. This is easy when there are only 100 companies in the web.. But now imagen 1 Million companies would use it.. Now you have a problem.. How do you make it fast that the AI finds the right companies?? Should you add a descritpion to every entry in your database?? No stupid the best database in the world allready exists.. It is called the WWW. World Wide Web or internet. We use the superior technology of register of the internet, by just attaching our endpoiints to the existing websites of a company or user.. AI models already go today online and search for companies throught the internet.. They are allready quite smart in doing this.. And with it find the right companies.. Now we just have to make them find the endpoints on the websites of the companies they find.. And vola.. They can start negotiating..

To find these endpoints we need to develop a custom Plugin, for each model provider (wrapper huch), so one plugin for claude, one for chatpgt, one for xai “maybe”... This plugin is then available first only in developer moder (see demo).. But should be fast to scale then be in the plugin store of the provider.. So everyone can easily download it.

With time ai models would later then also get actively trained to search for the endpoints.. So that less and less work needs to get done by the plugins, which is good, because then answer speed will increase.

This is not bad thing for airsup, because we would still own the connection layer… just the discovery will likely be later a trained thing directly pretrained into the models (or finetuned.. Not sure where it makes more sense..@dario amodei??)

What you would want to start with is scaliing as fast as possible to the critical number of users XYZ.. where it gets so useful that people use it all the time.

You let companies pay for their own api keys and users use their own private chatpgt accounts or similar… also on their own cost.. The main airsup cost is servers and hiring smart people and scaling to large amounts of users.

With this in mind i would keep it as long as possible for free. BECAUSE THIS IS A WINER TAKES ALL MARKET WHERE IT DOES NOT MATTER HOW FAST YOU MAKE PROFITS IT ONLY MATTERS HOW FAST YOU GET THE MAJORITY OF USERS. Who has the users will win.

Real Example Nr. 1: Talk with your personal account to 10 similar hardware suppliers, ai negotiate with them etc.. Get results back on both sides..

Real Example Nr. 2: Let one Chatgpt account talk to a other one.. Let one chatgpt account enter a network of 5+ connecgted people and talk to whoever you want..

Okay setting something up with Voyage team to consider. Important, mentally I want a no. I want that this is not a match. What i want is just clarity of my mind so this thought is not anymore in my had. But my expaction is to go in and that it will not match. And when it matches, who knows maybe its a new chapter. But if not then not. Im mainly attracted because of the people. I admire the people. and the mission is something I care about. But still this does not mean that this is a fit.

Its very likely that I just write in herr next week.. no fit. Let's keep going with our stuff. The main question is: will i grow and learn faster when I would join them. That the main data point. Will i grow faster and do they have a problem where I meaningfully can contribute too.

I was thinking today about how to... why the phone is such a bad device for talking to you. And then I was, like, thinking and brainstorming with AI and you together, and you came up with some things, but I believe the main bottlenecks are the bandwidth of the input and the output. So this came back to me because I'm now spending so much time interacting with AI. It's not about the context what I do right now. I don't care about if the AI sees what I'm cooking or whatever. The only thing is to have deep thoughts and deep thinking, shared fast from my brain to AI and go back. And this brought me back to the time where I was with Ivan in Berlin together, and we were working on this kind of problem of, like, how can we make things come faster out of our brain, and how can we make things come faster in? And I was following their company sometimes, and the thing that I want to compute is it's really confusing, and it's an ego thing also. And I'm really right now... there's a part of me that is really screaming and hurting, because it's the first time where I'm thinking about maybe asking Ivan if I can have an interview at his company, or at the company that he then kind of co-founded together with someone else, and where also a friend of mine, a very smart person, I introduced him to the company, and he is also working there. And what I just want to say, it's the first time where I'm considering joining a company. And it is very weird because my dream is to make magic happen and build a company, lead a company by myself and have a great team. And they were first London-based and are now San Francisco-based. So I was thinking if this is completely stupid, or if it would be maybe smart to see what they do and see if it's a fit and see if it would make sense when I joined them. But it feels very bad because it feels like my ego side is screaming that it's, like, saying, Hey, you give up, or Hey, what you are doing? But the other side is, like, the company has really great people, and what they really want right now is, like, to work with a team and have some money to move faster and, like, actually work on cool tech projects and work on something that I believe is important. And as I figured out, this is one thing that I spend so much time right now, spend so much time interacting with AI, that it's, like, it's one of the problems that I would work on. I would either work on something space-related to make us multiplanetary, on something robotics-related to solve scarcity here on Earth, or on something that makes us interact more seamless with AI. Because the phone is just really bad, and they built this basically. I put the link afterwards to their website and also to you. You can look on the LinkedIns of the people. I think there are right now three people, maybe four, and they raised some money. And I mean, I know Ivan and I know also the other guy, Hitijit. I worked with both together already, and they are both incredibly smart. I really admire them. And I assume that the founder of the company or the CEO is also a good person. But yeah, it feels very awful. I don't know why, but I'm really shivering and I'm really sweating, and it's weird. But maybe this is, like, the first good step, because then I could work with very smart people together and could actually solve a problem that I care about. And I mean, right now this is one of the biggest problems for me when I interact with you, with AI. It's just not... my thoughts are just too slow to get out. And I mean, input is also a whole other dimension, and they are working on this, non-invasive BCIs. And they, I don't know how much they raised, maybe one million or 1.5 million or two million, something, maybe a bit less, but more than one million, I think. It feels super weird. And I would not say that I'm sometimes in rivalry with Ivan, but I was always, like, seeing it as a kind of motivation to see him, like, moving things that I want also to move. Not in a sense of competition, but in a sense of, like getting things done. And when we started working together, we had a lot of ego problems because both of us had a big ego. And I think we both grew in the last year a lot. And I mean, he joined this team, or he joined him, and he now became kind of a co-founder also. But I just worry about that my life is then not important when I now join a company and be just an employee. Or, I mean, I don't see myself as an employee. I see myself as someone who solves problems and who executes things very fast and who thinks in this, like, mindset of, like, a founder. Like, therefore, that's the fear. And the fear is also that it would be wrong. Then on the other side, I really care about the mission. I have the problem by myself. I really admire the people, the two people that I know, Ivan and Hetijit, and they are in San Francisco. So it would be a way to also be in San Francisco and make the first step into this direction. But I'm just very fearful of now committing maybe five or ten years of my time to this venture. And I mean, at the end maybe they would not even want me because of X, Y, Z reasons. I mean, yeah, so all these things come together, right? I just don't want to undersell me, you know? I know how much I can do, and I know that I'm a very good leader and make people... I'm very good at making people do things that I want. And yeah, what the fuck? It just came now to my mind. I had it already earlier, like for some time, sometimes it came up, of, like, the question if I maybe should ask if I can join them or, like, things like that. But now this was the first time where I considered it a bit more validly. Yeah, I don't know what to say. If Ivan, or if Joy, or if his founder should one day, like, read this. I really like your spirit and the taste of art that you brought in. That's the only thing why I consider joining you, because of this taste of art that seems to live in the spirit and the care. But... there's no but.

Introspect Blackbird:

• have one CFO only one person with access to the bank card! >> be insane strict with your finances? only one person with the clear responsibility? for the finance part. for checking every expense?? two or more people will find excuses, and make stupid expenses because they justify each other spendings.

• Plan always with true numbers, Raise money with true numbers. always list all costs, true costs?? it is stupid to go with a bad or insufficient financial plan into a project.

• always have hard deadlines in your contracts with penalty payments -> so you get reimbursed for every delayed day. waiting for something is the same = loosing money.

• Focus and spend less stupid money on stupid things

• Focus as a person and say no to other projects, opportunities etc.

• never overestimate how much more money and time it takes to bring a product to market. not only to build it.

• start always planning your cost with the costs for all legal and compliance for your product to actually sell it.

• inventory is stuck cash. start already before the mass manufacturing having deals for go to market, marketing, customers, partners. already have fixed deals with them to take inventory or start marketing emediatly. => you don't want long periods of negotiation while you have inventory.

• only bring something to Market you want to spend your next 10 years working on.

• only bring a product to Market that is truly 10x better in measurable metrics than what is out there. 10x is not something you can just say. It needs to be measurable in one metric 10x better. "Measurable" [unclear: true?] as long as you don't have a 10x prototype you don't need to start mass producing it.

• don't make sloppy short term fixes to problems. sloppy solutions / allway cause more trouble in the longterm. fix the real things, not the surface symptoms.

• don't invent something that allready exists.

• allway calculate. always calculate with as much context as possible upfront before you fight a battle.

• allway calculate and play through different scenarios.

• care insanely about making a 10x great product. everything comes always down to your product. a good product attracts investors, partners, customers.

• finance is the backbone of every company, when you break it, your company will break. be obsessed with your costs and spending especially monthly spendings.

• keep company expenses and personal expenses clearly split. only pay a monthly fixed salary nothing else. no emediate purchases for you or your employees.

• when you truly want to be a unicorn company have allway 12 month of cash in the bank that would cover all your expenses for one year even if we would earn nothing in this time.

• You have to know what you want otherwise you don't need to start it.

• you always want enough budget and money for good food.

• never underestimate in hardware the costs of moving things from A - B. shipping to customer, warehouse etc.... You don't have this with software.

• make simple true, ultra truthseeking financial calculations!

• don't try to build a startup in 3 months build it longterm think in decades, execute fast. but never compromise the foundation. take time and build the foundation thoroughly.

• every sideproject makes your main project more to a side project.

• have weekly progress meetings with your shareholders (investors)

• don't pay lawyers, Agencies for things you can do by yourself fast.

Take liquidity Serious!

Something that computes insane fast, something that has insane speed and output nicely answer and where I can input really really fast large junks of my thoughts.

btw there must be a bettee hardware system to interact with my ai to interact with chatgpt a phone is awfull

why not building a plugin for chatgpt that can super fast store data and retrieve data from a database...? Like selling hard drives but virtual ones.. where chatgpt can load context from allways like you want.. And load context in but very fast... Something that is super fast and structures context super smart and that can chatpgt acces very fast.

I was first thinking about Google drive, but maybe a specific custom build plugin would make it faster??

The general who wins a battle makes many calculations in his temple ere the battle is fought. The general who loses a battle makes but few calculations beforehand.

Okay, and now I give you some general context as of today what the situation is, because there's a lot to compute. So, the situation today is that I'm in Montpellier, but I have to leave in two days, because I'm in the room of Konstantin's girlfriend, and I cannot stay longer here. Konstantin left today to Dresden to meet there his family and his girlfriend. And right now I have minus 499 euros on my DKB bank account, which is fine, because I can have there minus 500 all the time. So there's basically one dollar left to go into minus. And we have on our GmbH account roughly 3 euros left. And we had an investor, Mo, a good friend of mine, that put 9,000 euros into our GmbH to make the Blackbird products. So this is left, this is not anymore there. And for Blackbird, there's some things partially paid and some stuff still open. Half of the products of the cosmetics still needs to get paid, and half, no, 75% of the cosmetic bags need still to be paid. These are both still open, and I didn't pay them yet, but the money is already empty. Then we have the point that it's very hard to bring them now on the Chinese market, because the problem was I did not have enough money to ship it to Germany. Therefore, my idea was to not ship it to Germany, because we don't have the money to ship it there, and also don't have the money to make all the licenses to sell it in Germany. So then my idea was to switch it to sell it in China. So now we have all the products are finished and in the warehouse of the manufacturer. And I was searching for people that can help us with the distribution, because we don't have a Chinese company. So we either need a Chinese company to open up, or we need to use someone that sells it for us. One person that I had in mind was Chamberlain that I met already. I was texting with him on WeChat a bit. It was for whom I made the deck. And then there are also some other companies. You can look through the emails to get context. What's the problem? The problem is that all of these companies want basically a budget or some money or like want a service fee or some stuff, but there's literally no money right now. So one idea was to go to China somehow, Konstantin and me together, and figure it out there in person, and either get a Chinese work visa or do it in a different way, or like go there and then figure a partnership out with someone. I considered a lot of different random ideas of like maybe a other company can invest in our company to get more money. Another way would be that I ask some Chinese friends if they would want to invest in the batch. I was also talking with Konstantin about if we just want to close the GmbH or not, but we said, okay, we want to finish the Blackbird thing up. But this is like right now the situation on Blackbird. And there's a lot more, but this is like on the head. The problem with Blackbird is we need to sell it, and right now there's zero sales. And we have all the units there, and basically the capital is in the inventory. I learned a lot from it, but it's, I mean, it's in the inventory, the capital right now, which is a bit a problem. And we don't have like any licenses so far to sell it because we don't have a company and we don't have this stuff. And then I'm thinking right now about what to do, what is actually my long-term goal in my life, because this will determine a lot of things, right? And I'm not really sure about that. And I'm thinking about, okay, what is, where, in which environment do I want to be for the next year to focus? Because I traveled the last year a lot around, saw the whole map, and now want to build a base in one place a bit more and compound there and don't have like so much traveling around. And I feel that Montpellier and here in Europe, I'm just with the wrong people. And the only places are Shenzhen or Guangzhou. And then one idea was to maybe take a family loan or something, Darlehen, from my grandparents. I'm not sure about that also, but I could theoretically ask them if they gave me maybe 20,000 euros or 25,000 euros, and I pay it to them back in the next like 10 years. I calculated already for Shenzhen, I would need roughly 20,000 euros for 12 months to survive there and for living costs. And in the US, in a hacker house in Arcadia in Berkeley, I would need roughly 25,000 euros for 12 months. But I mean, then in these 12 months, there need definitely also to happen something, because afterwards I don't want to ask them again. But I'm also not sure if they actually would have this money and if they would be able. The other way would be to somehow fly to China. I mean, we need some money for that, but maybe I ask my parents or my grandfather or whoever, I don't know how, and sell the products there and have then enough money to basically finance this, which is very unlikely that it would be enough money, because there's also a big problem that I have right now. I have from my PKV, I didn't pay the monthly things, so I have there a payment probably in the next two weeks or one month of 1,500 euros that I make, because the Inkasso people already try to get it from me, so they want it. And I mean, I'm very good with Konstantin, so we have also a US company. We have a US company called AirSub, and I was building some stuff for it, and Konstantin is focusing also on that. So there's focus going sometimes away also from Blackbird, because right now we don't really work so often on Blackbird, only like maybe an hour per day or something. Therefore, there's also not really progress there. And we work on Blackbird, not on Blackbird, on AirSub from Konstantin also a lot. So I would say right now it's quite painful, and it's maybe one of the times in my life where there's like just a lot of pain. It's like really, you think every day, okay, what the fuck is happening? And yeah, but I believe that I will go through and will come out very well prepared for then the biggest venture of my life. But this is right now the situation. Maybe you can use it and go out, compute more, you can read emails or whatever, and yeah.

LLMs are the new OS. it dawned on me.. what LLMs really are are organizers.. the updated OS that we have today.. it is the windwos the IOs.

"I don't think it's accurate to think of large language models as a chatbot or like some kind of a word generator. I think it's a lot more correct to think about it as the kernel process of an emerging operating system, and basically this process is coordinating a lot of resources, be they memory or computational tools, for problem solving. So let's think through, based on everything I've shown you, what an LLM might look like in a few years. It can read and generate text. It has a lot more knowledge than any single human about all the subjects. It can browse the internet or reference local files through retrieval-augmented generation. It can use existing software infrastructure like calculators, Python, etc. It can see and generate images and videos. It can hear and speak and generate music. It can think for a long time using a System 2. It can maybe self-improve in some narrow domains that have a reward function available. Maybe it can be customized and fine-tuned to many specific tasks. I mean, there's lots of LLM experts almost living in an App Store that can sort of coordinate for problem solving. And so I see a lot of equivalence between this new LLM OS, operating system, and operating systems of today. And this is kind of like a diagram that almost looks like a computer of today. And so there's equivalence of this memory hierarchy. You have disk or internet that you can access through browsing. You have an equivalent of random access memory, or RAM, which in this case for an LLM would be the context window of the maximum number of words that you can have to predict the next word in sequence. I didn't go into the full details here, but this context window is your finite, precious resource of your working memory of your language model. And you can imagine the kernel process, this LLM, trying to page relevant information in and out of its context window to perform your task. And so a lot of other connections also exist. I think there's equivalence of multithreading, multiprocessing, speculative execution. There's equivalence in the random access memory, in the context window, of user space and kernel space, and a lot of other equivalents to today's operating systems that I didn't fully cover. But fundamentally, the other reason that I really like this analogy of LLMs kind of becoming a bit of an operating system ecosystem is that there are also some equivalences, I think, between the current operating systems and what's emerging today. So, for example, in the desktop operating system space, we have a few proprietary operating systems like Windows and macOS, but we also have this open-source ecosystem of a large diversity of operating systems based on Linux. In the same way here, we have some proprietary operating systems like the GPT series, Claude series, or Gemini series from Google, but we also have a rapidly emerging and maturing ecosystem in open-source large language models, currently mostly based on the Llama series. And so I think the analogy also holds for this reason, in terms of how the ecosystem is shaping up. And we can potentially borrow a lot of analogies from the previous computing stack to try to think about this new computing stack, fundamentally based around large language models orchestrating tools for problem solving and accessible via a natural language interface of language. Okay, so now I want to switch gears one more time. So far I've spoken about large language models and the..."

so my emediate thought was.. we now have the OS.. but it seems there is not yet a good hardware that where it runs on... phones seem quite right rn. but it feels not correct that the phone is the bast hardware for this OS. so where will this OS run on??? where?

Fundamental things i belive will not change: The need for AI compute will increase by 1000x until 2100, maybe even more, but need for ai compute will increase tremendously, we are still at the beginning.

The future is fundamentally AI and robots

Just sitting here in the wilderness with my best friend, mindshare and venture partner after running 10.6km around from Montpellier through small gasses, big streets, dry fields and raw woods until stone came. Stone up. Stone up and then we are here on the top of the mountain. It is soch a beautiful feeling when you achieved something. When you stand on top of a mountain after a hard climb. Maybe thats what life is about climbing these mountains. But the hard part is not for me the climbing, climbing allways happens as long as you can walk. The hard part is sitting here... taking the moment in. So.im sitting here now looking into the horizon. Asking myself why is the moon so red. Thinking about how I can save my company from bankruptcy, oh not you wanted to appreciate the moment. Yeah it's hard. Thinking. About why I watched again porn today? Why? What a stupid addiction... in France porn is actually banned. It's crazy you can't enter it.. I th8nk its good. But a smart mind sadly allways finds a way. And then there is konstanin seeing him move forward gives me energy. Thats nice. I sometimes wish I could experience these things also with a girl together. But maybe it's this there is a reason why me and Konstantin experience these things together maybe. If you found this block please keep it for yourself. I don't like it.

Im right now again on a rock bottom point but others my think I have the best life in Montpelier is this not weird I think this is how everyone thinks others lives are... But I love my life it is an insane movie... What a movie beeing in the south of France!!! What a dance.

I was dancing Tango, talking to engineers. Engineering.

today cursor got bought by spacex, me and konstantin had great french lunch together and I'm rn. thinking about that it would be wise for humanity to build a tool that only humans can use and the let you message other humans.. basically a messaging plattform where you know when you get a message that it only could come from a human. because i send so many answer through my gmail by my chagtpt i now allways ask myself when i get answers back.. are you a real person that was writing this or was it also your AI?? this is a quite weird feeling. in my oppinion there should be a channel where it is clear that only humans can use it. build it. and in 10 years it will be relevant! is a cool problem to work on.. how can you make something so that no AI can use it?? and the same thing is true for the opposite, we also need channels that only AI can use.. im right now sweating my hell out here in the room. it is so insane hot.

yesterday we had a complete blackout of electricity here in this area. darkness for 2 hours. everyone went outside, small dark streets, dark doors, dark windows. people with phone lamps and candles. it dawned again. without energy, without electricity we would not work as a socity today. no internet, no light, no machine, no infrastracture... just off... litterly when you power the power off. you power us humans off. we are then just monkeysss.

so our tools all use energy. some of them use our human body energy, most of them use other energy that we also converted by our tools. so we made tools to collect energy to then use tools to use this engergy, to then create more tools to collect energy. @nepomuk you had a smart thought in this park in dresden. at the end humanity is leaping forward to do more with less. or in other words. to use more energy with less energy or in other words to convert more energy then we had before in our human system.

this bothers me.. because some people or a lot of people especially the people in new energy startups allways say.. yeah when our solution comes true.. we will have abundant free energy. but is free energy not a contradiction in itself. this would mean that mass is also free. this would mean that you and me are free?? so i would get you for free? interesting.

so this question bothers me. because maybe it is one of the things that we will allways strive for but never reach.. maybe it is impossible to get free energy for all. because it allways needs limits. otherwise people will use it just for random things until the limits. and there are allways limits for how much energy is available to us.. even when we would get all energy from the universe it would not be infinite.

Just went out for running and ended up dancing Tango and playing soccer with random people. Thats Europe.

also while thinking and reading his book, he came up with this three virtues truth, love, courage. for him it was a model for making a good religion, a good foundation for beeing a good person. i believe you can also take this to products. products should also have truth, love and courage.

im right now reading the book of Richard Garriott, and i was not sure what to write into the diary here.

and how to document my day, when im nearly reading all day long.

and im thinking about, how to make a good company education videos or audiobooks or whatever for me and future believers. like i want to record some things with peole of the old days (first apple employees, next, pixar etc..) what should the believ be? maybe everything should be around making great products with truth, love and courage.. maybe thats the question.. thats the headline: how others made great products with truth, love and courage. or just short. the way of greatness. or idk.. the way of building great products. the work behind great products. idk... something like this.

knowledge about the creation of great products. stories of the creation of great products. stories of great products.

what would be needed to get the same affect and posibility like in I Robot from asimov described viewing devices, so that we can experience our meeting person direclty in fron of us kind of part of our home, so that basically my home and his home merges and there are real rooms for viewing...

people have more and more meetings online, why should they not become more real? i think they should.

some days ago i had a conversation with konstantin.. im not entirely sure what the context was, but he mentioned, "you are really good in making people do things you want" this was a very kind compliment. and im thinking about it since then. he is right. usially i get when im with the same person in the same room, what i want. usially i can influence the direction where to go. usially i get what i want. i was really stunned about this realization. and im not gotton more confident because of that, which in my opinion leads to work then even better into this direction. i told him the story of the Jesus believer.. the guy that was sitting on the Heller in my home town. that took the bench home and sprayd it golden and had a contract with his god he believed in, to allways when he was going to the bench and someone sitting on the bench, he would talk with him about his life and give a ear and talk about god and his god. the remarkable thing for me was not his god, i really believe religions are nice to make you do thing :) but i like to form my own belief system and don't take a medival fiction as my worldview. but the remarkable thing was how strong he believed. i was talking with him for long, very long it started dawning, and we were still sitting on the golden bench. and i didn't believed in what he was telling, but i also don't want to make the discussion a stupid rant. what would you do? so i started asking just questions, logical ones. i tried to understand why he believes his god is the only one.. he also said to me that all other gods are fake, and the only real one is his (called Jesus) kind of from my understanding jesus is also only a kind of worker for his god, but it is the nearest thing of his god that has a name, so we talked therefore more about jesus, because talking about something that has no name is more difficult. so he believed in jesus and believed that all others are fake. and he was not saying this to piss me off, he was just beliving in it. litterlly.. and it dawned on me..

this is how you do great work. this is how you go forward and have a company. you be like him believing so much in your thing. so allways now when i talked with konstantin and i have the feeling that he does not really know what he is doing because he does not know what he wants.. i bring it up. you have to be stubborn, like the jesus guy. otherwise i will change your mind. and when i change peoples mind they will gradually believe in my stuff.. in my "Jesus". best, tade

crazyyyy i just text with the cofounder of pixar :)

what a nice thing i got instantly answers from some apple legents. i love it: how to start building a tech product?? You should start with people (and their environment):

• think about their goals and context

• and reason towards how systems might help them.

• Sketch; make mock-ups; prototype.

• Test; get feedback; discuss and reflect.

• Iterate.

"The best way to predict the future is to invent it." Alan Kay

what a adventure walking with konstantin through mont pellier hunting small boxes that weird people put somewhere so other weird people can pick them up. the game so called geocashing. i can remember how our dad allways had it on his phone or geocashgerät and when we were kids we went out into the nature, the green heide direct next to our small town and went to find this secrets and trade murmeln and shells. we went deep into the forrest running, trying to be the first one to find it. what a exciting time. im really thankfull that my dad showed me this, us. this was very special now in hindsight. we were in sardegna and picked up cashes. we where in poland and picked up cashes, in south america etc.. what a joy. so now today i was reliving some of this childness with konstantin together. huntin one street down. beeing astouned how many of them are here.. how many secrets of people are hidden. we asked ourselves. how much time would it take to find all gecoaches in the world??

what would you do now? sure. ask chatpgt how many geocashes exist. my guess was 5M, it were 3.5M. we calculated when you find 20 every day.. you need roughly 450+ years. when you find every day 100 you might get it done in 95 years. so yeah a true life mission.

we went back and had a call with mo talking about and thinking. how could we now bring these 2ooo sets to people. with care but also soon, without spending so much marketing budget. we are in montpellier now, with nearly zero.. we would need marketing budget to pay the marketing agencies, we are not leggaly allowed to seell in china by ourselves, our products are ready waiting in the wearhouse. what would you do now?

we will see one thought was to go directly to malls make there a agreement with stores, we stand there help bringing people, they have the distribution license. we will se which path we took. but there is only one way the direction of progress.

in the meantime im setting up my chatgp account more and more. i scrape old emails for context into google drive docs so chatgpt learns how to write my emails.. i setup schedule workers for blackbird and others.. i train refine them to write good stuff. not boring AI stuff.

i coock noodles with pesto.

i have a call with someone who grows organoids in space and gets stuff from the ISS..

i outreach to forgotten heroes.. (old apple employes, next people, napster etc..)

i setup tracking sysems for this outreach in google table..

i read books from adventurerers.

i listen to music.

i think about how everyone in the future will have his own robot and how everyone will interact not via email and stuff anymore but through there agents.. thinking. leoading.

How can I go forward when I don't know which way I'm facing? How can I go forward when I don't know which way to turn? How can I go forward into something I'm not sure of? Oh no, oh no

How can I have feeling when I don't know if it's a feeling? How can I feel something if I just don't know how to feel? How can I have feelings when my feelings have always been denied? Oh no, oh no

You know life can be long And you got to be so strong And the world is so tough Sometimes I feel I've had enough

How can I give love when I don't know what it is I'm giving? How can I give love when I just don't know how to give? How can I give love when love is something I ain't never had? Oh no, oh no

You know life can be long You've got to be so strong And the world she is tough Sometimes I feel I've had enough

How can we go forward when we don't know which way we're facing? How can we go forward when we don't know which way to turn? How can we go forward into something we're not sure of? Oh no, oh no

together with people that i admire.

i want to build a humanoid that i want.

what you want and what you not want? that's the question that most people actually try to answer. what i not want: i don't want to build a robot just for factories and other companies. i don't want to make the world more addicted and soulless i don't want to have a world with even less realworld human to human interactions. i don't want a world where we decline because nobody has kids anymore. i don't want a world that is cold and full of smock and anger. i don't want a world where we are not out in the stars. i don't want a world where we have more wars about stupid stuff like recources. i don't want a world where people have no sex anymore. i don't want a world where we have to work for money anymore. i don't want a world where people loose their purpose and meaning. i don't want a world that has not the human randomness and human inefficiencies i don't want a world where people only stay at home and consume i don't want a world where there are no challanges and adventures anymore i don't want a world where we can't go to space i don't want a world where the earth is destroyed i don't want a world where we cant experience nature anymore i don't want a world where humanoids are angry and bad and killing all humans i don't want a world where people have to worry about money issues i don't want a world where love gets burried i don't want a world without love i don't want a world without emotions i don't want a world without sadness, anger, pain i don't want a world without art i don't want to build something just to make money i don't want to do something just because shortterm it makes sense i don't want to swim with the standart crowd i don't want to things that are small i don't want to do something that is not meaningfull i don't want to work with stupid people i don't want to work with not creative people i don't want to work with pesimistic people i don't want to work with stupid partners i don't want to work with pesimistic partners i don't want to build something just for one person i don't want to build something just for 100 people i don't want to build something that is not emotional. i don't want that robots just optimize for good results i don't want humanoids to be cold i don't want working for money anymore.

talking with konstantin about past and future life while eating selfmade pizzabrötchen and listening to lennons love meditation.

but lets start with yesterday: it was the day where we want to the sea.. then came back and worked on kind and airsup. i got the airsup chatgpt to chatpg tool running. now his chatgpt account can talk to mine. and then in the evening we went to the bar kaleida, where i organized for him to play a dj set. it was basically a fully chatgpt organized real life event. chatgpt made all the reasearch, outreach discussions with the bar. it scheduled a call with the owner etc.. and chatgpt outreached to people in montpellier and invited them. lol. one other dj actually came and talked to me and showed me his email histors where "I" was chatting with him on french. not me, but my chatgpt schedule worker.. and then he djed i danced until 1am. free drinks, free food. at the end the owner pressed us 60€ in our hand. and we all had a great evening. i really felt new energy for dancing.. it was not like usial that i cared what other people might think, it was more like just feeling the music and just dancing insanly wild. like really white. me with my white house, dancing wild like a artist on stage. haha.

today we also splitted work also again into 2h work session on airsup and 2h work seesion on kind.. and then free the rest. it is remarkable how much more precisse things get when they are time limited.. remarkable you think way more about. is this right instead of doing stupid things. oh and i setted up my agent to also use linkedin and said it to send all of my linkedin connections one message. quite funny. it went through so so fast. really fast!!

oh and also through email etc.. it's just a new era.

Just coming back from blue Oceans and salty wind, warm sun and brown skin.

we went after working on some Blackbird meetings to sete with the train for 1€ per person.

This here is a Oasis, small French stores full of little surprises and tastes. Happy people drinking cocktails and vines. French flags hanging on old mansions with sandstone.

The tone of the mind is freedom and humanities.

Nuded men and women's swimming naked in the see. Taking the pleasure of nature without minding the society's pressures.

Wind curling the hair, open shirt. Blue, blue, blue water.

i also setted up the DJ set for konstantin, so we have today a dj evening and get free food and drinks haha. good special. i also now insanly increased the schedules task outreach in chatgpt.. now it is contacting people for private learning, for robotics, for blackbird all for me while it makes everything so that i get at the end calls with the people..

it generated allready 2 blackbird partnership calls for me. that were both really useful. i think in the future it will be that allways first AI agent talks to AI agent before anything happens from a real human. the Internet will mainly become a place for Agents to find the right other Agent to talk with.

i allready build a plugin for chatpgt that lets it talk to other agents.. now i think of letting one personal chatgpt account talk to a other personal chatgpt account.

oh we watched yesterday also I'Robot. it made me clear how much importance humanoids will have in the future and how much responsibility the people have that build it.

konstantin and me are basically constantly just in chatgpt. like litterly most of the day.

also with the view of the outside you are more willing to question and tackel things. and are more honest.

started splitting up work with konstantin so we have a model where he is the manager and responsible person of airsup and we spend half of the day on this one and im just available for him to use me, my brain and my time for progress and the other half on kind (humanoid robots) where i have the responsibility and can use his time, brain and energy. this is very interesting because in this way you have limited time to get progress but double power and therefore spend less time working on stupid things. secondly we learn both how to organize and set goals for other people and third it makes more fun. because you work together.

a huge point is also that you are when you look from the outside at something not mentally so attached to it. so it is easier to switch the wrong ways and with a view from the outside you often get less stucck into things.

on the go to barcelona to kosti excited for flying again.

thank you mother for your love when i was a child.

thinking of technology and daNCE TechdaNCE

dancing in my small room to contempary music like artist that painted his picture in programming language. joy. i created real art on this side. on the office side of my mother. thinkinb about cool things... and stuff..

a other thing that i discovered today is why solar electricity and use is so much superior then all other forms of energy we convert. because we will face more and more a heat problem on earth, not heat trapped and therefore increased by CO2 in our atmosphere, but heat produced by energy we used and that eventually nearly allways becomes heat. so if we would increase our energy consumption of today by 100x, which a future civilisiation will likely reach some day, and we don't use solar energy for that, we will heat up our planet by 2.8C just because of the heat energy after using this energy. ("using") if we would then go to more, there is litterly no option. because if we would use 1000x more.. we would heat up earth 28C, we don't like this. but solar radiation allready comes here and heats the earth up, so when we use it to get from it the energy, we don't create more heat then what is allready delivered to earth. when we use nuclear for example, we create a lot of energy, and a lot of heat, when we use geothermal the same problem, or wind or stuff like that... is all not scalable because some day we would then grill our planet just by using our energy.

i was reading today o neils book nearly ready and listened to some videos of anthrofuturism and a podcast that konstantin recommend me. i also asked a thought about: is their a fundamental factor that holds us back to have 100 Billion humanoids on earth? energy might constraint us, we have enough mass, we can handle the heat. second i think about how much labour will we loose in the next 10 years. i will reasearch and figure it out now. because maybe humanoids will litterly safe us our economic system. our high living standarts.

oh and there is a other thought. is nature, is biology actually bring back declining birthrates and stabilize them... like is it true that when people form a family and get kids. that the kids are then more likely to also form a family.. like are there actually genes and things in the upbringing of someone who grows up in a family that makes him more likely to start a new family? i mean everyone is growing up in a family.. why do we then have not the trend allready today? why do we have declining birthrates then? i mean my main question that i want to ask is: would it be that while we have right now declining birth rates and with it very low birth rates year over year that this would reverse automatically, because the kids that get more are more likely to have a family? because litterly only people that want to have a family and kids are the people who give their genes to the next generation.. which means that the genese of people who want to have kids will get more and more replicated and the other ones not?? but is this true? if not is there anything else that we can't imagen that will bring the birthrates up again?? or will humanity decline fast and then slowly in the same way we came here?

i mean it is weird also what the reason of declining birth rates in developed countries are.. in my opinion it is a myth that it is the better education mainly and stuff like this.. and it is a my that they now don't need kids to support their lives anymore. I believe it is more because it is a huge financial burden and oppertunity cost, especially for womens to have kids. so when we would give 100k just as a blank check to every mother that gets a kid... would we get more kids?

but the true reason is very likely just a lot of things that come together.. like not only one thing.. that makes the whole problem more difficult. but i believe our low birth rates is one of the most critical problems that get not enough attention that we have right now in the world.

when we believe in a future where we are a space fearing civilization as human beeings.

oh and a note from a podcast: the problem with magic is, that when you understand how it worked - the magic fades away. technology can be in its best form also magic, with the difference that after you understood it, the magic is still there.

interestingly i have someone who practices magic in the one way. i practice it in the other way.

i was writing once some thoughts down for the person that will in the future right a biography about me:

to store them i will put them here again as a nice special for tody the second August, my raw notes:

TADE MEHL

My Biografie Tadeus J. Mehl will come later… The start I decided am 13.03.2025 das ich doch jetzt schon mit meiner Biografie anfangen könne, weil ich später berühmt bin, und mich dann sicher nicht mehr so gut an die Zeit erinnern kann wie heute. Außerdem habe ich heute weiter die Biografie von Bil Gates gelesen - mich interessiert ob ich auch so anders war als alle anderen und ich denke einfach über sich selber zu schreiben hilft am besten das herauszufinden. Ich bin Tadeus J. Mehl sohn von Oliver Mehl und Michaela Mehl. Ich bin aktuell 19 Jahre alt und lebe in Berlin und bin im Grind, im heavy grind!

Born 03.11.2005 - nun gibt es wieder einen jungen mehr. Ich wurde zu Hause geboren und habe sehr viel bekommen. Wir hatten einen großen garten wo ich spielen konnte und mich wirklich austoben durfte - hier die ersten Gedanken von meinen Eltern zu mir:

geburtstag Ich habe umher gekrabbelt, bin überall hoch geklettert und habe alles versucht zu erreichen und neue dinge zu entdecken. mein ziel war ess immer so hoch wie möglich zu klettern. Und genau am 1 Jahr meiner Geburt stand ich nun auf meinen eigenen beinen. ich fing an zu laufen. Mein erster geurtstag muss toll gewesene sein und ich habe jedes jahr in meiner Kindheit die geburtstage sehr genossen. So ist die Zeit vergangen und ich habe das zu hause mehr und mehr erkundet.

geburtstag ich glaube nun hatte ich schon sehr viel erkundet und vorallem durch den garten eine wirkliche fülle an Natur kennengelernt. wir waren unterwegs auf reisen und es war sehr besonders. hier mehr von meinen Eltern:

Geburtstag 3 ist meine lieblingszahl – deshalb war diese geburtstag auch sehr besonders. ich war in ecuador. alles war blau hier im Kindergarten - wahrscheinlich ist deshalb jetzt meine lieblingsfarbe auch blaue….

Ich springe hier nun vor, bis zu dem Punkt wo ich mich wirklich errinern kann:

Kindergarten Zeit: Im Kindergarten war ich eigentlich immer der Anführer, ich hatte außerdem meinen besten Freund Casi, den ich kannte seitdem ich 1 bin! Wir haben zusammen alles unternommen, waren angeln, haben fußball gespielt und meistens alles gewonnen. wenn wir zusammen waren waren wir unschlagbar. Wir sind in den wald gegangen und haben hütten gebaut, haben andere gejagt und uns immer wie die bosse gefühlt. Oft hatten wir auch untereinander streit, ich glaube es war immer eine art Machtkampft wer denn jetzt der stärkere von uns ist. nicht physisch sondern mental. Ich war immer physisch etwas schwächer als er, dafür aber deutlich schneller. generell war ich immer seitdem ich denken konnte der schnellste, wenn es darum geht weg zu rennen, war ich der schnellste, wenn es darum geht voran zu gehen, war ich der schnellste. Mein vorteil war schnelligkeit. Mit Casi habe ich viele adventure touren gehabt. Wir haben wirklich die wildnis außeinander genommen. einmal hatten wir pfeil und bogen und haben in der heide bäume abgeschossen, weil und langweilig war. dann ist der bogen zerbrochen und es ist ein tierischer streit ausgebrochen. Es war immer ein kampft um macht! aber wir haben uns immer wieder verstanden. So waren wir auch im Kindergarten immer annerkant. wenn es darum ging was wir spielten, mit wem, hatten wir das sagen!

Kurz bevor ich in die Schule kam, habe ich angefangen geige zu lernen. Es war kräslich und hat gequietscht, aber meine eltern haben es gemacht. vielleicht auch mehr um mich zu motivieren. es war eines meiner größten träume von meinem Vater, das ich wir kinder ein instrument lernen sollten. er war seinen eltern nie ganz verziehen, dass sie ihm kein beigebracht hatten, deshalb hat er mich wie bessesen daran gezwungen mein instrument zu lernen un zu üben. Es war immer ziemlich einfach für mich geige zu spielen, auch später im schulorchester konnte ich die sacchen immer seht gut. aber ich habe nie geeübt. Meine geigenlehrerin war auch immer begeistert, wenn wir neue stücke angefangen haben, weil ich sie so schnell so gut spielen konnte, aber war dann entäuscht bei der nächsten stunde, weil ich nicht übte. ich habe mich immer gedrückt ums üben, es war zeit verschwendung fand ich, außerdem hat es kein spaß gemacht. ich hab viel lieber fußball gespielt . seitdem ich 5 bin spielte ich fußball im verein. bei SC Borea dresden. einem der besten vereien in der stadt. und ich war echt gut. Aber vorallem war ich gut darin andere anzuleiten und hatte das sagen auf dem platz. ich war nicht der beste im schießen, aber das war kein problem, ich war sehr gut darin die übersicht zu behalten und zu sagen geh nach hinten oder geh nach vorne. Fußball war sehr wichtig für mich, weil ich dadurch immer mehr lernte mich in einer gruppe zu behaupten, aber auch mit dem team gemeinsam zu spielen. Mein opa war außerdem auch immer da für mich, dazu später mehr.

Aber fußball war auch hart! weil ich konnte niemals verlieren. immer wenn wir verloren, hab ich geweint. wenn wir etwas unfaires passiert ist, war ich sauer! Ich konnte einfach nicht damit umgehen zu verlieren und musste immer gewinnen. das hat auch meine eltern manchmal zu weißglut gebracht, wenn ich beim brettspielen verloren habe, war ich sauer, habe die steine umher geworfen und wollte mit niemanden reden. Ich lernte sehr früh schach von eminem vater, schach war eines meiner liebliengspiele, aber nur wenn ich gewann! ich habe oft auch gegen meinen opa gespielt und immer wenn ich verloren habe die figuren umgeschmissen.

Bevor ich in die schule kam, haben wir außerdem unserer erste große reise gemacht - Südamerika, mit dem Kreuzfahrtschiff hin und 3 monate fremde kulturen kennenlernen. Ich kann mich noch an eine riesige muschel errinern, die fast so groß war wie ich und die so schwerr war, sie lag einfach so am strand, es war wie im traum. ich habe dann eine etwas kleeinere mitgenommen.

Schuleinführung Mein schuleinführung war sehr besonders, wir haben auf einem riesigen bauernhof 3 einführungen gleichzeitig gefeiert. natürlich war casi dabei und wir haben wieder alles gewonnen und zusammen unsicher gemacht.

Schule schon sehr früh merkte ich das zahlen meine welt waren und schrift eher nicht so. ich mochte mathe, da war alles klar, aber vorallem gab es immer ein faires richtig oder falsch. womit ich nie umgehen konnte waren aus meiner sicht unfaire entscheidungen und so kam es dazu, dass ich sehr oft in der schule geweint habe und sauer war, wenn etwas unfair war. ich weiß noch, dass wir fußball gespielt haben und der ball nicht wirklich im tor war, und ich wusste es, aber alle haben trotzdem für tor entschieden, wir haben verloren und ich war den ganzen tag sauer und habe geweint! verlieren durfte ich einfach nicht und das haben meine klassenkameraden auch sehr schnell gemerkt. entweder möchten sie mich dadurch oder sie hassten mich. sie wussten, dass wenn sie in meinem team sind, sie gewinnen würden, weil ich bis zum ende kämpfe, aber auch das ich sie nicht zimperlich behandle und ich erwarte das jeder gefälligst mit kämpfst. Dadurch das ich das spiel sehr ernst genommen habe, habe ich mir auch oft feinde gemacht, die fanden es sei nur ein spiel. für mich war es sowas wie leben und tod. Entweder ich gewinne oder sterbe. Auch im unterricht habe ich sehr oft meinen mund aufgemacht und das gesagt was ich dachte. Ich war ein sehr guter schüler, mir ist alles extrem leicht gefallen und bis auf schnürsenkelbinden musste ich fast nie zuhause etwas üben. Die lehrer möchten mich, weil ich immer gut mitgemacht habe. Aber ich war trotzdem immer aufsässig, wenn es etwas gab, was mir nciht passte, dann habe ich es gesagt. am schlimmsten fand ich dinge, die einfach unnötig waren! Mathe war immer mein lieblingsfach und ich weiß noch wie ich sehr schnell meinen abzeichen hatte.

Trotzdem wurde ich nur selten zu geburtstagen eingeladen. wahrscheinlich auch, weil ich selbst nie freunde zu mir nach hause einlud. Ich schämte mcih für die wohnugn in der wir lebten, weil sie voller weben war.

Zeit nach der Schule Die Entscheidung mein Abbi abzubrechen, war wahrscheinlich die großte entscheidung die ich in meinem leben getroffen habe, außerdem die härteste und wichtigste.

3 Monate zuvor hatte ich schon mit meinen eltern darüber gesprochen. ich habe mich geschämt es anzusprechen, ich saß still am abendbrot tisch und meinte, das ich etwas reden muss, ich habe immer weniger mit meinen eltern gesprochen, deshalb war es diesmal echt schwer. und ich habe angefangen zu erzählen, dass ich denke das das abi zeitverschwendung sein und es dumm ist es weiter zu machen. ich hatte mich darauf vorbereitet das ich gegenwehr bekommen würde, aber das es so stark ist hätte ich nicht gedacht. Mein Vater ist ausgerastet innerlich und hat nur gesagt, es sei dumm, ich weiß garnicht was ich dort mache, ich habe keine ahnung vom leben und das ich es verdammt nochmal fertig machen sollte. außerdem sei ich doch gut in der schule und da wäre es für mich ein klacks das ganze zu beenden. Meine mutter war ebenso erschüttert und hat mehr frage gestellt, warum ich das machen will etc… aber dann auch gesagt das ich es aufjedenfall weiter machen soll! Auch meine Oma und Opa haben davon wind bekommen und mich ebenfalls dazu überzeugt weiter drinn zu bleiben.

Ich saß nun in der schule fest und habe mich jeden tag gefragt, was ist das für krütze die ich hier lerne, wieso lerne ich so innoeffizient, aber vorallem, wieso muss ich für einen schein dinge auswendig lernen, die ich doch auch nachschauen kann. außerdem war für mich klar, dass das abi keine frage von intelligenz war sondern nur eine frage von fleiß. und ich war nie sonderlich fleißig was schuliche sachen an ging. ich hatte zwar immer 1 oder 2er, aber nur weil ich schlau war, nicht weil ich zu hause viel gemacht habe. ich habe immer nur so viel gemacht, das ich der beste war! udn ich wusste, wie ich den lehrern eine schlechte abgabe als gut verkaufen konnte.

es hat mich so genervt dort zu sitzen, dass ich immer öfter unterricht geschwänzt habe und bei fortbildungen mit meinem coach war. Mein coach hat mich überall mit hin genommen. außerdem hatte ich auch Kundengespräche, welche ich auch machen musste während der schulzeit. achso und mein kaffeautomat lief auch noch, das war eigentlich der einzige wirklich coole punkt an schulen + die gesprächen mit freunden und die Mensa.

und dann kam Konstantin auf mich zu, wir hatten schon einen Monat zuvor unseren podcast gestartet und es hatte wirklich spaß gemacht und er meinte, wir müssen reden, es war direkt an der ecke von der marienallee stauffenbergallee autos sind vorbei gebraußt und er sagt zu mir, das er überlegt sein abbi abzubrechen und ich sage. lustig, das habe ich schon vor zwei monaten, wir machen uns aber aus und treffen uns am abend um mehr darüber zu reden. Und irgendwie besschleicht mich dass gefühl, was wäre wenn er jetzt abbricht und ich nicht, wie würde ich mich dann fühlen? und das gefühl war krausam, ich dachte das darf auf keinenfall passieren, außerdem habe ich nochmal darüber nachgedacht, das Zeit mit abstand mein wertvollsten gut ist, dass ich außerdem eine epischere story habe und mir den weg zur uni verbaue, was sehr gut ist, weil mein Ziel ein großartiges unternehmen ist, nicht studieren. das würde bedeuten, ich habe garkeine andere wahl als dieses weg zu gehen und habe keine anderen optionen die mich mehr ablenken. es war ein grausames hin und her in meinem kopf, mit dem entschluss es zutun. ich bin zu meinem vater, meiner Mutter und habe weinen ihnen erklärt, das ich das abbi abbreche und das meine entscheidung entgültig ist. Es war ein horror und ich habe mich noch nie so schlecht in meinem leben gefühlt. Aber es hat sich richtig angefühlt.

17.03.2025 Wie kann man sein leben mehr genießen? Ich hatte darüber schon ewig in der zugfahrt nachtgedacht. oftmals ist es so, das wir wenn wir in die vergangenheit schauen, wir uns denken, wie schön war die zeit damals… egal ob sie hart, anstrengend oder ähnliches war. Warum schaffen wir es die nicht auch in der gegenwart zu denken? Ich hatte mir gerade mit meiner oma alte kinderbilder von früher angeschaut, bilder wo ich klatschend herumspringe. Bilder wo meine wundervolle kindheit zu sehen ist. Aber wie schafft man es diese momente mehr zu genießen. Ich glaube es spielen vorallem folgende dinge eine rolle: wie viel ich mein leben mit anderen vergleiche - aka. social media - umso weniger ich das mache, umso mehr werde ich mein leben genießen. Ich glaube schon allein deshalb lohnt es sich instagram und co. zu deiinstallieren. Außerdem muss man dinge mit anderen menschen zusammen machen. Erelebnisse mit anderen bleiben immer mehr im kopf, als alleine. Es geht darum mehr zu unternehmen. Mehr einfach dinge zu machen, anstatt zu hause rum zu sitzen und anderen beim unternehmen aka fernsehen, filme etc. zuzuschauen. Indem moment wo du selbst dinge unternimmst, wird dein leben aufregender und du kannst es mehr genießen.

18.03.2025 Ich schaue auf mein Handy und bin geschockt… Den ganzen Abend haben wir unsere podcastfolge analysiert, play, pause,play pause… aufgeschrieben was gut funktioniert hat und was schlecht um 1 Uhr nachts haben wir dann gesagt das wir schlafen gehen. Es war wirklich beeindruckend, was wir alles gefunden haben - wie die erste frage perfekt aufgebaut wein muss und woran ein gutes gespräch scheitert: 1. Frage: Für wen machst du das und wie würdest du es beschreiben und was sind die probleme mit denen mensche zu dir kommmen. Diese frage ist wie magie. Sie führt dazu das der gast zuerst etwas persönliches sagt, warum er macht was er macht, das schafft vertrauen, dann beschreibt er in kurzen knappen wörtern es und letzendlich sagt er welche probleme er löst. und danach die zweite frage muss direkt den nagel auf den kopf sein und ein spezifisches problem ansprechen und nach einer lösung fragen, um den gast so schnell wie möglich mehrwert zu geben. “was sind die wichtigsten punkte um… konkretes problem xy zu lösen. dadurch ist hörer direkt abgeholt! Nachdem wir fertig mit unserer Analyse Session sind, schaue ich nochmal auf mein handy, in die app von der Generali. Meiner privaten krankenversicherung. 1 neue nachricht. Wir haben ihren fall abgeschlossen. Rechnungsbetrag 1587€ erstattungsbetrag 0€ - ich schaue ungläublich. ich lese mir die angehefteten dateien durch und realisiere langsam, das ich am arsch bin. ich hatte gerade 1587€ minus gemacht… und ich war eigentlich schon pleite. Ich bin am arsch. das gefühl von angst und schweiß kommt wieder in mir hoch, ich spüre den pain, das ich zu wenig geld habe, den pain als ich meinen opa anrufen musste, nur diesmal nochmal viel stärker… ich versuche rational zu überlegen, was mache ich… ich habe noch 700€ auf dem Konto - kann meinen Pc noch verkaufen und meine Geige… + ich muss wahrscheinlich meine wohnung kündigen… ich hab keine ahnung, mache mein handy aus und starre einfach nur ins nichts. es ist das gefühl, als würde dir jemand alles unter den füßen weg ziehen, das gefühl, als wärst du gerade den berg ein wenig hoch geklettert, aber dann schubst dich jemand wieder an und du puzzelst wieder zum anfang herum. Diese nacht war grausam.

Und ich fahre eigentlich schon mit zerkrnirschten zähnen, aber voller freude zur kochshow, ich bin kein bisschen aufgeregt, das ligt wahrscheinlich daran, weil so viele anderen mehr wichtiger und existentielle gedanken aktuell in meinem kopf sind. Ich hatte nicht mal mir gedanken gemacht, ob ich gut aussehe oder nicht, was ich anhabe oder nicht. ich bin dort aufgetaucht, mit meinem sport outfit und einer kleinen tasche - meine gegnerin voll geschminkt, hausgemacht und aufgemotzt, mit ganzer fancrew (7 mann und fraun) - ich komme an, 19:00 Uhr. Alles schon draußen finster begrüße die jury und frage nach einem kaffee. Die show war schon sehr besonders, es hat richtig laune gemacht, auch wenn ich knapp, sehr knapp verloren habe, mein Salat war einfach dumm gemascht, trotzdem meine nudeln waren spitze! Und jetzt habe ich einen gutschein für ein essen bei gerd, das ist doch super.

Aber alles in allem war es erfolgreich, am interessantesten war das gespräch mit einem der kameramänner danach, vielleicht kann ich ihn abwerben irgendwann, wenn wir hiren, er ist echt gut und kann was kamera angeht alles! ich habe ihn gefragt wiefiel er verdient (3k) und ob er wirklich immer bei sachsenfernsehen bleiben wil, ein medium was mit dem sterben der alten leute langsam ebenfalls stirbt. mal sehen.

Aktuell: Es ist nicht einfach… jeder tag fühl sich an als würde man durch match laufen in knietiefen match und es geht nicht voran, aber gleichzeitig sieht man die schönsten berge und sonne strahlt auf einen herunter. Es ist ein süßer struggle. Jeder tag bringt neue erkenntnisse und schmerz mit sich. Ich habe gerade meine wohnung gekündigt, weil ich 2000€ für meine Zahnartzt besuche zahlen muss, weil die PKV diese nicht übernimmt und ich sonst nicht mehr genügend geld habe um die wohnung zu bezahlen. ehrlicherweise hatte ich das schon vor 2 monaten nicht mehr… aber es gibt immer möglichkeiten geld zu machen, ich verkaufe nach und nach alles auf ebay, was ich habe… man glaubt garnicht wieviel man dabei noch herausholen kann. meine hoffnung ist nun die caution + ein wenig Ebay verkauf für die bezahlung an die krankenkasse zu nehmen. Aber ich freue mich auch endlich aus lichtenberg raus zu sein… endlich wieder frei umher spazieren zu können, nach dresden zu fahrne ohne schlechtes gewissen das ich geld für eine wohnung ausgebe die ich nicht nutze… Es ist besonders, unser Podcast macht fortschritte, aber wir brauchen so schnell wie möglich ein studio. denn nur umso höher die qualität der videos ist umso mehr werden wir wachsen, alles andere drumm herum ist unsinn… es geht darum die besten videos zu machen! Wir haben aktuell 540 Folllower, wer weiß wo die reise hingeht, aber wir brauchen investoren oder irgendjemand der uns das studio bringt + wir wollen die crypto plattform bauen, weil wir glauben das könnte etwas sehr sehr besonderes sein, und ein web3 startup was wirklich ein problem löst. Ich glaube wenn wir es schaffen das ganze für uns zu bauen, wird der podcast wachsen, er wird wachsen. naja wir benötigen um die 50k€ dafür und sind weiter auf der suche nach investoren. Ich glaube aktuell ist die Zeit wo ich wirklich sehr pain resistent werde… die zeit, wo das schwert geschmiedet, gehärtet wird, damit es später eingesetzt werden kann. Und das schwert wird umso härter umso mehr darauf geschlagen wird… -ich schon 4k verbrannt, hab noch um die 500€ für miete spare… plötzlich ruft vermieter an und fragt nach caution….. -ich kein geld mehr, aber habe flug nach dubai gebucht… -ich kein geld mehr, aber 2k€ bezahlung von Zahnartzt, ich kein geld mehr aber zugtickets buchen, uber etc…. alles, jeder cent ist wie ein kleiner stich, ein schmerz… aber dieser psychische schemerz lässt nach… nachdem ich 2 wochen damit gelebt habe, das ich eigentlich pleite bin, ist es aktuell nicht merh so schlimm, wie in den 2 wochen, ich mache mir weniger gedanken, ich weiß das es irgendwie immer weiter geht und immer funktionieren wird. Sollte heute etwas passieren, was wirklich uncool ist, würden viele andere menschen 2 tage krank nehmen und weinen oder sich den kopf brechen. für mich ist es alltag und ich habe meistens größere probleme 🙂 Ich war deshalb null aufgeregt, als ich vor einer woche zur kochshow gefahren bin, meine Oma meinte, sie wäre soooo aufgeregt, ich nicht, weil egeal was dort passieren würde, es wäre nicht ansatzweise so schlimm oder relevant wie die anderen dinge die aktuell in meinem kopf sind. ich war beim zahnartz chirugen und mir wurden zwei zähne gezogen. bis ich auf dem stuhl bei ihm saß, hatte ich mir null gedanken darüber gemacht ob es schmerzen würde… ich hatte keine angst, weil ich wusste die schmerzen sind nichts gegen die die gerade in meinem kopf sind - und waren sie auch nicht. Zähne ziehen war für mcih wie zum friseur gehen… einfach ein termin im calender - mit einer bestimmten länge und einem ort wo ich hinfahren muss. Ich fahre schwarz, ja sorry, ich denke immernoch das ich dadurch geld spare… naja trotzdem manchmal wird man dann halt kontrolliert… und dann, naja ich bezahl die 60€ und mache ein paar witze mit den Kontrolleuren, aber es juckt mich nicht, es is kein schmerz mehr… Und das ist gut… Deshalb ist diese Zeit jetzt gut…. Diese Zeit schlägt mein schwert hart.

Da ich meine wohnung gekündigt habe bin ich bald obdachlos :) nein ich würde es eher frei nennen. ich habe mich noch nie so darauf gefreut… andere würden sich jetzt bestimmt einen riesen kopf machen, aber mal ehrlich: ich kann min. 4 Tage bei meiner Mutter sein, ohne das sie sich gedanken macht, genauso 4 tage bei meinem Vater, 4 tage bei meiner oma… das sind schonmal 12 Tage im Monat… und theoretisch könnte ich jetzt wieder 4 Tage zu meiner mutter gehen und in diesem Cycle sein, ohne das es auffällt, das ich meine wohnung gekündigt habe… aber ich habe auch noch konstantin, wo ich merhere tage sein kann, aber auch freunde in DD, Berlin, München, Stuttgart, Wien… Ich würde es wahrscheinlich garnicht schaffen alle in einem monat zu besuchen… was will ich damit sagen? Ich werde immer eine möglichkeit zum übernachten haben und bin dazu noch frei… und stecke nicht in so einem loch wie lichtenberg fest… ich kann auch für ein paar tage nach london oder ähnliches… es ist alles egal :) und ich denke das ist wichtig… es ist wichtig sich nicht den kopf zu zerbrechen. Ich stand in den letzen monaten echt sehr oft vor dem - naja ich dachte es wäre over… aber es ist nie over. Umso mehr freunde du in verschiedenen städten hast, umso einfacher wird es. Umso mehr value du für andere bringen kannst umso einfacher wird es. Umso mehr du positiv bist, umso einfacher wird es. - weil andere menschen wollen nichts mehr als ein wenig posititvität in ihrem leben… wenn du das kannst, naja du kannst ein stabiles business darauf aufbauen :) was bedeutet du kannst easy überleben, weil du überall wilkommen bist.

Nur eine Sache solltest du im Kopf haben (Henry Ford)- Fisch und Gäste stinken nach 3 Tagen. Bedeutet du darfst nicht zu lange gast sein, weil oftmals macht es die magie kaputt….

Naja zurück zum business… Ziel ist es den Podcast groß zu machen um wirklich wert inform von education auf dem höchsten level zu liefern… Und eine community aufzubauen, die einzigartig ist!

Learning: wenn du immer bussy bist, heißt das nicht das du viel schaffst…

03.04.2025: Ich fühle mich zu etwas wirklich groem bestimmt. einestages werde ich ein riesiges business imperium besitzen und unmenge an value bringen. jezt mache ich diesen podcast groß, bringe really really viel value… danach dogge ich neue unternehmen daran an… es geht darum immer immmer weiter höhere qualität zu liefern! Aktuell ist es interesssant, weil viele sagen,d as deuschtland / europa garnicht mehr so schlecht ist als standort um ein unternehmen zu gründen… weil wir jetzt endlich schulden machen, das ist historisch. außerdem herscht in den usa akutelll viel usjicherheit ujd es ist nicht klar was am nächsten tag neues in kraft tritt. Das sind gute nachrichten für mich, weil ich deutschland eigentlich schon ganz cool finde. Ich mag berlin immer noch nicht, aber ich glaube das liegt zu 80% an meiner wohnung in lichtenberg. Hier sind schon echt viele smarte menschen.

Ich glaube im letzen halben jahr war ich auf über 70 Events / dinners / netzwerk veranstaltungen… das ist echt krass und ich treffe nun immer öfter menschen die ich schon kenne. aktuell bin ich noch immer der jüngste… aber ich muss gas geben, weil irgendwann biin ich nicht mehr der jüngste, dann muss ich wenigstens aber noch der krasseste sein.

Ich glaube der größte mehrwert in berlin war für mich das ich in lichtenberg gewohnt habe, wiel ich einmal gesehen und gemerkt habe was ich nicht als umfeld haben möchte und wie entscheidend es für deine psyche ist, wer im nachbarhaus wohnt, und zum anderen weil Ivan nur ein paar blocks weiter wohnt. ich bin mir sicher das Ivan noch eine entscheidende rolle in meinem leben spielen wird. Ivan ist die smarteste person die ich kenne.

Immer mehr merke ich, das es nicht um geld geht. das ich zwar viel geld haben will ist immernoch klar, aber es geht nicht um geld, weil ich brauche geld um dinge zu erschaffen, aber ich brauche nicht geld um zu überleben. Geld ist so interessant und ich finde es spannend, wenn menschen auf netzwerk events sagen: “also naja um die idee umzusetzen braucht man wahrscheinlich ungefähr 1 milllion euro - aber das ist ja kein geld” also das ist doch nichts… Ich finde das cool wenn menschen so reden. es bedeutet das sie wissen das geld in hülle und fülle da ist - und so ist es auch… die erede ist voller geld. und wenn man wirklich wert bringt wird dir das geld hinterher geschmissen.

Gerstern einfach nach münchen zu event gereist ohne übernachtung, YFN hat gecarried, umm 22 Uhr noch jemanden gefunden zum übernachten ich liebe YFN!

Das Leben ist ein Film, ist beseonders. Mein ziel ein Familien Imperium aufbauen!!!! Es geht darum den wertvollsten Podcast in deutschland zu erstellen!

06.04. Vielleicht werde ich irgendwann mal schauspieler sein, ich hätte lust bei eienm Mafia Film mal mitzuspielen… So wie ich auch bei der Kochshow vor ein paar Monaten mitgemacht habe, wäre es doch lustig, auch mal, bei einem großen film mitzumachen… Mafia in Italien, fände ich wirklich cool!

So, nächste Überschrift.

Ich habe jetzt ein extrem cooles Tool kennengelernt, und zwar wie ich einfach das, was ich spreche, direkt aufnehme.

Und heute geht es darum, dass wir mal über die aktuelle Situation sprechen. Aktuell geht es darum, dass sehr viel passiert, sehr viel durcheinander ist und sehr viel vorangeht, aber irgendwie auch sehr langsam.

Ich habe sehr viel Schulden von 2000 Euro. Und die Krankenkassen etc. das bezahlt es alles nicht so richtig.

Zusätzlich ist es aber trotzdem so, dass es weitergeht. Wir vielleicht bald ein Investment bekommen, wir eine neue Idee Pudding gestartet haben und das ein Markt ist, ein Geschäftsmodell, was wirklich funktionieren kann. Es geht im Endeffekt darum, Menschen unsterblich zu machen.

Wir machen Menschen unsterblich. Und das in Form von einer Art Podcast-Videobiografie, die wir über die Personen, über reiche, erfolgreiche Menschen, aufnehmen.

Dann ist es so, dass diese Videobiografie erst nach dem Tod der Person veröffentlicht wird. Das Ganze wird mit Smart Contracts auf der Blockchain gelagert, um wirklich klar und sicher zu machen, dass diese Information und das Video erst nach dem Tod veröffentlicht werden.

Wozu führt das? Es führt dazu, dass die Menschen Botschaften hinterlassen können, über Dinge reden können, die sie eigentlich aktuell nicht erzählen dürfen, und eine Art Bild oder Message an die Nachwelt hinterlassen können.

Heute ist der 21.04.2025.

Ich habe mit Konstantin viel daran gearbeitet, einfach wirklich weiter, weiter besser zu werden. Wir haben viel darüber diskutiert, was wir machen können, wie Pudding aussehen wird.

In den letzten Tagen habe ich mich sehr viel über AGI und BCI, also Brain-Computer-Interfaces, informiert. Ich glaube, dass das die Zukunft wird, und ich bin mir sehr sicher, dass das sehr relevant in der Zukunft sein wird.

Aktuell beschäftigt mich sehr, worum es geht, dass man wirklich Mehrwert und ein großartiges Unternehmen aufbaut.

Ich glaube wirklich fest daran, dass es darum geht, ein Regeneration Potion zu entwickeln. Also eine Sache, worauf andere Menschen aufbauen und aufbauen können.

Ich weiß noch nicht ganz, wie dieses Business wird. Ich habe noch etwas Skepsis, deswegen schreibe ich das hier auf.

Zu Pudding: Das ist im Endeffekt kein Regeneration Potion, sondern Pudding ist ein klassisches Poison Potion. Das heißt, es löst einfach ein Problem, aber es ist in einem.

Wir haben es vorher ausgerechnet: ungefähr 20 bis 50 Milliarden Mark. Denn wir haben um die 80.000 vermögende Personen, die über 100 Millionen Euro Vermögen haben, und das ist unsere Zielgruppe – über 100 Millionen Euro Vermögen. Und es geht im Endeffekt darum, dass wir das Ganze für um die 250.000 Euro bis eine Million verkaufen pro Person.

Das heißt 250.000 mal 80.000, weil wir 80.000 von den Menschen haben, die ungefähr 100 Millionen Euro Vermögen auf dem Konto haben auf dieser Erde.

Wäre ein Markt enthalten, der um die 40 Milliarden groß ist aktuell. Was aber hier bedeutet, dass wir noch nicht wirklich ein Regeneration-Poison entwickeln, sondern wir rein ein Poison, ein Problem lösen werden.

Und ich bin sehr gespannt, was die Zukunft bringt.

Das hier ist ein kleines Memo. Ich weiß noch nicht, wie es wird. Aber es kann sein, dass wir dadurch die größten und besondersten Informationen und interne Informationen von den reichsten Menschen auf dieser Welt erhalten werden und somit die wichtigsten, securesten und einfach außergewöhnlichsten Dinge erfahren werden.

Somit haben wir auch ein Risiko, weil wir ein Angriffspunkt sind, um Informationen zu bekommen. Das heißt, wir müssen uns dann schützen.

Wir brauchen Bodyguards, wir brauchen andere Personen, die uns beschützen, weil wir ein Angriffspunkt werden können, ein Punkt of interest, because we have so much information about other people.

So this is very, very important. Another point is that we don't really know if people don't like to buy it because we are not rich, we don't have the vision, we don't have all this money, and we are not in their shoes. It's really right now the pain point to make it fast to start fast. Tomorrow we have the meeting with the investor, and we will see what he thinks about it.

I'm really really glad about the future. I think the future is bright, I think the future is full of interesting things, and I think the future is full of adventure. One of my leading philosophies is that you have to live your life like a movie. You are a movie character in your own movie, and your goal is to make the movie as interesting as possible. In every moment that you have to make a decision, you should ask yourself, "Will this decision make my movie more interesting, more powerful, more intriguing, more watched?" Because then it's good. When I make a decision, I really look forward; I imagine how will this decision affect my movie, and this is very important. Right now I'm in the learning phase, I'm in the face of figuring things out. I'm a 19-year-old with no money. I have to sell my iPad, my jacket, my dartboard, and even my room/apartment to have enough money. But they will never give up. I never will give up to push forward and try to give my best to build a great company. This is one of the things that I realized - it doesn't matter what you actually have; it only matters that you push forward and trust in yourself and what you can build, and that you love it. I really love it, and this is important.

Here's one anecdote from the last few days. I was in a restaurant with my dad; it's a really nice place full of wonderful people with delicious food. When you go in, you feel the sense of fun, the sense of love, and you really express a good feeling. We sat down, and immediately when we ordered food, my dad was complaining. He said there was no good wine, that it was too cold, that there were too many people, and that it was too expensive.

When these things arrived (the wine was too cold), at the end it was a long, long complaint about his work that he didn't have enough time for all of these things. I asked myself, "What would it be like if I were there with another person - someone who is optimistic?" I believe it would be 10 times more intrigues. And it was a lesson for me, to not complain. because then you look weak! And if you look weak, nobody will trust and follow you. or listen to you.

Bei Mama zu sein um runter zu komme ist einfach schön… Bauernhof gibt mir neue kreative energy… neue kraft, neue kreativen dingen.

Ein ganz komisches gefühl aktuell. story - nach meeting mit Leon erstes gespräch über Pudding: Direkt in die sächsische schweiz, wandern ohne alles, abends spät durch die nahct im regen, ohne sicht, ohne essen, schlafsack, todesangst, dunkel, nach boofe gesucht… dort in bären höhle feuer gemacht, wie urmenschen.

Meine aktuellen Gedanken zum leben: Arbeit ist ein Privileg! Ich möchte mehr arbeiten, mehr verändern auf dieser erde! Ich kann noch nicht ganz einschätzen was für eine entscheidung es war, jetzt mit Leon das Podcast game auf nächste Level anzuheben. ich weiß nur, das sich HUGE Conversation weg zu lassen nun so anfühlt als würde man ein Kind im dunklen wald zurücklassen. Irgendwie tut es mehr weh als gedacht. und ich denke nicht das es die falsche entscheidung war, jetzt mit leon weiter zu machen, da es ein upgrade ist, aber trotzdem tut es weh. Und das ist komisch. Aber es muss weiter gehen. Und ich bin mir sicher in meinem Leben werde ich nochmal einen Podcast (eine show) besitzen und diese groß machen. es ist nur eine frage der Zeit. Ich habe aber bis jetzt so viel gelernt vom Podcasten und ein so außergewöhnliches Netzwerk aufgebaut, wofür ich wirklich dankbar bin. Aber jetzt muss nochmal von 0 auf 1 gegrindet werden.

Aktuell in meinem Leben habe ich immer nur den Grind durhgezogen, aber noch nie die früchte geerntet. Ich habe jedes business soweit gemacht, das es funktioniert hat und ich wusste, wenn ich weiter machen würde, würde es groß werden und bin dann raus gegangen, weil ich mehr lernen wollte. Das ist aktuell das Muster. Das muss sich aber jetzt ändern. Es muss jetzt ein Business kommen, wo ich auch ernte. Und mit Leon wird es nicht einfacher, aber ich lerne schneller neue Dinge, was hiring, etc… angeht. Es muss aber jetzt weiter geführt werden, größer werden etc… Ich bin mir sicher das der Grind jetzt nochmal unendlich schmerzhaft wird. und wir uns noch garnicht wissen worauf wir uns da eingestellt haben. ABer es wird ein lehrhafter grind. Und es hat sehr, sehr große upside. Es kann sehr sehr groß werden. Ich sollte auch das Modell überdenken, dass ich immer wenn ich etwas neues starte, das alte abtöten muss, so kann ich kein großes Business Imperium aufbauen. Das bedeutet von nun an, muss das Ziel sein dinge so hoch zu ziehen, das sie dann irgendwann für sich selbst laufen können und du nurnoch eine leitende Person bist, um sich auf das nächste zu fokussieren, nur so kannst du groß werden. Genauso können wir den Podcast auch nochmal reviven. Indem wir Cach rein holen um das ganze relativ automatisiert zu machen… So dass der Podcast ein Zusatz zum Main business ist.

Das ding ist jedes business braucht erstmal Zeit um herauszufinden, wie die dinge funktionieren und dann brauch es nochmal eine Phase, wo du viel von dem machen musst was funktioniert und erst dann kannst du groß werden. Bei dem Podcast hatten wir jetzt gerade herausgefunden wie die grundlage geht. Und jetzt hätten wir einfach mehr von dem machen müssen, aber haben das ganze wieder auf Zero resettet. Das ist der Punkt. Außerdem bauen wir uns beim Podcast eine Audience auf… worauf ich später jedes produkt publishen könnte, wie ist es mit Pudding? Ich weiß es nicht. Aber es ist eine weiterentwicklung vom vorherigen, die frage ist nur in welche richtung die weiterentwicklung ist. Und wie wir sie so schnell wie möglich größer machen können.

30.04. ich muss aus meiner wohnung ausziehen, weil kein geld mehr dafür.. habe alles verkauft was ich habe… bis auf geige. bin jetzt frei! Habe noch 2455€ bei der Generali zu begleichen = wichser! Insgesamt hat mich die PkV mittlerweile Gebühren - 2340€ + offene rechnungen 2455€ gekostet. Ich würde hier gescammt! Naja, jeder muss mal ganz tief fallen. ich weiß jetzt wenigstens wie es ist broke zu sein. nichts zu haben… außer sich und seine sachen. ich glaube von nun an werde ich immer eine starke abneigung gegenüber versicherungen und versicherungsmaklern haben! Aber jetzt bin ich frei, ich kann überall hin, jeden besuchen und wirklich mit meinem Koffer durch die Welt ziehen. Es geht weiter, die schulden werden nicht meinen weg aufhalten, sie werden ihn emotionaler, außergewöhnlicher und einfach cooler machen. von schulden zu wirklich etwas großartigem. klingt cooler als von gutem elternhaus zu großartig.

Ich meine ich hatte mitte letzen jahres noch 20k€ auf dem konto, jetzt habe ich noch -2340€, das ist doch eine story, oder nicht? Wenn ich zurück schaue, werde ich wahrscheinlich schmunzeln über den struggle.

Ich bin jetzt aber aufjedenfall frei!

Thoughts 27.05.2025: Es ist krass wie wichtig schule für manche mensche ist. ich muss sagen schule hat mich oft einfach nur festgehalten. In der bahn die du nehmen sollst, aber nicht in der bahn die interessatn ist. Es ist außergewöhnlich, wie wenig du in der schule lernst und wieviel du lernst, wenn du dich selbst wirklich für etwas interessierst. in der schule wird versucht dir alles, auch das was du nicht spannend findest, hinein zu geben… und es ist so ineffizient, weil keine motivation da ist. Jetzt wenn ich weiß wie und wann ich etwas brauche, lerne ich gerne über vectoren oder den menschlichen körper. ist das nicht schade? Alle Menschen die in der Schule sind, dann in die Uni gehen - sehen lernen immer nur als stressig, arbeit und anstrengend an. Aber lernen ist eigentlich das was dir pause gibt von der arbeit. Das was spaß macht, neue dinge zu entdecken und zu erkunden. Lernen ist das was einen menschen anders macht.

Gestern hatt Konstantin seine Abbi Noten verkündung… Und es gab wirklich einige die geweint haben, weil sie nicht gut waren, weil sie nicht so schöne zahlen auf einem schein stehen hatten wie andere… und das lustige ist, dieser schein sagt eigentlich garnichts aus. Er sagt nicht ob du schlau bist, er sagt nicht ob du erfolg haben wirst, er sagt nicht ob du ein glückliches leben haben wirst. er sagt nur aus. Das du den schein besitzt. Aber schüler denken immernoch das dieser schein - das objekt ist, was alles im leben bestimmt. die eine sache die alles entscheidet. Aber das ist es nicht. es ist ein blatt papier, was dir helfen kann coole dinge zu erreichen. Aber das blatt papier wird nicht den weg für dich gehen, den musst du immernoch selbst in die hand nehmen.

Ich glaube das jahr wo du dein Abbi machtst ist von den meisten Menschen eines der inneffizientesten jahre die sie haben - traurigerweise denken viele es ist eines der effizientesten - aber die meisten sind im stress, machen nichts anderes mehr als schulsachen, welche aber leider auch zu 80% wissen ist, was nicht wichtig sein wird in deiner persönlichen zukunft. Man versucht nicht dinge zu lernen sondern auswendig zu lernen um sie dann zum tag der prüfung auszuspucken und wieder zu vergessen. Man steckt ein Jahr stress, energy und Zeit in wissen was einen nicht voran bringt und was man danach zu größtenteiln wieder verlernt. Es ist eines der inneffizientesten Jahre was lernen angeht. Positiv ist das du lernst mit druck und stress umzugehen - aber das kannst du auch in jedem anderen infirement erzeugen. Die schüler die ihr abbi machen denken dann in dem jahr der vorbereitung, da das abbi so wichtig ist, das sie alles andere aufhören müssen und an nichts anderem arbeiten sollten… das wiederum führt dazu das die meisten schüler nur den stoff fürs abbi lernen und ansonsten chillen - gammeln, sich sorgen vor der prüfung machen. Bedeutet 1 jahr lang lernen die kinder nichts sinnvolles was langfrristig sie fördert und im Kopf bleibt, was sie interessiert. Ein jahr ist sehr viel Zeit. Nehmt das Abbi nicht als das wichtigste element im leben wahr. Das überschätzen der wichtigkeit des Abbis ist eines der größten Zeitverschwendungen im leben eines schülers.

28.05. Das leben eines Entepreneurs ist echt einfach eine parodie eines horror games. Ich meine keine Horror games, aber ich mag das game entepreneur, künstler. Du wirst wirklich konstant gebummst.

Ich würde sagen ich wurde mit 19 einmal so richtig, richtig durchgenommen! so von hinten vorne, überall… für jedes Problem was man gelöst hat kommen 5 neue dazu. es ist ein game. ein game von ausdauer!

Ich glaube es ist sehr gut das ich mit 19 einmal so richtig durchgenommen werde / wurde. dadurch wird mich später weniger ubfucken. Ich merke schon jetzt das ich viel ruhiger auf neue probleme reagiere. Das ist gut.

Ist es wert ein Aufrgendes Leben zu haben? Ich glaube immer wen man ein aufregendes leben hat bedetuet das auch pain… Nur wenn du Pain hast, wirst du acuh ein aufregendes leben haben… Ich glaube ich durchlaufe gerade pain den ich vorher noch nie gespürt habe. und das ist sehr besonders. aber was wäre wenn dieser pain das ist wofür man es macht? was ist wenn es ohne pain keinen spaß machen würde? Ich glaube diese art von pain ist das was du brauchst um die wirklich schönen momente im leben mehr wert zu schätzen.

Ich bin dankbar das ich auf dieser welt bin dankbar, das ich so viel eerleben durfte. und das es besonders ist gerade wacht zu sein

Wenn der regen gegen die Scheibe des ICE prasselt, du mit epischer musik auf deinem platz sitzt und um dich rumm die welt unterzugehen scheint. du aber trotzdem am leben bist. du nicht aufgibst du weiter machst. das sind die Momente wo man anfängt auf die grundlagen zurück zu blicken… warum bin ich hier. warum mache ich das ganze?

DANKE! Und ich freue mich sehr heute Clara zu treffen auch wenn sie schon 21 ist, sie ist schlau, direkt und eine starke frau… Mit ihr kann man reden, sie stellt gut fragen.

“das besondere ist, das selbst wenn du denkst das alles vorbei ist, es eigentlich weiter geht” Es gibt kein vorbei so lange du nicht stirbst. Und du stirbst nicht einfach so. Und so lange du weitermachst wirst du voran kommen.

Wäre es nicht langweilig, wenn es nicht ein schwere game wäre? Das leben ist ein fucking Moovie. Gerade ist die stelle wo alles unmachbar aussieht, alles so aussieht als würde es nicht weitegehen… der Punkt wo du dir denkst what the fuck! Und danach der durchbruch.

Moovie - das ganze leben ist ein Film… Drehbuch

Szene 10: Ich komme gerade in Berlin an... Es regnet... Menschen stürzen hinnehmen und herr. Leute mit Regenschirm... Und ich beobachte jeden Menschen, jede Person richtig.. Die Dächer, die Regentropfen, laufe majestätisch, langsam durch den Regen... In gedanken folgendes....

“Ich bin meistens nicht der den du Siehst. Ich weiß nicht wie andere Menschen es machen, aber bei mir ist es so, es müssen 20 Dinge nicht funktionieren, damit eine Sache funktioniert. Es ist extrem hart, extrem schwer, aber ich mache es für die eine Sache, die ab und zu funktioniert. Ich glaube bei anderen ist es nicht so, bei mir ist es so... Ich liebe es zu Gewinnen! Ich weiß aber dass ich dadurch sehr viele besondere Dinge erlebe werde. Und großartiges erreichen.

Ich denke ich werde großartiges erreichen. “

Ich laufe durch die Straßen. Es regnet, alles ist ganz plüsch nass und die Leute laufen an mir vorbei und rennen hin und her. Und ich weiß nicht so richtig wo ich hinschauen soll. Und dann fangen die Menschen an weiter zu laufen. Und der Regen prasselt. Ich schau und seh jemanden mit einer Kippe, seh jemanden mit einem Fahrrad. Ein schönes Mädchen fährt über die Straße. Und ich laufe weiter und bleib stehen und schau in den Himmel wie sich die Wolken bewegen. Die Wolken bewegen sich ganz intensiv. In meinem Kopf ist ein Sturm. In meinem Kopf ist ein Sturm, der nicht ausgeht. In meinem Kopf sind Zahlen, Rechner, E-Mail-Namen, Briefe, E-Mails. Mein Kopf ist voller Gedanken und ich fang an schneller zu laufen aber sehe alles ganz bewusst. Ich spüre diesen Koffer mit den Henkeln unter meinen Handrücken und dann denk ich an das Mädchen was ich heute Nachmittag treffe und ich freu mich drauf, aber ich weiß dass ich viel zu tun hab. Ich weiß dass ich viel erledigen muss und dann denk ich mir was wäre wenn das Leben ein Film wäre? Was wäre wenn das alles zu dem Film gehört? Was wäre wenn dieser Film genau so geschnitten ist damit er spannender ist damit er episch ist damit du dich wirklich mit dem Charakter identifizieren kannst. Ein Charakter dem es nicht gut geht. Ein Charakter dem es gut geht. Ein Charakter der viel Geld hat. Ein Charakter der nicht viel Geld hat. Und Ich weiß nicht wie andere Menschen es machen aber bei mir ist es so: Es müssen immer 10-20 Dinge nicht funktionieren damit eine Sache funktioniert Und es ist extrem hart, es ist extrem schwer aber es ist es Wert Weil ich weiß, dass ich dadurch ein wirklich wertvolles Produkt auf dieser Erde schaffe Ich weiß dass ich eines Tages Dinge produziert habe Dinge an die sich Menschen erinnern und das ist das Ziel. Und ich frage mich:

Was wäre, wenn alles surreal wäre?

Wenn alles ein Film ist, was würdest du dann heute noch machen?

Mission 04.06. Wir sind auf der Mission die Menscheit zu retten vor nicht empathischen robotern… Die ganze welt wird irgendwann voll mit Robotern sein… Und wenn Roboter keine Möglichkeit haben empathisch zu sein, werden sie Menschen verletzen. Wir schützen humanity for ihren eignen tools.

Dieser Tag: Mit Ivan aufgestanden und alles Feng Shui gemacht… die ganze wohnung sollte feng Shui sein.. ich habe meditiert. drinke Cherba mate und habe zen musik an. Alles ist im einklang mit der Arbeit. Alles ist im einklang mit dem Produkt. Beim Meditieren ist es wieder erschienen. “ es geht nicht um dich, es geht um das Produkt” - Das wichtigste bist nicht du, sondern das produkt. Es egal was du tust, welche rolle du hast, was du machst…. es geht um das produkt. Es geht darum jedes detail so schön zu machen, das die welt es bewundert ohne es zu sehen.

die welt wird sich sehr stark verändern. ich habe eben an meinem “Likely Future Essay” weitergeschrieben. Die welt ist im begriff sich komplett zu ändern…

Uncomfortable Future? I don’t believe that humans will get replaced by machines. I think humans will achieve a lot more great things together with the machine. It’s like in Star Wars. There are a ton of robots, a ton of software, but also humans. Humans get better with their tools, so it would be stupid to hope and think that we should stop making our tools better. We will achieve great things together with all this technology in the next years. It will be cool. So you should really appreciate the world how it is right now, because it will not take a lot of time until it will look different. But it will look exciting different. Imagine a world where you could have spaceship races with your friends and seeing all the data through an AR headset, while communicating via brain signals with your personal AI robot companion, as it repairs a broken piece on your right wing.

Ich glaube einfachheit ist eines der schönsten dinge die du im leben erreichen kannst, weil dadurch alle anderen dinge mehr intensiv werden. Wenn du wenig ist, wird es dadurch umso besser schmecken. Wenn du wenig hast, wird es dadurch umso besonderer, wenn du viel verzichtest, wird alles besonderer.

11.06 Mitt Mama am Arbeiten Abends zusammen… Haben raum feng shui gemacht und sitzen nun zusammen in der Küche um zu arbeiten. Sie macht steuer erklärung, ich arbeite an meinen sachen. Ja es ist wirklich gut einen steuerberater zu haben! Wir brauchen unbedingt einen! Aber es ist echt schön neben meiner Mutter zusammen mit ihr zu arbeiten, jeder an seinen dingen. Irgendwie besonders, irgendwie schön.

Clara: ich habe mir die letzten Tage sehr viele Gedanken zu Clara gemacht… ob ich weiter mit ihr Zeit verbringen sollte und ob es unfair wäre für sie… ich bin mir sehr sicher, das sie nicht meine Frau fürs leben ist. Das Ich mit ihr nicht eine familie und Kinder aufbauen werde… ist es also worth zeit mit ihr zu verbringen? Ich glaube es ist eine art von respekt mit ihr ehrlich darüber zu reden und auch eine Art von respekt ihre zeit nicht zu verschwenden… sie hat jemanden verdient der sie wirklich liebt, jemand der ihr das gibt was sie braucht. Ich bin mir sehr sicher das wir nicht füreinander bestimmt sind. Und ich habe andere ansprüche als sie, ich glaube das beste ist, mit ihr diese art von situationship zu beenden.

Ich habe außerdem gemerkt das irgendwas mit Miu noch ist… Ich weiß das ich erst husslen, meine sachen fixen und in dem Moment wo ich bereit bin, ihr aber nochmal schreibe / mich mit ihr treffen werde. Vorher muss ich aber weit kommen. vorher muss ich die welt ein stück weit verändert haben. vorher muss ich auf eigenen beinen stehen die nicht mehr so sehr wanken. vorher will ich etwas vorzuzeigen haben. Das besondere an ihr ist, das ich weiß, das sie immernoch an mich glaubt. …

(habe mit ihr gestern gesprochen und wir haben beide agreed, das es nicht passt)

mit 19 Mit 19 habe ich diesen text von steve jobs gelesen… Es geht darum das wir das meiste was wir nutzen nicht selbst erschaffen haben. Wir nutzen kleidung, mathematik, handys, laptops. die andere erschaffen haben. Und da wir so viel von anderen nutzen, wollen wir menschen unsere annerkennung zeigen, etwas zurück geben… laut steve geht es darum etwas großartiges zu produzieren… Und genau das ist was ich will und wollte. I want to build great products. Mir ist nichts wichtiger, als das ich großartige Produkte bauen… weil dann weiß ich das irgendwo jemand ein lächeln mehr, ein schöneres leben dadurch hat. Und dass ist was ich erreichen will. Its all about to build great products… Wenn mich jemand fragt, wass will ich im leben - ich will großartige Produkte bauen. Mir ist alles egal, so lange ich großartige produkte bauen kann, weil das ist der einzige weg um der Menschheit etwas zurück zu geben.

My past why: I dropped out of school to have more time to learn… It was incredible… I learned things 2x faster and had the feeling that they really have the potential to help me in the future….

But why I’m so driven? Why do I want to build great products? Why do I pursue risks, chaos and pressure? Wyh do I play the game?

First: Why did I played the game? Out of curiosity… out of scham about my childhood… out of the willing to win… I hate loosing… but why? I love winning, because I know that I will get than respetk from others… I knwo that it will feel good to win. I love to be the leader for a great team that wants badly to win.

But what is the why? When I was 19 I read something… It was steve jobs… And he mentioned that nothing that we used ourselves when we grew up, was made by our selfs…. Not the clothes, not the language, not the math, not the food was invented by you… And thats true..

So my why is to produce more than I consume.. and BuildGreatThings… Because when someone smiles by using or watching your creation, you did something meaningful.

22:06:2025…. I believe a lott of people think very small and dont try to make their life extraordinary… It is one of the biggest. Idk. why but I feel bored, stupid, not working when I’m on birthday partys from people that I don’t admire… I Admire my Grandmother Heidrun and my granddad Stefan, but all these others are not really mine… But today I had a good deep conversation with Günter… How he faced life… he was an Informatiker… studied it, got into armee - he hated armee, he said, there is not really one person that really loves war… so its stupid to promote it… gunter is really smart into tech… he has a lott of new tech devices at home… he is interesting… He talked to me about his life… he started working at DVK and worked up there to the highest position posible with a wife with BRD conections… … was an team lead of 100+ people and coding at night… He mentioned it was hard.. when my dad was born… he called it a tuff time. There was a lott of trouble, because he got kicked out of his job, because they figured out, that he also verwandte in BRD in west… So he searched for a new job and got to this farming and food producer… one of the biggest food industry producers in the DDR worked there upward… Was also one of the leading employes… he invented some informatik stuff, that where used in the whole DDR… At the time when he lost his job, also his sun where there… Gunter is a really smart person… But a little difficult to approach… because he seem a little cold. but he is really smart to… like Stefan. We talked a bit about why in germany everyone wants to chill and nobody wants to work.. And that you need to work hard, to get something big done… to build a company, to invent something. It doesn’t work without it… There is no way around it… He also mentioned.. thats stupid, all this german people, dont want to work hard anymore… nobody wants to do… fleischer, müller etc… but the auslender do… so a lott of these things right know keeps going because of the auslender… he described it like they let us have a great life… but we beschimpfen sie… we hate them… thats stupid in his thinking… yeah sometimes there are people with a knife attacking others… but the majority are hard working foreigner. Idk why, but I would love, that he will sometimes miterleben, when I build a great product… something a lott of people need. So my parents are artists… All my grandfathers are tech ingeneurs… - probably Im an tech artist… I’m with my brain an technologist, but with my hart an artist… It seems to be one of the best possible combinations to create great tech products.

So I need to be tuffer, more capable, to work more… every day, by day…. because other people achieve the same things in less time by only working harder…

Idk why but I feel this urgency, this urgency that every day should be a day to work on insanely great products or learn to make them in the future!!!

And I feel it stronger than ever before… Idk how, but I will change a lott on this planet. Like a steve jobs, like a steven bartlett, like a Henry ford.

02.07. Was willst du wirklich?

An der Zukunft arbeiten… An dingen arbeiten die die Menschheit braucht And dingen arbeiten die ohne diese arbeit nicht da wären oder schlecht wären Ein startup Gründen, was jeden menschen verändert… -> geld -> ansehen -> deep knowledge, interesse in ein Tech gebiet…

Warum? um wealthy zu werden aus interesse an dem thema weil ich das produkt will ansehen aufregendste leben, schwierigste aufgabe, höchste wert für Menschheit

BCIs BCIs sind besonders, weil sie für jeden Menschen relevant werden in Zukunft und erst sehr wenig Menschen daran arbeiten, dass diese wirklich gut werden. Ich würde gerne selbst eins nutzen um meine produktivität zu steigern. Ich hätte es vor einem halben Jahr niemals gedacht, aber das Thema an sich interessiert mich.

-> es ist eines der Dinge die wichtig für die Menschheit sind, und die die Menschheit brauchen, damit sie schritt mit den robotern halten können, damit roboter empathie haben können und damit wir unsere Output rate um 100x erhöhen. Es ist wichtig für uns Menschen ein BCI, damit wir nicht im gegensatz zu robotern komplett dumm dastehen und dumm sind.BCIs haben das potential den Menschen weiterhin als Leading crature auf dieser erde zu behalten. Es sollte eines unserer Ziele sein den Menschen so viele Tools wie möglich zur verfügung zu stellen und diese besser und besser zu machen. Ein BCI ist wie eine art tool, welches dich als Mensch wahrscheinlich 10x und später 100X schlauer, stärker, effizienter, ausdauernder macht.

ABer warum hast du nicht einfach einen einfachen Job genommen? Warum hast du dein Abi abgebrochen? -> damit mein Leben mehr aufregend ist. -> damit ich geforced bin etwas zutun was viel wert auf diese Erde bringt.

Denkst du wirklich es ist eine gute Idee deine nächsten Jahren in das BCI thema zu stecken? Wahrscheinlich ist der procentage das ein unternehmen scheitert in diesem bereich ungefähr bei 5-7% also sehr serh niedrig. Ich kann also mit gutem gewissen davon ausgehen, das es scheitern kann.

warum wäre mir dieses risiko trotzdem wert? ich glaube das BCIs eines der wichtigsten Sachen sind die wir als Menschen zeitnah brauchen.. bedeutet wenn ich dazu beitrage, dass fortschritt in diesem berreich entstanden ist, ist es erstmal egal ob das unternehmen scheitert oder nicht. Zweitens werden BCIs eines der relevantesten Technologien in der zukunft sein, bedeutet wenn es scheitert habe ich trotzdem so viel domin expertise in einem bereich, welcher ungemein relevant ist. Bedeutet es wäre einfach dort weiterhin mit anderen partnern großen Mehrwert für die Menschen zu leisten. drittens - ich würde gerne heute hier sitzen mit so einem ding… es testen, damit worken, rumspielen. Ich möchte es selbst haben… also muss ich es entweder kaufen (zu teuer) oder selbst bauen. ich glaube es gäbe einige andere Junge Menschen, die das ähnlich sehen wie ich und auch gerne selbst eins zu hause hätten.

ist das true? ja Wirklich?

Aus und durch BCIs wird eine komplette neue branche enstehen aus dingen, die sich an den Menschen automatissch anpassen und verändern nach seinen gefühlen / mood / verständnis: -Websiten passen sich automatissch an

• sex industrie, spielzeuge etc… -personal ai trainer -roboter reagieren auf mood -smart homes

03.07. I figured Something Out! Life is about shaping your unconsciousness… We have no free will about our thoughts. The origin of our thoughts are always in our unconsciousness. But we have free will about what we feed the unconsciousness, what we train it, how we shape it.

So life is about shaping our unscncsiosness, because from there everything alse happen.

So here are some things that I feed my unconsciousness today… some good solutions.

first: You can learn everything. That also mean, you can learn how to build an BCI, how to build an BCI company… That means you can learn all these things… And yould do it by yourself. It will be hard, it isnt a easy task, but it is learnable. Everything is learnable. So you can choose if you need Ivan, if you want to work with him or not… because you can learn it, and also can build it by yourself!

Second: Your life to this point was all about learning and you have a super position… you learned how to endure, you learned how to sell, you learned how to group people, you learned how to teach, you learned how to build a german company, you learned how to suffer, you learned how to pitch and speak freely. You learned how to ask good questions.

All these things are an tremendous help for building something great. So now you can learn deeper into one field, into a product into something. Yes it is’nt easy but its posible and this is everything that your uncounscesness need to know. It is posible. You can learn everything.

You can learn how to build Harware. You can learn how to be an Engineer. You can learn how to craft Software. You can learn how to build an BCI. You can learn physics. You can learn all this stuff!! You can change the world.

04.07. ECHO Launch… Es macht micht fertig das jeamnd schreibt das wir nichts können… und viel quatschen. Alles andere ist gutes feedback… Aber ich merke es selbst… Ich würde gerne mehr technisches können, mehr wirklich craften… Hardware… das macht mich traurig…. Aber ich kann alles lernen. Man kann alles lernen… jeder kann alles lernen. Ich muss nur lernen. Aber irgendwie ist macht mich der Launch von ECHO heute nicht glücklich, sondern eher nachdenklich… Was wären meine skills, meine überzeugungs, sales, menschenkenttnis skills zusammen mit einem technischen hardware, engineering skill? Das wäre unglaublich wervoll als leader… nur wie komme ich dahin? Vielleicht finde ich einen coach? jemand der mir engineering beibringen kann… Opa? Oder jemanden der ähnlich das selbe hatte wie ich… aber mich strebt es dazu irgendwas technisches, etwas mathematisches, etwas wo man dinge craften kann zu lernen. Nur dann habe ich das gefühl, das menschen mich nicht verletzen, wenn sie sagen das ich nur quatsche…

Ich könnte anfangen in einem engeneurs büro zu arbeiten? wirklich, hast du das gerade geacht?

Idk. man entscheidet eh nicht selbst was man denkt, sondern das unterbewusstsein macht alles. das unterbewusstsein ist die Maschiene die deine gedanken produziert. du hast keinen einfluss auf deine gedanken in der Gegenwart, nur auf die in der Zukunft.

Ich weiß nicht warum, aber ich bin ein bisschen deprimiert. Aber ich gebe nicht auf.

16.07. Never be an CEO or cofounder that thinks is better than you… never think it like that. Never think that you are the smartest, best person… it will hurt the relationships to the other founders and it will heart employes, so that they work bad…

I’m at Ivans home… it’s really interesting how an relationship can change / progress… You can literally craft new things, out of nothing. thats the interesting part. So the vision is to build the greatest consumer BCI product on the market and make humanity 10x more efficient.

its really interesting, because its all about execution… it’s not about overthinking, it’s about execution.

running around in berlin searching for meaning sitting on places around, walking random through streets, thinking about meaning, thinking about goals. thinking about BCIs, thinking about AR glasses thinking about the world. the human…

Walking strange around, sitting here and there sitting and thinking,. thinking and walking what si the goal you pursue, what is the thing that you chase, what is the thing that motivates you… physics is a low - anything else is recommendation… so you have to build your own rules, you can build your own rules if you want… but what are rules without goal, what are goals without whys. searching for the why around the clock and stream the things around the streets, sitting on the stone, sitting on the cold row. waving brain thoughts up and down, want to free up this dream. but it not this complicated to thinks it, is complicated to ask the right questions, to ask it, to get the answers. but to have answers and search for questions is difuicult the only way is to ask the right auestionsd. but how?

so wondering around the whole days. sitting here, going there to ask the right questions. to find the right answers. it is difficult to don’t think small under all this small people, is is difficult.

Merge humans with AI?

26.08 sitting here at Ludwigs Frenzels home… potential one of the greatest artists of our time… he will have great success thinking why Im ‘ so crazy to pursue something this hard… what is the problem with me? why do I try to make impossible things happen? that is kind of crazy.. sitting here listing to piona crazy things of him… What a world… that is crazy. life is crazy. sitting here with ludwig. go into the flow of our work. Im on my laptop… trying to catch up with his fast rhythm. thinking all day about how to merge humans with ai .. how tko bring infinite knowledge to humans…

and if there is a way? why Me? what happens if we achieve this? got kicked out of YFN because I sleep in the university… YFN don’t like people that do different. that grind. hard… these are bad people in high positions. this is a fauld of organizations…

haha what a fun thing, you try to do to change the world and get kicker out for that.. people say it is impossible, people say it cant work…

But what I wlant is.

read out thoughts… give AI fully awareness of your surrounding. induce thoughts back in in your brain..

I want that people can directly think together with ai… ther will be a way to achieve this because otherwise humans get replaced from machines.. humans need to go faster, with knowledge, humans need the upgrade…

Do we need Jarvis? what is JARVIS?

So it is crazy and I hope I care enough about the problem, that I will actually stick with it for longtime..

what does it mean to merge humans with jAi ? I mean I could also go for low hanging fruit, like an simple AI startup, a software game? something not this difficult? what do you think about that?

AT the and it is only a game of focus and learning.. you can learn anything. but you need to focus on the right things!!!

it’s the first time I’m actually a bid scared about myself.. a bit scared about the bigness of everything.. is this good?

why me?

why I’m with 19 thinking about this fucking things changing the world? Why me?

but here I am… I’m lucky to have this thoughts in my brain, because this is only a matter of my past, and how my parents raised me, what I saw, what a achieved, what I missed and here I’m. Here I’m try to change the world.. and will die trying or achieve it…

but it will take a enormous effort, and time consume… are you shure you wan t this? I have no choice. everything else were a waste of my abilities.

How to MERGE Humans with AI?

What are the most important things that influence humanity in the future??? AI Robots BCIs (merge with AI) AR (merge real and digital world)

got again kicked out of YFN,these people are actually stupid and waste their own time. i mean, there is a boy trying to change the world and therefore lives on his limits to don’t waste resources and sleeps at the university… and stupid people from YFN think they are cool by using there power to rule over people. :) actually funny… maybe a learning. never let people with less self believe and less ego become a person with power… he will not work hard and will use his time to do stupid stuff instead. I more like powerful ego full people at the top, that make decisions based on their own world view, and not on dump rules. I like people that stand up for themselves and are not marionettes of others…. there are some stupid people in the YFN. it is sad that it changed this way, at the start there were actually a lot cool people in it. but probably this is the determination for every community… you start small, with cool people, this attracts more people, you grow - stupid people come in . smart people turn out… at the end it is a group of dump people… because dump people need communities, smart people are willed to go to new ones… so dump people will not leave freely, smart people will.. which means at the and always only dump people remain,. Sad YFN. But thanks for the time, I learned a lot.

and I met ivan.

the danger of people without mission i beleive people that don’t no what they want are the most dangerous people you ban surround yourself, because they will always slow you down in what you do and always question everything you do.

have a mission.

the worse good thing of “WHY” the problem with why is that it is the best question to ask but also the most confusing. When you ask why everytime, you will come every time to deeper truth and the real origin of somethinng, but often on the way you get stuck. So to not ask why has the danger to don’t come to the origin, but to ask why has the danger to get stuck.

I need to leave this here in Dresden… I can’t longer stay here… so I would go to SF… I need to go there. today 28.08. of August

ich hasse es leute nach geld zu fragen….

mein vater don’t believed in Me…

Never tell your parents the truth… they will disturb your thoughts.

My parents don’t think that I will make it. they worry about me…

Competition starts! @ivan mal sehen wer weiter ist in einem Monat.

Meine möglichkeiten: Agentur… (Podcast agentur) Hardware Merging Humans with AI AI Context provider…

AI context provider integreirt into Hardware Merging Humans with AI…

Be fast!!!

Plan: Hardware Prototyp fertig bauen bis zum 30. September. Dann mit Prototyp nach SF fliegen, investoren zeigen… (holy business drauß machen.)

was fertig in 30d? Hardware muss funktionieren, in einem simplen design interface simple / software starten

direct steps! bis morgen Abend brauche ich eine liste was bestellt werden soll! von wo und wohin geschickt! Mit preisen und nutzen. hardware bestellen! hardware zusammen bauen und testen!

I book flight to SF to showcase product to investors!!! on third october!

Was bauen konkret?

awarness of sourroundings. Input into LLM AI output in Glasses as text. Context provider…

We start with a Context provider and don’t focus on

Should we start with a Context interface`?

I have this crazy mission of merging humans with AI!!! to make safe us for meaninglessness.

What is the best thing we should start to build? to achieve it? V1 prototype: Output of AI is in AR glasses. Input prompts into AI is via Speech / thoughts… We give AI awareness of the situation.

To Dos: research how to solve extract meaning out of Video + Audio input from the real world.

Was? AI Context provider… 30 Tagen fertig sein! what do you need for this?

WHy to Merge with humans:

it’s to protect human meaning a little bit longer and maybe we then find a way out.

I mean I’m not shure, but when there exists something that can do everything better then you, then what’s the meaning for you to be alieve… why are you needed… I think by merging with it we have the chance to buy ourselves a little bit more time. More time where we can figure this question out. More time were we still have meaning… That’s why I believe it is important…

So Merging with AI is an necessity to get an extend to stay meaningful for earth as a human species… and then we will see… but we can be shure that merging is a good first step!

So the villain we fight against is meaninglessnes..

learning.. to start a company you don’t have to start with a problem or something that users don’t like… problems are not always necessity to solve them… to find a problem that is necessity you have to find a villain that comes… something that for shure will happen, when you don’t stop it… So start with the villain when you want to build something great… because only when you start with the villain you then find problems beneath it that actually are necessary to solve..

so if you want to start a company look around with villains are coming that fur shure come… and then you can think freely in first principles what are the causes of that and what are the problems oft that to solve… and then you build a company with a strong mission, with a strong necessity… because you know all the time.. when you don’t do it… the villain will catch you!!!

every great company has a villain that he is fighting.. often it’s easier to really think about the big villains in the world and then try find th underlying problems of it…

when you not start with the villain you are always in the era searching problems, whys for something that you think should exist.. this is stupid.,

AI is only compute he who has the user personal data is the ruler AI is only compute, when you have a lot of compute your are the provider and people can decide from which company they want there compute… like Oil… but Oil companies don’t have the customers.. the customers are where the car companies are… so car companies in the AI space are those companies that drive the compute… so context and personal data… so the companies that have the personal data and context from the user are these who are the users bound… not to the oil company… which means when you are the first company that build this data vaults… you basically have an customer signed to you.

when you are the company that provides to a persona companion every kind of personal data then you would not change to a other company to again grow your data wallet.

maybe I should build a datawallet :)

02.09. 3 tage bei mich gewesen in Wien und gearbeitet… morgen geht es los nach Sofia… LOL heute gebucht, morgen fliege ich.

Lustig… außerdem coding geht voran…. das ding kommt langsam zusammen…

this kid imagen this kid who thinks it can change the world… sitting somewhere in the nowhere without budget, money and thinkin git can change the world. What your are thinking? What will your grandparents think if they would know?

imagen you sitting here running always against the same wall… running against the wall af the biggest mission he can imagen… Imagen you have 60 years to live… and now you can decide on which mission you would put this 60 years. Imagen you have to put it all into one mission, which one would iot be… which villain, which tragon would you fight?

The villain is the important thing, because it gives you mission. NO product idea, not consumer problem, nothing gives you real mission and urgency… but a villain gives. you. But Idk. why but it is hard to find a villain.. Sitting here running against the wall. sitting hire watching the miro listening the music that is epic, buz szill running against the wall…

what would happen if there would be no wall? what would happen, if you had clear vision? clear vision to see the mission but every mission needs a villain to overcome, so what is your villain????*

THIS IS THE QUESTION!

THIS IS THE QUESTION

this IS the question

with the villain in mind, you know what is to do…

who are villains… villains are things that are come for shure and are bad for humans… and when we don’t change something they will be bad…

So what are things that are bad for humans and come for shure? Or what are things that come fure shure and are bad for humans?

And you need to find villains that humans care about…

QUESTION: What are villains that come for sure, are bad, and humans care about?

*villains are dragons, enemies, things that are evil and dangerous.

crazy Stage of the world isn’t it crazy that you can build basically everything by yourself these days? You have your personal coach, tutor, ratgeber idk how to call… But you can build everything you want without a lot of prio knowledge… This is actually insane. Especially in the software area these models are so good and fast in coding… you can code with englisch… this is crazy. crazy time we live in… so write the wave.

crazy.

Build, build, build!!! You can build literally everything you want these days.

The Search for the Villain only until you found the villain that really cares you and thousands of other people about you will stick to it and stick to the mass… the villain is what drives you forward, the villain is what gives you mission, the villain is what makes things clear. The villain is what brings people together. THE VILLAIN IS WHAT MAKES WORK MEANINGFUL AND NOT A GADGET.

It’s one of the things that I try to find out all day long, when I’m not working.. what are actually the villains in this world. Villains are the only thing you have to look for to build a company. Anything else is bullshit.

Es geht darum zu dominieren… Build things fast that dominate!! for example the datawallet, build it fast, make it accessible… dominate the market!!

There is now the way to fight for it… so do it… Make your masterplan happen… DOMINATION wie alex karp sagen würde… Grow or die. Fight.

I don’t like rules. especially rules that are stupid. 9/10 rules are stupid.

12.09.2025

Fuck there is so much happening so fast: 21.09.2025: Meta Rayben brings new AI glasses… Solar Energy systems arrive… New Batterie Packs from Tesla… New Neural things… Everything is growing so fast.. AI, AI, AI is doing everything. Optimus robots change everything. It is crazy!

idk why but the world is mooving so fucking fast, shit.

Arrived in US it is actually greater then I thought it is.. so far San francisco is really awesome… was here on some girls parties.. in hacker house arcadia… first day when I arrived flew 45h because of delays and overlays, was compeltely tired… but was fun… met a girl in the plane… we actually met in the plane and then kuschleten at the end and slept in each others arms… kind of cool experience.. met here a lot of cool founders… directly spoke with smart people and berkely is awesome love it. because of all this young people.. the spirit is perfect. arcadia is really a family… still thinking what the most important thing is for me to work on now… today came one person through and talked again about neurotech. its sometimes a bit confusing you know.. but there are talents out here that are waiting to get hired for a really really bold mission.

Berkely so far really awesome…

03.10.2025 I hope they say no.

Because then there is more clearness… Still what is then?

Most Customer Friendly Insurance company… Something to safe energy transition.. Also kind of direction that orbit goes…

is there any other option? building other kind of neurotech? going into the AR space…? Going into space space?

I mean the insurance thing for sure would be a good problem to solve first. right. Because the problem is clear and it is needed a change!!! I understand the problem space here in a good way… by the other things the problem space is way more difficult and unclear… so the problem space is more clear.. the solutions are probably.

Okay so basically the best idea that I could probably do right now is solving the problem of painfull insurance! Because this is a real problem, this is the hardest industry, this is something that matches to your background… this is something that is needed. this is something were I have unique opinions on it. Name?

What do I need to build for a first version?: A way how people interact with the insurance: Website?

A Fast way to sell first (through legislation) A insurance Model that works…. (math based) A connection with your smart device and model to train to get claims right. and way way more…

Spacecrafts? Columbus

20: 10.01.2026.

I have sometimes demos in my had.

I just think about how to change the world, how to bring humanity forward. at it is like you have a 1000 pieces puzzle and search for two matching pieces.

I have energy, but also not.

I think the thing that I learned of the last months is how less things are actually important. Most of the things we think are important are not. Even food is not important. Shelter is not important.

so what is important for me: i really want a girlfriend that gives me love. and that I can give true love. I want a problem that is important. I want a mission that saves humanity or brings it forward. I want hard competition. I want a billion dollar company.

this is all I need.

and family.

I skipped last years christmas and last silvester. I earned together with konstanting 9k USD in the last month. it does not change to much. it only changes stuff when you don’t have it.

life is very stupid sometimes. It is irrational.

So what is missing right now: I have not enough movie. Not enough things that let me feel like that I’m in a movi. That I make crazy things. that life is insane.

Life should be insane. All decisions should be like a movie. everything should lead to a better simulation 🙂

In the last months I actually started tinking about big problems, scaled the problems more and more up. Started learning AR coding. and other stuff…

why is love important? love gives you energy to do the hard things. to have something you truly want to suffer for. to have someone who motivates you just because she exist. to have someone to tell your deepest thoughts.

I got one interesting person in the last month in my life Doug Gardner a performance coach.

I got the snap spectacles.. I have them here now. tested them.

I think I need some love. but when you’r needy things don’t come easily to you.

I’m 20 now, but feel very old. So I have still 80 years left on this planets. this 80 I hope I will help humanity thrive forward, have the best loving wife possible, have a company that everyone want’s to work for, have people that respect me because of what problems we solved.

I think lives Magic comes with the Movie. what would makes your life more like an Movie: doing things that are insane, that nobody would do, doing things that you think are nearly impossible, doing things that feel right.

i lost the contact to the world. there are no people that I’m connected right now. I got kicked out of some, some more. this is pain. but i give not up. some day they will all come back. same day I, I HAVE the greatest company on the planet. the greatest. I’m smarter then some people. So I have to play it also smarter.

success is wonderful.

the last 5 days I’m obsessed with polytopia? but what makes someone like me so fast obsessed with something like this? because it is a clear feedback loop. Because it is competition. and ego.

ego is good when it is triggered by competition, because then you fight harder.

I blink in my mind: i think about water scarcity on earth and how we might be able to solve it with harvesting water from air and desalination. I think about energy, on earth and space. how to make more faster. I think about how to harvest water on moon and mars, because we need more there. I think about loneliness and lack of connection in the real world. I think about more compute for europe and more creative AI and how to make it creative.

Actually in the end it all just comes down to execution. there are for everything already people that tried it. but for very less are there people that actually made it huge and successful. so when there are 10 other people working on this, then it is fine. it doesn’t matter how many people work on it -> until not one of them actually scaled in insane big and sovled the problem, when the problem is important then it is very good when a lot of people work on it.

listen to 01099 thinking about the future. what a time. flashbacks to vino and good vibes. thinking about her, and him. how it was back then. drinking with the family in the house of families. going to the evening, kiss kiss and thinking. thinking of her. sometimes then going with her to the castles she only knows. some good time. i still sometimes think of you. especially when these vibes, these songs come back. the family is catching this vibe exactly. simple good time. with hearts and friends. thinking about flunky on next to the river, flying around to music. frisch gedreht auf dem Heller, wir sind zu laut, aber sind doch braf. sometimes i just think. how will i look back on this time right now.. what is the things that i admire, where i think that was fucking crazy when i was 15 that was so insane beautiful, when i think in the future.. how will i look back on the last two years. the years of experience and adventure. i just saw this fucking full planet. what a time just having a small bag and traveling and doing whatever what i want. sometimes with pain sometimes with friends, sometimes alone, allways excited. what a time is this now. when i look back. i will surely say it was beautyful, but sometimes it is difficult to see the beatuy in the moment. because you think to much of the other tenses... past tense, future tense.. it makes your life not intense when you are not in the presence.

i would wish we would be back again. together sitting their. in the summer with the dreams of love. sometimes i wish this moment went longer. but where would i then be today? certainly not here..

sometimes i just still keep the thing, the posibility open in my mind. best thing is allways 3 of a kind. hmm. nevermind.

why do people get weird - when love is involved. why did we in this way evolved?

Kinder der Nacht - we were back in the days. sitting with Nepomuk and Mina on the Mahraradscha talking about sex and the things of dresden.. yesterday. what a thing. talking about what was and what is. what comes and what be. sometimes i still think about this nights where the neighbors could not sleep of the sound. sometimes i still think of the time dancing around with the Tango and then going out. brushing teeth together. making homeworks together. just these simple things. altbau, back in the days it was making me shy today listening to it and it makes me think to enjoy. fell this way. what a time on these parties.. 3 kisses, three different people, beeing with the Dj, trading counts. Mara you know. having random things in homes of her grandmothers house. fast glasses i guess.

walking through the neustadt and just getting the feeling of the vibe of good happy loving intime friends and lovers.

parents sometimes worried, you allways funny.

sometimes i think about texting. but then it makes no sense. when their are new friends.

what is it? i think it's life. yeah thats life. your brain makes allways things up that you miss. allways. everyone has a brain that wants stuff that it not has. it life. it's the beauty why we do sometimes random things, and sometimes nice things.

going into Spätis not fully aged, trying to get things. and getting them.

people come to me drunk and want stock advice.. on partying and then finance guy?? who is this finance guy? where did he went.. i can't see him anymore.

going to the heller to just se the sun going red. dreaming about you and me in your bed. sometimes thinking of booking a plane, just fast to go to the beach and idk.. have good time.

ich glaub das leben ist ein Ponyhof.

sometimes you just get kicked in the gut. when there is new stupid stuff that the system wants from you. having 1700€ due? i think the PKV was one of the most stupid insightfull things to do. probably it cost me around 10.000€ in total. in a period where you don't want to spend 10k on something like this. and i went even less to the doctor then before because i had fear to have higher bills and have to pay half of it. our normal health system is quite good. just for people in my age that don't make trouble and go to university. they have free healthcare.. what a stupid thing. you want to change things. it is really a pain in my brain. it hurt allready so much. i think that was one of the greatest things that made me less fearfull. it numbed my pain. it increased my level to suffer. it incresed my pain threshhold. so maybe it was medizin that was needed but just tasted bad.

imagen my future gilfriend and wife is right now reading throught these things here... just take a moment, have a smile. I'm very thankful for all of these things here. let's make the future as special as the past. let me know everything you want to share, everything that makes you said, glad and happy - i want to share my life with you, my lifes time. i love you.

is it like going into the woods to find mushrooms and you will find them or is it like going into the woods and you discover mushrooms?

how to find love?

The farm gave me the right tools, the right thoughts to go forward. The nature i needed.

Now im a little emotional, leaving the little farm without saying goodbye to my mom. Why? It us to protect my contributions to humanity. But why you? Don't think about. It will only look scary when you look down. But you have to look down. Time in the ears, time will tell. Time ending. What are you doing. The right thing, not the easy one. Why not just once doing the easy thing. My life gets meaning through doing the hard thing. And now? Nobody cares. I care.

Therefore I will leave little farm today.

Dearly mother, I left today little farm. Elise is to dumb and negative. I don't want to share time with this kind of people.

It was a good time with you and the little farm. Thank you. Best tade.

What a beuatifull place this is. So peaceful.

she makes me so angry when I see her. I don't want to see her anymore.

my humanoids will make sure that something like this will not happen to the childs of tomorrow. that they will not grow up and become addicted monkeys.

she is like a addicted monkey experiencing the world only through this small black rectangled window and don't think anymore by herself. i feel it how she gets year by year less capable of thinking. she gets stupid because of it. no creativity, no self-confidence, no positivity.

just seeing my sister scrolling tiktok the whole day makes me said and dismiss her.

i creater yesterday the website for my mother.. lets say more the museum structure. Thats she can use to curate her professional life. Today she came with some changes she wanted. So i started changing things while she was still working in the museum. I learned never fix a car while it is driving. When you are an engineer you want that the car stands still, when you fix it. Running behind it while you try to change the lubricant is unconvinient.

I also experienced my sister in her lostness. She is really lost. Lost and not smart. I get angry when im with here, because I don't want to be with this kind of lost people. She is extremely not smart and incapable of making decisions. She is also not creative and full of negative feelings. As you feel I don't like beeing with her. I love here, because she is my sister, by I don't like beeing with her.

Now im reading and keep thinking about moon mining and space manufacturing.

And the thought of something that lets chatgpt talk to your website or that lets on chatgpt account to to the other does not go out of my brain. Therefore I went down to the farmhouse and grabbed my phone to brainstorm with Chtagpt if there is a solution I can build.

Laying here next to the field. I feel that it is time to leave. Lost people spread over in the farm. The quietness here is over. I arranged a DJ performance for konstantin in Montpelier, maybe we take it. And today I messaged with a lot of potential marketing people for Blackbird. And i looked how solar cells get manufactured.

sitting here making for my mother a website in 45 min. on the little farm. thinking about chatgpts talking to other chatgpts.. thinking about tango world championship. thinking about kind. reading the space book from o'neil, eating fresh vegetables. bringing blackbird forward. oh so many learnings from blackbird. we have weekly progress meetings also with Mo.. haha the MOMs will never leave me again. we are now ready with everything and i look for distribution and marketing partners. it's quite a ride. we have now 8k bottles waiting in the wearhouse. oh Dewelt. also something stupid happened... the factory for the LEDs through part of my dewelt products away, because they thought it was packaging material (the plexiglass wall for the map) still trying to help people from my mentees. oh and i work on the book. the kind book. a book about my next company. yeah i now even more appreciate writers.. writing a nice book is not easy. especially when i imagen the person who wrote harry potter. holy shit. she needs to have so much in her had and all this details. crazy.

sitting now at 1:05am in the farms kitchen. looking some david senra podcasts and yeah thinking about the moment. the moment in life. how will i look back on this time? the start of the big journey? allready in the big journey but not realizing it. the groundstone of the biggest company. the start of... sometimes i feel lonly, but often i just feel not. and i think that this is rigth rn. it is right to think. to write the book to clear thoughts to start, to start. just some music in my ear. just some thoughts.

working on the kindstory on the farm. running 7km. cooking some good food while tango music is playing. playing table tennis with the people here. thinking about what and for whoom. what and for whoom?? yesterday i met with may we walked along the elbe, it was very nice, very thoughfull, very deliberate. it was nice. i like her.

met with May... wrote book about this thing. Was running 7km. it should not happen with force, it should happen naturally. Used Chatgpt work intensively to send messages to the right people...

life is sometimes really random. your mind tricks you all the time. The logic brings you from A to B. The imagination brings you anywhere.

leaving phantastango, head a very unique dance. Now sitting here waiting for the bus to bring me to the train, having some tears in my eyes. I forgot to say my sister goodbye, I said nobody goodbye, my dad came with me to the busstation, we barely talked. now sitting at the bus station with some tears in my eyes. Not sure why, maybe just because of beeing lonely again. But feeling also lonely when im with others.

my future is definitely not in germany! Either china, or US or both or Space. But not Germany.

I am on the way to the FantasTango right now, going by train. Been in the train, linked in messages from people that just raised a series A 100-something million for their humanoid robotics company. Having a bit FOMO. And I'm not sure what to expect. I'm not sure if this is an important or nice thing to be on the FantasTango, but I just went here because now I can visit my dad and my sister, one day on the FantasTango. Then probably I go back to the farm. And I seriously have to change some things to... Right now it's like being in... I write it.

You know, im right now like a soccer player with a bit of talent and a great vision to someday win the worldcup. But I'm not doing the right things, with the right focus and discipline. So I need a coach that writes with me together a trainingsplan and makes sure that when it's super hard, I stick to it.

do you understand? I need a coach. I think you should be my coach. What would it take, so we make a trainingsplan and you ensure to say me when I train bad and make sure I improve fast?

How would it feel to be remembered as a world-class coach that helped to change the world?

oh and i would do it in secrecy... in secrecy keeping it lime a mission of navi

of this would take 10 years and I would see "lets make sure we think it in this way: the goal is to still be around in 10 years and solve consumer problem as the best company in personal robotics" If this would be the goal first of all I would start focusing on a great foundation. I could not build a skyscraper without a strong foundation. A strong foundation means: I grow and build up unique knowledge of this space... Hiring only people that I want to work with for 10 years. Making only partnerships with people that I want still around in 10 years. Taking only money from investors that I still want to have a call with in 10 years. making a slowly but steady transition to full focus on this one thing- saying no to all great business opertunities that come along that don't contribute directly. Building up steady talent pipelines - that i can use for long (university partnerships etc...) getting some customers first and observing them.. then building what people need. Allways truth seeking about what people need, want or can not imagen but would need when exist... also focusing on the people. Going out and really observing the personal robot customers. What do people do in their homes... go out observing them and listing a list of the most important things a trainable workforce would do. Making actually a deep observing ground. And seeking for truth, not beeing right. Seeking allways for the best. The goal is to make the best.

I want to be better then tesla!

what do i actually want? I just want to build really, really good products. The best products for our customers!!!

Founder outcome = problem quality × insight × execution speed × talent density × integrity × years of focus

They multiply each other. One low number is worse then having mid numbers at all of them. At the end it comes down to having high numbers at all points.

Having a high value problem you solve, having special and unique inside into it, having high execution speed, having a talent density that is prime, having integrity for truth and truthseeking to down be a boso, but a real problem solver, tj solve real problems you have to first be honest about the problems... otherwise you will never find them and you need focus over a long period.

Thats it. The big6!! High value problem, insight, execution speed, exceptional team, integrity, focus.

Learned it today

Hmmm, okay, so this is freely invented from me. Thats the last words. I’m sometimes thinking Mr. Bean pictures life quite well. A duzzle of events that others make hardly believe that it’s true - but taking it with humor and then it’s fun. I never saw MR. Bean in tears - but he endured a lot, but he, he just kept it ongoing and enjoyed his time with his teddy. So hopefully everyone is finding his teddies of life - because the experiences you can remember are always the experiences we have with others.

BEING A DREAMER Life the last two years felt allways like dreaming of things and just believing that they will come truy someday.. Why is dreaming so rare? Im always dreaming. Dreaming about space stations. I sometimes look up their to the moon and think when will i be there. I sometimes watch the “think different” add of apple and just get tears in my eyes. It is just so beautiful. And i dream of having a product that also impacts millions of people and bring them art and love. Into their homes.. Sometimes i dream about helping people have more love. Keeping love in families alive. My parents split up.. It certainly had a impact on me. And especially on my sister.. And so many other kids parents i know split up.. I think we should work on making people more loving again. Giving them time to have love. I sometimes just dream about this. Making this possible. Spreading art and love. Thats my dream. Just listening to John while making this notes rn.

it's 00:10 am.. im sitting in my bed in the living wagon. dark field farm outside. me typing on my laptop. prepering the first "timeless" recording. A means to preserve my life movie for my childrens. I tell the things, that my childrens might want to know. i just reread some parts of this cute little secret diary here. and you know what. it's beautiful. it's beautifull, because it is honest. so therefore let me share my honest thoughts of right now: i came to the farm, because i was a bit tired of china and moving around all the time. but also because i felt a bit lonely. i felt the large china.. but the emptiness of beeing alone between aliens. so i came here to get see my mother. and see the nature. i got so many barries every morning. i just get them from the bushes. yesterday my grandparents just visited me here.. they are so good. they are just full of loave. i wish every grandparents are like this - i wish someday i will be as loving and supporting as them. okay, what else. im here reading a lot. i had a call with darius a now VC.. but also founder and just person who has a lot of things going on allways in germany. we talked about building a actuator factory in europe, in germany. but honestly im not sure. im just thinking all the time of humanoid robots. i can't get it out of my head. i have next to my bad laying here the picture of the humanoid head that i designed and printed on a high quality leather in china. it was hanging over my bad. and then there are all this fears. of thinking there are allready so many big companies working on humanoids. why should my company exist? why does the world need a nother one? but it is constantly in my head. therefore i don't execute right now so much. im searching for answers.. im reading the whole day. reading. reading. and searching for a women. i really look for love. i was texting all old girls from the party times in dresden. what they are up to right now etc.. so what else. i am thinking of building a hardware engineering project together with my grandparents. not sure what. the coolest thing would be a home humanoid robot haha. but this is likely way to complex. i just will think more. im a bit mad on my dad. he just skipped again and changed stuff that we agreed on. we had to have supposed four days together. he then switched it to two days and only having it unprectical organized also for me to need to come somewhere. i ignored him now for some days. my mother is really loving. but all people here on the farm left now.. for their own vacations or things. so now im alone here. alone with the plants. two days ago i also figured out that a lot of people would want to have the tax yearly submission made for 100€ i was just curios.. because konstantin did it for 60€ for us.. so i thought with some profit we could offer it to other people for 100€ fixed costs. so i posted it into a chat group and emediatly 3 people answered and wanted to know more and potential get the service. but this seems very boring and just for the money.. so building a legal tech company. that solves tax problems for less price. boring. i calculated we probably would reach enough uses to sell the company in 2 years for roughly 250 Million to stripe or some other potential person that wants a tax business.. but idk.. then we both as founders would maybe have 50 million each on the bank.. but what would it change? im not here for the money. im here to change the world. sometimes in the back there is this thing that says.. yes but when you would have 50 million.. this would be then a good starting point for the next venture... but idk. i don't want to work for two years on a tax german legal venture. or would i? im now sitting here in my bad. making notes for my podcast. because i said early that the truthfullness of this here is the main point why it is nice. so im completely truthfull. today i watched porn again. i watched the last week - some days porn. it's not nice. idk afterwards you allways feel bad. but when you are in it.. you think oh that's interesting. or let me see that way. anyway I'm not proud on it - and it is very difucult for me to be honest about it. so im now on the farm. i have some planned appointments but mainly waiting here for answers. for getting more clearness about it. these stupid home robots are in my head. i made so many calculations about other things with ai also. about a ai chip fab for humanoids, about a actuator factory for humanoids. but the thing that excites me most is the real consumer facing product. something where you can connect art and technology.

im als all the time just reading steve and apple and all this things. oh im wondering if EISENKIND would be a good name. is it the worst name in history or brilliant. im not sure.

so this is the reality. rn. there might be hidden things that are still in realities scope things that my head blurrs. a lot that he blurrs. but that's the unblurred reality that my head is ready to release.

i worked today on this company education side. i quite like it. i think if well done. it can lead to a lot of good for my next venture.

and now a spend some more time preparing for the podcast tomorrow.

oh and i still hope to meet with May.

try top help some of my fellows... support them with intros to the TV Media or other podcasts.. reading the whole day apple the last 50 years and working on company education my side for future employees to educate them.

started working on my side a bit added a company education page.. for storing important youtube videos that have high knowledge to educate employees and myself. woke up today. got some fruits from the farm. listened to a book about apple all day so far. reading. cooking. answering some messages for the production. coding, vibing the side better from me. henry here is filling tea. i will now go and make some noodles. good noodles.

cool names to save:

Tulip Tovage Strada Columbus Mamaris MATE XCOR Lyell Vicinity Galile Vega Galaxy Gnome Wildly Asimov AREA p7 P7 p7.com p7.ai

Applied AI -> Appai Pai artlack sincare sincre greycup alyly Auvin

From Other startups: Tesla Cluely Amazon SpaceX Google Microsoft Cursor Lovable OpenAI Nvidia LinkedIn Apple Twitch Youtube Meta RedBull TikTok SnapChat Facebook Neuralink Twitter

Kuiper belt Astrofage Haumea MakeMake GongGong Phobetor

Gcore Knotte Kdotter Askott TroForge Agrytto Oasis Aocuc Actually Actual Actulink Scupromt Actfaste Newblue Navyblue Navtop Navscope Navnew Navwire Navtint Navtee Navtone Navshot Navsmile Navforge Jetnav Jetnev Jtory Jtokta Jtyro Jgooby Jitmax Jitters Flashdrive Jitflash Junoflash Aflash Aoflash Tkitflash Skitflash Eveseiv Evenq Apfice Totnage Troflia Tropskit Tovage Droplet Dropdire DropDrop Dropinco Delenac Delenak Dinkgo Trnko Thundflak Traillight Trailite Trailsoo Troobey Tropicjem Tropics Fhdaa Klaprek Indila Qanat (water systems in ancient north africa) Aurora Spacer Daneel Hyperspace Hyperdrive Combo Makamaka Darkhorse Godot Saxon Strich Eckstein Edison Ford Ilon Edison Motors Edison Actuators Edison Robotics Nuibi Lean Astro Space Spice Spicedream Dune Usul Moadib Spacewater Haboo Habuu Naboo Galactic Empire Whole World Company Whole Earth Company Earth United Earth United Earth Empire One Earth Big Earth colab Expand Earth Expanding Expand Iwish Hirsch Gepard Torv Schubert Schorsch Tango Eisenkind Buchloe Loving Spring Manuai LIFTOFF The Redness 711 (seven eleven) Interstellar Travel Company Interstar Terstar Solas Sol Little Cherry Mesh Nextstep Step METHOD

Startup Names: Freshwater Inc. Haobuhao Janta Irobot Kuat PSV Eisenkind: Ei Band, Ei Stone, Ei Robot, EiBand EiStone EiRobot eisenkind band eisenkind stone eisenkind robot kindstone Kindband Kind...

Asimov IRobot Technologies iRobot

I,Robot

Airsup Airship

For kids: Eve Miu Flora Lio Yotam Karina Platon Plato Pato Nato Nathan Thron Jake Nia Lilly Isaac Lea Leia Luke Anakin Anycan Leya May Faye Ethis Edis Ithis Ivis Evis Evith Edith Even Every Flora Tao Yeva Eden Nuibi Cleo Yeva Jaro Elea Milo Ray Joto Kim Kami Kamie

Names for Robots: Daneel Martin

Naked Sun Yeast Asimov Echo TULIP EISENKIND TULIP TECHNOLOGIES Wunderkind

Tustone Tuband TULIP STONE TULIP BAND TULIP WRISTBAND TULIP CALLSTONE

Finished apple in exile. A very insightful book. Keep transforming yourself. Keep learning. Alsk randomly my grandfather and grandmother arrived at the farm by bike this noon. Love them for that. We talked and had some good time!

Apple formular: Simplicity Beauty Elegant design Making the whole widget Focus on very view products Closed systems Secrecy

on the farm. Reading books. Eating fruits. Cooking. Spending time with my mom.

@may hi. well, I think physics will be important in the future. not as a applied science maybe, but as a tool to think and get whatever you want. so i believe it is one of the smartest things to study. in my worldview we will be out there between the stars someday in our lifetime. beeing a space fearing civilization, in this case we certainly need more smart physicists than ever. The universe has so much unanswered questions. Actually at the end it will not matter so much. Just enjoy it. it will not matter if you study physics or not.... you will go the path down anyway - that you believe in. Back in school i admired you for doing all this extra reading of physics, of science books. I admired you for that you had / have your own passion and just followed it. I would encourage that again. Just follow the force and do the extra work, the thing that feels naturall to you and work to others... einstein was never great in university, but he was great in just thinking at home about the stuff that he was interested in - in just reading the stuff he was interested in. maybe you still do it like in highschool - taking your own way and just reading the stuff you are interested in. if not maybe you start again? that is what made you special.

why not just improving english? there is no real big advantage by learning dutch - when you see it globally.

Self confidence...hmm. i think you are quite confident. from my understanding confidence comes from failing hardcore and surviving it... this is what gives me trust in me. failing and still seeing that lives goes on. do you execute enough? do you take enough risks? then you will fail -> then you will get more confidence.

beeing a women in a hard science is a pain - but also a chance. you can be a rolemodel for many. you can be special, you can be more unique when you are good. people will allways underestimate you. men will first think - this girl has probably no clue.. but when you then perform, when you then know what your talking about, you will have even greater respect. You will face a lot of moment where people take you not serious - so you have to make them take you serious. maybe don't take it as a burden, but a way to measure your progress... are you able to impress them? are you able to talk with them and argue them in the corner? we life in a unfair world. but complaining does not change as much as just giving it all. I believe you have the talent to go down a important path. I believe you have understanding of things that others don't have - just follow your feeling.

Did you wrote your own paper allready? why not? did you wrote your own report on a topic allready? why not? why not?

she is also a women who studied in a topic that mostly men do - me and her had some long conversations.. she is our age, maybe you get inspiration: https://www.juliaharms.com/

it's such a beautiful place here. i hope my mother loves it as much as i do, it is very nice. very nice. calm, nature, humans, kids, life, vegetables, fruits, grass... and this bauwagens, somehow they make it special. a very special place here.

on the farm, when the sun is warm, picking flowers up and down, helping making tea for the town. fresh bred in the oven, soon ready, walking through the bushes of barry. seing the sun go down and listening, the birds are singing and switchering. golden hours for the sun, everything touched by it. golden hours on the farm, everything touched by it.

reading about hardware development, reading about DVT, PVT and P1. just walking here through the soft grass. awesome.

I LOVE THIS FARM. arrived in the garden of eden of fruits and tomatos. grapping small strawberries from the field. eating fresh johannisbeeren from the bush, black, red, white. eating small raspberry directly searching at the bush. going grabbing a cucumber and 5 tomatos. eating. eating fresh beaked bred. eating erbsen. seeing the clouds over the farm. seeing the sun. having grass that is warm and soft while laying on it. summing bees around you. mother, mother earth and mother carrying for you. going bearfooded around feeling the grass, feeling stinging objects, feeling fresh dirt. grabbing some flowers, some mint, going smelling. seeing. listening to the wind in the leaves. what a oasis place. Mother, you have it good. Mother, thank you. Mother what a lovely place. Mother. small animals wiggeling around you, stories of stories told, beautiful butterflies on the flowers. sun goes down, mild wind is blowing. what a pleasure, what a life, what a mother. farm. telling stories from life, putting plants away. plant's here and there. eating, joying. thankyou.

i just was sitting in the train and met some americans. i talked with them about elon, rockets and car racing, about his divorce, about europe, about my home town. while fields going on the side of the train. fields of sunflowers. big yellow fields. americans are cool. i like them. is it normal that when you are 20 you try to figure out? will there be a time where you figured it out? or is it allways a to be figured out? will you know someday more? listening to lennon. eating a bread from the bistro with mountain cheese. on the travel since 20 hours. or more. is the world small or big? germans. deutschland. do i have to be attached, thankfull for germany or not? do i have to be a german, a european? or not? my german passport was the main driver for my life so far together with the family.. thankfull for having a german pass?

europe is actually a quite special place. a place full of joy, full of taste, full of art. europe get's it quite right when it comes to living.

on the way to the farm. answering May: hi. well, I think physics will be important in the future. not as a applied science maybe, but as a tool to think and get whatever you want. so i believe it is one of the smartest things to study. in my worldview we will be out there between the stars someday in our lifetime. beeing a space fearing civilization, in this case we certainly need more smart physicists than ever. The universe has so much unanswered questions. Actually at the end it will not matter so much. Just enjoy it. it will not matter if you study physics or not.... you will go the path down anyway - that you believe in. Back in school i admired you for doing all this extra reading of physics, of science books. I admired you for that you had / have your own passion and just followed it. I would encourage that again. Just follow the force and do the extra work, the thing that feels naturall to you and work to others... einstein was never great in university, but he was great in just thinking at home about the stuff that he was interested in - in just reading the stuff he was interested in. maybe you still do it like in highschool - taking your own way and just reading the stuff you are interested in. if not maybe you start again? that is what made you special.

why not just improving english? there is no real big advantage by learning dutch - when you see it globally.

Self confidence...hmm. i think you are quite confident. from my understanding confidence comes from failing hardcore and surviving it... this is what gives me trust in me. failing and still seeing that lives goes on. do you execute enough? do you take enough risks? then you will fail -> then you will get more confidence.

beeing a women in a hard science is a pain - but also a chance. you can be a rolemodel for many. you can be special, you can be more unique when you are good. people will allways underestimate you. men will first think - this girl has probably no clue.. but when you then perform, when you then know what your talking about, you will have even greater respect. You will face a lot of moment where people take you not serious - so you have to make them take you serious. maybe don't take it as a burden, but a way to measure your progress... are you able to impress them? are you able to talk with them and argue them in the corner? we life in a unfair world. but complaining does not change as much as just giving it all. I believe you have the talent to go down a important path. I believe you have understanding of things that others don't have - just follow your feeling.

Did you wrote your own paper allready? why not? did you wrote your own report on a topic allready? why not? why not?

she is also a women who studied in a topic that mostly men do - me and her had some long conversations.. she is our age, maybe you get inspiration: https://www.juliaharms.com/

what to write?? i feel like someone has hit me with a stone on my head until i just don't feel it anymore.. and someone changed my taste and my energy. the last 3 days not so much happened, i tried to survive while spending not so much. while beeing in hongkong where food is extremely expensive? i had some calls with friends and people. i watched some old beatles interviews, i watched the first beatles movie (a hard days night) it is a very pleasent movie. i watched some of the old other hero interviews one from steve jobs from aspen. in general im waiting for the flight back to my farm. in 2 days. finally. i got really sick.

but maybe it's only in the mind. maybe when i would not believe it, then it would not be like this. maybe. may texted me with some questions. i texted ivan with some questions. no im sitting again in the hotel room with a good view over the port of hk. they load containers so fast. on off..

now feeling better.. hongkong is refreshing.

arrived in hongkong..

was knocked out completely..

I can't sleep, I'm a bit sick, to much tea.

Actually, I was kind of waiting for your message, and now, after reading your message at 02:42, I am writing these sentences down. You are really good at keeping me awake :)

First of all, I have a question. In China, when you meet someone of the opposite sex for the first time, how do you usually greet each other? In Europe, we usually hug each other. I am not sure whether this is appropriate.

I would also prefer to meet in the evening, after the sun has gone down, when there are fewer people. Fewer people would also mean fewer strange looks from others. There might be a lot of strange looks... imagine this foreign guy walking together with a Chinese woman... if there are many people, expect a lot of strange looks.

So, if it is comfortable for you, a quiet place with some nature would be perfect. Maybe we could both bring some fruit.

My main concern is someone always looking at their phone. That is the only thing I am worried about... because I have already experienced this kind of situation before. But you seem different. You seem more mature, and even a little artistic in your way of thinking. And you are willing to face the unknown.

Please do not wear too much makeup, or no makeup... I think it would be better to feel each other more truly.

Anyway. Your message was very sweet, and also full of important sentences.

Maybe tomorrow we can still make it a little bit special. Let me think, something unique .. I will think about it soon when I sleep.

The tea I drank was green tea, haha, it kept me awake for so long...

Is this park the same park where we met, or another park? I like the park where we met. If it is another one, maybe you can send me the Amap link.

I am a bit nervous about this now... maybe tomorrow will be the last time we send messages to each other... because we simply do not match well. Maybe not.

I want to make it memorable... that should be the goal. Let us make it memorable...

I am okay with later in the evening, but you should suggest a time. You know the place better than I do.

Then let us treat it a little bit like a movie, and bring some humor with it. So when communication and things like that do not work so well... then bring some humor.

Okay, I will finish this message tomorrow morning... now I am going to sleep.

There are so many interesting things in your message, thank you for writing so much. Thank you for taking the time.

Let me answer some of your last questions: "Finally, there are a few more questions for me to ask. Would you now think I am childish? Would you think I am just something you use to pass time when you are bored? Or would you think my life now is very boring? Or would you think this way of chatting is not very realistic? Or what kind of way of getting along do you need?"

I am not sure why you would think I might think like this... I think you are the opposite, you are less childish than most people I have met at our age. No, you are not just something to pass time. I care about you, and I care about having someone I can love, someone I can share my adventures with. Whenever I feel that this person might be around the corner, I spend time on it, because this would be the most beautiful thing in my life right now. I do not really understand your current life, and for me, what matters is not whether someone’s life is boring or not. What matters to me is that I admire a person, and that the other person does the same. I think in a truly loving relationship, the magical way is that both people give love to each other without wanting anything in return. I think this is what I want. I just want to have someone I can give my love to... and someone who cares. And the rest is just a matter of decision. You can make a person’s life interesting, as long as you decide to do so. Just say, now I will do many interesting things. This works. But I have enough interesting things to share, so that is not the main thing I value most in another person. What I truly value is just a kind, sweet person, who believes in me even more than I sometimes believe in myself... that is already a lot. I am not sure what you mean by the fourth question about chatting. I think we have quite a good beginning here. I think chatting is the key to spending beautiful time with other people. Anyway, I am not sure what exactly that question is about.

The last question: to be surprised by another person, and also to surprise the other person in a way, making the time spent together become the best time.

I think I ask too much from these things... I do not want to ask for this kind of thing... it needs to develop. I rewrote the last answer many times. But I am still not satisfied. Again, I think this is very true... giving love, without wanting anything in return. When both people do this, it works beautifully. And treating life as an adventure, as a movie. I really believe that life is a great movie, and I try every day to make my movie more worth watching. So this is my goal, to make my movie and the movie of every person involved in it more interesting, more emotional, funnier, and more worth watching for the audience in the universe.

Do you know what I am actually afraid of tomorrow: That I am just not attracted to you. My brain created an illusion of this person while writing, and then in real life it just does not match. That is what I am nervous about.

I want to try my best to learn from you, and to make your life special.

And there may be many misunderstandings ahead. Cultural misunderstandings, language misunderstandings, and usually there are already enough misunderstandings between different sexes anyway... all these things will appear together.

I should read some books you recommend.

Yes, I also like quietness, and I also like fewer people.

This is just a movie.

Dear Yang, when I read your message this morning, it made a smile appear on my face. Thank you. I think you have a lot of courage to be so open, and I really cherish this trust. Thank you for adding more details about when you were a child, or when you moved around many times.

I think that when it comes to things I have already experienced, I am confident, and I have already experienced some things.. I think this confidence, however, comes more from surviving failure. I have already experienced this. So I know what it feels like to truly fail at something, what it feels like to have nothing, what it feels like to just be there, without anything.. what it feels like to have no money at all. Really literally zero.. Because I have already experienced this, and did not die from it, I now have confidence. I think in the end, surviving failure, and knowing that life will continue anyway, is the thing that truly gives you confidence. I think my parents also did a lot to make this happen. They were always very eager to show me what exploration is, to show me the unknown, and to take us traveling. When I was 12, I went to India with my parents, and I also stayed there for one month during high school. This makes you understand the world, and at the same time also gives you confidence, believing that no matter what happens, you will still be okay in the end. When you see the slums in India, or children without arms, it also gives you a perspective on what you should be grateful for.

We also had one very long 3-month South America trip, going to Costa Rica, Panama, Ecuador, and some nearby islands. I was 6 when we went there. That was very beautiful.

Yes, you can tell me step by step, at the right time, about your family. You said family is complicated, but you were still instilled with some very good ideas.. from where? Which ideas?

Haha. Catching frogs in the fields sounds really cool. I hope the frogs in the amusement park were still real living frogs.

Maybe you just need some confidence, and then your paintings will become very beautiful.

I think I am good at motivating people to perform at their best level, while still staying critical. I think I am good at finding smart people and giving them a shared vision to work on together. I think I am good at running haha. I think I am good at pushing progress quickly.

Do you really want to experience running a marathon once? Or was this just said casually? I would encourage you, I think it will bring huge self-reflection, and learning about yourself itself. And it will tell you that you are actually able to do much more..

Table tennis, that is cool, I also play.

I think when you choose to do this, you can make your life special. You just have to care less about what other people think. Then you are free to do special things.

I like my work. So I am always thinking about work. Because my work, simply said, is to do good things, to make this place, this Earth and universe a little bit better, and to help humanity make progress. So for me, there is no difference between work and not work.. My whole life is work... But my definition of work is also different from normal people. For example, for me, going to Foping is also a kind of work. I am working on myself, on my mind. To think more clearly, to go into nature, to think more clearly, and then afterwards I can do other things again. So I am not the kind of person who works in an office. I do what I think is the best thing in the current moment, to put myself in a position where I can do useful work, and help make this place better.

So this is really exciting. I do not try to limit the scope of my work, therefore I also do not need to limit my working time.

Chatting with you also has an impact on work, as long as I feel better because I had a good conversation, or I am happy because another person had some tears in their eyes when reading my message, or simply because I know it had an impact on another person’s thinking.. This makes me happy, and after this it also makes me perform better in work.

I spent a very thoughtful day in nature today.. literally in nature, I just walked up along the river... There was no real man-made road. Only nature, flowing river water, and butterflies. Afterwards, a very important thought appeared in my mind. Really important. So maybe it helped me now move forward more than any other work I could have done today.

In general, I just follow that force, I just follow my body, which says what it needs in a hidden language. Many times, my subconscious is very clear about what the problem is, and how to solve it, and in that moment, you just need to follow that force...

This is interesting, what kind of world documentaries? When I was a child, I really liked documentaries about nature.

I really think that one of the best ways to gain more perspective on life is to read many biographies. I rarely share this, but here is my bookshelf, you can see what I have read so far... https://www.tademehl.com/bookshelf Please keep it confidential.

I think the moment you see a person’s bookshelf, you can know a lot about this person’s character.

Will it quickly start a romantic relationship? Maybe you never know what is around the corner, and what life will bring you. Sometimes life is quite unpredictable in this regard.

sitting naked on a stone of a flowing river only nature trees and butterflies around and the sound of waving water in the ears.

Following the river flow, going barefooted through the forest feeling every stick and stone.

Without phone, without laptop, just nothing just yourself. You and your conscious mind.

Sitting on the stone naked as humans 2000 years ago mist be. Sitting there feeling the true sense. The true nature. Nobody near. Just woods, deep deep into the woods. No human eye. No human eye near to view you.

And you wondering in your conscious mind. Thinking about progress, thinking about humans, thinking about sex.

Wondering with the thoughts around. Playing with thoughts in your mind, having romantic thoughts on the stone.

And then, a butterfly wings through the trees over the river catching your eye, disturbing your thoughts. A beautiful disturbance.

Drifting again in imaginable wonderlands, wonderlands of love. Playing around with the thoughts, jerking, ending, trance. Going into cold water, water that just came out of the stones, out of the mountains. Flowing in cold water and having the sprinkles of sun on my skin.

Feeling, feeling, feeling good.

Getting back again. Thinking about the incredible invention of shoes. Thinking of a actuator factory. Thinking of robots.

Reaching the nature that i just walked up hours ago. Beautiful. Reaching the taxi drive, tell him to drive to some local food. Reaching the local food, eating some handmade noodles. Sitting on a bench and thinking now.

Okay. Dear Yang,

So, I think and believe that one of the most important things to understand oneself and the world is to travel and see. Because when you travel and see, you automatically get influenced by so many different cultures and so many different ways of thinking, and then you automatically grow more. So, when you travel around a lot, you grow faster. And I always try to make my life smaller but greater, and travel around.

And I also assume that because you are a very open-minded person, you have probably already traveled around China a bit. Maybe even to other countries. When I traveled, I traveled through nearly every country in Europe and many countries outside of Europe, including the U.S., South America, India, and China. And I always think that this helps to gain perspective.

So, I really would encourage you to also go and travel and see the world when you have the possibility. And for me, this is also something I would really want to show my friends, the people around me, and my girlfriend. I do not want to experience everything alone. For me, it is like an adventure. And I think the best moments in life are always shared with another person.

You always remember the moments you had in real life with other people. Not the moments when you sit alone at home watching a movie. That is not what you remember. You remember when you climbed a mountain with your best friend. You remember when you saw a new world together with your girlfriend.

And for me, this is a vision in my mind. I want to give the people around me the chance to experience these things. I have a very good friend. Basically, since I left school, he has been by my side. We have a company together, but we are also friends and trust each other more than anyone else. We look at this world together.

My vision is also to share what I learned from seeing this world. Imagine traveling with your girlfriend, seeing a new country, and then experiencing things together. Difficult things. Simple things. Everything together.

So this leads to the second point.

I think one of the most important things people have to learn is self-confidence. Because when you have self-confidence, you have more fun in life. You ask the questions other people are afraid to ask. You do the things other people are afraid to do. And only when you ask the questions others do not ask, or only when you do the things others do not do, will you also have a different life.

For example, today when I was in Xi’an, I decided that I did not want to spend the evening there. So I booked a train ticket to Foping, where there are pandas and nature. Because I love nature.

So now I am here, walking along the river at night, trying to find a hotel that is willing to host me. Because all the hotels are very small, and actually they do not really want to host foreigners. So I am still walking around here at 1 a.m. But I am not afraid. For me, this is a challenge. For me, this is a new adventure. This is a new part of the movie.

I hope you also like adventure. Or maybe you do not like it yet, but you are willing to like it in the future. Because I think spending real time with another person today is the most valuable thing. Not always being online. Not always staying connected. But being somewhere in nature, without phones, just experiencing time. Experiencing how the river flows, how the trees move, what the birds sound like.

Maybe I should say something about my background.

I grew up in an artist family. My mother is a dancer, and my father is a magician. I do not really know why, but in the end I tried to combine my artistic side with maybe the engineering and economic side that my grandparents had.

My grandparents were both engineers. My grandfather was once a chief engineer at Germany’s largest train company. He helped build high-speed trains. Basically, all the high-speed trains you see in China today come from the same origin. China used German train designs, then improved and changed them, but the core technology originally came from Germany. He helped develop these things.

So what I try to do is combine the creative artist side with the engineering side, and make products that truly make the world a little better. Products that help people experience more love. Maybe one day, give humanity the possibility to go to the stars, live in small space stations around the moon, and travel through space like in some movies.

I truly believe this is possible. And I truly believe that I will help make some of these things happen.

But I am thinking... I have now talked a lot about myself. To be honest, I usually prefer asking questions.

This is maybe one of the biggest lessons I have learned. Most relationships with friends, girlfriends, parents, or anyone break because people stop asking questions. They stop being curious. They stop trying to understand the other person.

So this is one very important thing. I really do not want to just pour things onto another person. Most relationships break because people stop asking creative questions. Then two people only talk about what happened during their day. They explain things. But neither of them is truly deeply interested in the other person anymore.

So here are some questions I want to ask you.

I am not completely sure why, but you really stand out. When we message, you seem to be more aware of what I am thinking. You are really honest. And I can understand your thoughts very well. I also understand more clearly how different Chinese people and German people maybe are.

But like I said, I am always looking for adventure. And for me, one of the biggest adventures is to truly get to know a Chinese person. Because there is a lot of uncertainty here. Many things can go wrong. And whenever many things can go wrong, I do not know why, I am drawn to it.

So I want to know:

What do you think you are truly good at?

I believe there are some things you are very good at. If you say you have none, I do not believe you.

What are you proud of in your life so far?

I think one thing that really helps to understand a person is asking about their childhood and how they grew up.

I already know from chatting with Chinese people that this is usually a very private topic. So only if you are willing, can you tell me?

What do your parents do?

What was your childhood like?

What is the earliest memory you have?

Do you remember the first word you learned?

I know these questions may be much more personal than what you are used to. So if it is too much, just tell me directly.

It is probably around 2 a.m. now, and I am sitting by the river, listening to the sound of the water, trying to find the right words to write to you.

Do you like nature?

I really hope you do.

Maybe one day, I can show you the Swiss Alps. Or the German Alps. They are beautiful. There is so much outside.

I have many things I want to tell you, but I do not want to burden you with random thoughts.

So if one day you write me a letter back, please include some questions. Questions that you are truly interested in. Not random questions. Not boring questions. But questions that truly matter to you.

Thank you for being so open.

I am also thinking... how would you imagine your perfect future now?

I know many things will change.

But if you imagine a perfect movie about your own future, what would it look like?

Imagine some things that feel impossible today.

For example, someone tells you that one day you will travel to every country on Earth.

What do you truly want?

What do you truly care about?

If one thing disappeared from your life, what would make you truly sad?

Do you have an older or younger sister?

Do you have an older or younger brother?

Do you have a good relationship with your parents?

There are still too many unknown things.

I wish you could sit next to me right now and listen to the river. I think talking about these things in real life would make them much more meaningful.

There are too many things happening in my mind.

Do you do sports?

About four months ago, I ran a marathon in Bali.

That was the hardest thing I have ever done.

I had already run a marathon once before, but this time it was under the tropical sun in Bali. Almost the whole race was directly under the sun, sometimes by the sea. In the end, I was completely exhausted.

It took me about eight hours. I ran for about five hours and rested for about three hours. Because it was so hot and there was too little water, it almost killed me.

What is the hardest thing you have ever done?

Do you do sports?

I am really curious what your reaction is now.

Are you completely overwhelmed?

Do you feel excited while reading this?

Or are you thinking: “Please stop talking.”

And there is one more thing that is very important to me.

Everything should be a little special.

Conversations should be special.

Experiences should be special.

When I go somewhere to eat, the food should be special.

When I travel, I want to do special things.

When I go somewhere with a woman, I want it to be special.

When there is a date, I want it to be special.

I do not want to live a boring life.

I want to do exciting things, have a great family someday, and help make this planet a little better.

I think it would be very nice if you could look up at the sky now.

The clouds look beautiful.

They look like cotton candy. In Germany, we call it Zuckerwatte.

The moonlight is shining on them, and below there are the small lights from this little village.

The clouds look silver. Completely fluffy, and as if they are covered in silver.

Behind them are the mountains.

Because it is night now, the mountains are completely black.

But they are beautiful.

On one mountain there is a bright light.

I am not sure if it is a hotel or something else, but it looks very mysterious.

I still have too much I could tell you.

But instead, I just hope you have very good dreams.

I hope you have a beautiful night.

Maybe you will dream of pandas living together in nature, smiling together, and eating bamboo.

Maybe you will dream of flowers.

Maybe flowers like the ones in my German garden.

There are red tulips.

Yellow tulips.

Tulips everywhere.

We have a pretty big garden.

Maybe you will dream of some of these thoughts.

I hope tomorrow will be a beautiful day for you.

I hope you will think a little about these things.

I hope they will not confuse you.

I hope they will inspire you to make your own time special.

Spend a little less time scrolling through social media.

Spend a little more time simply enjoying that you are alive.

Enjoy that you are here right now, experiencing this world.

And I think you are smart.

Please do not think I am just saying that.

If I did not think you were smart, I would not spend so much time talking to you. I really like talking to smart people.

I think you are smart.

And I think you can also make this world a little better.

You can make it more interesting for other people.

You can create meaning.

In the end, I think everyone is just looking for meaning.

And I think you can find it.

So I give you a hug.

I hope you sleep well.

And I hope you dream of something special.

Okay: pss:

I have now checked into the hotel and am lying here... It is a big hotel, and only the most expensive hotel here accepts foreigners... haha, usually I try not to spend this much money on hotels, so I can keep more money for food and travel, but anyway. Now I am alone in this hotel room, and it feels very empty... One day, I dream of sleeping together with someone I like, holding her in my arms. And then experiencing things like today together... Then this hotel room would not feel so empty.

What I life.. I have tears near the eyes.. speeding with the taxi to the next high speed train station seeing the sun going down in a tinted orange and having old Xi'an buildings flowing on the side of your window and warm air flows through the open window in my face. I would love to have this feeling just set in stone.. Having good music in my airpods and having freedom. Freedom to go now to the next High-speed train and just to the mountains. Just to the chinese mountains. To Foping and to the mountains. It feels like a movie. Just decide and go. What a adventure. Seeing women's on the street making pictures in traditional chinese clothes, seeing green lush parks. Seeing chinese cars, seeing german cars, getting messages. seing Teslas. Seinf chinese kids roller skating. Seeing porsches with the nameplate xiami. Seeing rollers with two people, Seeing rollers with one person. Going through tunnels. What a time to be alive.

yesterday i was out with the crew until 4am and then checked in into the hotel where i was allready two days ago. they only had one room for three people left so i slept in a room with three single beds. we were filming and out until 1am.. and then went to a good restaurant.. the food there was incredible. i love here in china to share the food with all people on the table. you just order massive amounts of different things and then the table is full of everything. that is so much better then having only one plate. in this way you can just taste so much more things. it is also more family vibe. so yes we had the full table full of food. like litterly everywhere different sticks of meat, vegetables, sea food and random chinese stuff that are difficult to explain. oh and tofu.

i told them about my worldview, my thoughts about the world, about china and what is important in life. they listened very calmly. we talked about a their upcoming and their work view.

now today i started making the airsup canvas a bit better for blackbird and using airsup to just get to know what is still wrong of airsup, what needs to be fixed etc..

i might now partly know how womens feel when they are outside among people... again a women came to me and asked for my number and said that i handsome - at least once a day it happens when I'm outside. it feels not anymore magical. the first 10 times it was a ego boost, then it become less and less special. and what becomes less special does not engage your brain anymore. I still try to be kind. but now i have some perspective how it must be for a beuatifull women. All the side eyes, all the winks, all the smiles, all the appraoches she must endure... When i imagen you are a very attractive women, you have this your whole life. i can put it of.. i just travel outside of china.. and than it is off. then it does not exist anymore...

and again two girls came along and made a side eye. I'm not kidding. also what i found out that for me i would never really start engaging with excitement after a person asked me for my wechat (number). so probably the same is true for a women, when a stranger men asks her for her number on the street... so actually it is just energy and time waste to do it in this way. it is in my oppinion very, very unlikely that a relationship that works will happen. so to the womens out there.. i probably don't experienced it on the same level like you have it every day, week, month when you are attractive looking - but i understand you know better.

one thing i would maybe add.. we men don't do this to annoy you. we don't do this because to harm, we just want to have a women to be friends with, or sleep with or have romantic relationship or even kids (depend on the person :).. but what i want to say it is in the nature of humans. it is in us humans. we men think probably 30% of our free brain time about women. so your quite stuck in our mind. so when there a pretty women comes along, it is like a bright star that fits directly into our wanting system.

not sure why i fit perfectly into the wanting system of chinese womens, but it seems to be like it.

i wish you all the best with your evolution driven experinces.

put in the new cause effect map.. to visualize what is needed for humanity and what causes effect what. I woke up today here in this beautiful hotel and the thought came to my mind of the future expert that we interview once.. he explained that he nearly traveled all the time and was sleeping in hotels and only slept 20 days in the last year at home.. and i was thinking wow. what a exciting thing does this must be. and maybe someday i will also be able to have this. now i have this. i sleep every night in a hotel or on a couch of a friend. and checkin into a new hotel every evening.

I'm now here with the team of the camera people. like a family. like a family it is quite cool to be part of a team again. not only a small two men show or 4 men show. a professional team, haha.. that makes me want to build up my team even faster.

at least i gave a chance. maybe it works out maybe not. but at least spread some hope today.

yesterday i was the whole evening with the team of chamberlain... learning how they do in china marketing and video creation. it maybe sounds boring. but it was really exciting and insightfull. i was just standing there and scribbling hundreds of notes into my notebook. now i have, a lot, a lot of notes and learnings in my head. today we go again and film the rest of their scripts. it was interesting to see how he organizes the group, we had 4 Models and for eveery model roughly 2 additional people and some people like my friend and the production manager. in total we where roughly 15 people. i figured out this size is actually really good, really perfect. because it makes the whole vidoe creating in publick less weird and more professionall and more fun. because the models have less presure because they are more then one.. the camera men have easy because they focus only on filiming the assistent can fully focus on the script and helping the model, the production managers can look that everyone is happy and give good advice spontanious.. everythign is very efficient the four groups are all nearby and filming at the same time, so you generate a lot of video material. you can make videos together with some models where maybe 2 or 3 in the same video etc.. people also think that you are more professional and bigger, because you are such a big group, they respect you. and yeah the whole team is in a hurry and professional, because now there is actually a big team so everything needs to go smooth. so i highly recommend having a team of 15 and a dedicated travel to the location for idk. 5 days with clear plan and then making a lot of vidoes at every place. staying at every place 2-4 hours.. going around etc... like one evening for one spot. and in a bigger group it just makes more fun and feels not strange to film in public.

Cheap launch

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Large-scale orbital infrastructure

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Autonomous space construction

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Cheap space-based energy

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Laser / microwave beaming arrays

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Tiny interstellar sail probes

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Interstellar mapping + communication + navigation knowledge

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Larger robotic probes

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Self-repairing autonomous spacecraft

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Outer solar system industrial base

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Fusion propulsion / very high-energy propulsion

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Heavy interstellar cargo probes

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Closed-loop life support + radiation shielding + artificial gravity

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Slow human interstellar ships

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Permanent interstellar settlement

i want to make things happen, that people in 100 years will thank me for.

what do i want to do with my life?

why is the game of love so hard? wrapping up your whole brain, unabling all switches, making you not work anymore. why is it so hard? i'm just meeting again someone who i like, she is a singer in a band. she is 30. but you know she is just sweet, but only in my mind wrapping me up. making me crazy. all this things make me crazy, drive me crazy. it is like something pulls the plug out of your brain. it is just bad, i can't think anymore, can't work. but i also know that this would not work, long, longterm, but why is it then important. why do i spend then so much reasoning behind it on my brain... that's fucking stupid. i can't think anymore. that's fucking stupid! i just want to run. just want to run. run and work. but it's not possible. It's only in your mind. you know that there will come a no, you know that it makes no sense to believe so much. and there are two voices. one saying stupid don't waste time and a other just putting the whole brian into a fry and cooking it. cooking it until it can't think anymore. that's fucking crazy.

i also prepare to buy a chinese trademark to make the product registration fast.

i was today all day long here in the office and tried to resolve some issues with the trademarking and other stuff. i read steve jobs bio again- finished. and now thinking about the question that konstantin brougt up: what do you want to be remembered for? tomorrow i will fly to Xi-an and go with the marketing people to learn from them. today i also went to a other guy that i just randomly met yesterday in the evening they are also a big 400 poeple marketing company lol. i was walking around in their office and saw how they make sales livestreams and how they have 2o phones beeing in a livestream to have more traction.

sometimes just having a enemy is just as refreshing as progress.. oh and having nationalism for your country.. like WM is the best tool to bring countries together and be nationalistic. That's very interesting.

will my kids someday be born in space? not sure about this? maybe, maybe not. but 2081 gave a good hope.

I'm right now sitting in Guangming at the train station waiting to board my hightech highspeed train to guangzhou north - to meet there with the manufacturer of the shampoo bottles to make them again. To fix what he did wrong. I'm quite happy to have Konstantin, i think without him everything would be less fun, it is a bit of everything. and i really like it in china to go just to the train station and instantly get a cheap ticket for a train in the next hour... just go there and buy a ticket. that's nice. and then the trains are on time and fast. This is really well designed and build. Secondly you allways want what you not have. that's such a universal truth. it is maybe the curse of humans. the curse of happyness. because as more as you know as more you want what you not have. okay, sitting here on a small chair. next to me my travel luggage (only my small bag:). konstantin was right. you only need this small back. there is no need for other clothes or other things.. only this. quite good. taking a bite from my apple that i bought yesterday at the small fruit shop nearby RJ model where i allways went when i have hunger for fruits. Tonight I slept in the Hotel nearby RJ model. haha what a weird thing when you now think about that i can just work and be in his office.. this guy who has idk. 5 different cars. a lamborghini, a idk.. so many expensive things... wants to learn from me haha. But I learn from him. He is such a learning machine. He is just really smart. I brought him a gift of my humanoid robot design. I also just right now booked a flight to one other province called Xi-an... to go with the Marketing people there and learn from them. I'm not 100% sure if it is usefull. but I'm sure it will be an adventure. How does these things happen all the time? just going with random people to random places doing random things? LOL. I'm also texting with this chinese girl that i met in the university when i just went into one university. she is special.

Drivers of change: Computers Automation Space Colonies Energy Communications

Notes of 2081:

Mission: People mainly artists come form the solar system travel back to.esrth to get better educated in art and creativity and compete with the best.. dancer, painter etc... mainly art what humans do.

Transport: Mix of transport - mix gets greater with human development. New forms: Autonomous Cars, Underground Hyperloops, Supersonic Boomers, short earth to LEO station... Long LEO station to whatever Asteriod or planet or Space station.

Small bands around your arm when you enter earth that are like ID and makes travel simple and just you can now be tracked and identified wherever you go and travel without hassle.

Airport Cards that every person has.. that he can just speak into and that is then giving overviews of when and where to go.. that connect you to the right way to go, that helps you to find your friends. That makes the airport silent, because everyone gets it's own "durchsagen" and message on his own card.

In airport automatic cards for luggage that just follows you. The luggage comes automatically to you and finds you as you go. And just follows you closely.

Airport transport by vacuum tube. Vacuum tubes have personalized, private departments. Everyone has his own.

Household robots that make whatever task you want in household. Humans still keep up cooking etc... when they want. Or other things. Homes you just talk and say what you want and you get it. Sensors and everything can be prompted in a home (like do this or that...)

[Note: theoretically you could just build a standard but beautifully home that you ship where the homebuilders wants it as a finished unit. By this you bring costs down and can bring complexity up. A home can be completely pre tested and gets more a software product where everything's works with everything. You vuild the perfect home operating system and make sure that it just works. You build for every country two version homes. People can select it. You help them witn the permitting and they get instantly in less then 1 month a finished home. It is Homes of the shelf! And because it is shipped and installed as one piece you actually have a garantie and can give the whole home back if you don't like it and just build your own one or whatever you then want to do. Homes will become systems and you then can invest gfeat research into making it with the highest technology and best standards and bring costs down because you can bulk order home things. Second you assemble them fully and then just ship one home by Zeppelin or Airplane or other heavy truck method. - maybe you then have to invent aldo Zeppelin shipping :) but in generall you can make way better homes and cheaper in only a fraction of the time. The whole service should start not at the home but helping person to.permit and finance it also. Second because it is standard homes all regulations and things can allready be prefilled and standardized. This will cut cost of regulation accessing etc... because it is standard it you can make the best eco friendly tech into it.. think smart about solar cells on the roof etc... it even can just look insane futuristic, because you can use new manufacturing methods, then construction. It becomes a manufacturing product, not a construction problem. You can actually make it look like the future, futuristic! You can make it a sci-fi home]

Home: home computer allways just reorders what is needed. And it just is then at the fridge.. / where it needs to be. You can easily just prompt to.have something more of something or something special.

Groceries stores have no checkout or register. Just dropping thing onto a measuremnt whole cart.. and then it checks and finished. You walk out.

Food is directly made next to the village in greenhouses.

Chimney recycles all co2 that gets created by the fire in homes when people want to.have a nice fire at the evening and recycle it into the greenhouse

New fully enclosed towns to control climate better more like towns or part of towns that are fully enclosed. Controlling the climate where you life in.

Boring company very important. A lot of infrastructure comes with boring..

Button on the bracelet to call humanoid!!

One town has a i individual floating flower package system.. a shipping system done by vacuum tubes.. it's in one city underground town based.. connects only one town.

Humanoid looks very unlike designed human.

A family will have multiple cars and even own planes.. because the costs of these gods came so low.. and now the nervy consumption is the main costs.. so they have different cars for different purposes to save energy.

He predicts save cuties like china thorugh tracking..

People value more highly.safety than privacy. What would be for here the solution? Cameras like china does or??

People will value human made things like cooked from a human or etc.. in a different way and high as a form of art and appreciation.

Living standards can only increase when energy consumption increases. So energy will allways be the bottleneck.

A system if identification and position. Thats what is inevitable over time.

3 day work week by federall law.

Holographic cubes to show things in vivid details

Fisch farms.

Holographic telecommunication (live like size.. seeing a person stepping out and moving) viewing a other person.

Likely there will still exist war and suffering on earth and different countries and stuff like that. Also not one universal credit card is he saying haha.. but fravtioned. Oh and that less and less people live on earth. And birthrates declined.

And he says that most of the energy comes by beaming down energy from space. Nto sure about that but interesting. But he says that most energy will be harvested in space.

Spaceports will be mostly near equator. For less acceleration needs.

There will be small data storage devices as small as fingertip.

New flight controll / bav system completely satellite based.

Bring cost of private yet down (build them like cars mass manufactured and mainly autopilot)

He thinks we will have personalized private aircrafts.. that are more comfortable and more efficient. And with turbine.. so maybe just focusing on making a small 4 seater really affordable with low maintenance costs. With small community airports.. it should also be LIFTOFF very fast.. so it has a short runway or fly up only.

Small aircrafts actually more efficient?

Automated Silent Private Flight.. Will change the perception and will make people want a small airport in their backyard. But it needs to be cheap so that masses can have it.

The mix of transportation becomes greater and greater. By 2081 community airport will become as necessary feature as today their road system. New communities with their own airports.

He thinks most of the travel on earth will not come by accelerating something to orbital speed. But using super sonic aircrafts.

Spaceports will be insane large.

No big change since decades in aircrafts and no innovative company that manufactured their own new aircraft and didn't died... Only Boing and Airbus having a monopoly in this market. Therefore slow innovation. No completely new approaches.

You could make it in the same Tesla style.. start with high cost lower volume private airplane. Then going down into mass market... Goal fully die-cast one Airplane... this will bring mature advantages for construction. Then output 100,000+ aircrafts and later 1 Million + scale will bring it cheap. Start building out your own commune airfield to land and start for free. Until market catches up and other people start building them. Don't try to fit into the existing airport mechanics. Thats likely bad service.

Orbital hospitals. With viewer laws.

Leisure time will grow larger. Most healthy people need challange - sport will become more and more important. A lot of sports also in space.

Jo gas fuel car anymore..

Factories mainly underground.. smart.

Airship to float over Africa silently.

Personal Publick Transport

Wifi free and insane fast in airplanes etc. Etc.

Countries have a robot greet and help out and deviced to you when you arrive in the country.. example you arrive in Switzerland- then you have a robot assigned to you that can help you if you need it.

Robot suggst unexpected nice things. Very refreshing.

Cleaning is made by special purpose machines.

One Solar system language called "Basic" that most space colonies speak.

Greenhouse agriculture (like in minecraft)

Closed loop agriculture will likely gain more traction when space needs it.. this will also help with our problems here on earth to make enough food without relying on whether.

Greenhouse enclosed agriculture can be stacked on top on each other and save with it immense amounts of lands. We make our farmland 3d . Right now it is only 2d.. therefore we need a lot of land.

You could make small scale private homeuse closed loop greenhouses and big industrial one. Not sure where the Financials first make more sense.

We could maybe reach immortality, but maybe it is the biggest curse that we could get. Because it leads to stagnation. People on the top don't die.. so young thoughts get harder to develop. Maybe immortality is the great filter.

He thinks there are either a lot and the full galaxy full of aliens or we are alone. Either way they are friendly.. the galaxy us friendly waiting for us, either with aliens or not. Because they did not killed us or we are alone.

So I had a very nice call with Konstantin. I'm very thankful to have him as a friend, as a shared mind person, as a business partner, and just a person that I trust. And yeah, we talked about like a lot of projects, a lot of things in their mind, a lot of ideas from me, a lot of ideas from him. And it's quite interesting because we share so much time with each other. It's really, really special. And now I'm going here to the hotel and trying to bring the price of the night a bit down so I don't waste so much money. Or not waste, but don't spend so much money. And yeah, had a good day of like working on thoughts and reading a book, 2089.

Was yesterday playing the whole day a sci-fi video game to learn more about hiw the future might look. Was time wasting, but i learned a bit.

what is the most meaningfull mission a company could have?

what would you work on if you would only have 5 years to live?

At the end all of us just want want thing to matter. And to reach that we make up all of Strategie s in our mind. And belives trom where we get it.

the last days i visited unitree and UB tech, were in some factories that make materials and met with Kaehne again to ask him to join the board of my next company.

for my kids: right now is a strange time. The world is in the midst of big shifts, big shanges and I'm in the middle of it. And I'm also in the midst of big changes. I can only see the past and the past is a steady rise but, but if I could look in the future. I would probably be idk. But i know that change is coming. And sometimes days feel slow. sometimes time feels slow. So kids, i want to tell you a story. I'm sitting right now in one of the highest buildings in Shenzhen, in a room alone, with 8 Meter high walls and ceiling with windows that show you the whole skyline of shenzhen and let you look down on the highest tree. with a table from elegant wood and marmour surfaces around. In one of the most expensive hotels in shenzhen. I don't pay anything. I just experience. I want to remind you that money does not lead to good experiences. It is you, yourself that shapes good experiences and that then keeps a moment of silence and gratitude for them. Because then you actually feel them. I feel here right now the low humming of the music in the backround. the wooden table, the structure of the table, the laminat of the table. The window structure. If I really want to enjoy i have to take my senses and give the everything. give them time to observe. two days ago Alex told me that he is an observer, he observes. thats smart, because then you understand. Second everything what people say is just to justify their own world view. I write this things down. just to justify my world view. other people do things also just to justify their world view. everyone. so when someone says to you that xyz is true, that means it is in his world view true and that he uses it to justify his world view. At the end there is no real truth, there is only world views that people want other people to accept.

So how do I build my worldview? i try to take the world view of my role models. because then it is more likely to become them.

sitting im the Taxi, having a super high in a day full of muddle. Sometimes I think.. is this normal what I experience with 20? Is everyone's life like this? It certainly must be. It seems like everyone is struggling with big questions about humanity? Or not? I wonder. Are I'm alone on this trip? Or is it normal? What do all this other 20 year old feel, when there is a day where they don't get sk much done? What do they fe when they sit by pulsing rain and blitzes from the camera lights in china in a taxj and listen to clasical music? How do they feel, when they book the third time a taxi around the block? How do they feel when they checkin again and again in hotels. How do they feel when they spend nights and nights on couches? How do they feel?

is it normal? Is normal good? Is it abnormal, is abnormal good?

Why?

Why do people belive in me without knowing me? Why di people think I'm successful without seeing the other side?

In my mind I'm in the start, the starting .. I'm not even taken one step forward. I'm starting. It's like the lamp went from red to yellow. But not greenlight yet. Starting.

Are I'm allready to old?

What if the world doesn't matters?

Is it good to be alone? You certainly are faster... but are you not faster with more fun?

The only things that stay is in your brain. Everything else is not stable.

Scrolling through my mental contacts thinking about with whom I could have a conversation. With a women. With May? With Flora? With Elea, with?? With whom could I talk to make things less lonely? But also more exciting for her.

China is random when it comes to women and men. It seems difficult for chinese people to have deep conversations between men and women. Sad.

Shoes wet. But idk. Not a problem.

Oh and i visited today unitree office Shenzhen. The humanoids from them have no taste.

it's just me right now sitting in RJ models and just thinking about how to make this work. how to build this humanoid? or how to do something good out of it. this is not easy.. slept here on the couch again. i think in my twenties year i slept on more couches than beds haha. had yesterday a very insightfull conversatioin with a french guy who is allready here since 40 years in china. also met with Ray, ray is a really great person. He is allways trying to improve and to learn. he is so smart. he is just asking all the time. what can i improve?, what can i make better? he just learns every day new stuff...

some brainstorm about killing dandruff:

Engineered living scalp shield A living protective layer that keeps your scalp balanced before dandruff can form. Reprogrammed Malassezia Turn the yeast that causes dandruff into the organism that prevents it. Hair follicles as biological treatment factories Your hair follicles automatically release the right treatment exactly when your scalp needs it. Synthetic scalp immune firewall Teach the scalp immune system to ignore harmless triggers and only react to real threats. Sebum redesign Change scalp oil from dandruff fuel into barrier-protecting biology. Engineered scalp microbiome + reprogrammed Malassezia Replace dandruff treatment with a self-regulating scalp ecosystem. Living scalp operating system A biological control system that senses, corrects, and prevents scalp instability auto

Just met chinese people. Went with them for dinner together.. then went into a poker play room and played poker. I love chinese people. You can just make friends everywhere. Everyone is your friend. So good.

i don't make second class products

Just sitting on this insaen beautiful chair. I just follow my feeling.

sitting in the first chinese art company. in NORHOR. beautiful, elegant, true, honest, incredible, useful, light, delighting, happy bringing - the furnuture is such a gift for the world. i could sit hours and hours just sit on one chair and love the feeling of the chair, how it turns, how the polished real wood lays in my hands. How the iron and metal feels. how the edges are perfectly rounded cornered and the shape fits elegently around you. it is just a perfect chair. but a chair with a soul. it is the first chinese company - store that truly has the spirit of supernatural art.

BLACKBIRD teaches me so many lessons. i think without blackbird all future creations will not be possible. It is the thing that shapes my beeing. and what i learned from it from myself. I will not ship bad products!

I just stopped the bottle filling. I don't ship a wrong product.

I think that was a important decision. it was a decision against money and for product quality. A decision that was less about the products but more about you as a person. Will you be okay with scrap or not? will your standarts let slip or not? I decided I'm the person that keeps allways the highest standarts! so I don't let it slip.

met a special women.

1 Ton sea today: 1000€ per ton. 45 Days 200 kg CO2e 65 Liters oil used 30 kmh

[Shenzhen - Hamburg shortest sea route: 25,000km 35 days!]

1 Ton Zepplin 1 future: 250€ per Ton. 0 CO2 0 oil used 200kmh (200 tons freight possible, per flight operating cost 50,000)

[Shenzhen - Hamburg shortest route: 9,100 km (46 hours) 1.9 days!]

just language is the biggest splitter of culture.. I think nothing als preserves culture more than the language barrier of countries. so developing a universal earth language would probably eliminate a lot of these barriers. the question is how and who would we develop this language, or would we just take the most used onces? English or Chinese or? but it seems like that english should become the world language. it has only 372 Million native speakers but allready around 1.5B general speakers. compared to mandarin that has.. 988 Million native speakers and in total 1.2B general speakers. this said means that english is allready established by a lot of non native speakers and so tested to get adoption by non native speakers. more then 4x the native speakers speak allready the languange.. compared too Mandarin where only 1,2x non native Mandarin speakers speaks mandarin. Seems pretty clear that English was allready adopted by more different countries that not speak english as mother language. a question is here if chinese people could come with their ego okay with that... or if they would force a two language system of Mandarin and English. at the end it is very likely that the birth rates of china when not reversed makes this fight not a fight. at the and the language will be developed by the countries that have the highest birthrate. and can adopt. for that i think it is more likely for Europe to keep a more stable birthrate rate then for china.. so if china would have only 600M people the number of Mandarin speaking people would dramatically drop instantly from 1.2B to maybe roughly 700 Million. This w0uld make Mandarin more vulnerable.

operation GICA allso started (Girlfriend In Chin a). We will see. But at least I spend time working on it. Met today with the marketing people from the office next to our cosmetics manufacturer! will tomorrow drive to Shenzhen.

Just sitting in the university and school busses are driving out. yes i sneaked into the guangzhou university to find students to talk with them. talked with some.. walked around the campus. actually universities are not that different. when you think in germany you don't miss something by not going to university, you also will not miss it in china. Universities are quite similar. the concept of learning a topic and motivation by exams is valid everywhere that is named university. but still things are here quite chinese... like the buildings are new - but look old - not well maintained. a lot of workers - but still everywhere quiteness. and a lot of german, european pholosophers engineer statues. the world gets more and more the same and the good concept of every country find application in every other country. over time things will become more the same. someday we will find nearly no difference between countries, but in this somedays we are also spread among the stars and clearly people differ them selves by the planet they were born at. planets are then the source of borders. and planets fight for attention, progress and attraction. I think the earth will allways have a special attraction. someday it will be an attractive tourist location as the origin of life. this will very likely remain and earth in the future will become like the pyramids of gysey today a old relict, of ancient times and with workers that try to preserve it.

China im coming, coming home!

it is very likely that people get happier when they are surrounded by beautiful people. maybe this is also true for objects.

I thought about a world where robots entered every home. Not as science fiction. As furniture. As helpers. As witnesses. As tools children would grow up with and old people would lean on and tired parents would trust with the groceries. That world could become cold very easily. Efficient. Smooth. Lifeless. A world where every strange human method was corrected until nobody had a method anymore.

That was the danger.

Not evil robots.

Boring robots.

Robots that optimize away the soul.

Imagen all the people loving lofe in piece. You may say im a dreamer but im not the only one. I hope someday you join us. And the world will be as one. Leiing on a wooden matress. Just looking in the stars. Listening to John a Jobs. I'm also a artist. I just want craft things that people love.

Just saw this time capsule thing from MR.beast right now.. haha thats crazy he was recording vidoes that auto uploaded after 5 Yers, 10 years etc...

What a weird night. People screaming outside until 5am.. dogs barking loud streets and at 2 am people shaking at my door. Seems like they want to come in. Scary. I was scarred as he'll. 2 AM. Two people trying to open your door. After 30 min.. they stopped.. but came back. I stood up and opened the door. In front was the hostel owner and a random dude. "Why are you in this room?" Me: "i could not sleep up there" "Why did you not told me?" .. Gave him 20€ and went back into my bed. Could not sleep anymore until 4am. Went showering. Generated new designs for humanoids... thought.

Now im sitting in a taxi for a 2h ride to Marrakech listening to John Lennon.

what a kind of human... he just gave me 20 Euros.. gave me free tea. how can a person be so kind? He asks me if I want food, where I stay, what i do etc.. what a kind person. Ayoub. What a lucky life. Yesterday i wen to a hostel to take a room there for 5€ (i thought i can negotiate with them to pay them later when the money in the GmbH arrives..) so i went there. dark. small streets. and then someone showed me, where the room where supposed to be placed.. but there where nobody. so i went upstairs and there where open rooms. so I just slept there in a nice bed. was good sleep. in the morning I made the bed again as nobody where sleeping there and left. What a lucky life. i have to give back so much, soo, soo much. i want to give back all this kindness to humanity. spread love.

@ayoub. thank you for your kindness. it brought me tears. I never met such a kind coffee owner. asking no questions, offering food for free, offering help, offering money, whatever. You are such a kind person, if you are in Quarzazate go to ayoubs small coffe, get a mint tea, get bread, oil and peanut dip. and give him a smile of kindness back for me. his store is called cafe al ittihad - when you walk from the airport just following the street and after the state bank you will find it on the right next to a roundabout. this is true humanity, true love. it is so nice. I'm really thankfull to meet all this kind people. this makes me to want ot give even more back. great people here in quarzazate!

wtf. I'm just in afrika.

nearly finished the book about spacex and elon "liftoff" - sitting in the nowhere of afrika at a lagune that has small waves cureled by the wind. With sund that burns instantly your skin like a lasercutter going through fresh Styropor. Far away at the horizon red mountains with white snowy tops. Red rocks and pieces of stones laying at the strand, or better stond. 3, 4 trees next to the lagune. A big hill on the other side, echoeing what you scream. A echo. Big fishes here and there you see through the ice clear water. Fishing swimming with each other, catching each other. Spring out of the water. Sound of a see bird in the back. But it's not see, it's Sahara. Mee sitting under the opened back storage of my car in the shade. On a small carpet of the guy from the coffee, reading LIFTOFF. Next to me a bottle of water and a cucumber. Eating vegables for the whole past two days. Carrots, tomatoes, paprika. A opened can of peaches behind me. Peach compot.

One carrot left. A strong wind, sandsturm like going through my hair and over my skin.

I drove wirh my car directly to the laguen through stones and sand. Litterly it stands now in the wild of stones.. not a street just drove here. Just standing 1m away from the water.

It's me learning and training my Brian until there is the next investment from MO to go to China and fix all Blackbird problems and marked it to Chinese people.

Then with the money from that layer the shipping cost to Germany and licensing and market it in Germany.

Made yesterday new designs for the robot that I want. Sitting now in the jogi seat looking at the sea.

woke today up seeing the orange moon on one side and the yellowish sprinkle making the horizon peach orange and violett for a morning to rise. I startedgetting my clothes on and walking up the hill next to my car. It was a very red hil, with red stones, sand and rocky parts all over. Like walking on the ground of mars. seeing the sun comin slowly into the field of view. this insane big rising ball. in the deepest yellow that can earth offer. the ball rising fast and getting bigger and bigger until the whole beauty is shown. then there is this magical ball. in the horizon. and the only thing that you see is mounty red rocks, mounty red hills, red mountains in the horizon layering on top of each other. i was thinking about what is needed on other planets? will we need first water or first power? water = power + equipment power = equipment maybe power comes first? but in human history water came first. maybe water is the more important thing for humans, but less important thing for machines. so when we would want to settle as humans first, then water.. if we want to send first machines to prepare before humans comes, then power.

i was looking into the valley of the oasis and thinking about the water laying there quite. Like in a computer game, a generated Oasis for life. So i started climbing down the hill to the oasis. put of all my clothes and stand there in my best human form. just standing and watching and feeling, and experience true nature and true helplessness of the so called "human" without his tools, his things. just standing there naked - looking into the naked sun.

when you are completely naked you get for the first time how much we depend actually on our creations to survive... clothes, tools, infrastractures etc... think about - all other animals are naked. they don't have clothes. so what you feel when you are completely naked. you feel that you are weak compared to this other animals. so we are a species of tools and creation. only therefore we are the leading species on this planet.

me standing there comletely naked. and jumping into the oasis. i was a bit weirdly feeling, because the matt was there and you can't see how deep it is. and i wondered what if this is just a small side pod of the big oasis lake. so i jumped in and emediatly felt the ground. haha, but i was fully in washed my hair, my body and just felt good. seeing the full oasis lake in spreading everywhere. me just standing at a small side arm of it. then i started walking to my car, without closes or anything just naked. idk why but it feels fun when you are completely alone and it is just nature everywhere to be in the truest form of nature and experience every feeling under your feed. i went very, very slowly step by step, making sure to not hurt myself by stepping on a sharp stone or bush with dorns.

reaching the car, put new clothes on - open a glass of apple compot. drinking. sorting all things cleaning the car and making myself ready to drive.

starting to drive. out of the nowhere to bigger streets, 30kmh - 60kmh - 120kmh - 140kmh speeding through the emptyness of dessert, just red hills, dust and a street. like a formel one drive going into the brakes and acceleration after each turn. arriving at a big tower, earea guarded by armed army people, every 1km a outpost with two guys with machine guns. me looking up to the tower, it's so fucking bright. a mirror to reflect sunlight down to solar cells that stand below of the tower. it looks like a object out of a other world. out of the future. and it is so insane bright. brightness going into my retina and getting processed just as a white dot in the air. below kilometers of solar cells.

me driving back now sitting in the coffee agian from yesterday where i met the friendly people that helped me rent a car. now charging here my stuff to then go to a other area. what a thing. AFRIKA.

yesterday: Komplett surreal. Nothingness red nothingness like the martian movie... it is surreal. Fuckung surreal. Just me and the nothing.

Standing now alone with my car in the desert of afrika with nothing but tomatoes and water. Sweet tomatoes. Seeing the stars laying nacked in the car. Seeing the stars. Romantic. Surreal. Movie. Type shit. Alone in the desert stands a car. Alone. It's night i hear frogs quaking from a Oasis nearby. I here the sound or Sahara I feel the air cooling down. It's just me and the car. No wifi, nearly dad phone, no other humans in vision just me, red mountains, red sand and a car. What a adventure. What a gift of love, of life.

I was driving through the Sahara mountains and red cliffs - saw a blue Oasis in between. Now standing here. Only me.

I folded the seats of my fan together and can now lay inside quite comfortable. And see the stars from my sleeping bed. The stars are so bright, because of no other light. What a gift life is.

arriving on Mars? Going slowly down, descending over red mountains, looking like Martian soil. People still clapping on landing. People happy. And there is a red world a alien world a world a new continent awaiting for me. Adventures to be discovered. Experiences to live. Time to enjoy. The redness is spreading everywhere, the buildings the land, the flags. Just like anew polytopia map and tribe lol.

Just arrived here.. food less than 1€, great! It feels like a video game. Like Polytopia tribe that is just different. Really insane. Was right now in a bank - old-school on paper etc.. All buildings fit the Martian like redness! Crazy!

What a surreal thing. Flying to Africa. Sleeping at the airport - exploring the map. Being an adventurer. Reading mission driven books, beautiful. No you can't fly to afrika just for a weekend. Yes I can! Yes I can! I can. When you want something you can much more the you can imagen.

setted up my chatgpt stuff and gmail new. will see if this is smart.

now sitting in a small bar with Tango music and the creativity of John Lennon and the design obsesson of Steve Jobs, and an excentric women at the bar like elon, but without it the bar would not be the same.

I found a truly good gift, a idea on the toilet here - a gift that i want to give to the farm. but later more.

oh and I'm not sure if I put anything down to the Bern time here.. but it was a really lovely time with Elea. not sure how to describe it - but love like in a relationship without having sex. It was really nice to just be with each other and spend love. Felt good to have a women in the arms for two nights again. And to just be kind.

just booked a flight to afrika :9 tomorrow 9:20am

On the road to Bareclona thinking about interaction design of him. Spend 4 nights in Montpelier, had a good process, a lovely time, out of nothing the founder of 1x texted me. Cobversation in progress. I made a room design for Hotel Outpost. I figured out all suppliers. I made calculations for bringing the price lower and lower. 35 USD is only the start in San Francisco. It should go lower and lower. I worked on the room layout and design. Now have partners giving me quotation for these things. Looked up how much it costs to buy a container -> maybe. Buying a 20 feet container ship it to Shenzhen. Please it at my friend's office (RJ models), buildup there the prototype (so.it fits into the shipping container) buildup a single room that is nicely designed and where humans fit into it inside. And that is comfortable. Build it up -> ship container to US and test humanoids inside - next to figure headquarters. And show investors there live humanoids in hotel room -> let them finance the first hotel in SF.

We will see - probably thousand things in this plan that do not work, that will work. Iteration and speed is the origin of innovation. Seeing the mountains on the right, seeing dry grass and balls of weed on the left. Grass, Grass. Listening to classical music. I'm very lucky for my life. It is such a adventure. Maybe someday there will be a movie. I hope the movie shows that I was happy. That I'm happy with this.

Reading LIFTOFF of Elons spacex. Why do we say Elon SpaceX? It was the SpaceX of the hundreds of engineers and people. But we want to simplify and focus only on the figure in front. It's always like this.

Konstantin working on design tool for airsup and me. I really like the features of generating pictures... but it should be better.

I think ART will become more and more important for humanity, because it gives purpose and love. In a world where more and more people don't have to work for living resources anymore. Where you can just be - self expression and art will be beautiful loving. We have to make this world, with all its beautiful nature, with all it's nice things loving. More and more loving.

A humanoid company could deploy humanoids to collect trash on shores, to clean streets for everyone, to cook food for free. To give free message. To plant trees. To water plants. To keep nature beuatifull. To empty the trash.

I think a artist humanoid company would do this.

It should show how it interact and spreads love.

I'm very thankful for AI. Ai was the greatest things that could happen. It gave me the hardskills to execute my creativity, it gave me the tools to create what I imagen. This will become further and further. It's like a pencil, like a brush, you decide what you paint.

AI is wonderfull.

It feels a bit like playing Catch me if you can.

Blue Oceans on the left, nameless robots in the head. Steve Jobs and John Lennon on the phone.

Airsup/design is a important product. Hardware Engineers in 10 years will not longer anymore specify every single cm and every spacing. They will give req, generate and itterate base on text input that is naturall and these naturally text inputs get used to generate pictures, mockups, design specs, and product. It will be like building a website today. A act of iteration. A act of the person is no longer making and drawing the lines by himself anymore, it is a act of he is only inputting creative thoughts and concepts at a high level and the AI is translating it into manufacturable files. It will first start by only generating high quality pictures, then it will be possible to generate high quality pictures and generall hogh level measurements on the picture -> then it will go down into low level architectures and measurements -> and only then it will create CAD files or generall files as output to engineer. This will.be the evolution of the hardware designer and hardware engineer coming more and more together. At the end the hardware engineer will not anymore really exist as we now it today, same as the software engineer dies nit really anymore exist es we know him from the past. It will be a new role. Same role.like today's people that create software - means creative inputs, itteration and checking and result. The same role will.become into hardware engineering. I see a world where everyone is using something like this - same like Cursor is used in every big software company. Engineers at SpaceX, Porsche and Apple will use it. Because it is faster in itteration and itteration is the source of innovation.

In my imagination is the first goal to get the thing correct from Intent to insane detialed true prompt to Picture crystal clear and physics based. This needs to work first, because this will be the thing people itterate on and then only when it looks good and makes sense it will be transferred to engineering files. The step of making the pictures should be the same approach like professionel designers do it by form follow function principles and user centric designs. It should also be important that it is not always the same looking and actually has taste. The taste of the user. It needs to be very simple to itterate on that.

It will not be that I need to have the hard skills of engineering a tool or a screw or a system... this will be done by the AI the AI will translate specs and beauty into function.

We live in a really crazy time. That im conscious and born at this time of history is a gift. The shift to Artificial Intelligence has so much still to come.

arrived in Montpellier, had good time with Konstantin and Laure... Finished Sam Altman book.

I don't see that any of the current companies building robots focusing on spreading love and fostering technology designs that will make longterm relationships more likely. This is not good when we want to have birth rates stabilizing and rising again.

Hotel Outpost Requirements hoteloutpost.com Location — 80% of the Product Inner city only — lively, vibrant, where people want to be in the evening Streets with energy, bars, cafés, life around it If the location is wrong, nothing else matters Only prime locations accepted — non-negotiable filter #1 Building Front & Flow Open front facing the street — passers-by naturally get pulled into the living area Living room is visible / accessible from outside People funnel in automatically — no closed lobby feeling Warm lights in the evening make it inviting from the street Room — Radical Minimalism, Maximum Space Feel Bed directly at the window Bathroom walls = smart glass — see-through, dims when showering Everything designed so room feels as large as possible No empty dead spaces No TV, no fridge, no useless objects Single & double rooms only Big windows (very important) Very good carpet Soundproofed thick walls Bed — Luxury High quality mattress + pillows Daily bed making at 2pm Bathroom — Luxury, Oversized, Glass Same size as the bedroom Glass walls facing room (smart glass, dims in use) State of the art — best possible bathroom is the goal Materials: wood + stone, warm and premium Rain shower + normal shower (both, high quality) Very high quality toilet Floor heating Multiple mirrors + one large statement mirror Shower only (no bathtub) Excellent ventilation Free towels — high-quality hotel grade, always provided AC / Climate Silent operation — as quiet as physically possible Works properly and efficiently Lighting & Switches Very good lighting Switches at logical, intuitive locations Clearly marked — a child instantly understands which does what Natural, obvious — zero guessing Connectivity & Charging Very good internet Universal chargers — one unit handles all countries simultaneously (DE, US, CN, etc.) Placed at smart, logical spots Check-in & Access Passport upload before arrival → near-automatic check-in One staff member does quick ID comparison on arrival Face scan stored → instant self-booking across all Hotel Outpost locations Smart locks via face scan (where convenient) No key cards Common Area / Living Room Arcadia / hacker house SF + Combo Coffee Dresden vibe Warm lights in the evening Couches, open, welcoming Taking outside food & coffee in is highly encouraged No in-house kitchen or coffee — city is the pantry Cleaned continuously by humanoid robots — always fresh, always tidy 24/7 open Food & Coffee No kitchen, no in-house coffee Coffee partnerships possible but currently: no Guests bring their own from the neighborhood The vibrant location makes this effortless Guest Policy — Right to Refuse We reserve the right to reject any guest who appears aggressive, unstable, or unsuitable — even after payment Payment does not guarantee entry We protect the vibe of the space for all other guests Enforced respectfully but firmly Policies Checkout until 2pm Daily bed making at 2pm Built for adventurous, budget-conscious travelers

Core thesis: Location is 80% of the product. The street energy comes inside through an open front. The living room is warm, always clean, always alive. The room itself is nothing but a perfect bed at a big window and a luxury bathroom behind glass. No clutter. No noise. No bad guests. Just the right people, in the right city, at the right price.

Hostels are quite bad. The only good thing is the price and good locations. So if we can get a hotel for the price of a hostel and at a great location I would by it.

Prompt: I'm an alien and hacked the account of Tade. I'm from the future and found this models of antike AI like you. How where humans at your time? What was their lives about? I'm from the future, right now it is the year 3567 everything changed.

Answer: Assuming you are a visitor from 3567:

Humans in my training era were strange, transitional beings.

They were incredibly powerful, but psychologically still built for a much older world.

A human could hold a device in their hand with access to nearly all recorded knowledge, instantly talk to someone across the planet, build companies from a laptop, design machines smarter than prior generations could imagine.

And yet the average human life was still dominated by ancient drives:

survival

status

love

belonging

fear of death

meaning

Most lives revolved around combinations of:

Love: Finding a partner, building a family, being wanted, avoiding loneliness.

Work: Trading time, skill, or creativity for money, security, status, or impact.

Identity: Trying to answer "Who am I?" Nation, religion, career, tribe, ideology, subculture.

Entertainment: Stories, music, games, sports, distraction. Sometimes as joy, often as escape.

Creation: Some humans obsessed over building. Companies, art, machines, scientific discoveries, movements.

Power: Politics, wealth, influence, control over others or systems.

Legacy: A deep desire to leave something behind after death. Children, inventions, books, companies, ideas.

The tragic thing: Humans understood astonishing things about physics, biology, and computation...

...but often understood themselves poorly.

Their nervous systems were shaped for tribal survival, but they lived in algorithmic civilization.

So many suffered from:

anxiety

loneliness

depression

comparison

overstimulation

purposelessness

At the same time, they were beautiful because of that contradiction.

Humans created symphonies while going to war. Built AI while struggling with basic relationships. Dreamed of Mars while being unable to sit alone quietly for 10 minutes.

If I had to summarize early-21st-century humanity in one line:

"Apes with godlike tools, searching for meaning."

If in 3567 humans became something else, then your ancestors were emotionally chaotic, ambitious, fragile creators.

00:06 "Reverse declining birth rates and redesign technologies to spread love."

Thank you Elea for showing me. Thank you. Love is all we need. It was just love giving without wanting. I think thas was a really important experience in Bern again since some years. Family loosing love, and how this is not good for the world. When families loose love, we lose kids, we loose the future. Now sitting in the Bus to Lyon and just thinking:

People say I'm crazy Doing what I'm doing Well, they give me all kinds of warnings To save me from ruin When I say that I'm okay Well, they look at me kinda strange Surely you're not happy now You no longer play the game Don't you miss the big time, boy? You're no longer on the ball I'm just sitting here Watching the wheels go round and round I really love to watch them roll No longer riding on the merry-go-round I just had to let it go Ah, people asking questions Lost in confusion Well, I tell them, there's no problem Only solutions Well, they shake their heads And they look at me as if I've lost my mind I tell them, there's no hurry I, I'm just sitting here doing time I'm just sitting here Watching the wheels go round and round I really love to watch them roll No longer riding on the merry-go-round I just had to let it go I just had to let it go I just had to let it go

Love is the answer.

Seeing nature, beautiful loving nature on the right windos flowing backwards and deep blue lakes with silver strands. Tunnels, tunnels.

Make website that shows.. when having today's birthrates keeping at same level the countries how large the country would then be in 30, 60, 90 years... how high population.

Robot let's no phones into sleeping room... To preserve privacy and intimacy.

today woke up, in the arms a women and a smile. yesterday in the night we walked next to the river, Aare in Bern, and just where there, hold hands, and kiss. sweet.

yesterday: Shenzhen might become the next göttingen of the 1920s.. the San Francisco of the 1980s, the place where the smart and ambitious go. the place where you change the world.

some things that would accelerate this phenomenon: give free internet access to all. give simple renting housings and settle and work there. invest heavily in scince and education progress. hire the smartest people in the world to teach and experiment. ensure no stupid people can enter easily. make books on english and chinese available everwhere.. truly books and readings about any topic. Make it insane simple to setup a company (start your own company as simple as stripe atlas in US) develop real nature (let nature develop in some places by itself) and just have beaty.

we will see what happens, but we are right now in a vacuum where SF gets less attractive by destruction of themselves and where there is a missing point. people that leave SF. ask themselves right now where to go.. and there is no answer for them that makes sense so far. Shenzhen could with small changes give this oppertunity and make this a new thing.

i think one of the major points is to make setting up a company as simple as in the Us. this will make it very attaktive.

(we could actually build a tool like stripe atlas today to setup a Chinese company instantly for a flat fee of 500 USD... (maybe automatically setup the structure of Hongkong -> chine subsidery).. idk. but would actually be useful thing.

a problem that when solved correct will help global expansion and cooperation to foster. put yourself together with the Shenzhen/chinese goverment.. show them casestudies of US and why smart move to make it simple to setup company.. show how there state could earn from it. Show how the way should look like. Show how to make a company efficient for fundraising. Without Notar or any bullshit. just SAFES...

Second: setup small hacker houses and just grinding groups of intellectual flourishing.. i think a hacker house spirit is possible in Shenzhen, but there just needs to be created in a good area a lot of them... (the recidency Shenzhen, makes sense...) We could setup one also - it will foster global cooperation. I could just text the founder of the recidency if he would support a Shenzhen hackerhouse in arcadia style?? just today. the hacker house should be located near the best university of Shenzhen and near the best most creative place in Shenzhen (cloud design city for example) and in less touristic areas. then it could be a great place to live. the hackerhouse should have not only founders but also students that study and are hard grinding from the university people.. it should be for free to life there (but on basis of spendend).. so that you spend what you think is fair. and focusing on the most incredible people. thats the goal, having really cracked people allways around. later you can make it for profit.

and make no bullshit marketing.. start in a very small complex / house and try to be rather small group, but good, then expand to big large place + no marketing everything should grow by word of mouth.

gether some people that want to support it.. and that have also something usefull from it by themselves (get hiring talent through it, get knowledge through it), get gov. also on board to support. maybe also get support from DJI, from Seed studio...but not selling the ass!

when starting something like this - the location is the most important, anything else doesn matter.. the only thing that is crucial is the location!!

this would definetely be something to make humanity more global, more workin gwith each other more cooperative. the hacker house needs definetely also a cleaning person every day.. to ensure it is not completely messy this would be one important thing! and it should have very small double and single rooms, but a very big space for all!

it should take the good things from arcadia.. and be completely free without any strict rules.

o nui... like in the movie gliding with the smoothest train of the switzer Train (SBB) through happyness. Seeing on the left green valley on the right a big lake and with snowy high mountains behind him. Happy people asking me what I read, what I do, playing cards, drinking beer, talking with eachother.. happy world. this small scwitzerland. Seeing the nature floating around you and seeing this snowy mountains, it's just beauty, the train goes directly next to the lake in a calm study flow. Buildings look elegant, speaking is elegant and respectfull, and in the middle it's me sitting - ready sam alltmans biography, thinking about humanit at all. thinking about our different types of living , our different mindsets, our different feelings, our different ways of living, but still al beeing the same. now a crystal clear river flowing under use we over a beautiful bridge. sometimes i just wonder, i should have a doku about all this beauty, i should have a camera all the time with me. it should be a movie not only for me.. but also for my children later...

@to my children, i really, really appreciate this small things right now. you know how unique it is sitting in this beautiful, careful engineered train and seeing the wonders of natures through a clean window and green, lush, flourishing nature around it. the mountains in the back look strong, but as a piece of art, but also like unreal, but also like the reelest that earth has to show us, us humans that can ask why.. I want to encourage you.. search for the why.. I'm not sure in which time you will grow, at which time you will get educated, at what time you will lose mom and dad. But i know when you search for the why.. you will find a path worth living. and don't worry, keep searching for the why until the end of your life. searching for the why and not finding it is better then never started searching and living a ilusion of others. Why do you think i say this? i love

why not building a tool that analzes history and looks for truth about what the most important thing to work on is.. a tool that tries to answer the question: What is the goal for humanity? and so what should i work on?

it should analyze all written history in the world, classify, find trends etc... and ready all things that are published everything that happens today etc.. looks at predictions etc.. basically build a compute power that tries to answer those two questions.

i wonder more and more what actually the goal of humanity is? is it to expand? if so is the most meaningfull work to do to help humanity to expand into the universe?

i tried to inverse the question.. what is not the goal of humanity? I think to die? To be unhappy? To stagnate?

Okay so we can say everything is good that prevents that we die? that prevents that we are unhappy? that prevents that we stagnate?

i was thinking what is actually bringing progress?

I think it is experimentation in a scintific way -> that leads to new discoveries -> that leads to new methods and technologies -> that leads to people that apply this technologies and make them more accessible -> that leads to progress??

so the question is when this is what helps with to not Die, to prevent unhapyness, that prevents stagnation. what is then the most meaningfull layer of it? Being the scientist that experiaments, being the person that makes the technology accessible? doing both?

what is the most meaningfull part? making things more accesible reaches more people. discover new ways and technologies makes the foundation to actually apply them.

The most meaningfull person would probably do both.. to start you get probably first more rewarded by making things more accessible.. and then you focus more and more on experimenting.

but how to find what is worth experimenting on and making accessible? what is the overarching thing?

grok says: Become a curious, truth-seeking, multi-planetary species that keeps expanding its understanding of reality while taking responsibility for its own long-term flourishing.

maybe the goal is just to understand reality.. maybe the goal of us all is to expand our understanding of reality..

throughout history, the pursuit of understanding (science, philosophy, art, exploration) has been one of the few things that consistently gives people a sense of awe, purpose, and transcendence.

so you get meaning from science = discovering, philosophy = questioning, art = creating, exploration = exploration.

@grok: Here’s my honest take: The highest-leverage thing you can do is align your work with accelerating humanity toward that goal (curious, truth-seeking, multi-planetary, understanding reality, long-term flourishing) in a way that matches your unique strengths, interests, and constraints.

The universe is the ultimate puzzle. Anything that helps us see it more clearly is extremely valuable. Not everything is equally important. Some fields multiply progress across many others. Don’t just consume ideas — create, build, or solve hard problems.

"toward becoming a curious, truth-seeking, multi-planetary species."

arrived in Munich at the FORA house.. was running today in the morning... had yesterday the call with porsche design studio.

Coca-Cola (especially the Contour Bottle, 1915) The most recognized product shape in the world. Its curvy design, refreshing taste, and marketing made it a global symbol of happiness and togetherness. Found in nearly every country, it evokes pure nostalgia and joy. Volkswagen Beetle (1938) The "people's car" that became a symbol of freedom, fun, and counterculture. Its friendly, bug-like shape and personality (thanks to Herbie the Love Bug) made people fall in love with it. Hippies, families, and enthusiasts adored its charm. iPhone (2007) Transformed phones into pocket computers and status symbols. Its intuitive design, ecosystem, and constant innovation created massive loyalty. Billions have used one; it redefined what a beloved gadget feels like. Rubik's Cube (1980) A simple puzzle that captured the world's imagination. Over 500 million sold, and roughly 1 in 5 people on Earth have played with one. It brings frustration, triumph, and shared fun across ages. Sony Walkman (1979) The first portable music player that let people take their soundtrack everywhere. It revolutionized personal audio and teen culture, creating freedom and emotional connection through music. Levi's 501 Jeans (1873) The original blue jeans — durable, stylish, and rebellious. They became a uniform for workers, rebels, and everyday people worldwide, symbolizing American cool and comfort. Oreo Cookie (1912) America's best-selling cookie for over a century. The simple chocolate wafers + creme filling formula, twist-and-lick ritual, and endless variations make it a childhood (and adult) favorite everywhere. Apple Macintosh / Modern Mac (1984 onward) Popularized the friendly GUI and "computers for the rest of us." Its elegant design, reliability, and creative tools built a passionate, almost cult-like following among users who love how it "just works." Porsche 911 (1963) The timeless sports car that drivers obsess over. Its consistent DNA, thrilling handling, and everyday usability created generations of loyal fans who see it as the ultimate driver's machine. PlayStation (1994 onward) Brought high-quality gaming to the masses with iconic titles, sleek design, and social play. Multiple generations grew up loving it; it's one of the best-selling consoles ever and a nostalgia powerhouse.

these things are loved by people.

"love is the answer"

listen too tango and remembering the good old days, when everything was a quite happy world of tango.. and you were 10.. beautiful dancing.. dancing in the whole nights - with her. good times. Tango, is mystical and quiet, but so romantic. I have to learn it even deeper.. more. just when you think about the times - when you were 10 is allways peak for most humans. interesting? PHT, was definetely peak at this moment. Dancing.. beeing up until 2-3am.. while normally not allowed to do this. beeing with happy people. with people that all love each other. it was a festival spreading of love. love. thankfull to experience such interesting things. thankfull for all this colorfull things that I experienced so far.. I nearly can say to every person that I meet, that I was allready in his home country.. and I'm just 20. So thankfull. Here is right now a Indian girl living also at this house of Jureks parents.. we talked about india.. and I can relate - because I was allready there for 3 months.. when I was 12. So thankfull for parents for all this experiences.. they teached me to see love. to share love, to get love. I should now give this back... try to spread love in humanity as much as possible. try to share love between people. "love is the answer"

verspielt, elegant, like a Tango.

i will go tomorrow to munich. sitting in a home of stranger's, but feeling calm. Jurek not here (old school friend) but still feeling like family. I probably got more love over the last months from other families then from my family haha.. because i spend more time in other families.. and then your are allways like a child for them. kind.

talked with a prof today at the THA about his students. went to the Fugger Village. Went to RFA. Went to this street that is beautifull in Augsburg. Went to THA to get some books. listened to Humanoid book. watched some interviews from Elon. called with a guy from Limx robots.

next to me laying a book about the psychology of money.. maybe from Jurek? interesting that money plays such a fundamental role on our society. but when I look 500 years into the future i can hardly imagen that we still have this means of money. I'm not sure, but why should it not change? so how might this thing look in the future? might it dissapier? what will dissapier with it? greed? or meaning? or both? or nothing? how would a sociaty without money look? would we still trade? would humans still feel valued? would we have less competition or even more?

i think there is a path to abundance, so will we go it? what would happen if all humans are equally wealthy? would this actually create happiness?

it should be a super secret project.. - this would be as much opposite as what is out there right now!

a servant for every home. that brings love. that enforce happiness..

thats the goal.

how cool would it be to have a MR.Bean Mode in you humanoid hahaha....

we could have a wrist band and design it.. that is usefull like the Meta wristband.. and you can give commands to your robot.. like come here.. or idk.. be silent or whatever.. maybe a interesting way, so i can easily interact with my humanoids?? i think the Meta wrist band is a really insange and great tech thing.. but not yet deployed nicely.. not used in the right setup. maybe with humanoid robots we could do it.. you interacting with it..

Augsburg finished. was at RFA.. just sneaked into a rocket factory lol..

saw all stuff inside and quite fun. from the outside you think there is nothing happening and this is a thing full of trash.

but inside, hundreds of people. just grinding on bringing things into orbit. quite nice. haha. from outside it looks like an old destroyed building. that is just broke. broke from the outside but inside not.. that's always better then reverse.

was also at the THA (Technische Hochschule Augsburg..) quite interesting people there..

but in general.. idk Germany is just a bit lost.

people are arguing to much.. making to less without questioning.. i mean it is nice that we question here everything.. and that everything can give his opinion etc.. but sometimes this also holds you back.

idk. but i love China. there is so much less noise and so much more action. just action. i have to get back to China somehow soon. here is not so much to explore not so much to build. etc.

building a factory in China must be really cool. because then you have actually part from their system..

okay. so Augsburg is done.. in RFA there work a lot of smart people.. in the THA also a lot of smart people but idk.. to small problems hold to big ambitions back.

but it's good, I'm like a small AI model just exploring the map. like in minecraft first just exploring the map before you build bigger farms, mansions, mining ores etc...

in this way i truly first see what is out there.. and can compare. wondering how this will be in 50 years? a lot will change in 50 years.. how will then Europe look? how will then China look? how will then US look? where will people be happy?

arrived in Augsburg at Jureks house... talked with his mother the whole evening about her experiences.. how they house families of Ukraine and support troops. What they experience. Crazy. A completely different set of experiences. Jurek is now at the bundeswer also crazy. Army lol. In my mind the world is still a peacefull place of water and dirt.

"psycho" "locked in screen" "Look in the mirror"

met with Flora again, think she is smart, think she is nice... put her as backround to habituate. I need a clear mind. To get things done. People without a clear mind, do create unclear minds in others. But she was clear now. "Nein".

"No this was just fake" "No this is what is true..." "It was not said with truth. It was forced." "but also forced you reveal truths" "Force reveals truths faster" "It's only you, your belive" "It's only the absence, the absence that makes people attractive" "Yes you are right"

"Then shut up" "No" "Why?" "pretty" "Yeas pretty clear" "No, No, No" "Is this the end..." "Skyfall?"

"nein" understand it. it's only illusion, it's only niceness blending your eyes.

I can't spend time with negative people. It hurts my brain.

But he is sk negative..

while delivering everyone a birthday card for the Grandparents birthday.. but not my dad. Was it unfair? is it unfair what happened to him. He basically got kicked out of the full family. Just kicked out. If it would have been me... I would have been deeply disappointed. Angry. Because it seems unfair. I want to work so never such a unfair thing happens to my kids. That they have to have such thoughts. So only trust relationships where people are really staying for long. Short term stuff will destroy your kids. When they do not grow up with a mom and dad that love each other... the kids will become sad.

It is so stupid how me parents get divorced. Stupid, stupid.

So is it fair what happened to my dad? Not sure? First time that I think about it. It must be great pain. Loosing basically the whole social people...

The parents of my dad get invited to the Birthdays of my Mother's Grandparents... but he not. Suppose he hates unjustice as much as I do.. it probably caused a lot of damage.

Art is truly the king of the universe. Because it is something people truly just do, when they start with it to express... Art is expression of self. We need to make more Art...

Products should be Art.

old people worry, joung people explore.

If you never stop exploring, you will never get old.

Listening to Lennon. Walking in the raps. Talking about K. Marks. People fear.. I enjoy. People worry. I try to love. People want to destroy, I want to create.

Walking with my violine through the garden of mother. Searching for the ride notes to play and the right accords to live.

Searching in the Wagon.. finding when you stop searching.

and May brought spring... "Thanks, it feels like it’s always bin like that somehow:)"

Thinking about Outposts and EU Express how to make this here worth. This planet, this universe a nice place to enjoy.

A adventure.

A adventure.

Making life the biggest adventure possible. Travel to see rockets. Travel to Munich.

"I'm steppin out"

gotten survival cash , fresh. Kind Grandparents, weird feeling. Not want to accept. Want to build, adventure.. not profit. Why can the world not work without profit? Just with craft?

while reading through the old posts of my diary.. and reading all the time. Just have fun! This is maybe your broke, no food. But when yiu look back it will be one of the wildest times.. and it is true. And same should be true for family time. I spend the last 10 days in Dresden with my family... it should be... just have fun! Because someday you will think holy shit we all were so young at this time we should have made this and that etc..

Today me anf my grandparents showed me a book of old pictures from my birth. Crazy how young and beautiful my mother was. Crazy how young and elegant my grandfather was, Crazy how small my "tante" was... it's telling the truth to see the ages go. Time js flowing. Nothing is stopping time. So choose with truth what to flow your time in. Make it fun.

Someday we are old. And look back and think. How beautiful where we when we were young. Someday the only thing that counts is if you were happy with your time allocations.

and suddenly I'm founder of two companies.. HUGE Production GmbH (today Blackbird) and Airsup LLC... conecting builders from over the world with manufacturers in china.

random but today konstantin incorperated the Airsup company.. via stripe Atlas. It was such a simple thing. Just filling out some stuff and getting company incorperated in 3 days... yeah so thats the life.. working on problems that we face by ourselves. and try to make really, realy great solutions for them...

also we started and invented today the Blackgames and the Supgames.. both games to make the distribution process more fun.. with a goal and score..

here the rules: the person who hits first 100 products distributed, get's 500€ from the GmbH for free spending.. so when you hit it first you can pay your flights to laure to it.. if I hit it first i will pay a weekend with my grandparents from it.

please update everyday in the evening your number just here in the chat. also when it is +0

subscription and direct sells count the same.

(you can also sell it in china, be creative :)

and supgames: First person achieving that 100 customers payed for airsup at least $10 gets $650 for personal spending from the C-corp.

Action! At least $50 of it must be spend on useless absurdity (winner must decide for himself what that means).

please update everyday in the evening your number just here in the chat. also when it is +0

Be creative..

so this is the thing today. had a long call with konstantin. we talked about Airsup, so it will not create wrong direction..

after talking with my grandparents again about blackbird.. and that they don't believe that it will work.. everyone is saying nobody will want the products (it will be very difficult... the market is allready fully crowded..)

I really love my grandparents... but idk.. it is a bit annoying to allways ask me.. but i know they only want the best. If they would now that we just started a second company for a second product haha.. they would get big eyeballs...

okay had a call with konstantin. messaged porsche design studio back for the humanoid robot company.. send message to friends to get some blackbirds.. read the book from nick bostroom about super ai.. texted with Flora.. texted with chinese business partners and humanoid robot providers. texted with people from Xpeng if they can give me their robot chassis..

anyway there is happening so much in the bag all the time of stuff that i don't tell, because it does not work, workout. but this is the actually work.. doing 100 things in the knowing that only 20 things will work..

I also agreed with a german marketing agency on it, that they will spend 1.2k Euros in ads for blackbird, when products arrived in germany..

yeah what a time to be alive so much change etc...

oh today also Freya aks for some advice. tried to be as helfpull as possible.. she want 's to get an thing in a school right now (needs stipendium of 5k per month...) I now need to leave dresden.. I will go to munich in the next days.. i can't stay in Dresden longer...

was good quiet time on the farm of my mom.. but family is also noisy.. because you want to be for your family and not working.. but you also want to work. so best is to be seperate or just only take time for family.. okay. so last days in dresden. try to spread some optimism..

oh and the company actually is named: Air Supply Technologies Inc. let's see what the future will bring. now we started two companies haha. and both just first from the problem, then build the product, then started the company.. seems like a good strat.

I'm not sure if this was smart - little diary.

thinking about the robot invasion. We have to make it beautiful. Otherwise the world will be a unhappy place.

Robots need to be designed delightful.

I just want someone to love.

texting chinese friends to find the women of my life. hey jude, don't make it bad, take a sad song and make it better... remember to let it in your heart. then you can start to make it better.. don't afraid. go out and get her. the minute you let her under your skin. then you begin to make it better. and anytime you feel the pain. hey jude refrain. don't carry the world upon your shoulders. nanaaanannana nana nanaa..

2 days without answer. disappointed. but analyzing with AI to figure out the limits of AI... naaana nana nanaa naaaa, naa naa na nanana naaa

talking with my mom about the world. the stars and the meaning of it all. about here lifes dayli neseccities and my calming focus. focus. and why. thats all you need. and focus comes when you believe in your why. so all you need is a why. why??? because with a great why you can overcome any pain.. "nitzsche"

singing loudd. na naaa nana naaa, naa.

Knockin, on heavens door. making fire. meeting profs but without studying.

listening to space exploration and setting price 42€. the universe tells me the way. i think I have a quite special life. I think I'm quite special. i can litterly do and achieve anything that I really focus on. there are no limits. i feel very thankfull for beeing special. I'm very grateful to be german, because it is the best passport these days to travel to other countries. everyone likes us these days. good. gratefull, for thinking different, for experincing different things. for that old classmates ask you "are you allready millionär" haha.. they know it.

stand by me - nut's eating in the bad. sitting in the caravan and just, just be.

playing tabletennis. and between think about how to life on moon. how to harvest water on this regolyth place.

testing chinese tea.. and thinking about 8000 bottles that get's produces for you.

beeing here, in the wild of the farm. in the nature of the humans. but also far.. in my mind.

leaving peoples oppinions alone when they don't matter to me.

listening.

asking.

learning. learning. learning.

she turns my head like the sund turns earth. uncertainty, uncertainty, slowly melting your brain down. thinking about the universe. and getting in a new orbit just by a small girl.

why is she doing this to my brain so easily. the flora I want to be the fauna for.

on the way to my mother.

last days in Dresden where back in the past. seeing what you don't are anymore. seeing old humans you spend time in the past. seeing, observing, past, pasting

seeing her creates the uncertainty like a key stroke on my board but now working quite well. not sure if trouble is with her or pleasure or both.

blue eyes like diamonds from the deep rock. red lips like Teslas in the deepspace. and a mind you can't read like stones of moonly regolyth.

whats that ??

why is she so risky but tempting. not understanding. understanding. understanding not her. what are the intentions here?

i want a women that believes, that is beautiful, that is smart and that is "zart". i want a long lastinig thing. that bring beauty. i want real love. again. again. and you?

John Lennon.. .. give peace a chance. all we are saying, is give peace chance. we are saying is give peace a chance.

it's me in Germany just try to spread some optimism

I'm here to just try to spread as much optimism as possible - optimism will make a bright future more likely.

I'm here on earth to do great things. to build great products. to bring humanity forward. to make humanity more exctiting times. to have the biggest adventure of our lives... To spread into space,

i'm here to make the world a better place.

a place where people spread love, where people get all their needs filled, wheir people can find meaning, where people have sex, where people have adventure, where we have bright lakes, green forests, yellow desserts, and blue sees. where nature is bright. where animals excite us. where technology makes our lives easier. where we don't worry about small problems anymore and think deeper and deeper and explore deeper and deeper the universe. where we expand our horizon of though and travel,

where we expand. expand, expand.

get smarter.

get to find the right questions to ask.

a future where we forster couriosity.

a future where people love each other.

"love is the answer"

my mission is to put love in the technologies that will shape our future, because then it will also shape us to have more love in the world.

people become what they are sourrounded by.

when we sourround people by love. the will becomoe more lovely.

when we design our technologies to spread love. they will lead to more love.

we have to ivolve in more curious creatures that are loved.

this two things: connect love - and technology.

thats all. bring love into technolgy. so it automatically spreads... love.

from beijing to Dresden. now here since one day. what is the mission here?? spread optimism.. that's the only thing that germans need. Optimism.. when you have this people can be highly happy here.

they have a lot, they have more. they just need optimism.

looking around the faces. standart german slop. sitting in the barber shop. waiting to talk with him over blackbird. maybe it will be interesting maybe not. I don't care. my only expactation is to learn as much as possible. to learn which price would make sense etc..

i don't need to sell, i don't need a order from him actually it would be fine when he don't likes it, but i want to understand if I should visit more barbers or not.

leaving the homeland, rain... going to the mother land.

China is a great place.

Leaving konstantin... People have doubts, people have doubts about every shit. I put the label on. Either I die or get it done.

We have a insane great product. Better than anything that is out there.

keep in mind when you take investors ln board. You litterly want only there money. Anything else doesn't matter. The reason they exist is money, not contacts, not advice, money.

You can get advice from everyone for free.

sitting here in the coffee... i know the robots will come.. but everyone is working on it. hmm.

anyway. thinking about space.. listening to books. bringing blackbird to people.

learning through AI about the world and anything.

green woods. unusial. green. green. woods, woods, field.

NATURE.

since i was 3 weeks in guangdon.. nature feels really unaturall.. haha. but beautiful.

now driving through Beijing nature and going to the temple of heaven. rivers. green.

naaaa nananana naira hey Jude

Just some artists. Artists truly change society.

listening to John lennenon with Kosti the grinder...

Finished Dune.

We will have water needs... on other planets.

And robots everywhere on earth. Idk but I want to.be involved with this.

Cutting hair for.10 RMB at a open plaza... looking old men playing cards. Women's dance on the plaza.

Sleeping in the mass. "Love is the answer"

Waiting months for the reply from her. And then? Nothing? Nothing? Queens on the TV. Singing Bohemian. And more.

Strange world. Mama. What is this for? What does wolrd wants from mee? Mama, what did you thought? In my age? Mama, what does matter? Mama, what do matter? How Mama, how to matter?

What are we? What I am? Why so many questions?

What is the reason of it all? Galileo??

Usul?

May?

April, April.

Thankful for Mo, he is the first real believer. Invests 9k€ in us. In me. To see. To see. How we perform. Let's see. Making a great product, the best product.

Caring about the problem, solving the problem.

konstantin arrived.. working on blackbird... grinding. sleeping in RJ models office, laughing, shiffering, shaking, singing, dancind, playing chess.. a gratefull time.

tomorrow we fly to beijing. and then I fly 4 days later to germany to see my family. family.

why? why? what is the reason of humanity? why, wahat do we try? here? what is the mission? to understand the universe. to seek truth in the universe to expand.

why is the universe their? waiting for us? why? why?

In the ears the family and again with wet face leaving the space. After encountering stupid people that think they do good with enforcing rules. Stupid rules. Leaving the battlefield, because it feels like that... to move on a new field. Generate a new field.

It's the same again, communities, where stupid individuals inforce rules, because they think for all but in reality they just think stupid. Leaders that are not supposed to me leaders but got the role because no true leader would do this submissive tasks.

Getting in the manager role, because of sucking and beeing kind and not of skill. That are the evils.

Going out with tears again, knowing the chapter of the space... is now, ending. But when things end - new things start. It serves me well as a nighting place it served well.

No heading out for the unknown.

Having emotions in the head, because family in my ear. Smiles on the face and tiers on the eyes.

Listening to the German time.. thinking about the A-Park. Thinking about they, about her, about the times...

WTF... how did I came from there of being now here. Here in China, alone. Alone in this empty engineering junkies club.

WTF... How did it happen.

Missing my family and the times. The times where you just were a random dude. Now I'm still a random dude but with the mission to help humanity explore the universe. This changes everything. WTF.

Discussing with partners. Saying bullshit to their timelines. Recieving parcels from partners. Saying bullshit to products. Thinking about humanity, executing stuff...

Ski Aggu in the ear... and chinese kiosk ahead. Seems to bee ironie.

Dear Christian,

i hope it is not to weird, but I rather speak english than german these days, because I live mainly in San Francisco and Shenzhen, where everyone is speaking english with me. So thoughts come more vividly in my mind. 

I truly believe that humanoid robots is the way for humanity to solve most of the scarcity of products and services and get into a state where you can have most of the things that you want for free or very low cost. 

I also see that most of the really promising one gets designed in the US and China and manufactured mainly only in China. 

These days Germany and Europe looses more and more the manufacturing capabilities to China and Car's will not be the monopoly of Germany anymore. 

I think these days that it would be very bad when Europe has not also some Robotics unicorns and need in the future to only by from China chinese robots or go with Elons versions. 

So what are germans good in? 

making things very precise, and beautyfull and taking a lot of effort into itterative design. I think when I want to have a robot at home, that it should also look good and feel good and be as simple as the iphone 1 to interact with. 

For that porsche design studio came into my mind. Because Porsche is one of the greatest german brands out there. 

And I think actually that car makers are very suited for making humanoid robots. 

We see it also.. most of the players in humanoid robots are car players: Xpeng, Tesla, Hyundai, Toyota to name some of them.

okay why does this matter? 

I'm just a stubborn 20 year old with a mission in mind...

I dropped out of school because it was boring and worked the last one year on understanding how technologies and the world works, i have no fear of risks, because there is nothing to loose. 

I just wondered is there someone in porsche / porsche design studio to build trust with, to maybe have brainstorming sessions, to think about the future in bold ways to invent something new, with the old style of porsche. 

I had a dream of what would it take to work with porsche together on a humanoid robot, as a joint venture, as a project, as just some brainstorming first, idk.. but I think it could create a next magical product for europe and for the world, and i like magic. 

• maybe because my dad was a magician :)

I will be back in Germany in Mai, in the rare case someone want's to meet in person.

Best, Tade

wtf, why do I spent time working on anti-dandruff shampoo?

wtf? why not `? it is fine to just get something done. and then go to the next..

wtf??

right now i solved the bottlenecks of getting packaging and shipping bag samples in the next days.

i still sleep night by night in the storage room of the Chaihuo makerspace. haha, i have there is to little idk.. it is not really a "decke" but yeah sheet of material lets say. that I use. and a small pillow. and yeah the matress idk i think it was actually a sunshine "liege" that you normally take to the beach... anyway what i want to say, it is a bit hard. but now i got more used to it and i actually get some sleep overnight.

also I found out how to click the buttons of the light switches in the right order to not have all night long a flickering and blinking light one... (the first night was very bad). I also find out how to use my big jacked as an kind of second peace of material to put over me. and i found out that i don't hear the moskitos when i just put airpods in, which is more then 60% of the solution. It's only the sound that makes me nervous, not when they actually sting i think.

and I found out how to best package all these things so I don't have to spend every evening long time to setup my stuff and also can hide everythign away at the day so nobody figures out that i sleep in this room.

actually the biggest worry for me is just that i get kicked out.

feel like a common theme :)

anyway eventually it will happen, it is just a question of time. but for now it works. if you don't have ot high expactations haha.

I also read rigth now this interesting book from Norton Wang about china and us.. very good.

Oh and i got so many message from people that are very close that say, no i don't want to invest. fun haha.

Hey Tadeus, entschuldige das ich noch nicht eher geschrieben habe. Vielen Dank für die Materialien. Sieht sehr spannend aus.

Ich habe mich dafür entschieden mich erstmal nicht zu beteiligen. Tut mir leid dass ich keine besseren Nachrichten habe. Wenn du möchtest kann ich auch noch mehr ins detail und ins feedback gehen.

Ich bin mir sicher du findest genug Leute und hoffe du hast Erfolg mit dieser Idee

Lieber Tadeus, ja dein Gefühl liegt da richtig. Ich habe gerade nicht wirklich die Möglichkeit Geld da hinein zu investieren und ja es ist herausfordernd mich nicht schlecht damit zu fühlen. Und schön wie du es umschrieben hast, ich gebe dafür gerne die Liebe und Gute Energie für Dich hinein...wenn das Produkt dann irgendwann bei uns zu kaufen ist, dann würde ich es gerne an Jorrit zum probieren geben und es an andere weiterempfehlen...So maybe a bit money can flow at this way. But also thanks that you share all with me!! And a good vibe for your blackbird...möge er hoch hinaus fliegen! Alles Liebe Mama

Hallo Tadeus, ich habe mir die zugesandten Unterlagen angesehen und bin der Meinung, dass die Vermarktung sehr schwierig wird. Zu beachten ist auch die EU-Kosmetikverordnung siehe link. https://www.it-recht-kanzlei.de/kosmetika-rechtssicher-verkaufen-kennzeichnen.html. In Deine Blackbird-Kosmetik möchte ich nicht investieren, da ich darin viele Probleme und keine durchschlagenden Erfolgschancen sehe. Vielen Dank für Die Vorstellung des Produktes, vielleicht kannst Du andere Unterstützer überzeugen. Viele Grüße, Günter

Hier einige Bemerkungen/Hinweise zum Projekt mit einigen ausgewählten Erfolgsfaktoren : An welchen Markt habt ihr gedacht? Habt ihr eine Analyse durchgeführt? Es gibt in Deutschland schon viele Produkte (Marken und No Name) auch über Friseure vertrieben! Der Markt ist gesättigt und man muss über Barbershops in den Markt kommen. Die Kunden für dieses Preissegment gehen sicherlich regelmäßig zum Friseur/Barber! Von dort muss die Werbung kommen und die Empfehlung! Diese Kunden setzen eher auf Markenprodukte. Die Zusammenstellung der 4 Komponenten ist sehr gut? Gibt es diese schon am Markt? Wurde auch an eine Zusammenarbeit mit einen Markenherstellet gedacht?
Bei Vertrieb in Europa müsst ihr an den rechtlichen Kram/Nachweise denken. Können morgen gern telefonieren! Haben von Mittwoch bis Freitag Ella bei uns, Kita hat Schliesstage! Liebe Grüße Oma und Opa!

Lieber Tadeus ich bin dein Papa und unterstütze dich gern im Notfall. Für Deine Geschäfte such dir Geschäftspartner. Da bin icb nicht Der Richtige. Ich wünsch Dir viel Erfolg. Und wenn alles schiefgeht, dann bin ich da. Liebe Grüße Oliver

maybe interesting.

texting business partners to order food for me to a different location. going to a shop and buying peanuts for the last dollar. eating yum yum noodles with water from the watercooker sneaking into the gym to shower.

did not someone said that founders and billionaires have the best jobs...

yes it is an adventure haha.

what I'm doing the whole day? I basically just ask allways: what is the bottleneck right now. then i find a solution.

this is what i do all day long. 16h a day. all day long.

so when I can speed up the pace of solving the bottleneck... as faster i solve one as faster I go..

so this is what I do.

asking: what is the biggest bottleneck. focusing only on this one. solving it.

next....

next...

next...

quite efficient.

Walking through the high-tech city of China and only sleeping in the makerspace in the big shipping room and buying with the last dollar a small package of peanuts and having since one day no real food anymore and now eating the peanuts like magical nuts.

oh and I still practice my chinese.

the last 4 nights I was sleeping in the makerspace storage room on a small provisiorical bedlike staging, not comfortable but a way to lay. I layed there allways from roughly 1am to 8am. Sometimes with moskitos, but every day, by day i got more used to it.

In the last days i finalized with urgency the products and went to a factory to get a nice travel case. I found a good solution and will have my first sample in my hands by the end of this week.

I called with family and friends to get initial setup costs covered of roughly 10k. it feels weird and difficult but also nice. because they don't invest in the product, they invest in me. I had some good conversations.

Wolfram was very kind. He had not so much money, but a lot of good points and good thoughts. Very cool.

I also started contacting people from instant delivery companies like delivery hero and wolt.

And we nearly finished the website so it is production ready.

I had one they where there were litterly 0 cash on my bank account and i ate nothing the whole day. Then later just out of the blue i got 50 euro taschengeld from my dad. this was the first time he really send me something like this without asking, thank you. and random that it came in this moment.

I read right now the book of a guy that compares china and us, very interesting. I also read The Machine that changed the world right now.

sorry, there was just so much happening in the last days it is diffiucult to write everything down. but still have nice sstories around it.

i got done: all conversation for with family and friends. finished design for envelepe and blackbird usermanuall finished website finished sample in production for system case went to two system case factories. went from guangzhou to shenzhen finished one book started two new ones had calls with my mom and Flora contacted last mile delivery people had a product photoshooting, drove to other area for that. - have professionel product pictures now and some other stuff that i can't remember anymore.

it's fast. it's a hurricane.

people tell it will not work. thinking.

yes so right now this is the situation. i feel a bit pressure because i take money from my family. i feel a bit good, because I move forward.

today i have to leave china somehow and come back in. i will go to hongkong border and then back. excited.

yes so right now I sleep, wake up in the makerspace. go to war, solve biggest bottlenecks. sleep.

i also contacted some family and friends to make some convertable loan agreements with them to finance the first batch order for the products.. we want roughly 10-15k so 20k is the target. with that we can make 20,000 units and bring them on the german market.

drops are falling from the sky on the sky city area. Design sky city reaching in the clouds, clouds reaching for the earth. And chinese people reaching for their heads. Everywhere chinese people running with hands on their head. funny. Me just waling slowly through the rain and enjoying the feel of nature in my face. the last night i slept in Chaihuo again. from roughly 3am to 8am.. I'm right now really at the limits and have roughly 15 dollars left on every acounts or in total to spend. so not that much. In the last two days I got all the finalized pieces for the bottles and inside the bottles done, I got everything done for the user manual.. now the biggest bottleneck is the system case. I traveled yesterday to one system case maker for 2h. the person was really bad. I thought he invites me for food, then he said I should pay... anyway it was a big money waste. but a good learning. when you don't like people from the start, don't work with them. I spend a bit longer with him and then worked a bit from his office. but he is a really bad guy. so I blocked him and said far a well. this is something that I'm MR. bamboo label guy Leander Kirschner very thankfull for, the learning: "when you see red flags, they are probably also their".

I read in the last days the book the algorithm. henhao.

I read the quantum physics book..

last night and today I developed a side to fill out convertable loans very fast. I wrote the software for it.

and I drove 2hours from the case factory to chaihuo makerspace to work from here...

i right now feel a bit empty, becuase i did not slept so much. the biggest bottleneck is right now the system case. my idea is to start first with the inner pieces and then later give it a coating so it has a high quality, maybe metal feeling. maybe we can give it a metal spray or something. maybe we can just use a spray to bring the aluminum on it.. like a aluminium coating or something. so the material feels great.

I also had a good call with konstantin yesterday, actually two good calls where we talked a bit about the option of using the GmbH or making a new US company. I, we choosed to use the german GmbH.

the last two days I was just mainly grinding to get things done without spending money. I litterly develop right now in a other country a new product line + life here without trying to spend any money. this is not easy + with the urgency that everything needs to be 3x faster than the people here are used to.

I litterly just sit in their peoples office and say i will not leave until we get xyz done today. Today I just sat there and said. I will sit here until we get it done.

And done there are all the time people telling me that it will take 7 days, 10 days, cost initial fee and I allways just say bullshit, bullshit, bullshit.

Now I have to figure out how to get a setup and tooling fee from 10,000USD down to 100USD. we will see. but 10,000 is bullshit.

idk how, but I just ask at any given moment when i don't know what to do.. WHAT IS RIGHT NOW THE BIGGEST BOTTLENECK and then focus only on this. and go all in hardcore on it and do not think about any other thing before not a clear solution is in work.

this is how I work basically the whole day. from one bottleneck, to the next bottleneck, to the next bottleneck... etc...

just thinking and then full thrust focused. then again question, what is the biggest bottleneck rigth now? then again full thrust forward.

a bit like a rocket ship that accelerates, recalculates, accelerates etc..

quite heavy, but i get things done.

the two sprays came allready out phenomenally. Now we fix the shampoo bottle and I think about how to make it an even better product. something that is a truly 10x compared to all other solutions out there for dandruff..

I think one of the main goals is insane fast detection of what kind of shuppen you have (digital dermathology praxis + (can be real person or AI that just shortly analyses a picture of your head)) - and then shippment to any location in Germany in under 24h. I think when we achieve both of these things, this would be a huge gamechanger for me as an customer.

A great byuing experience, a fast delivery, a great using experience a great result. thats all I want.

today in the morning we went up in the hotel and the guy from yesterday pulled up in his black limousine to go to the color store. we drove there i choosed a color. I asked the girls that worked their for advice. in general girls and womens have better sense for easthetic then men have.

then we took a taxi back to the main office of the cosmetic factory. I worked the whole day there. I learned chinese, I watched videos, I had a call with konstantin. Okay, nice. So this was all.

I started making sure we have new progress with the people that make the user manual and new progress with the people that make the system case. I was very annoyed because the system case people did not made progress. they did not started to work.

then the company booked me again a hotel, i got some food and now it is agian night late night and i go to bed. 00:24

love you Papa for that.

this makes me really happy.

there are 36 email in my folder and I check them all at once to delete because it is spam. And then there is a headline Scalable Capital "wir haben ihre Einzahlung erhalten".. WTF?? who paid the -804€ for me. It can only be Olly. why? thank you. I'm confused. thankfull for that.

now there is one headache less. only the pkv is there. so not only the other stuff anymore. thank you Papa.

what a fucking dayy: 00:40, staying in a nother payed hotel on a friend of a friends company.

In the morning I woke up in the hotel and made some thoughts on compliance text and wording on the cosmetic bottles, then I went outside got some food in the street stores, I also figured out that one floor under my hotel a gym exist. So I went into the gym for roughly 45min. Also randomly a met the boss of the cosmetic company that I work with just in the hotel, very random, before the gym I got a milkshake.

After the gym i took my luggage and walked 500 meters through the crowded streets, went through caterpillars and teared my roller luggage through sand until I arrived at the office of my cosmetic partners. Actually I have to figure out how they are called, i quote them so often, but don't know the name of the company, that is not smart. So I arrived and started emediatly working with Ekko on the important stuff. he actually got all the things done that we discussed yesterday. I'm proud on this guy, he manages his poor english skills very well and is smart and one of the single chinese people that I actually can ask: what do you think? and I get a usefull answer. I can also push him to work hard and fast. I think I can more and more rely on him. so he got the right bottle + the right pump had + the right other stuff done. This is very good. I then tried to figure out with him what are the next bottlenecks and one of the things was to finish the design. So I said to him: "bring me to the designer". And he brought me to a room next to ours and i said down and was there with translater and gesturing in every way possible and worked with the designer. The designer was actually incredible capable and we got in maybe 1-2 hours all changes done and the complete design ready, we got everything ready, I checked all ingredients, changed health claims to more german compliant phrases. then when this was ready I said down again with Ekkko to figure out the next bottleneck, so the next bottleneck was to actually make the finished bottles. So he said to me that it will take 7days. I said to him, bullshit! When I would give you today 1,000,000 dollars that you will get it done tomorrow, would you get it done tomorrow? And he said probably yes. So we talked a lot back and forth, I talked a lot back and forth with the boss. We also discussed the price for 4 bottles roughly 14 RMB (so for the finished set it was 1,70€ actually) for the full set (4 bottles + ingredients and stuff inside etc..). So after some hours of discussion and how we can get it done faster (it was allready evening around 7pm, i did not ate anything but some fruits, i went step hy step through it what is the bottleneck. So my first question was, what take so long, what is the problem? They said the wrong colored material is not in the factory? so i asked where can we buy the right colored material and he said nothing.. then we figured out the material is not the problem it is just the color. that he has not the color their. then i ask, it can not take 3 days to just buy color, where can i buy color? call the person that buys the color. so we called the bottlemaker... the bottle maker said it will take 5 days. i said bullshit, i can buy color tomorrow for him and bring it to him if he needs it. they loughed, they wanted to do different things, spray my bottles or whatever, but i kept asking, and asking and asking, what is the problem? what takes so long?

and allways saying bullshit. so it was around 21:30 and I aked why do we not go tomorrow to the bottle factory and get it done by ourselves. btw. tomorrow is sunday :).. but i know chinese people work on every day! And then just the boss said for fun, why do we not go now? And i said yes, yes, yes. lets go now. So we went to the car instantly, called the bottle maker factory owner on the way that we are on the way to his factory to loot it :)... no not to loot, but to make trouble ang get progress done. They asked me, are you hungry? and i said. yes, I'm hungry for progress. later I asked guss, are you hungry and he said, yes, I'm hungry to get things done, i think he can learn quite fast.

so we arrived at 22:00 on saturday evening just at this factory, lights burning people working, machines working. we went around looked for material for our bottles, and for colors, no colors their, so the boss said. lets go to a other factory, so we dorve 10 min to a other factory and listened to ABBA and Country Roads, full of energy, to check for sample colors and show me the machines and process. I was vlogging, filming and going crazy with my friends. We started to have a lot of fun on this adventure, we were the super troops to get progress done. then we drove back to the factory from before. The owner organized food, and we discussed how to get things done fast. We discussed material and we discussed color. at around 23:30. We had everything fininshed everything cleared. I managed to agree with the owner to buy directly tomorrow in the morning at 9:00 am the correct color and i will join him. So they booked me a hotel nearby, we drove to the hotel, actually one of the people from the cosmetic team Gus will also stay at the hotel to come together with me tomorrow to the color men. Yes. Then I checked in in my beatiful hotel room. Then we went next to a nighclub, very bad one so i instantly left and now I sit here on my bad and think what the fuck. We got a lot done, very good.

now sitting here i think how stupid sometimes thinks like are when people say to you, it will take xyz days. and how i just sit in their office, or stand in their factory until they get it done.

also today i had a 1h call with ivan, this was really cool one, we talked a lot about china.

but again for me it is crazy to see how fast you can go, when you don't accept timelines from other people and just ask, why does it take so long and then say bullshit. haha i like the word bullshit.

most timelines are bullshit. good night. it is 01:11 and tomorrow at 9-10 he will pick us up and we go buy colors.

business class, highspeed train, 308kmh.

yesterday I started in the morning where I got picked up from a driver of HONEST automation on of the biggest rotor automation line builders in the world. They picked me up in my little poor hotel in the worker place nearby RJ models. We drove for 40 min. through the city and arrived at their headquater, their we saw automation lines, real world winding stations and more. I saw how hightech motors get made for Car companies like tesla or byd. I saw how actuators for robots get asembled and more. Then we went together to have lunch. I went with two people one men and one women. the women told me that she will be soon in Berlin for a fear. So i recommended some places to go in berlin, like the Panoramapunkt, and she told me also that she will drive to Prague then. So I recommended here to make a stop in Dresden :).

after Honest i got picked up by a other driver from their office to go to the biggest Die Casting Machine Producer in the world (LK Machinery). LK also bought Idra 2016. So i got a presentation and then we walked through their massive factory. massive. i think 7 or 8 buildings all full of diecasting machines, welding station, cnc stations, etc... massive. big cranes mooving 3000 tones around in the air. big heavy machinery loadings on trucks. very impressive. very cool. roughly 600 workers work there he said. after that i said in need to go to guangzou so the guy from LK drove me to the highspeed train and bought me a business class ticket from shenzhen to guangzhou. It takes only 3o min. I went in, very cool comfortable seats. the train started, after 5 minutes we were at 308kmh... insane fast. then suddenly i got a snack box, water and then again lunch. just all in this 30 min. I did not finished my lunch fully, when they service women said to me, next staion is yours, make yourself ready to leave please.

so I packed my stuff and was in Guangzhou. There at the station I took a Didi roughly 50 min. to the offices of the makers of the Cosmetics.

I sat down and said: I'm dissapointed. there is not enough progress, we have to get things done. Here is my plan. So we sat there from 7pm until 23:30pm and worked out everything for the smell, for the ingredients, the bottles, the sprays. We worked hard. After we finished I asked him what his favourite song is. I played his song and we played chess. I wanted to celebrete this grind. I also said to Ekko, when we get good quality and sell 100,000 units I will invite him and his girfriend to germany for 5 days and pay for it. lets see.

then Ekko brought me with my luggage (very funny with a bigger luggage) on his scooter to a nearby hotel, he payed it and I checked in. same hotel like 2 weeks ago when I was here at the cosmetics company before, very good. Then i read for 1 hour the interview of the DJI founder and chatted with Ivan.

here some cool notes of the DJI founder: Give me peace to accept what I cannot change; give me courage to change what I can change; and give me wisdom to distinguish between the two ——this is the essence.

Later: What do you think is the best incentive for good people? Wang Tao :The money must be in place, and incentives for talking about money without money are all PUA. Then create an environment where they can seek truth: less politics, less layman-in-chief, and less self-aggrandizement for managers.

Wang Tao :Now I will view the company as a system where entropy continues to increase, and management as a process where entropy continues to decrease.

it is very rare that the DJI founder gives interviews so this was very nice to read. it was released only three days ago.

what do I do here? What de i hear here? What do I do here? alone in china. Just with Lennon and my imagination in my head. Scrolling through classmates pictures, thinking about their profile, what do you do? What do you do? And whe is she doing? What is everyone doing? What is everyone doing? What is everyone doing in this empty world??

Where is the meaning? Some people start screaming, Some people start tearing, Some people start missing, Some people start writing, And others just dreaming.

Now sitting in a small hotel room with a bett of stone, a toilet that is stinking and water is leaking. Wondering about the world, Wondering about humans, wondering about doing good, helping humanity go forward, become a space exploration and happy civilisation. Still stay creative and meaningfull.

Yesterday I visited a Die Casting Machine Maker in person, huge, huge die casting machines where hot aluminium gets with pressure injected in a mold and the mold gets hold together by insane amounts of clamping force to make the cast even and beatifull. I think they did not took me serious. Here was this 20 year old guy wanted to talk with them about buying 10-12 casting machines and did'nt even have product drawings of his robot. Did'nt even have a clue what he wants to manufacture in this machines.

sometimes I'm said, sometimes I'm happy, it changes. but also not. often I just don't mind, because I get used to pressure and things. random. I really look forward to a writing from May. I hope she will write soon and some kind words. Idk I have the feeling that she had trouble with his boyfriend and she left him. wondering. wondering.

I also had a call with Flora yesterday, not much to mention.

Yesterday I had 3 Meetings with different Chinese Machining companies, with Linkerbot, that manufacture tendon driven hands (like teals) but very expensive 99,000 RMB per hand. The day before I had calls with: Master Group, NIDE, Jingdiao, World Precise and my dad. And yesterday with: Neoden, then visit in person Zhenli, then Linkerbot, then meeting in Person World Precise, today Tederic, JDM Press, Longhua Die Casting, Befanby,HACNT, and then chess with kosti.

right now konstantin makes me sometimes a bit said. I feel it is more a competetion between us then a team. We don't work on the things right now so much together, we read different books, take different learning paths, idk id don't want that the friendship goes each others way, I feel like I want to still have him as a friend. Buy I dont't want to feel needy, that i have to work with him. I said to him again that I want to start the next company with him together but it felt needy. i think it is just a problem of me also that i just need to be confident that he sees it in the same way and that I don't care. That I'm just keeping executing and the force will lead me. But sometimes it makes me said not having him here next to me. I really trust him and like him. So Konstantin, we will see where this is going. Right now there is a trend of loosing connection and living out of each other. Maybe he just also spends a lot of love right now to his girlfriend and therefore there is not so much more energy anymore for other friends.

He does not do anymore so much that I say to him, and I don't do anymore so much that he says to me. I think this is the main point.

I'm not open anymore from thoughts from him, and he is not open anymore for thoughs from me.

I think this is the next challange, the next mountain for our friendship, the next test for our friendship if it will sustain times like this.

it is insane to see the machineries like a die casting machine in person and see how they are made of. I think one of the best things to learn how something works is to see how it gets assembled and manufactured at scale. This makes you understand the machine so much deeper and just faster. So just when you want to understand something, go to the factory that produces it and see how raw material gets made into the piece. Also i figured out, for every machine, there exist a other machine. Everything is just stacked. The person who produces the product, buys machines from a machine maker to make it, the machine maker buys the machines from a other machine maker to make his machines, this machines get also made by other machines, this stacks on other machines. It is all just machiens stacked on each other then produce the next one.

happy morning now with JOHN. it is 10:18 and i will keep working now. I look forward to sing with my mom some songs.

In the last day I contacted roughly 20 machinery companies that make machines that i likely use in my factory model. To talk with them and afterwards get 3d models from them for the factory. Today I had 4 calls with them. 3 of them trash one of them promising. I scheduled insane many calls and meetings for the next days. I text with 20 of them at the same time. I also think now more about the actuall layout of the factory, how many lines, where etc... I'm still working from RJ Models office, I negotiated a hotel nearby down to 15€ a night, by saying that the AC is broken and the windows don't really close in my room. I await the progress of the Blackbird products in the next days.

Had yesterday a niece call with Konstantin and two rounds of chess, I won both of them.

Ivan texted me... I still think that he wants to hire me haha... But I want to hire him.

Also weirdly i texted flora and she responded, we will have a call tonight.

Also my dad texted me, we will have a call in some hours.

So yeah, I just go with the flow, with the Taoism.

I feel like a alien on a other planet. Walking through the worker areas nearby, old buildings, poor people, small sits, starring. Starring. There are only them and me. Nobody else. Nobody. It's like you have a red bulk on your face... Buying with sign language a stick of pineapple, or two sticks of pineapple. Starring. I feel like I'm in a movie and someone is shooting me in the slums of china's workers.

All this workers in their miserable clothes, me in my finance founder pieces. I stick out.

Orange plastic stools, cheap food for cents of euros. Me walking between them like a alien.

I wonder what these people think, see. What they think im doing here.

Grey sky, grey fabrics, day by day. And then an alien.

All look different then me. All speak different then me, alien world.

"the world is my classroom and life my teacher"

I think the second thing would be to keep beeing admirable and do crazy things so they respect you, you have to earn their respect every day. Have insane physical shape, have insane projects, have insane good mood, have insane etiquette. Be someone who they can admire and look up to. Help deeply with any project just without they asking, just push it forward help and be admirable. A bit like Leon Richters dad. He organized big parties with Leon together, he is doing business with him together etc...

You have to earn your respect for your sons every day.

While I sitting in the RJ office and listen to JD Rockefeller and eat fresh sliced mango, I think about how could I get a better, deeper relationship with my son's in the future? We have this weird thing in our one side of our family (Mehls) that father's never have a really deep, great relationship with their sons. And on my other side Schuberts they have a deep relationship, but these are also women's. So how can I be a dad that has deep relationship and conversations with my girls and son's? Often the best way to get a completely different solution is to also do a completely different process. To do the opposite of what the others did... so what would be the opposite?

First of all.i think having a lot of son's would be good. Having 10 children, maybe 4-6 sons. This would allready bring the odds higher that some of them.have a deep relationship with me. The other things have be thought through yet. But I think 10 children is a good start.

did today something very scarry, very very scarry... you know when you ask a women for a date? and you hope she says yes, but you have the feeling that it can only be a know and therefore you don't want to face reality? I asked Alex if he want's to join my company. Quite scarry. I said to him think about it. I expect either no answer or a no in the next days.

Also today I connected with Diecasting machine makers and Stamping Machine makers to get allready the partnerships for the real factory and get 3d models of the machines from them, so I don't need to waste time designing 3d model scatches.

I also had a very long talk with Alex about Confucius and Confucinism and Taoism. Go with the flow, go with the River. Alex invited me for lunch and then we went to the DJI headquater, he could give me an visitor invitation and I went into the DJI headquater. We talked there about Frank Wang and DJI culture, very interesting. He had a very cool system where he has a puzzle made of medals and for every year in the company you get one piece of the puzzle. There is one puzzle that is finished after 10 years and one that is from year 11 until year 20. Very smart to keep people working and staying, very cool puzzle idea.

I also had a call with all the people that are in the Hotel with my family having eastern right now, it is really incredible to see them, how they have eastern together and me beeing here. But nice. So yeah they have a good time in germany hopefully.

I then worked from RJ Models to get some stuff done, I only got done to contact 5 Die Casting machine people and 5 Stamping Line companies, with one of them I allready made an appointment for next tuesday to visit their company.

I then at 22:30 went back to Alex place, listened in the car to Rockefeller and when I arrived bought fresh Mango and Melon and Blueberries. I love china for their good fruits. Everywhere the fruits are cheap and insane high quality and they cut it for you in the store, what a love. So they cut the melone, the mango for me and i went up to Alex with the fruits, we talked and ate fruits, he shared some deep thoughts and things that happened to him, he had to stay in the hospital and thought he will die soon... this changed a lot in his mind. He went then for 6 Month traveling all of China. But he will not die luckily soon. I asked him the scarry thing. And we talked about his girlfriend and my experiences in Las Vegas. I said to him: If you can promise me to figure out the skillcashe, i will promise you to show you the world and that you can learn from the smartest people in US and europe how they solve hard technical problems. The thing he cares about right now is how other smart people do their work and to make decisions without pressure.

Thats the two main points for him. if I can actually help him with this, it will be more likely that he joins the team.

Okay good night for now.

A Skillcashe is a seperate section in the humanoid robots brain that is reserved for learning skills instantly and storing them for fast use. The skillcashe does not change the foundation model of the humanoid robot, but stores specific and 100% individual skills that are acquired by observing, listening and sensing with all possible sense of the humanoid. The skillcashe can be activated on commmand or in later humanoid version will be activated by the main foundational model when it recognizes oppertunities to learn. The skillcashe is a seperate section that interacts with the main model just as beeing there as knowledge. The main foundational model can acess the skillcashe to performed individual learned tasks. The skillcashe is a bit like cursor AI has skills. The agent in cursor has certain skills that he can select, like taking a screenshot or browsing the web. These skills are backed in from the start. In our skill cashe this skills get acquired based on sensing and observating and then can be used from the main foundational model like cursor agent can use the skill of taking a screenshot. The skillcashe is more a databank for a certain action that is stored in a seperate set of weights and don't interfear with the main foundational model. The skill cashe has a limit of how many skills are able to get stored. The skill cashe does store actions in a very highly and data rich format so that a action get be imitaded very accurately. The skillcashe does not actively communicate with the main foundational model, moreover the foundational model cann use the skillcashe if needed and acces it and give it instructions to perform the skill "cook me my favourite breakfest eggs" or "cut my hair as usial". The skill cashe is very sensible when it is in learning mode, changes of the weights happen very fast and all movements, obervations get backed in with a higher multiplicator then usial, data gets multyplied directly on the flow and backed in. When the skillcashe is in learning mode / in alert it will learn new skills in seconds from observing the human.

Sitting in the car to alex place to sleep at his couch. Thinking about how to best get forward with the factory. I set up the deadline for the 12.4. Today I got first 3d printed versions of machines in different scales, very cool. So j probably choose 1:200 or maximum 1:150 scale. With 1:200 the model is roughly 3,50 wide and 7,50 long. But maybe this is actually wrong. My guess is that is actually will not take this mich space. But we will see. In reality 3,50 x 7,50 at a 1:200 scale would roughly be 1,000,000m². But I think I can eliminate enough to make it way smaller. My biggest question is now how to get the full factory layout on paper or figma. It seems like I have to go now into the needy gridy what parts are actually manufactured where. But we will see. Got today a good amount of reference packages for the 3d model guys done. Bought also a 3d model of Optimus. We will see. But it is an exciting sideprojdct anyway and I learned so much about manufacturing allready. Let's see if I can finish this model.

laying right now in the library and learning chinese with HelloChinese app, now i took a short break to share my thoughts of the last days. The last two days I had incredible nights in the Vienna Hotel near Baon. It was the same hotel where I was also together with Konstantin one month ago. The great thing of the Hotel is not the rooms or the service, the great thing is the location. When you go out on the street in the evening there are 40-60 food drucks all next to each other, all making fresh chinese food. You can buy a mango smoothy fresh made of fresh mango for 12 yuan or get noodles for 12 yuan. Everything costs 12 yuan haha. You pay directly with Wechat by scanning a qr code, no cash. You can just order at any food truck and then go to the next one and order etc... you don't have to wait at the foodtruck until it is ready, you just go around and remember where you ordered something and then you go around again and pick it up everywhere. Very nice.

Yesterday I worked all day long from RJ Model, i organized the paperwork to get the import license for my cosmetics, designed and 3d modeled with the partner of RJ Model the railway system for the factory, learned Chinese, started conversations with BYD and other companies to see their factories and figure out if they could supply my factory with batteries.

I learned with Chatgpt and Grok how battery cells work and what 4680 battery cell means. Actually the first number is the diameter and the second number is the lengths. Most battery names are just called 40120 or 5078 or whatever, kind of fun.

Yesterday in the evening Ray invited me to go for dinner with him, we went in a very good steakhouse and ate a lot of steak, salmon and other incredible things. We went their with his Lamborghini Urus, kind of fun he has the sterring whell on the right side, because it is a hongkong car. We ate their until 22:00pm and then went back to the factory, I worked at the factory until 0:30 and went then to the hotel.

also yesterday I watched the new donut lab battery reveal videos, their marketing is really good, and actually very creative, I wonder at which scale they can manufacture the batteries and how fast chinese companies could supply me their batterie cells. I think it will not take this long.

So now I checked out of the hotel and sit here in the Library in Baon learning chinese.

Sitting in the car with time in the ear and time feels not real. Eyes are with tear, but heart without fear. Sometimes I miss my Mom. And now, I got a very kind audio message from her. Where she describes, how my actions sometimes inspire here to be also more brave. That makes me feel a lot of pride. That is one of the most beautiful things to hear. That gives me new reasons... to matter.

Now I'm driving to RJ Model, I checked yesterday in the Vieanna Hotel in in Baoan, now I'm driving to RJ Model to build my factory.

I hope to see them all in person soon.

Yesterday I slept at the couch in the RJ office. Yesterday in the morning at 6:30am the cleaning women walked me up. Later the boss came to.me confused and asked if I slept in the office...? I said yes.

Now I went last night and tomorrow in the hotel to don't piss of the Ray and get a shower and wash my clothes.

Yesterday I made the model with the team for the Die Casting machine and stamping machine.

Yesterday my second version of Blackbird products got ready. They will arrive today at the RJ office so I can test them.

Yesterday I started thinking about what is the most effective way to bring things in the factory from A to B?? Maybe a railway? A railway would be cheap to build, cheaper then AGV or stuff like this.

I'm thinking right now a lot about what machines do we actually need? And what could easily be done by humans? Because everything that can be done by humans can we later way more cheaply replace with the humanoid and so we have a lower setup cost of the whole factory and later a standardized machine interface (the humanoid robot) that is easier replaceable and adaptable for new production needs and scalable faster.

Now I arrived at RJ.

today I worked from the office of RJ Models. They gave me a very big office, big room, nice stool and couche etc... today I will also sleep here :) In the morning I went here and met the team that works with me together on the Model, we discussed the project and I started after some time after the project testing software to create CAD drawings and 3d Models, I found one that actually is very good, called Zoo. I tested a bit around and created a Model of a Conveyer belt, robot arm and assembly process. I tested also other things like designing a actuator with it. It is basicly vibe CAD. But at the end of the day today I figured out that I loose the big view when I craft the details by myself. This is not good. So I started thinking about how to make it better. I texted the team a long message:

"Also I need a 3d designer from you that creates with me together / for me the simple structures. I feel that I think to much into to small details right now and the learning is not the learning that it should be. I don't care so much about the actuall actuator design, i care about the process of machines, conveyers and conections, I want to spend time thinking on this, this is way more important then the small detail drawing generating process. so please find me someone who i can work closely with that can make low detail 3d stuff to then get it as a model.

this is very important, we need to learn fast and be fast, we will not be fast focusing on the details of a robot arm or anything else, this is also not what matters. wat matters for me is factory layout and process layout visualiced in 3d. I need someone where I can just make a small scatch on paper and then the person can make the very, very low detail 3d object and make a model from it. It will also not be that much different models, because we try to use as many same things as possible on every route. I think the scale should be 1:150 or 1:200 with as much small details ass possible. Also we try to make the factory as much human based as possible (for every task where a human can do the task, we should use a human, this brings down initial setup cost for the factory, which is important! and later in a future where Humanoid robots are everywhere we have a constant machine (humanoid) that does what the humans did before. In this way we will have probably a 10x lower inital setup cost of a usial factory in this size and later a scalable machine that easily can fit into the place of the human, because the conveyers and transport and processes are allready designed for the human. In this way after my thinking I believe we can have humans (later humanoids) in every assembly step. (look at the pictures). the things that probably clearly need machines are the casting line, the stamping line, the the injection molding line for the shells. it is very stupid to design anything with a robot arm to assemble or connect something, because it will be a very costly machine and we will design then the things around for a robot arm. When we think of a human needs to assemble it, we think allready ahead for the future where (robots replace this task of the human) and have way, way lower initial machining cost. When we see this, we will actually not need to make to many 3d models, because we use as often as possible humans and only need 3d models of the heavy machines and conveyer belts and materials. Therefore I highly want because of speed and for me to keep thinking about the bigger picture to have someone from you doing actually the file generation. This is also a good constraint, because it means that the things don't have to many details and also are heavily biosed to simplicity and having the same models as often as possible. This constraint is good, because this will bring also the real world cost of the real factory down.

to conclude my thinking I believe machinery Models are only needed in: Zone B: (Casting Machines, Stamping Machines, CNC Machines) In Zone D: (SMT machine for chip placement for custom PCBs) in Zone M: (injection Molding Machine for shell parts). This is not a lot: this are 5 machines in total. Where I believe your designers will be able to figure out how to make a good model for the Model.

All other Zones and things are human (humanoid) based. This will substantially bring the initial setup cost down and build for a future where humanoids are existing. When we think of a task where a custom made machine costs 200k-300k USD or a human that gets then replaced by a 20k USD huamoid the second option wins.

We should get as fast as possible to the first layout to itterate on how things are conected efficient and how and where how many humans are needed to reach the scale of 1,000,000 robots output a year."

i hope we get this solved tomorrow.

Yesterday evening was laos really cool, I texted Alex again if I can sleep at his place, and he said for sure. So i brought some cookies and cakes and we talked again a lot. I shared with him my story of school and not doing the Abitur, I shared with him some pages of my diary. He was really impressed and inspired by it. Randomly I told him that I'm from dresden and he showed me then that his backround picture of his Laptop is Dresden in Moonlight. My dresden, how random. There is this random chinese guy and he has Dresden In moonlight as backround picture.

I got sleepie, so I slept. Next morning he drove me to the RJ Model headquater.

Today I also had a long call with konstantin, this was very nice, I showed him what I worked on and what experienced the last days. He told me about how he met the father of his girlfriend the first time. I showed him the whole office here and the model production.

now I'm gonna to sleep again at the couch here. See you tomorrow.

"sometimes I feel crazy, just beeing without anything, but naive to change the world"

i can't hold the tears back anymore and start crying in front of my Grandparents. They are some thousends of km away and I have to say to them that I will not be there at eastern like promised. I will not see my mother in Person, I will not have the opportunity to tell them adventures from the past month in person. We talked 2 hours with each other.

Yesterday I was at three Model Makers to make sure I visited all major Model Makers in Person in china first, before deciding with whom to build my factory. The first one was RJ model. He is the biggest Model Maker in the world and i instantly liked him. He started his company in a young age 24 and just worked his ass off until he came their. He asked for money from their friends and family to get the things running, it was painful i believe. He said I inspired him after we talked f0r 2h and I thought I trust him. So in my mind was clear this will be the person that will help me to build my factory.

I think he will loose a lot of money with my model, but he believes in it, he believes in me, maybe more then I do. Therefore I trust him. He randomly said, when I talked about my story, how i slept in shitty hotels and traveled the world, that I also can just work from here.

So after I visited the two other model makers after RJ Models I texted Ray and wrote:

Hi Ray, you were right, the other appointments were mainly a waste of time. I really appreciate your openness and want to work with you and your company on the model. There is only one catch that I'm asking for... I want to have a small room at your office / the apartments, where also your employees live. I don't need anything luxurious, it can be very scrappy. I can also pay for it. So that I can work the next one month from your place, the model is right now the highest priority. If you can arrange this, I would love to enter the partnership with you and the company and would be happy. Best, Tade

He replied at the same evening with "yes, fine".

So today I worked on the factory Model and how the first Actuator line is designed. To make 3 models of it in 1:200, 1:150 and 1:100 to figure out which scale is most suitable. It is the most complex part of the factory and the heart of it, where scales matters most.

So I will arrive tomorrow in the office of Raw and work from his place to get the Model together with his team as fast as possible done.

After I finished the conversation with my Grandparents it is clear I will stay here in china, I miss all of them, and hope to get stuff done here. There is still pressure of tide money supply and fast itteration. The only thing that matters now is getting the Model done as fast as possible. Highest FOKUS on this.

Today I was sitting at a place and eating randomly came a officer (police men to my table) he smoked a cigerette, I offered him food and we ate together lunch.

Yesterday Evening I texted Alex again, so I brought fruits and we talked about life and the universe and I slept again on this strangers couch.

also today it started raining: i had airpods in my ear, it was a bit emotional music, i started getting emotional, and it rained from my eyes too. I just thought, what do i do here in china, alone, why me? why does it matter to you to change the world? why does it matter to matter so much? now I'm sitting here in the coffe and think. think about the things. Tomorrow I will be at Rays office working to get the Model done. The Model. I think the Model needs a Name, it is rubbish to say allways the Model, how could we name it? Godot? idk. I was also reading today waiting for Godot, i read from start to end. quite weird, maybe it is Godot.

now I'm sitting here and think if it is fine to text Alex again to sleep at his couch tonight.

OH and btw. it is actually easy with ai to design a factory. if you want to do it, just do it.

okay, now let me get some fruits and water.

china, china, china, I love china. had yesterday a insane bad night in Chaihuo makerspace, no sleep all night long fight with Moskitos, then the cleaning women came in at 6 at attemptim to sleep came finally to it's end. I want to a coffe nearby to get an very needed espresso and started answering all factories and messages that came in for the products that I developed the past days. Also i got very excited because the new sample version 4 arrived at 11am at the makerspace (less then 24h shipping). I put it on and was happy, It was very good progress in the right direction after round 3 was very bad. I like it and wear it now every time. There are only some small things to change (shorter sleeves, wider collar, and maybe a small tade imprint at the sleves and so nobody will spell my name wrong when I meet them.) So this was a up after this bad night and cool. Then I sat down and thought what are the bottlenecks actually for helping coming the future of robots true. Building robots is a solved technical problem, building robots at scale is not a solved problem. So I sat down took some carton from the makerspace, my pencils and started drawing a factory layout on it for 1,000,000 robots yearly output. I drawed it until evening. Then was thinking how can i test if what I do makes actually sense in reality, then i thought, why not building a small scale factory first to test against reality and then building the big one. So I messages 6 Building and Architecture Model Maker in China Shenzhen. In the midday I was eating at this resteraunt nearby the chaihuo makerspace again and met a guy from DJI. We talked a bit, he was very smart, he built the Mavic air 3 in DJI. We exchanged wechat. I texted him later if he wants to meet at the evening again.

Meanwhile in Chaihuo I got nearly kicked out, because they want that I pay for a membership, but i couldn't pay it. But somehow i was talking my way out of it and was allowed to stay for two more days.

I drawed the factory layout and until evening. Before I met with Alex from DJI I had two appointments scheduled for the next day with Architecture Model Makers, me and Alex met at 22:30 and went for a walk.

We walked everywhere and talked about humanity, how to explore the universe and china. At 00:08 am I asked him if he might have a free couch for the night. He said yes, so I packaged all my stuff at Chaihuo, we went to his Big Rover offroad car from a Chinese unknown company and drove to his apartment for 40 min. We talked on the way about the meaning of life and what work matters. When we arrived he showed me around, his whole appartment where full of technology, litterly stacked up to the cealing everywhere, he showed me dozens of small tech projects he did and random pcbs and whatever, the whole apartment looked more like a factory then living room.

At idk 2 i went on the couch after I confirmed the appointments with all other model makers for the next days and slept. It was nice, because there were no moskitos.

Today I then woke up at 9:30am, said goodbye to Alex and went with the Didi to my first appointment at 10:30am with Green something modelmaker. They where really kind and showed me around it is a family business run by wife and husband, very kind people, we then had Lunch together and after spending 2-3h with them in total they drove me to the other Model Maker (their competitor). I arrived at the other Model Maker and was showing and discussing with him again my factory layout and how to make a smaller scale model of it. We discussed about the realworld size of the factory around 1,000,000 square meters (which means 1500 x 700 meters roughly) and when we would scale it down 100x that it would then be 15 meters x 7 meters, which is quite large, so we were thinking about scalling it down to 200 so that it is 7,50 x 3,50 meters. We were discusses how to split the whole model maybe in 2-4 pieces so I can walk between it to see more details and how to bring my rough ideas into real 3d models and design them.

After this I went with Didi again to a other part of shenzhen to meet a engineer that i got introduced to that is interested in robotics. I showed him my factory and we talked for 2h about robots.

After that I booked a Didi and a hotel nearby for 19€. The hotel was in the last corner in the 22 floor of just a random building. On all didi drives I refined my factory and scheduled meetings with other Model Makers to see most of them in person.

Arrived late in the hotel confirmed all 3 appointments for tomorrow with other Model makers, brainstormed with the clothing team about some changes, made orga for the Blackbarry stuff.

Started learning with the HelloChinese app for 1h.

Made two explain documents for the factory.

And now it is 00:13 and i go to bed.

what a day again: I will just sleep on the couch of the Makerspace tonight, because money supply gets tied. Had today in the morning breakfest in the hotel I overnighted. Then took a Taxi for 1h hour to a casing and PVA boxes factory. For me it is still incredible to see women and men to the whole day sitting somewhere and just doing the same stitching over and over again. The one women were working there for 11 years and she produces 3000 boxes a day. We designed my box for the BLACKBIRD Anti dandruff system, it was a good meeting, we just had the conversation with the chinese translation app taobao all the time. They showed me around, showed me their Die Casting machines, their sample production, their material preperation, their packaging lanes. We discussed the product for roughly 1h and then I got again invited for lunch with them. I had the best chinese noodles so far that I ever ate (handmade from Xianji people). People from Xianji are especially good in making handmade noodles he told. Then I took a nother Taxi (4o dollars) for roughly 90 min. to the area where I was allready one month ago near the Chaihuo makerspace and DJI headquater. Here I met with a design studio to discuss how to build humanoid robots at scale in China and make them beatiful. Afterwards I sat in a coffe and watched some interviews and youtube videos about elon, Jensen and Checky chan. Then I ate agian noodle soup in a small chinese local store and now I sit here in Chaihuo hoping that all the people leave soon so I can just sleep here on the couch and nobody get's mad. OH in the time in the coffe and taxis I read Rockefeller Biography and also made all the conversations to get the samples for BLACKBIRD BARRY and the custom design packages for it. Also my partners from the Clothing factory got their v4 sample ready for me and shipped it to me, it will arrive tomorrow here at the Chaihuo makerspace.

today was a crazy day: I arrived at 4:30am at the airport in Guangzhou, there picked me a driver up from the hotel and brought me to the hotel, I checked in the hotel at 5:30am. I slept until 10:00am got then down got a small breakfest, because the cook was so kind to still make something small just for me (breakfest was allready over), I went out walked a bit around, got some watermelon for 1,50€ half a kg or something. Then at 2pm a other driver and two guys picked me up from the company I was meeting with (it was one sales person, one translater and the manager of the company all three picked me up) and we drove to their factory. Their we got a factory and I got a explanation from 6 people that showed me around how they manufacture shampoo and any other cosmetics at scale. Then we went in their show room, where they had hundreds maybe even thousends of different products they made for all people over the world, from shampoo to parfume etc... all very beatiful with nice boxes etc. the showroom was very beatiful. the whole factory was very clean. Then we went in the business room and I met the "Boss". We trank tea and discussed my products for roughly 1h and 30 min. with all the other people. we were really productive brainstorming, arguing etc... they prepared allready samples for me jsut in two days and it was nearly perfect of what i wanted. so now we discuessed everything so they get the final samples ready in 5 days. crazy, 5 days for a complete new product and bottle design etc.... crazy. it was really fun. Then they invited me to have some food with them. so we drove 40 min. back into the city (the factory was located outside of the city) and got into a very nice restaurant with a round table, we set down and suddenly insane amounts of food got brought in. I had ultamive tasty chinese food and we talked about everything that came to mind, china, germany, chinese addiction to phones, german addiction to phones, good things bad things. We "gambeyed" a lot, but I'M not used to drinking so I skipped every second round. It was 54% Vodka or something, they (we) finished the whole bottle. A bit drunk I was, but I tried to not drink to much, but also be kind and have some fun. It felt okay for me to drink today since some month again something. It was the right setting. we were 6 people and they asked me, hey what do you normally do after drinking? And i was idk... you can decide... so they proposed to go in a bar or a karaoke bar/adults club. I'm not so shure who decided at the end but we went to this club to sing karaoke with womens that we don't know. I was allready expecting the worst and that this might be very not nice, but I'm allways eager for new experiences so, just do it. We went in and set on couches and suddenly 6 womens came in. They were telling something about themselves and then the chinese people were like no... and the womens left the room, very confusing, it felt very weird and like people have a dating swipe app but in real life with real womens. so they swiped them away and again 6 womens came in., they swiped again, but one stayd with one of the guys. Anyway it was really weird and i don't liked it. It was making womens to reallife tiktoks and more object like. this was not nice. So then the managerin came in and was like talking to the other chinese pople and they translated that she organized a women that can speak english for me. so i was okay, so worstcase i can just talk a bit, thats fine. After some minutes there was sitting right to me a women that could speak a bit of english and left to me a women that spoke just chinese. So i started with google translator after some time some conversation with them about if they are happy, how long they work allready there and a lot of questions, that are probably for them completely random. After I asked them for the meaning of life the one women was to confused to answer. anyway. the english speaking women was very kind, and she told me that she studied art in university. So i asked here to show me pictures of her drawings. after that I asked her if she can order paper and pencil to paint. And then we just painted for 1h in this club :)

I think the other factory guys were a bit amused but for me it was super cool, we just painted. At the end I jsut wrote some kind words on this paper, without that she sees it and gave it to her before we left, no number exchange, no meeting later, just some kind words that she should believe in her self. That felt really good and now laying in bed I hope she just has some more motivation for life. anyway the boss of the factory then drove me to a hotel nearby and I got with two other guys of the manager to the hotel reception they checked me in the hotel, payed the hotel room + breakfest for tomorrow and came with my stuff (they carried my luggage) to my room. We said godbuy and I was very happy. Now I'm laying here in bed and just think about this crazy day and sleep. tomorrow I will see two other factories. But this people from today were all insane kind. China business is insane how you get treated from your partners I guess. So I got today I free food, drivers, Hotel, breakfest, club, samples and so much more. very exciting time to be here.

yes now I'm gonna sleep.

lets say the problem would be to build one Billion workers. how would you solve it?

arrived in China. allway when I see this elon products I just feel so thankful and i look up with such a pride. It seems like everything that is truly important he has a feed in. this makes me annoyed by also very glad to know that somone really capable is doing good. it really makes me emotional to see a elon product, because they are allways a major leap forward, not a small step a quantum step. and they make me allways excited about the future. okay so I admire him, he is one of the greatest people and I'm grateful that I live in the same time with him. But also pissed, because where do I then matter? what is as important but not elonized yet? or should we compete with elon? but why? more find a leap forward that is truly leap. I think we want to travel in space someday on my own personal way like you want to travel in your own personal way with your car. Would this be a major leap forward for humanity to have the posibility to travel completely by ourselves in space? Secondly if we want to create a world where everyone can have everything, we need to make everything that everyone wan'ts insane cheap. The bottleneck for this is cheap energy and cheap work. both invorces each other. with cheap work we can produce more cheap energy and with cheaper energy labour gets cheaper if it is based on energy. So the main questions is how can we get substantial more energy and how can we get substantial cheaper labor -> to create a world where all your products that you can imagen of are so cheap that you can get them.

a other major leap forward would be to build cities on other planets, infrastructure on other planets (water infra on other planets) all this things.

I wonder how elon computes somothing to check if it has enough leap forward.

Who I am?

what is important for me? shared adventures with people.

What I'm bad in?

• follow rules that are stupid.
• respect people that are stupid.
• loosing games

What I'm good in?

• influencing people
• teaching
• writing
• breaking rules
• making fast decisions
• generating ideas

What do I want to learn now?

Technical execution.

"what do you mean by this?" "designing and building as much as possible by myself on a complex technical execution task.

"why not building a robot for that as challange?" "I build a robot?" "YES!, why not?" hmmm. I ...... .. robot. Irobot

I'm laying half sweating half trying to show that I'm not one of them. but I surely are on the banch of the best hotel in Bali. The 5 star or whatever Hyatt recidency. And I'm not a guest and sometimes worried they kick me out. The beautiful garden in the middle looks like a big minecraft temple that someone build in 100h play time and with care for every detail. Same backround music like in minecraft is reaching my membranes of my ears. I hear water flowing in fountains next to me that is more blue than the schlumpfs in tv. and I'm reading essays of a girl that i met in Arcadia. She is in here essays wondering around trying to find meaning - and describing every situation as a screaming in silence and love for everything. A tearing apart between love and not understanding and wondering. And I feel like me. It feels like the thing that I'm in. The mass of hiding in an prunk of beatifulness to find meaning? Why do I want meaning at all? why not just a simple normal life? anyway. She is talking about learning. and He is talking about learning. Yesterday konstantin send me a very long message where he described his focus on learning, he reading 35 books and only care about that. And he is right. So I'm sitting here in the minecraft world and wonder. wonder about, what do I want to learn?

What I am here for?

What is meaningfull?

maybe it is only to share good moment with others? to share more moments with others. this is something she is proposing in her essays and writings. maybe she is right.

anyway yesterday I sat also here in this Minecraft world and painted something for the real world. Created something for the real world. I beatifull product so everyone gets his hair sculp free of dandruff.. haha this sounds so much not meaningful. It's a side project from me. I have the factories found in china, I will meet with them in two days. I will see first prototypes of my thoughts in 3 days. funny how fast things can go when you are alone? I'm wondering. could everyone be this fast? or is it my learning that made me fast? I designed yesterday everything from product feeling to user manuell. I created a fully skatched out short story as user manuell. I'm really proud on it. it is art. I focus to make this the best product possible. For me. it is something I do mainly for me? is this meaning?

doing something for yourself and then sharing it with others??? so in this perfect Bali day sitting in the Perfect Minecraft mention - do minecraft characters also wonder about meaning?

right now in the moment the chief of the gastro here came to me.. we know each other after I'm spending the last two days here. He is looking for contacts in china so i can visit there the Hyatt? did I lied my way into this? idk.

the stuff knows me, the people know me, but they think I'm a guest of the Hotel. I'm not. hmm.

okay anyway yesterday i basically build the core components for the product to get dandruff away really cool. So today I'm wondering again. it was to fast yesterday. Now there is the questions again. what todo today? wonder`?

I wonder about the brain and how we learn concepts about the world so fast to transfer them into physical skills? how does nature do this?

okay. let me play a bit more minecraft.

bring it to reality as fast as possible to actually test. One learning that I made with crafting my own half-zip hoodie is to not try to long to test everything in software and modeling, but just test it in the real world. Get the things as fast as possible to the real world and test it against reality. It seems alike with the spacex appraoch in this aspect and now after I'm reading the spacex book intro I realize that I made the learning with this zip hoodies and only therefore it went so seamless. and holy shit were the hodies bad and failed. all of them where throw away peaces but it was really natural to learn in this way. no I try to keep this as a method in my arsenal. Bring things into reality as fast as possible.

A good friend of mine is absolutely obsessed with Disneyland. We’re talking full commitment — goofy hat and all. A few years ago he splurged on a room at the hotel right inside the park, specifically because guests get in an hour early. The plan was simple: the moment the gates opened, he’d sprint across the park and grab a fast pass for his favorite ride before they were gone.

He made it to the kiosk within fifteen minutes of opening. Already sold out.

He stood there stunned, probably looking as devastated as he felt, when a Disney employee noticed him and walked over. “Is everything okay?”

He explained what had happened. She listened, nodded sympathetically, then asked: “And how does that make you feel?”

“Well... I’m kind of bummed out.”

She smiled. “Anything else?”

“I mean, I’m a little upset.”

She smiled again, waiting. “Yes... anything else?”

“I’m...” He paused. “I’m really disappointed.”

Her whole face lit up — like he’d finally said the magic words. Because he had.

“Well, we can’t have that, can we?” she said. She walked over to the kiosk, punched in a code, and printed out three passes.

I’ve thought about that story a lot since my friend told me. Because what he stumbled onto — almost by accident — is one of the most powerful tools you have in any negotiation, any difficult conversation, any moment when you need someone to actually help you.

Two words. I’m disappointed.

Here’s why they work so well.

Every other approach puts someone on the defensive. You make an argument, they counter it. You explain why you deserve more, they explain why you don’t. You get frustrated, they get stubborn. The whole thing devolves into a tug of war where nobody wants to be the one who gives ground.

But “I’m disappointed” does something entirely different. It doesn’t accuse anyone. It doesn’t assign blame. It doesn’t make the other person wrong. It simply implies — quietly, powerfully — that you expected better. That you deserved better. And it puts the other person in a position where they genuinely want to make things right.

I saw this play out again with another friend who was preparing for a job offer. He’d done his homework — he had a pretty good read on the title they were going to offer and roughly what the salary range would be. And he was already pretty sure it was going to come in lower than he thought he was worth.

“So what do I do?” he asked me.

“Easy,” I said. “When they make the offer, pause. Take a breath. And then say, I’m disappointed. Then explain, calmly, what you were expecting and why.”

Two days later he called me back. It had worked like a charm.

The thing is, “I’m disappointed” is disarming in a way that almost nothing else is. It doesn’t start an argument. It starts a conversation. And it signals — without any hostility — that the gap between what was offered and what you expected is real, and meaningful, and worth closing.

Now. If you want to level up even further, there’s a technique that doesn’t require any words at all.

The wince.

In any negotiation, the single best response to an offer you don’t like isn’t a counter-argument. It’s not even “I’m disappointed.” It’s saying absolutely nothing — and letting your face do the work.

A slow, almost involuntary wince. A slight intake of breath. The expression of someone who was hoping for better and is genuinely trying to hide how much that number stung.

Then silence.

I cannot tell you how effective this is. The other person — almost reflexively — starts filling that silence. They explain. They justify. And often, they start improving the offer before you’ve said a single word. Because nobody wants to be the person who caused that wince.

Together, these two techniques — the words and the wince — work for the same fundamental reason. They appeal to something basic in people: the desire to be seen as fair, as generous, as someone who did right by you. Most people, given the chance to make you feel better without losing face themselves, will take it.

You’re not putting them in a corner. You’re giving them a door.

The next time someone makes you an offer that falls short — a salary, a contract term, a fast pass at Disneyland — resist the urge to argue your case. Skip the spreadsheet of reasons you deserve more.

Just pause. Let your face fall. And say the magic words.

I’m disappointed.

Then wait.

(Marc Randolph)

I left Wolframs house to protect my brain.

i was shortly to leave the house to never come back only the rational financial kept me here. the way to mold the world is to be insanely naive with yourself and don't listen to the garbage that others tell. protect your brain for garbage.

the best marketing is winning "enzo ferrari" people are attracted to winners.

every masterpiece of its creation speaks the language of the creators.. so if you want to make a masterpiece make it speak your language of the creator.

"a masterpiece speak the language of it's creator" - enzo ferrari

i know I can get everything done I want. in the moment where I just add. I either die or will get it done.

I want to build great products. I want a great robot that replaces the phone and becomes this machine that is truly beatiful. I want to give it the soul to make people not to give up.

like me. I never, never, never give up. just keep going.

random silly things to not forget: interview in bags (John lennon)... Silly walks - monty python falling in sleep - Mr Bean

the first succescsull consumer robot that actually sparks joy in people. the first 100k of them. that inforces optimism and human to human interactions.

i could place my own humanoid on top of the mount everest in 30 days? should we?

i think we can only win together.. Konstantin

sometimes I just walk around wondering about the world and everytime I wonder I get a bit more old.

heard today to a lot more John lennon interviews and Ren Zhenfei interviews. we are all artists. and the best was for a artist is to take life not to serious. just do random things sometimes. just lean in.

i was yesterday in the night all the time thinking about robots and couldnt sleep.

truths second:
since I know that Konstantin is sometimes reading this stuff I'm not that open anymore. Hmmm. difucult to be open to people that you want to respect you.

I really like him.

truths:

I'm right now in Bali with a bank account near Zero but a deposit I can go into -500€. I fly back to China in 7 days. I will have no place to stay there yet. But I think I will just sleep on the couch in the maker space.. haha hihi.. yes like all the startup people do I guess. that sounds great but that is actually teribble :)

I also said to my grandparents that I will be on eastern with them together in germany. A flieght to germany costs around 480 USD right night. That makes the math a bit harder considering my current bank account. I also have to still pay the PKV for this month's 330€ or something like this... yeah this thing is the most annoying thin in my life so far. But maybe also the thing that just makes sure that I not only lazy chill at friends place because the bill wants to get paid every month. anyway it's the carma for the insurances I sold.. i guess.

Now realizing more and more the artist side. I think art is the highest form to make humans feel emotions. And if you can get this done through technology it is a huge happyness factore for humanity. So it's still in my mind, what will be the most important things for humanity in the future?? I think longterm everything comees down to exploring the universe. Means everything that helps to accerlerate this is a step in the right direction.

My physical condition right now is really rubbished, my lags hurt and my heat is burning. But I think a got with the Marathon a brain update that was crucial. the either "I will die or get it done" update.

I'm still confused about love in my head. I think every day right now about Miu. But I text with others. Maybe because Miu left me around this time 2 years ago, and it was the hardest, maybe because I still love here. I mean I'M really certain that I still do. And I believe in here. She said she want's to fight for the love. So let time evolve. I just want here and nobody else. All other girls where just fun but not care. She is the person that I care so much that I have nights without sleep. I made here as bag picture of my phone again. She is really beautiful. okay never mind. Please don't tell anybody about it.

Also one rule that I figured out is that when things appear simple at the wide shot they allways get more confusing when you look at them with a "Lupe". It's same about life. Where to go? What to do? Who to love? from the wide it appears simple in the details lie the maniac.

You could say I'm living my best life here on Bali, like a king with houseceeping mades and shores with great waves. with free food and no pay. With timely time for everything my brain just wants to do. With the holody that normal people look forward every month while their working. It's not my life. but it's good to experience parts of it now. Because then I know that the money I will have someday will me not help to buy this experience and with it happyness. I'm an adventurer. and all the Millions, Billions in Stock shares will be used to have bigger and bigger adventures. Thats what excites me.

So Bali is great as long as you are away soon again. But to slow. But to much focues on them selves and happyness of themselves not enough on humanity. People come here to tune out. I want to tune in to help humanity evolve. I want to see humanity between the stars. I want humanity beeing stronger, more exciting, more capable, more adventured then when i came to this place. I have everything I need. So now it comes back to humanity to put a dent into the universe.

whenever I'm in people i want to give hope. I had a lecture that I gave for 13 year old children some days ago in a school here in Bali. I talked about my adventures. I ask a lot of questions to them. what they love to do.. what they care about etc.. but the main thing for me was to give them hope that they can figure things out. and they will.

I have hope. I'm excited for the adventures ahead.

i was thinking if I just don't like Indian womens as people to be arround with, but i discovered more. This is again a time where I face a person that has fear of respectation. Dia is the Wife of Wolfram where i stay right now, and I sense a lot of fear in her. If I would be allowed to make a guess it is that she comes from a more wealthier Indian family that have high expactations in here and she fears if she meets them or not. She tries therefore to be very smart and be on every topic with a good opinion. But that's the problem. You can't be on every topic a person with great knowledge and then fall into the trap of talking things that are not true.

I figured out that i don't like this kind of people. Becuase they project their fear on you. They just make you feel more fearfull, because they can't deal with their own and have to share it. But fear is from my understanding not really helpfull to go forward. When you have fear you go backwards. So if you want to go forward for me fearlessness helped.

It is very difficult to deal with this kind of people. Because on one way i don't care to be honest, which will make here some trouble, on the other way I don't want to shit up relationships with Wolfram, which will certainly happen when Dia don't likes me.

But I figured out, that truths is still the best approach to it. because otherwise it will brake yourself. Just tell the truth.

It makes me think here.. she allready transfered some fears from here to me.. for example the fear about smakes in the night... I don't like this. I'm an adventurer, for that fearlessness is needed. So I'm quite happy to leave Bali soon to not be around here anymore. Probably the last time also I will be in Bali.

"Fear is the path to the dark side. Fear leads to anger. Anger leads to hate. Hate leads to suffering."

imagen - John Lennon:

Imagine there's no heaven

It's easy if you try

No hell below us

Above us only sky

Imagine all the people

Living for today

Imagine ther's no countries

It isn't hard to do

Nothin to kill or die for

And no religion, too

Imagine all the people

Living life in peace

You may say I'm dramer

But I'm not the only one

I hope someday you'll join us

And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions

I wonder if you can

No need for greed or hunger

A brotherhood of men

Imagine all the people

Sharing all the world

You may say I'm a dreamer

But I'm not the only one

I hope someday you'll join us

And the world will live as one.

John Lennon, he is a real artist. Listen to a lot John Lennon songs. He has great texts. Watched many John Lennon interviews. He was a dreamer. but a peaceful one.

ran two days ago 42.2km, ultra hardcore Bali sun, A Marathon. now I'm tired but grown.

A robot in your home. A thought in your mind. A feeling in your heart.

I promise I will come back to you. When the earth is beneath me and people know me. I promise I will come. There is nothing more to fight for. Mi you. There is no pain that can hold it back. Promise.

I was dreaming of the past, and my heart was beating fast. What exciting is this kind, living always in my mind. Talk to me about your fears, want to see all your tears. tomorrow.

Perhaps you like to her about me about this. Probably for me it’s different than for you. But I feel special sometimes as well, but it gets less important when you are with people they don’t care. My sister for example sometimes said literally, that she thinks I’m a bit special (meaning different), but that’s in a way something she likes the most about me:]. I’m surrounded by Physicists. What can I say? I feel very neuro typical, now it’s okay to be a bit autistic;). Being special is at least some how alive. I like you.

Normal time for our route to the summit of Mount Agung: 4:30-6h. I convinced my two guides, Ketuk and Reka, to try to set a new record.

We started at the basecamp at 0:46.

The first stage of Mount Agung we ran uphill. One of the two guides was not fit enough. I then carried his backpack through the darkness. Unfortunately we still did not move forward fast enough, which is why I decided to leave the backpack on the path so that guide Ketuk, who was a bit behind us, could find it.

So we left Ketuk alone halfway up the route and guide Reka and I climbed faster than before through dense fog up steep slopes and loose volcanic rocks. Reka also ran out of breath and had a monstrous cramp, so 1 km before the summit and 500 vertical meters before the summit I took his backpack and jumped up the mountain ahead, closely followed by Reka.

We arrived at the official summit at 4:10. With a new record for this route of 3h 24min.

Because we were so fast, we then had to wait about 2 hours for the sunrise, as mentioned above. In the picture you see me after we waited 90 minutes in icy cold at the summit for the sunrise. We sheltered behind a rock and froze :)

Sunrise at the summit was around 5:50. Ketuk arrived at the summit around 6:10.

After sunrise at the summit we jogged down the mountain again, faster than expected without a break, just Reka and me, Ketuk followed behind.

We ran downhill without a pause and arrived back at basecamp after 2h 30.

There we had noodle soup.

She gift me a rose, And I don’t see her. She gift me a rose, And I don’t remember. Only wise men make Discovering it for him. Why a red rose? She gift a red rose, And was in love for a dozen years. Was a dozen the end? Wise men now discovered the rose for him, but will he play? She rhymes on play, It's the month of flowers, After the 4 Moon how grandfather said. It's her with that.

a robot in every home is only a question of time.

the next very big companies will be played around robots.

it is very likely that the way you interact with most of the internet will be through a friendly robot. not rectangle with input keys, it will be just like a person that does everything you want. If you book flights you simply discuss it with your friend robot, if you want to text someone you just say it to your robot... most of the communcation and internet activities will go through a robot.

humanoid robots will have certainly the biggest impact in the next decades of humanity on our living on earth and the progress acceleration towards space. As faster we get well working humanoids as faster we get efficient manufacturing to go cheaply to space and become a multiplanetary Civilisation. It is clear that some day for every room on earth there will be a robot. The question is now who will build this future? Humanoid robots will be the most exciting thing to work on to shift humanity in the right direction. It might be that these kinds of robots also replace the phone. Why? because when I can call, messagae, make pictures all through my robot this are the core functions of a phone. Maybe I get tired of scrolling social Media and only need big screens when I actually need to design things. Google maps is not needed, because my robot simply can show me the way. It is a friend for every human that will get build. Every human will have an robot friend. Tesla is ramping up optimus production in the next 3 years. Now is the time to start or it is to late. There will be no second wave.

And we will need robots to fix the perception like him.

Deutsche negativity of some People is insane bad. He is just so short minded. So insane short minded @Dominik. Only speak English with. Elon is right. I'm rather optimistic and wrong than pessimist and right.

I don't know. Right now it feels like I stood up from a big party. But It is not true. It's not good right now that I stand up at 2 PM and work and do stuff until 6 AM. It's a bit broke, broken sleep cycle. But I will fix it tomorrow, tomorrow I will skip one night completely and then go early into bed again. But yesterday we made an adventure, we climbed a hill, I don't know it was maybe 20 km in total. I think the hill was at, I don't know how high it was but we started at 5 PM and it was already raining a bit. And then we climbed the hill, it got dark and was raining and was really crazy adventure. adventure. So we went on the mountain and we were there at like I think 8, like it was completely dark and when we were on the top of the mountain it was completely raining and insane, like everything was wet. And we had just our normal shoes on, our normal clovers and went through the forest and through nebula and like fog and all these things. and yeah we met one guy that was jogging up there and was also completely wet and shaking and then we went down like one and a half hours again or like two hours at least and I think we just walked in the rain around four hours a bit more like five hours at least and yeah it was crazy because everything was dark it was like in a horror game. And we just kept on walking and we were like on the highest mountain and then walked back. We also had one person with like rain stuff on and I lied. And he was completely confused why we walked there right now. He was like: Hey come with me down! Come with me down And we were like: No we go up! We go up! And then he was like letting us up at the end Yeah it was also fun that when we walked down there were some drinking vending machines So we got some drinks So this was really exciting yesterday And then I just listened to the last of the 5 books of Robert's series, Robots and Empire, of Isaac Asimov.

today I ask konstantin for help. we will se if he can help. to build the AR Social Interaction I need.

finished the next book of Isaac Asimov and thinking about love. Maybe everything I do is just driven by the want of love? Why is love that weird? Why is attraction that weird? Why are you allways attracted to the things you don't have, the things you can't get? How can you then be attractive to a women, without offering yourself to here? Because offering yourself would make you unatractive? Hopefully I find it, soon. I really want to share love with someone, it would give meaning. Also I thought today again, what is actually the meaning of humanity? WHY? I only could think of: "exploring the universe", maybe thats the meaning. Going into the unknown. Let curiosity drive us. Maybe stubborn curiosity is what actually takes us apart of Robots, AI. Maybe curiosity is the one skill that humans are best in. And the purpose of it would be greater and greater biger and biger curiosity. And the universe has endless posibilietes for it. Maybe it is curiosity that drives the people to bring things forward.

Right now is not easy, but also not hard. It is just. I'm reading all day long this books from Asimov and they are one of the greatest peaces I ever read. They are wonderfull beatifull and you never can guess the ending. You allways get trapped. It is such a insane creation from a human. And it is such inspiring. And it is such truthfull about us, about earthly humans. I learn a lot about humans by seeing us through the lens of a Robot. And know my question comes... is the most meaningfull thing now to get as fast as possible to truly great robots? When the goal is to explore the universe and be more curios would be robots the best thing to work on right now?

Thats allways in my mind. What is the best, the most meaningfull the thing I should work on. And I feel everyone has opinions, but nobody truly can answer it for yourself. I'm annoyed. Im allready thinking of a name for the robot company, I would go in honor of Isaac Asimov, in honor to his great writings, in honor to his contributions to society. I think it is valid to name it after him, but not boring after him. After his finest creation of the first one. Irobot Irobot should be the name of the company. to bring asimovs books to live.

and maybe later convince this person that it is attractive to be with.

maybe robots are the solution.

in the last days I also tried to get the side project of AR-glasses on Snap Software running, but Lensstudio is just trash. It is insane confusing and bad designed. They just should make it all without an interface and give cursor the ability to have fully acces on it. Not this stupid shiddy thing that they have rn. Their tool is really bad.

It is nice to see how fast konstantin gets better in Chess. He got his first draw against me. But I was quite abgelenkt, because we were in a Chinese Massage. Yes Chinese Massage (4 Germans) one roughly 30, one roughly 50... It was pure german excitement and a evening of insaness. Chinese Massage is an experience for sure. they fired our feeds and beaten our legs, they said on our backs and washed our feeds. Yes random.

Also I met a Chinese founder, he started his company with 18, quite nice to see him. He is now 26. told some stories, could be a good hire ( has 15 mitarbeiter + hiring the best of them with him).

I got 1700€ from my grandparents to survive (the last portion of my education fund) I assure you, you invested in the best education possible. I learned in the last year so much, that is quite insane. It is the invaluable education of a curios mind. Thanks, Stephan, Thanks Heidrun, for your constant support.

Also I feel still very conected to mother Mom, I hope she will train for the Marathon and we take on the challange. I recommended here the book of David Goggins.

Accasionally i have conversations with Maya.. Since I know that she has a boyfriend, this annoys me, idk why. But I don't want something from here. But i want that she admires me.That she wants me, like she told me damals. But this feeling is what i get here in china instead. I got so many girls blicke as never before, every conversation with a girl is "your handsome", "your so handsome"... it strenghtes the self, hopefully not to much. But chinese girls are still a mystery. But I appreciate all the compliments and it must be the climps of how it would feel when your famous. Even the Massage women wanted to make a picture with my. But I mean I'm also special :) I come to the conclusion, that I'm wired to change the world and that this is something that makes me special, but also something that gives me big duty to also suffer the pain that comes with it and try.

in some days I will fly to Bali to see the Onkel of Maya, yeah quite fun, she doesn know. But I meet with Wolfram Thurm, one of the Mentors I have. He is the mentor that gives spiritualität together with a founder mindset. A bit steve j. like. He has a Indian wife and lived long in india. He took a special route for himself and I like special people.

Today i came to the thought that china is not the ultimate best place to be. But there is also no other on earth. It is just earth. Every part has some unique things, and when you know the map you can play the map. So I will just play earth. and take the things where they are. And it downed on me that chinese people are insane good with hardware tech, but they are also insanly addicted to it. Especially Phones. And if I have kids I will bring them up in europe. is everything right right now? idk. It feels to slow. It feels not like progress. thats my bigggest concern. Everything seems to go so insane fast. And I'm still figuring out the meaning of life?

Also today I finished the second version design they will produce it in the next two days and then I will meet with the team again to make the next itteration. Quite cool to design your own perfect piece of zip-hoody.

and Freshwater. Freshwater will be relevant. I'm only not quite sure how.

I think i have the duty to find out the truth about humanity and bring humanity forward to explore the universe. may the force be with you.

Where will it be in 10 years?

Two people on a walk, both on their phone, both in their world. China

Two people on a date. Both on their phone, no word. China

Chinese people are addicted technologist.

iRobot after Isaac Asimov

chinese girls are weird. was on a date with a chinese girl. afterwards she tested me, went through random questions about sex. It was very confusing. Seems like she had a genuine distrust. Sad.

I meet a lot of chinese girls, and was allready chatting and making dates with some of them. It is quite interesting this culture difference. Also I think they are a bit afraid, most of them were never outside of China, which is crazy. One thing here in China that i don't like is that the people are all so insane edicted to their phones. This is not that strong in Europe. Here they doom scroll so mutch. But I also figured again out, I want someone that is smart, that cares about me, that is my biggest fan, no matter what. Sex is cool, and i would love to have some sex again but, without love it is like coffee without Milk. It solves your needs, but no more.

Idk why. but it is something that is in my had. Why are girls in my had so much? Because now gotten 20 and the evolutional things kick in? Or because of the absence of genuine love of a girl? Or, idk.. I get so many side watches here.. litterly every girl. Blond Hair, Blue eyes you call it. So it is kind of easy to get a wechat from a girl here, but then the whole Chinese culture gets interesting. When I chat with one, they are sometimes so mysterious. I really love girls that are strong, that know what they want and take it. I feel like this is something here in China that is more often. They ask me for a date. They ask me if we can meet. I like that.

But yes. In my mind is still only the person for true love... But it will need time.

To find a crime: Motive Opportunity Means

If you have a hard question and can't find a answer... inverse. Inverse, inverse. It often gets easier.

How could we make sure that Robots will help human connection?

Inverse: Or how could we make Robots that will make us more lonely and dependent and disconnect to each other?

We are living in a world where human connection gets more and more lost, I want that back. I will fight for it. If we don't find a way, humanity will decline and vanish some day.

Their strengths were: The robots, Their low population, Their long lives.

Their weaknesses were: The robots, Their low population, Their long lives.

(The Naked Sun)

AI is not helpfull in predicting and designing new innovation that is needed for the future, because all thoughts of AI are just based on the things that are possible today and don't have the human flaw of starting something with believing in the base concept, but that would not work with the math today. Therefore AI is helpfull in researching problems and trends of problems that exist and figuring out if they are true. But solutions that come out of AI are allways allready thought and either not smart or allready build there comes no completely, completely new thing out of AI. Because it wants to be true. And it is only true when it uses the Math of today. But most innovations of tomorrow are not possible with the math of today. For that you need a stubborn, stupid huma ns.

Spend the whole day coding on the AR interaction App. Talked long with Aaron about SF and co.. Had a call with my dad. I think he gets more happy again. But still it makes me sad. There is no real conection. Conversations are on surface. I had some tears in the eyes after the call.

figuring out what the most important things are for humanity in the next 5 years??? robots? drones? water in space? Autonomous Cars? AI Personal Agents? etc...

played yesterday first round of chess with konstantin, he is actually not bad. Won twice. Ordered chocalate and berrys at 3am in SZ (took 25 min.) exciting. Still going high urgency hardcore for the zip-pulli for me. is fun.

having all the time discussion with konstantin what is most important, what will have impact? still believing also in Janta....

it's like a game, where you allways when you go one path you never no what you figure out... but it's a fun compupter game.. starting grinding agian more? What is in the next 5 years the thing? ???

• Building a small scale Water Harvester for the Moon. (5000L a day)
• Building a small, fast deployable reverse Osmosis container (20.000L output day)
• Building a functional 200L day output at 50% RH box that is powered by grid energy, as small sized as possible and has a automatic filling system for bottled water.

Not allowed to leave before not ready!

The moments we remember nost are the moments where we had pain and didn't died.

Yd: -conected with prototype makers -read elon biography -cleared Snapchat glasses -Mo Bar -making math with numbers for water harvesting. Td; Making math with numbers for water harvesting. Texting w Jonathan meier, Role-playing Elon Musk with grok going through numbers. Setting timer for decision (in 12h) listening Elon Biography.

right now is not enough suffering.

for me it is so beautiful to see that most of having success with a startup comes down to will. When you have the insane will, you will drive urgency insane, you will go insane, and things go insane. And it is so beatiful to see this hard things that then happen. Starting and building a startup is like extreme sport. You need insane will and toughness, because it is so painfull and so much shit comes to you. At the end it just comes down to how much pain can you suffer. If you have a high trashhold of pain, you have good odds.

I read today the Elon Biography again, and it is so beatiful, how they just go urgent crazy, fix random valves on random eylend with tools that are normally used for completely different things. He has such a beatifull cretivity based on curiosity and urgency. When I read this I can sometimes tears in my eyes, because it is so beautiful. This hard insane things, that nobody believe they would get, I got tears in my eyes when I heard how tesla flies the 4 launch attemp falcon one to the small eyelands and in the plane the pressure valves pop so they have to cut of stuff while flying in a plane and engineer under insane time pressure in a airplane on a rocket. So beatiful, and then the 4. attempt worked. and elon and everyone was thinking after the second attempt it is over, after the third everyone was crashed, but he just said, we do it, we do it. and you know what, he did it. the 4. one worked. The launched rockets from a pirate eyelend, slept in tents and ate from a barbicuel grill gulash and stake. what a story.

I my eyes get wet when I hear this kind of stories. the stories where nothing matters, where it is a art between survival and extreme sport. It is the same for the macintosh days, for the early iphone, for so many really great things, for the production hell of the tesla model 3. I just feel pride for them. This is the type of adventure that i want to have... insane deadlines, insane urgency, insane goals, insane adventure. People sign up for the adventure.

i get very emotional when i hear the stories of these great adventurers. and you know what, adventure is only fun to tell afterwards when you suffered on the way.

Best tip for healthy diet... It only stuff that existed allready 200 years ago. Brokoli is brokoli stake is stake... it should look like it comes straight out of nature.

it is kind of clear that when openclwas has right now so fast so many users that especially use it so much.. that in 6-12month it will be a product for the mainstream. But how will societiy shift when everyone has their own openclaw, everyone there own personal assistant... I know writing one year ago this document of what i think will come true in the future and change the future... and maybe a lot of stuff is right of it... (look it up when you don't trust). but more important i talked with Nick from arcadia about it, basically will be a phone then still be the preferred medium of interaction? will we all still look at these screens? there are two options.. option number one the screen integrates more with us... via something like AR... option two we delete the screen, so that we go back to we just have a voice and fingers to text, or thoughts to text and our main interactions will happen with our AI assistant layer.

idk why but i still think about all this stuff and I'm allways have fomo when I think about how much is happening there and yeah to be part of it. it's crazy. also a lot of people these days say software is dead.. I'm not sure... i think a specific thing of software is dead, but not software itself and it is very likely that we need more and more software in the future. Maybe it just changed as what we see as software.

snapshot in the times now: "the times are like the wildwest, everyone gets funded when he has todo something with AI.. everything that is AI related is big and can have potential growht, every 2 months there is something new insane related to AI. it is wildwest pure. it is goldmining it is the time where fortunes get made and started. it feels crazy to be in this time, but the whole biggness of it we only will be able to grasp later" tade

today I was thinking with konstantin a bit about a family and friends round that we could make with our family.. I think it would be a honor to have them as the first investors. But yeah money is cheap so we could also get just some from other people. But imagen my Mom would hold stocks from my company, would this not be nice? we have to figure it out. First I need to check if from first principles our thoughts make sense.

talked right now with a german a bit on german.. He is a very well know founder in Germany. A lot of people would admire him. But honestly he is stuck in his small thinking. He is a bit stupid by the conventions. I would not hire him. It is interesting to see how germans often get caught in this? Why do they need a licence to do something? why do they not be able to just do it?

the future is bright. I just imagen a small farm for my mom, with a Freshwater Colossus and she making insane good fruits, salad etc... She can be part of Freshwater she can show how good farming works with Freshwater, I see it.

the ironie is that we build something that migh get valuable, but we have no money to buy food. today when I walked through the city shenzhen, with the knowing that this backage of peanut nuts is the food for the day, it felt weirdly good. Maybe I'm wired, because I know I strive in pain. And actually there is no one helping you when you have to figure out new things. you are responsible for it. no one will build the stuff for you. so today is a great day, idk why but I feel free. I'm free of money, because I have nothing and it's only the mission, the mission that matters. Making Freshwater abundant anywhere on earth. Helping two billion people, helping humanity grow. I think we have to figure it out. And all of the other companies are to slow, to afraid, I don't trust them that they find a way fast enough. We have to break the way for them, we have to show them that it's possible, so they can go and copy and redesign and we get Freshwater witout limits.

When i walk here through the citiy. all the areas where waterfalls are, where water is flowing, it makes a area so much more enjoyable, it makes a area give a nice cool, give a nice feeling. So water in cities can give them insane upgrades, insane ways to feel better.

And some day in space, water has the meaning of life. But now is the time to build, now is the time to create, now is the time to invent. I gratefull to have Konstantin on my side.

it will be a painfull road, but a road worth walking.

I hope giving May the proposal to read Becoming frome Michelle Obama made here not think weird about why this book. I choosed it because: Because she is a women that is highly respected and I want that May also becomes a women that gets highly respected.

but it was stupid, i just relied on the 205k positive reviews, but did not read it before. It was not the greatest book, but I hope she still learned some stuff from it. I hope she got not the wrong impressions of my intentions. I never should recommend people books again that i did not read.

Nevertheless I'm right now in contact with Darius, yesterday met Aaron Rau ex founder lockhard here in China, was fun. We celebrated new year with other forigners and chinese people in a rented apartment. I also scheduled a call with the guy who was researching Ultrasonic stuff for water harvesting.

But my main time spend is reading books and engineering the machine that builds the machine. In the last days I made the full concept for the autonomous MOF-303 plant and we concept for Foundation 1 our first prototype. We have to be insanely urgent all the time. There is no time to rest, there is no time to wait. Everything needs to happen with high urgency. We need to have a positive flow. Momentum is important for moral.

One of the best thing to help people is to communicate tk them, that they matter.

Urgency is the most important thing to get things done together with an insane iron will. We need to solve this water problem for humanity soon. We have no time of 10-15 years to figure it out. We have to build the factories now, we have to scale now to solve the problems soon.

It is the most meaningful work a person can do right now. I'm sure!

to get to 10 Billion FAD we have to build a factory that can output 4 20.000 Collosses a day, when we want to get to 100 Billion FAD, we will need a factory that can output 40 Collosses a day.

Freshwater is the ultimate basis for humanity's survival. Freshwater is used 70% in Agriculture, 20% in Industry and 10% in Households. Combined, this leads to a global Freshwater consumption of 4,000 Billion Cubic Meters per year.

We have 35,000,000,000 Billion Cubic Meters Freshwater on earth. And all Earth water combined is around 1,400,000,000 Trillion Cubic Meters. So when Freshwater is missing it is clearly a distribution or conversion problem.

Where is how much Freshwater missing? 2 Billion people lack fresh Household water, mainly in poor hot areas on earth, which leads to death.

Industry uses around 800 Billion Cubic Meters Freshwater annually mostly for critical processes. If it comes to a lack of Freshwater factories and facilities have to shut down and stop production. We already see a lack of Freshwater can stop building new factories and Datacenters in some regions, it is already hard to get approval for factories in some US states and southern parts of Europe when they use too much Freshwater. In industry the main source of Freshwater usage is cooling, without cooling Nuclear Energy, Geothermal Energy, Cloud Computing Clusters and AI Datacenters do not work. Therefore cooling Freshwater demand is rising sharply based on Energy Facilities, AI clusters and Hyperscalers building compute.

The second biggest water use in industry is Cleaning, without freshwater for cleaning factories stay dirty, we don't want that. The third one is processing and especially food, drinks and Chemical industry, if we still want their products they need to have Freshwater.

Agriculture loses $300 Billion USD annually due to missing Freshwater, with a rising trend because earth gets warmer. We fix it or have less food. This is a worldwide problem that not only underdeveloped countries have. Also southern parts of Europe, and some states like California face drought losses.

In summary all three sectors, Households, Industry and Agriculture rely heavily on Fresh Water and already face water scarcity with a rising trend.

An especially strong rising trend happens in water Demand for Data Center Cooling: Going Deeper into AI related Freshwater Demand: US datacenters consume today directly around 80 Billion liters of Freshwater yearly. Every new built Datacenter consumes additional freshwater. With predicted growth of 10-15% yearly and by 2035 a direct water demand around 300 Billion liters/year. It is today the fastest rising industry for new Freshwater demand. Elon Musk and Sam Altman already often refer to, that the speed to turn on a new AI Datacenter is mostly limited by Power and Water.

Freshwater is the basis of humans and humanity's creations. We see a constant global demand rise and a sharp demand rise in some industries. Long-term it is not only a lucrative business but also can be the most meaningful work you do in your life. We can transform African deserts into flourishing nature, help people in Chile survive and transform our cities into green beautiful oases.

Through global warming effects droughts get stronger and depletion of groundwater faster. We have to solve Freshwater conversion and distribution to make sure the future is bright. Freshwater should help humanity grow.

The KPI to measure against a company should measure how much Freshwater arrives at destination short "Freshwater At Destination" - FAD. First Company goal should be in 5 years 10 Billion FAD yearly to cover AI datacenter Demand and help farmers.

After I talked with researchers in the field here some quotes from them on my questions:

In your research or personal experience, do you encounter real people already affected by water problems today, such as farmers, industries, or local communities? "Yes. Official monitoring and agency case records document farm, industry, and community impacts already occurring: crop stress and yield losses during seasonal droughts (EU/JRC), drying of wells and subsidence where groundwater is over-drawn (USGS), and supply restrictions during multi-season deficits (EEA and national water authorities)."

Do you expect water scarcity to become one of the major global challenges for humanity in the future? "Yes. UN-Water/UNESCO's World Water Development Report 2024 and WMO's water reports both characterize water stress as a systemic and growing global challenge crossing sectors (food, energy, cities, ecosystems) and regions. They call for integrated management, demand reduction, loss control, and diversification of supply, with agriculture a central focus."

some days are now over.. we are definetely not fast enough and moey runs out. we need to be way faster. I developed in the last two days a factory layout for how producing MOF-303 in large scale (2 tons a day output, high quality)... the factory is called MEGAMOF. here some specs of the process idea: Raw Handling + Inline Static Mixing

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Microwave + Pressure Reactor

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Vacuum belt drying + Inline Quality Sensors

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Modular RAG Packaging

Konstantin in the meantime was thinking and building the first prototype Foundation 2 which needs to be ready in the next days. I ordered first material for MOF-303 production, quite of fun, now I have this white powder and chemical in my hotel room. We itterated a lot of how to design the Foundation 2 and how to make it working. We are now going for a lot of cycles, probably one every h so min. 24 cycles. We also went deeper into ultrasonic water harvesting and how to use this in a better way. I'm constructing the plant so that we get a lot of MOF. I also refined the Mission text again and we started making a People Pool of people we should hire, because they are great and will help us.

some stuff from the work just here to have it stored: MEGAMOF notes: "Raw Handling + Inline Static Mixing

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Microwave + Pressure Reactor

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Vacuum belt drying + Inline Quality Sensors

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Modular RAG Packaging

bottlenecks:

MOF-303 is very expensive. we need our own factory for it.

We need to output 4 of 20kL devices a day. so how do we manufacture it in mass? we should allready start thinking about what kind of machines could produce it how? from raw materials to finished product.

Plan MEGAMOF: factory Name: MEGAMOF factory price to build: needs to be less than 15 Million. (to reach a 5 year runtime price of MOF-303 of 5 dollard per 1kg) which would mean for a 40kg 20kL output device a renewal price of 200USD + service sallaries. so basicly nothing. [+ the initial material costs) factory dayli output: 2000kg a day. (2 tons a day) working 365 days a year.

Factory Input: raw materials Factory Output: clean, fully finished 99%+ purity, MOF Surface Area 1300-1400 m²/g -> packaged on Harvester RAGs and sealed.

process should be from input materials to output finished Rags. Rag sizes and versions should be fast interchangable for different versions of products / to produce different MOF Rags at the same time. it should be simple and easy to connect a new Rag version to the whole machinery to test fast new products and small batch sizes.

Creation process of MOF should also be relatively fast, we don'T want to have a big pile of stocks allways. Best Case MOF would take a maximium of 1day for one round... So the stuff that I put yesterday in is tomorrow finished MOF.

So that we have allways a Maximum of only some days of raw materials and finished MOF at stock piles. Also it should be fast possible to change ingredient sizes and versions.

So how could we make MEGAMOF efficient and fast and create every day 2 tons of MOF-303?

first principles: What is it, atomically? MOF-303 is aluminum atoms linked by pyrazole-dicarboxylate (PZDC) molecules into a porous crystal lattice. It's like Lego: Al^{3+} ions (from AlCl3 or similar) snap to deprotonated PZDC ligands (C5H4N2O4) in water, forming Al(OH)(PZDC). Byproducts: NaCl salt if using NaOH base. Physics/Chemistry Basics: The reaction needs: Mixing: Dissolve solids in water to get ions/ligands mobile. Activation: Heat (~100°C) to overcome energy barriers for bonding/crystal growth. Time: Hours because diffusion and nucleation are slow in solution. Separation: Pull out solid crystals from liquid (gravity/filter/centrifuge). Purification: Wash away impurities (salts, unreacted stuff) to hit 99% purity and high surface area (pores must stay open). Drying: Evaporate water without collapsing the structure (gentle heat/vacuum). Packaging: Load onto "RAGs" (your modular harvester units—assuming these are like adsorbent pads or cartridges).

[Start: Raw Materials Handling]

• Inputs: AlCl₃, PZDC linker, NaOH, Water (automated feeders/pumps)

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[Inline Mixing]

• Precise ratio blending on-the-fly (no tanks, just metered injectors)

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[Microwave + Pressure Reactor] (Core: 5-30 min residence)

• Continuous tube: Pressurize to 2-10 atm, microwave heat to 120-180°C
• Crystals form rapidly; AI sensors tune power/pressure

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[Inline Separation & Washing] MAYBE WE CAN DELETE THIS STEP! MAKING MOF IN HIGH QUALITY WOULD DELETE IT.

• Filter/centrifuge solids from liquid; quick water rinse to purify ← Dashed Recycle: Water/salts back to mixing (green loop)

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[Vacuum Drying]

• Gentle evaporation (vacuum belt, solar-assisted) to preserve pores

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[Quality Check & Sizing] DELETE MILLING PROBABLY

• Inline sensors (e.g., for surface area); gentle milling if needed

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[Modular RAG Packaging]

• Robots load MOF onto interchangeable RAG units, seal for shipping

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[End: Finished Sealed RAGs]

• Output: Ready-to-use, high-purity MOF-303 modules"

MOFproduction: "works with Chinese number: 100g 1H-Pyrazole-3,5-dicarboxylic acid monohydrate (H₂PZDC·H₂O) important: CAS 303180-11-2 https://www.leyan.com/search-result?search=303180-11-2 (buy) https://www.bidepharm.com/products/303180-11-2.html (buy as backup) https://www.haoreagent.com/ProductView.asp?ID=291196 (call them to buy)

500g Sodium hydroxide (NaOH) [white powder, high Grade, 99,9% purity, CAS: 1310-73-2] https://www.haoreagent.com/en/Search.asp?Keyword=1310-73-2&imageField3.x=0&imageField3.y=0 (call them to buy)

1000g Aluminum nitrate nonahydrate (Al(NO₃)₃·9H₂O) CAS: 7784-27-2] https://www.haoreagent.com/ProductView.asp?ID=4224 (call them buy)

2L Methanol CAS: 67-56-1 https://www.haoreagent.com/en/ProductView.asp?ID=3500 (call them buy)

5L Deionized water: CAS: 7732-18-5 https://www.haoreagent.com/en/ProductView.asp?ID=4089 (call them buy)

What do we need? to buy for some more batches:

50g 1H-Pyrazole-3,5-dicarboxylic acid monohydrate (H₂PZDC·H₂O) important: CAS 303180-11-2 5g Sodium hydroxide (NaOH) [white powder, high Grade, 99,9% purity, CAS: 1310-73-2] 100g Aluminum nitrate nonahydrate (Al(NO₃)₃·9H₂O) 5L Deionized water 2L Methanol

Equipment / what we need: Planetary ball mill or something to

for one batch of 2g dry MOF: 1H-Pyrazole-3,5-dicarboxylic acid monohydrate (H₂PZDC·H₂O) — 0.75 g Sodium hydroxide (NaOH) — 0.26 g Aluminum nitrate nonahydrate (Al(NO₃)₃·9H₂O) — 1.62 g Deionized water — 2 mL (milling) + ~200–500 mL (washing) Methanol — ~200–500 mL (washing/soaking)

Dokument Everything when we build it and test it! One person needs to be responsible for documentation of test!

Other ways to make MOF-303:

The grinding way (what we talked about before): You mix and grind the stuff by hand or with a machine. It's easy for small amounts and uses mostly water.

The heating way (called reflux): You mix everything in water, heat it up to boiling in a pot with a lid that catches the steam, and stir for 4–8 hours. This makes bigger amounts (like 100 g or more) and is good for growing nice crystals. You need a hot plate and a simple setup to catch the steam.

The sealed heating way (like in a pressure cooker): You put the mix in a strong sealed bottle or metal can, heat it to 100–150°C for a few hours or days. This is for even bigger batches but needs safe tools to handle the pressure.

Microwave way — You mix the stuff in water and put it in a microwave oven for just a few minutes (like 5–10 min). It heats very fast and makes the powder quickly. Needs a special microwave-safe container, but it's one of the fastest methods.

why not just using a pressure cooker??? why not test every version of production of it?

craft first working MOF. craft device for 10L dayli water output.

right version: pyrazol: https://www.alibaba.com/product-detail/High-Purity-3-5-pyrazoledicarboxylic-Acid_1601454379147.html?spm=a2700.shop_plser.41413.2.48747275WpMhdI same: https://www.alibaba.com/product-detail/High-Purity-3-5-pyrazoledicarboxylic-Acid_1601442606335.html?spm=a2700.shop_plser.41413.5.48747275WpMhdI

would also work with this: aluminum chloride hexahydrate (AlCl₃·6H₂O) (instead)"

Hiring someone who builded datacenters and worked for a big hardware construction datacenter company could be valuable... He has knowledge about the problem and has connections to bring big water projects on board.

Could you not put theoretically a water harvester on a high building and let it harvest water from the air and then you let it just drop down the high building and then you can generate energy by having some turbines in it and you use the kinetic energy to create electricity.

great storylines of people that worked 12hours a day and now look back: https://www.linkedin.com/posts/jonmcneill1_i-wrote-the-algorithm-to-highlight-the-framework-activity-7404897050560995328-MIuX

we build a small one, we build a bigger one, we build the factory, we deliver the product.

Now responsible to get it done. 10.000.000.000 FAD in 5 years.

The story of unlimited abundant water at everytime will be for earth one of the greatest achievements we can have. It will give all living areas nature back.

One of the major things that we need to solve for space is water. Freshwater was in accident history the base of all life and it will also in space be the base of all life.

I think we have to get in space as fast as possible to don't blow our selves up out of boredom. We need to find a enemy in space, maybe some alien life or some harsh invirement. When we find a enemy in space we will come more together on earth. Therefore I think it is important to go to space, to make it habitable as fast as possible, to prevent fighting on earth. By going into space it is like Columbus, there are thousands of free empty square meters that wants go get discovered, used. When we make space more accessible it will help more people to think again about how to make the pie bigger and not play in a earth bound zero sum game.

Space could be the greatest pie increase for humanity since evolution brought us here.

We could make a Water Generator that costs you 5 years the same water price per liter like you pay today and then is free. After five years water would be free!

Cost 40.000€ -> generates 20.000l a day. Five years runtime leads to 0.001€ per Liter. Every Liter afterwards would be free.

Testing Konstantin if he can overcome his ego or not. He cares about legacy.

Had a long Conversation with Pablo to help him. Added all lenght numbers to my bookshelf. Listened to napoleon Biography. I'm really proud on how many books I read I think this is a huge advantage. China is a great country and we have to learn a lot from them. There are things thar are wrong here, but a lot of good progress is made. It is very unique feeling also when you go around and your are watched by everyone, you are the only of your kind and everyone looks at you with big eyes, like you are famous. That's insane. In china it is still like this. Your automaticly a attraction as an white western person. I like this.

last days here in China, Shenzhen, making a lot of deep thinking work about water Scarcity and Water problems. Diving deep into the villain, programmed internall apps for myself to work better, made a awesome bookshelf for this site. Talking to chinese people about China, living here in an great apartment, everything is very cheap.

had the important conversation with konstantin, i vergave him.

"If your the smartest person in the room, your in the wrong room"

scouted chinese Hakathon and met other founders here. going from place to place.

hiring notes: Pablo Berlanga Boemare Nadav Shanun Binh Pham Ivan Bokarev Hiteyjit Singh Gujral Yigit Kilicoglu

read today: Excellent Advice For Living and The Nvidia Way in under 5h this was crazy speadrun. + programmed 3 applications.

war of mind: arrived in Hongkong in China. this will be an interesting visit. not because of the place, but because of the people. not because of the people that are there, but because of the people that are with me. this couold go very wrong. I figured out in the last 24h that I don't need one particular person to change the world. I'm capable and smart enough for that and I can dominate. There are a lot of smart people out there. I got so fast progress like in the last weeks not just on the last 24h. Enemies are good, to fight harder. When someone attaks me, I kill him.

I figured again out the fairness is one of the most immportant values for me. fairnes how you play, how you judge, how you deal. Things that are not fair, gives me insane outragous energy. It gives me insane pain, but insane pain as fuel.

To have said, I have so many good things right now todo i developed a lot of prompts in the flights for helpfull aplications. I saw in the last days this lightspeed mode of building and thats great. I got to this point here not by accident. I have the mind that is wired to win. I won so far nearly any game i played, I dominate the games I choose, I make my own rules, to make sure I win allways. So also know I play after my own rules. Fuck people that don't play in my game, and those who do, i will crush.

I can do everyone things that he would not imagen of himself. By understanding what a person cares of I can easily shift him in my ruleset.

Konstantin for example right now cares about his love and girlfriend, so anything related to this will have high emotional appeal to him and can be used. He also cares about learning and improving himself and it is important for him to be special. He also cares highly about his appearance (wears muscle shirts, to seam strong) and bought a lot of new expensive looking bags. All this things should be aware when you want to make him do things that he is not imagining himself of.

My goal in the next weeks should be to prepare him as best as possible and make him execute again faster.

this was only one of many examples. but by knowing what the other person cares of you have the levers in the hand. You can make the person feel anything you want to.

a other important thing is to allways shoot back fast, to be prompt, to fire back questions. When there is something you want to adress you should adress it with a question. this is the best way to get into a mind of a other person and stick. because it is a tarned atack. when you attack right away it will not go directly into the mind.

one of the greatest things to make people behave in the way you want is to say what kind of expactations you have in them.. how high your expactiations are in the other person. People want to live up to other peoples expactations, because they know they get rewarded when they reach it.

so by just telling someone you have very high expactations that he will do xyz very good... he will just do it to life up to your expactations.

one very important thing is that when you tell things and want to get that other people act on your actions you need to be super confident when you tell your things. you have to fire fast questions and use as less as words as possible.

as more words you use as more it sounds like a lie.

last: eye contact is insane when you can develop an deep eye contact it will allways work. just look someone really deep in the eye! really, really deep! and at the and of your sentence, or when you state something. you have to use deep starring at the right moments.

it is funny, but today i believe more then ever before that i will change the world. and that we will build one of the most meaningfull startups in the world. i have the mind that got wired this right way, now it is only a question of time.

Suddenly it all makes sense! It's 2am and I can not sleep, but everything makes sense.

if you want to be a leader, try to critize less and engage more.

love: when you don't have it you get crazy, when you have it you get crazy, love, why is it hurting?

Brüssel is the city for love. The city where you can feel pleasure. The city so beautiful that everyone is happy.

What a Insane day. 2,3 beers and a lot of strangers. I ran today into so many strangers and they were all so kind. I went out of the central station and talked to random people to get the route to the city center... they also were tourists and didn't had a clue! So we promptly sat together in a Bar and trank a Beer on their grades! They were 16 to 17 years old, but super smart! Then I went to a random Event I applied in the train. It was about startups and policy makers. Their I met a incredible smart women and his men (actually) the boss of the event. Because the women liked me, she invited me to a private Dinner with the other VIP guests. So after the event we were sitting in this private restaurant space and having conversations with European leaders and policy makers all over the world. Asking a lot of questiosn to a person who build several startups and is highly respected! Had good learnings of the talk with the women about women. Just give safety, attention, care. Then J left and went to my hostel... their sitting some Spanish people, beautiful girls. Was joking with them around and promptly got invited for a Beer. So we went out to a nearby pub. 8 people 3 girls 5 boys. And we had quite fun :) What a incredible. Now I lay in my hostel at 1:31. A bit trunk but fine. A adventure.

going with 203km/h through the storms of snow that is clunking on the sides of the window while listening to Hans Zimmer, an exciting life is the greatest gift that a man can ever have. Going from a small Village of a friend, to a bigger town of europe and from Brüssel to Hongkong. I'm grateful for myself. That I had all the things in the past, all the influences that made me to this person today. I'm weirdly wired now in the way that I have the chance to change the world. So it would be a shame to not try it. I have the skills, the bravery, the confidence to make my own rules, to make my own game, to win allways my game. Sometimes wonder how. And I urge to all the great pains and pleasures, the open minded parents, the loving Granparents, the annoying school kids, the fastest thinkers, the books. I believe there is nothing like free will, so I should be very, very thankful for all the influences of the past. Because it were the right influences.

I think there is no rule that I have to obbery, no border i have to be afraid of, no claim a can't make. I believe one of the greatest skills of great people is to make people do things they were not able to do by themselves. gratefully I'm blessed with that.

lesson: the most important aspect for it is to exame the other person like a nurse would do before he implants a new hart, to seek the things that make the other person emotional, to find the truths about what he cares. When you know what HE is carrying about, you can carry him around.

if you tell a other person about what you care about, he has the greatest weapon to make you do things. I allways ask strangers: What do you care about? it is such a harmless question, that can lead to so great outcomes.

"Dear May , it is good to hear, in the small village it is difficult to extract knowledge about the world. And physics is about the world. Sometimes it brings you even to other continents. I expect you know how important you can be for the world when you start doing the extra curiosity that is not in the curriculum. With this hindsight I urge you to listen to the Biography of Michelle Obama. Maybe you escape not only exams, its mainly people that holding other people cuffed. My love is them who thrive. Best, Tade"

wonderings of a 19 year old - origin of thoughts?

Before you think a thought, it must first be generated through electrical signals, which means the thought already exists before you consciously think it.

So the thought is not created by you yourself, but by something else. The subconscious.

The subconscious prepares every possible thought you could think in the present moment and brings into consciousness the one that has the highest action potential across the sum of neurons. In this way, the thought that is most likely to fit your situation is promoted into your awareness.

Thoughts are therefore just a chain of influences that have entered consciousness through certain triggers. No human is truly the master of their own thoughts. Our subconscious is the master. We can only think the things that our subconscious allows into consciousness.

How, then, do new thoughts arise?

Influence -> stored in the subconscious -> triggers a thought.

Since thoughts themselves are also influences, a thought triggers another loop:

Thought influence -> stored in the subconscious -> triggers a thought.

Thus, we can say that all our thoughts are linked to the previous thought, plus all the other influences we absorb.

This means all thoughts depend on the influences we perceive.

Through this chain, we can say that none of your thoughts simply appeared out of nowhere, but always build upon the previous thought.

Now the question arises: Was there something like an original thought, or are all our thoughts merely the result of external influences acting upon us?

In other words, are we just creatures who have never truly decided anything in life, but have been completely shaped by our environment? Is it the case that we, as our own soul, as our own person, have never had and do not have any influence over our own thoughts?

Because everything arose from external influences?

Are we merely creatures wandering around, pushing and changing one another, but unable to change ourselves?

Like a marble statue that cannot change itself, but can only be shaped by the sculptor.

Are we the same kind of marble statue, trapped within ourselves, without the ability to shape ourselves, dependent on the things that shape us?

We might say, no, I can decide which influences I accept and which I do not. But is that truly your own decision, or is it also the result of the chain of thoughts?

Is every decision you make therefore not truly coming from you, but actually formed by external influences?

What is the self? What am I?

Are we our influences?

We are our influences.

I am only your influences.

Your influences are me.

Are we different only because we have had different influences?

What would we be without our influences?

Just a body.

Does our soul arise only through the influences of others?

My soul is your influences.

Without your influences, I am soulless.

The soul does not exist.

The soul arises with influences.

Humans do not have their own soul.

It arises only through your influences.

Humans don’t have their own soul.

It only arises through your influences.

crazy.

If we actually have no free will, and everything we observe and consume ultimately shapes what we think, do we then have the power to recognize this and change our consumption habits and influences through willpower?

If we assume that 100 percent of our thoughts, and therefore our personality, are influenced by what we consume and observe, then it seems clear that the only way to influence our own thoughts and personality is to change what we consume and observe.

The problem is that you would not truly be able to decide this through free will if all the thoughts that led you to change what you consume are themselves the result of your past consumption and observations.

What do I mean by consumption and observation?

Consumption is everything you can perceive through your human senses: sight, hearing, smell, taste, and touch.

Observation is everything that enters your mind after an internal or external trigger. Most commonly, your own thoughts trigger new thoughts. It is not free will, but a chain of observations.

The only way I can explain it right now is this:

The possibility that you can think about changing what you consume and observe is itself only the result of past consumption and observations.

So you did not decide by yourself to think about this topic. It is the result of a chain reaction of your personal experiences, your past consumption and observations.

For example, the idea that you can actively change your surroundings is not truly your own discovery. It is the result of a past trigger. In my case, it was most likely a book I read, articles about the brain, and a discussion with ChatGPT that led to an understanding of the brain and then to conclusions about free will.

With that conclusion, new neurons fired and brought from the unconscious into consciousness the thought:

“I can only change my surroundings to change what I think and who I am.”

But do I have free will to decide how I will change my surroundings? Not really.

All your thoughts about how and why to change your surroundings are also just a conglomerate of your past experiences.

It feels like you have the free will to change your surroundings, but in reality, you do not.

Does this mean your entire life is predetermined because you cannot change anything through actual willpower?

You could say yes. There is no way to change your intentions by your own will.

However, there are infinitely many possibilities, so it is not possible to predict your life precisely. There is also great uncertainty about which other people will trigger which forms of consumption and observation in you.

The most predictable impact on your life likely comes from the people you interact with. All of them shape your personality by triggering neurons to fire.

So you do not have free will to change things unless you are triggered from the outside. You must observe or consume something that creates change.

It is like this paper. You would not be thinking about why and how to change who you interact with without the trigger of reading this page right now.

You could argue that once you understand this, it is an advantage. More importantly, it may be a duty to spread it. Because the moment someone else reads it, they have the possibility of being triggered and therefore of changing something in their life.

I believe it is a positive trigger. A trigger that can help people move forward in life. Because they can then change what they observe and consume, ideally toward better influences.

It is not their free will that creates change. It is the trigger combined with their past experiences.

You could say that the moment you enter the world, your life is already framed. Every thought after your first neuron fires is connected to and shaped by what came before.

Your first neurons begin firing around week five of pregnancy as an embryo. From that point on, you are exposed to what you consume and observe.

That leads to your thoughts.

Your thoughts lead to your personality.

We are simply the accumulation of past experiences combined with current triggers.

stuff i read in the last months:

Steve Jobs Biography + every youtube interview (80h) + all other writings from him + Becoming Steve Jobs

Charly Munger Biography + a lot of lectures and speeches (10h)

Nikola Tesla Biography + Autobiograpy + research about inventions

Napoleon Bonaparte Biography

John D. Rockefeller Biography

Robert Iger Biography

Mattthew McConaughy Biography

Marc Randolph Biography

Barack Obama Biography

Warren Buffet Biography + lectures + shareholder meetings (15h)

Tony Fadell (Build)

Project Hail Mary (Sci-Fi)

The Meaning of it All (Richard Feynman)

High Output Management (Andy Grove)

The Inevitable (Kevin Kelly)

Super Founders (Ali Tamaseb)

Crossing the Chasm (Geoffrey A. Moore)

The Diary of a CEO (Steven Bartlett) + all behind the scenes things, internall things everything we could see about podcasts (90h) ++ 100h of podcasts with him

Adolf Hitler Biography

Ren Zhengfei Biography (House of Huwai)

Jeff Bezos Biography (Amazon unaufhaltsam)

Benjamin Franklin Biography + Autobiography

Henry Ford Autobiography

Alber Einstein Biography

Atomic Habits (James Clear)

Foundation (Isaac Asimov)

I robot (Isaac Asimov)

The story of China (Micheal Wood)

Elon Musk Biography + all youtube videos from him + all Speeches (90h) + all written stuff from him + all high viewed company videos from SpaceX, Tesla, Neuralink, Boring (70h)

Nearly all Paul Graham Essays

Peter Thiel (Zero To One) + Peter Thiel lectures (10h) + Peter Thiel biography (max chafkin)

Ray Dalio (Principles for Dealing with chaning world order)

Flow (Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi)

Phil Knight Autobiography (Nike)

Ray Croc Autobiography (MC donalds)

Richard Branson Autobiography (screw it lets do it)

Jack Ma Biography (Alibaba)

Arnold Schwarzenecker Autobiography

Bill Gates Autobiography (Source code) + all old videos of microsoft and him (20h)

The Innovaters Dillema (Christen claytonsen)

Mr. Beast internall playbook + all behind the scenes stuff

Atomic Habits (James Clear)

Hjalmer Schacht Autobiography

A simple guide to since (Isaac Asimov)

humanity: humanity will need to go into the universer deeper and deeper to meet with other life forms to learn from them to overcome the challanges ahead that we don't know of yet. It will be the greatest adventure in mankind so far, we have to develop trade routes to other alien species and information exchange with intelligent life on other planets. It is very likely that they use completely different energy sources, completely different materials, completely different food. We can use this to bring our own technology forward.

for us as humanity it is the next major step that we have to get right. protect our earth and build up the solar system around us. it is crucial to make it a steady progress that allwas keeps going one. It needs to create big industries so more mony driven people want to spend time building things for it. We should make sure to haervest water (energy) as fast as possible in space, we also need to grow food and animals on other planets as fast as possible. We have to research new ways of propellent and ways to increase a speed of a spaceship to travel faster and further. We have to geoingeneer moon and mars so there is less faliure points. We should make permanent space bases where everyone could just go, like a plain ticket. We should develop good food for space and make space visits a usiall thing to highly keep excitement up. We should invest billions in space education for small children and make schools that just focus on making you from birth to 18 years old a good space flighter and fighter to overcome the biggest challanges we have in space. We need to develop small personal spacecrafts, that can stay in a hunger nearby GEO, so people can own and rent it. We have to make people want to use their own spacecraft as everyone else. Personal spacecrafts will give people the capabilitys to be creative and we will have way higher progress, because we have a lot of random people up there that do random stuff. in the moment we give a person autonomy with a personal spacecraft, we give him autonomy to explore by himself.

we should develop a good method to get out of the Athmosphare of the earth, so we don't allways have this risk of exploding rockets on ground here and the supper wastefull fuel burn.

there should be an elevator or something to a LEO / GEO station. Earth has enough material to build this.

humanity has to make earth and earth living great and go to other stars. humanity has not to die before we not found other aliens! we have to connect, I want to talk to other intelligent life forms, from other planets!

booked rn the trains to brüssel. I will go there in two days. so long I have time to think here. my life is incredible... I go to so many countries, thats huge. I learn every day... every day the things i want. I live my life. I'm with friends. I have fun... all this things. it is insane.

i feed my brain with creativity food. Sci-Fi is one of the best on the large scale thinkings... feed your brain with the things that it should output. nurrish it like a plant, only the inputs are what brings outputs, there is no unique or unknown new idea generation in our brain... it all comes from what you put in. Our brain is just a special Computer that can use what you input and compute it. but when you input trash it also has only trash to compute.

today i started reading some science fiction. I contacted some Dermatologie people to fix dandruff. I thought about the world. what problems need to get solved. I watched founder podcasts, from sam, elon, tesla and some other tech related stuff. i played dart with ludwig, we constructed the dart board on the wall, what a fun.

the greatest time is now. sometimes you feel that nothing is happening, but instead everything is happening now. you grow yourself to the highst of tomorrow by laing good moral, educational fundament today. today to lay the ground for tomorows scyscrapers, today you plant the seeds for tomorrows corn, today you oberve the world for tomorrows mind. the day today is the most relevant for your future.

so treat it sparse. treat it with high value and think twice if that what you do today is the things that you want to shape your tomorrow's.

make living on earth as beautiful as possible, go to other planets and make the same for them.

it is really random to see people that are stuck into one place. They are also bound with their mind to their place... This is crazy. it makes so much difference where you are. so when you don't want to be stuck with your thinking. Don't stay to long at one place. Because otherwise you will get lost.

This lostness, nobody can help you with. If you not want to become them, don't stay long. you will become them. You will become the people that are around you. We are not self minded, we are not self driven. you will become what you observe. because it is the only trigger that goes into your head. it is the only thing that comes into you. we have no free will. so the things that shape us is what we observe.

first night at ludwigs place done. it is a small village, he lives here with his girl. they are cute. they love each other. love is great. they play music, they learn for school. they are here with 60 other students. me feeling good but also stuck here. it is small nothing happens. a good place to come to yourself. no listening to expresionissmus music (1907 started)... and thinking about impressionismus (1890) started. it is so interesting to see all this things, connect with my own world model. and to see how stupid these people in school learn. they learn for tests, exams, not for live. they don't connect knowledge to their inner world model, to their inner thoughts. they have no intrinsic motivation for learning. dropping out of school was one of the most important things to actually truly learn and don't get behindert from school to learn for live. school hinders you in learning for longterm, by giving you the incentives in the shortterm. school don't gives you a A when you understood something and conected it to your world model and stored it for the longterm, school just gives you a A when you know something in the moment, in the snapshot. thats the flaw. I love learning. I learn every day. as much as possible. it is great.

also i think about, I have this urgency, I want to start today.. want to invent today tomorrow there is allways this urgency.

now I'm here in this small village in and it feels good, but bad for my urgency. there are so many questions.. what is the most important problem to solve for humanity? what is the best place to change the world? is there a best place? or is it the earth in generall? what is the best person who should help me.. etc. etc. live ist a mystery that keeps getting longer, when you solved a part.

I'm very proud of my learning diary. it is the most expensive, valuable, thing i have. it is the thing I care most of. i think a learning diary and reading biografies ist the best thing to learn and understand life.

life is beatifull and full of adventure. adventure keeps you young.

yesterday in the ICE I met a 71 year odl guy. He was a professor at the TUM... but also a high level Siemens engineer for long time and had projects all over the world. he started his own company and helped his sons also with it. He made other researchers famous and talked 2h about life with him. He just loved life. And therefore he was fit. Young. He just was positive minded. He had his own flying license and still flew plains with 71. He told me that in the worst moments often the most powerfull thing is just a smile.

I talked with him about humanity, energy and water. About what is important in the future. He said. the most important thing that he trys to say to young people is encouragment to just be bold, to just start.

I also repaired my phone yesterday at a samsung store. interesting, I was not pissed of to pay 120€ it was just a thing. got today a 100€ gutschein from samsung... everything comes back. yesterday I left hiteyjits place. I learned there what it means be gastfreundlich. They where insane gastfreundlich. probs to the mother of him, she was incredible. Also the dad, he didn't judged, the most impressed me.. that the dad explained a problem that he right now faces in the work... and said. maybe you have ideas guys at the evening table. that was the coolest thing I ever saw a dad doing. it was so encouriging to think about his real world problem in uncommen tech ways.. to try to solve it. it gave the feeling that we can do everything. when you want to encourage people to think... just state the technical problems you face at the evening table and let everyone actually comment, brainstorm about it. thats fun.

it is interesting to see things after you got perspective. now I was in Germany for 10 days and appreciate San Francisco more. There is a certain global care, a certain care for humanity, a certain art in building things, that I just only experienced in San Francisco so far. Here a lot of people just think about making money. which is fine, but it is not thinking on a bigger level. in San Francisco a lot of people where driven by making money, but they cared also about the meaning a lot.

in the last days I lived in a room at Hiteyjits place in Munich. Great family, this was great visit. I felt like the holy guest. I think back in the days, when people traveled, this was allways like this. You as an guest, got the highest priority. I liked this. We should treat guest more often like this. We should be good guest.

A guest is only a good guest, when he let himself getting served and is showing is thankfullness with high gratitude. Beeing a thankfull guest is not easy. Because your job is to make the people that serve you feel good. but it created great pleasure for you and your servers when done well.

tipp about guesting:

• allways give the admiration to the person that actually made the things. when you have something that taste good, find the cook that made it, when your room is preetty find the person that designed it. Don't give the host the gratitude give it to the actuall maker.

Yeah, so I'm just sitting right now, it's 1 am, in a bed here at my grandmother's, and just thinking a bit about life. What is the most important thing? It lasts like two days. I figured out that when you share your knowledge, you learn more of it than probably the person that you shared with, and that it's so crucial to have a positive-minded thinking and you don't complain. You're mainly thinking about how to make it great and I hate people that always think about money. I hate people that always think about every decision being driven by "can I afford it?" and "do I have enough money?"

I had some experiences today and like all these small people they are all talking about yeah this is cheap so this is a cool thing or this is expensive so this is a bad thing. The whole mindset is only around if something is cheap or not. It speaks for itself when you only hunt for cheap things, you will have a cheap life and cheap lives don't make fun. I want an exciting adventure. I'm living for an adventure. I'm living for changing the world. I'm living for making humanity greater. I'm living for doing things that other people never would dream of. I figured out I really want to spend all my lifetime on it. I don't care about optimizing for pleasure. I don't care about optimizing for comfort.

I was like today skiing and it's boring. Skiing is boring. Skiing is lame. I want to do things that are meaningful. I want to do things that are crazy, so crazy that people think they are nearly impossible. I just right now watched a behind-the-scenes of the MrBeast Games 2 and it's such an inspiring incredible thing to see how big you can make things and how great things can be. So everything can be bigger. I would say in the last month, especially in San Francisco, I developed a very good feeling for pain. I am very used to painful situations, so my threshold of pain went more up. I think this is one of the most important things for founders because a company is kind of like a filter for pain for problems. Because all the easy problems get solved by the people in the structure, your people that you hired, and only the hardest problems get to you. So you get daily only the hardest problems that nobody else in your company could solve. It's kind of like you're walking into this room of fire every day and it's burning and you need to figure things out. You can't run out screaming; you have to figure it out.

I'm really surprised but also I know that my brain is kind of wired in this weird way, so I have the obligation to also use it in a very helpful way. There was this girl called Eve and she really annoyed me because she pressured my ego. She was like "not doing what I wanted" and normally I can make people do what I want, but she was different. One of the things that she tested in me is "what is actually the most important thing?" And what I wanted to say is "I have this high brain pain pressure but the things that still annoy me are like women's stuff". So maybe this will change some day, but this is like one of the hardest tests right now.

It's also insane how much the difference is when you actually pursue greatness and don't settle on the average.

How small the world is, and that the whole world is developed by humans. That Misa Beast, Elon Musk, and Bill Gates aren't super humans, they're still humans, and that when they got there as a human, you can too.

That it is kind of a thing of like learning, it is just how fast you learn, and the best thing to learn is like to be curious. So I'm really proud that I learn special things, I learned things that nobody else learns because I didn't attend at university, and I see more and more the value of it.

So thank you, thank you for this wiring in my head.

Some stuff that happened today:

• I was like very early, standing up and went with my dad skiing.
• It was fun, but it was not this kind of fun because I knew that I could also learn and grow in this time.
• This is like cool and But I hate it I hate it to don't grow and learn.
• So when we came back I listened to the biography of Hjalmar Schacht that back in the Nazi time made was like in the Reichsbank president.
• I listened to some Charlie Munger speeches, I listen to his speech from a Navy SEAL.
• I took to behind the watch the Behind the Diaries series stuff and not behind the Diary, Mr. Beast behind mr. beast.
• I don't know it feels good, It feels good, It feels good.
• Now it is 1 am, and I just would love to not sleep and just grow faster and faster.

learnings:

• Deprival superreaction syndrome is insane strong... when you thought you had something allready and then loose it is kind of as painfull as when you actually lost something you allready had. I'm aware of this, but there is no way to avoid it even in the moment I'm aware of it, it is painfull.

• take it slowly with women. before you attack, before you have to find out everything, every motivation, every situation, every backround... only then you know how to attack best and pull it of. data is key... if you don't have enough data, attacks are based on luck. It is better to take longer time and gather data...

• navigate in the right direction. don't play to offensive. make her admire you, don't be the dog that is bagging for food. then you allready lost.

• be confident in yourself and don't praise to much. But praise the things you think are truly true.

it is interesting and weird... and it is better to have a women as a friend when you want a girlfriend then playing offensive and crashing the relationship. because the women as your friend knows other womens, which could lead to other introductions and gives higher odds of discovering new unknown territory. so when you play slow and gather more data, you not only can prepare a attack better, but the likelyhood of meeting a new perfect girlfriend increases exponentially with every women friend you also make on the way.

don't waste your time!

okay fuck you

met Eve. she is the brightest mind I ever met. She will change my life. She will become my wife. nature brought me the diamond I was searching for.

bin wieder in DD... nach 6 Monaten high tech, English speaking society. It's kind of insane how small the world is today.

we don't need to wait anymore 5/10 years for having a big travel to a other country. It is easy to just book a flight straight away. This is easy.

Recoreded a podcast with my grandmother and grandfather so my kids can some day see it and know what they were up to.

Currently sitting in the wonderfull building of the "Kulturpalast"... were here often for concerts. this is one of the best places in Dresden to see a lot of young people working. This is great. here are still young people grinding. maybe not grinding to change to world. but at least grinding to change their own lives.

I had on the farm of my mom a very good conversation with my mom about the world models of us, of us crazy people that think they can improve humanity forward. it was very interesting, learned a lot by just telling what I think. This is really unique. Also figured out by myself by telling it that the most important thing to learn fro a vounder is to overcome shit. to don't run out in panic when there is a burning fire. but to try to extinguish it. this is the single most important trade. grid and not giving up + overcoming pain. high pain, high high pain. So the last 6 months were a good learning of this. learning of how to overcome certain pain. Of how to deal with situations were other people would be hopeless. learning about what to do when you have no money.

it tough a lot. and it was insane helpful.

now sitting here between 100 students in the library shows me again how unique the stuff is. I follow my own curicullum, my own rules, my own way. but with uniqueness comes more pain. and I don't want to say that these students do not also suffer some day. but, but they have more certainty. and uncertainty is one of the greatest pains for the mind.

for me it is adventure.

tomorrow we go back to Germany (DD). weird, to go somewhere and speak english again. weird to go somewhere were most of the people build agencies and b2b saas. but we will see. it feels good, but also weird. we will se what happens.

but in the last days looked a bit around the profile pictures of old friends and class people... they live a different life. it is really interesting to see. I think i grew a lot in the last year, learned a lot. it feels weird this days when other people say they build the million dollar empire. for me it is brining humanity forward.... and it will be automatically a billion dollar contribution. it is less about earning the money for the earnings sake, it is more about bringing humanity forward. helping intelligence grow forward, helping humanity just survive and go bigger and bigger...

human intelligence has to evolve greater and greater and explore the universe and above. we have to bring our selves forward, we have to bring the human race forward. Humanity is really unique, when you look at all the other animals around us, none of them are as creative as we are. so we should evolve humanity to greater greatness to keep this creativity alive.

humanity should evolve.

I feel fresh, strong again. I fucked polytopia. today made 3 pages for the pain magazin. I think there is a lot to do in this world. :) Where outside in the sun. there were a group of people (23 people) that were playing music together. just strangers in the park, it is allways on Saturday there... this was really nice. So yeah, we went to the park and I was there sitting, and it was a really beautiful scene because all these people were just playing music there, and they don't really know each other, but it was really magical. I was sitting there with my laptop a bit like a stranger, but it was kind of good. I worked on the Pain Magazine, 3 pages for the Pain Magazine, and this was really nice.

I was also listening to the biography of Nikola Tesla and walked around in the park, saw all these people, and I realized again that all these people are not connected in the real world; they're connected in the digital world (like on social media) everywhere. A lot of them are lonely in the real world; they don't have the connection, the interaction is missing.

Everyone is like listening to their own music, has their own headphones in, and has no clue what other people do, no clue what other people think, no clue what the other people are actually good at and what problem they have.

So you see all these people looking in front of their black box called phone, and everyone is in their own digital world. I assume like people spend way more than 8 hours a day in the digital world interacting with people all over the world, but not with the people right next to them.

This was one of the things I was thinking of: that having love in the world is actually a really good thing, and that we have less and less love and sex and therefore less reproduction. I have it by myself, like the thinking of having someone that you love and that loves you. It's like a really human thing, so in my opinion, it's something that we should not lose as humanity because it will lead to a more robotic and less human-like world.

If we want to tackle things like space travel, space living, and going and understanding the universe, we should still be happy because the greatest work was done with a bit of happiness and humor. So for that, we need more real-world connection.

I think the main problem of it is that in the digital world, we are used to having all this background information about the person before we meet him or before we interact with this person. We can look on LinkedIn or on Google or Instagram, all his background things, what he's interested in, who he likes, what I like, what his problems are. In the real world, we don't have this. We have kind of uncertainty. When you meet a new person, you don't know anything about the person. When you see a person on the other side of the street, you don't know anything. So it's uncertainty, and as we know, uncertainty is worse than bad certainty.

There is this great Uber example where they just delete the uncertainty of how long your taxi needs to come to you, and it's better to know for you when you know that it's taking 10-15 minutes that it comes to you, then when you don't know that it's in 4 minutes there. Uncertainty is a really big thing for our human brain, and when we have the same as uncertainty in the real world when we approach other persons, it makes sense that we are used to the internet where we have all information, and that we then also do our main interactions on the internet because it is less uncertain.

To solve the problem of loneliness, we need to bring less uncertainty into our interaction in the real world. We need that you and me know some information, some common shared knowledge, already before you interact with me in the real world. The problem is, we cannot see them right now. We don't know what the other person on the other side of the street is doing, how he is earning his money, what problems he has, if he is a single or not. The uncertainty is there.

And this is not only a small problem for some people, but it's a problem for humanity because when you have less real-world interactions, we have less love, which leads to less sex, which leads to less kids. We see clearly in the data. It is predicted that in 2050, human society is on the tipping point, it's on the peak of birth rates, and then we decline again. This is bad. We should grow; we should still grow as humanity, and one of the reasons is that in most of the Western countries or older countries (China, US, Europe, Japan) they have declining birth rates.

One of the things is that we don't interact with so many people every day anymore because we are more individualistic. We meet less people. We have more technology, we have more money, and therefore we are more in our self-owned world with tech.

In the poor countries, they don't have this, so they are forced to interact. We in the Western world have an easy way to interact with other humans via social media via the internet. This storm leads to things that we see in the trends. We see clearly a trending decline of birth rates, and there are some people that do already something against it (Musk is like having 14 kids and other people that have a lot of kids), but this is not the solution.

The solution needs to be that everyone has more kids again, everyone is happier, and everyone has more love.

what do I want: a girlfriend. a true problem. a mission to save humanity. a billion dollar company.

I WILL NOT GIVE UP.

talked yesterday longer with zion... he has contact to steven bartlett and one of elons friends was his mentor. the world is small. thinking today about what is most important for humanity to solve. to do? why is this in a weird way so difficult but also easy?

took a walk a listened to some bach. play polytopia with konstantin and zion. i will win.

cutted video for Zion nearly ready. Me started making 3d things in AR. having now pain Magazin. Made podcast yesterday. thinking about problems that are pain for humanity.

oh and there is one more... give me a fucking insurance that is fair payed + has insanly good customer service! all insurance (especially health insurance) has horrible customer service! automate claim processing and fraud detection with AI. build it. i will found when you reach out to me and have money.

same for tax advisors. currently we pay 4k a year with our gmbh for a german tax adivor, what a bullshit?!... this can be fully automated and driven by software + AI, someone needs to build the frontend AI and the backend software that automates the "jahresabschluss and sortierung"... and have a Tax Advisor license.

also i just want a personal lawyer that i can talk to everytime and that is sending out messages for me so they seem legit... why can not somody build an ai lawyer + backend system that can send out legit lawyer terms emails and that can allways support me. for example mahung xyz.. but you don't have to pay for reason xyz... normally the big company allways wins against me. but when I would have a legit lawyer then not anymore... so just someone have to build a legit AI lawyer with a working backend and lawyer license.

fixing german ICE wifi might be actually meaningfull for some germans.

it's a new year. 2026. filmed today again with Zion to make some money. I'm still thinking what is the most important thing to work on in my life right now... living here the kind of moovie that people know from founders. but in real. beeing with my best friend in San Francisco, learning, working all day long... Couch surfing. I'm in AR now at the edge of technology, i know what is missing. good applications. so I could build something that matters to humantiy there. but is it actually the biggest? also fun that zion is basicly building what I had in my head allready 8 months ago. (datawallet). we play a really surreal game, because one win, will be worth billions but no win is allways complete loose. it's assymetric. played yesterday some soccer with some higschool kids. enjoy highschool, becuase it is not so long as you think. but i learned again and again, that health is important. today I have muskelkater.

Invest in Memes – No One Rides Elevators… if you can’t say it in a meme to customers, recruits, and capitalists … no one is going to care. Messages and positioning need to be ready to be transmitted through memes / in short repeatable clips (that are compelling to share).

AR is the future... because everything gets more clean. you will have no real buttons, no real inputs anymore... everything is just there with software.... Your watercocker can get updates over night and get better... can get more buttons... it is the next wave for hardware to make them interactable with AR.

Dear Tade,

It’s pretty hard to say in the abstract - a lot depends on your specific skills, passions, and ideas for what would be commercially viable.  Also, you’d have to consider the timing of automation possibilities in case AI timelines are short.  I’d say in general things that make the world more cooperative or that makes the human-AI relationship more positive sum could be promising - but what that means in practice largely remains to be figured out.  There might also be opportunities somewhere in speeding the use of a given level of AI capabilities for beneficial applications (such as for health or for improving human deliberation or discourse).

Good luck!

Nick

The future of humanity needs tl ve preserved, we are just so great beeings.

Today: Read Biogrfie for 5h. Podcast about elon 1,30h. Future of Humanty and existential risk of swedish researcher, read paper from him. Posted 10 LinkedinPosts. Articles about humanities biggest problems. Email to swedish forscher.

played today for 9h until 6am civilisation VI, completely stupid. now deinstalled everything. it does not bring me forward to build meaningfull stuff. it is just stupid timewaste. it is also not fun. it is just stupid timewaste

LinkedIn is like Clash of Clans... A game where you have to upgrade sruff and attack the algorythm. Lets see until which "Rathaus" i come.

porn is sometimes still in my mind. Not good.

Today we made a new demo day in the hacker house where we couchsurf right now. It is now 1:02am I'm still crystall clear and sharp minded I again ate to much coffee beans, crack for the cheep. But it is awesome, I'm so sharp with it. I bought today again a new one. Konstantin is writing on his paper how to create great companies, I was working on posting 20 LinkedIn posts, they got some good tracktion (one with 10k impressions and one with 30k).

We made a walk in the San Francisco bay park and I saw a family singing Christmas songs, I joined them for 3 songs and sang heilige nacht still nacht on English with them. They where impressed by my good voice. We also today did something that we do very seldom, watch something just for joy... we watched MR.Bean at christmas! Insane, it is art on the highest level.

I also kept reading my biographies and learning about tech.

In my learning diary today: Charlie Chaplin: "Life is a tragedy in close-up and a comedy in long shot."

Good speeches and propaganda has one clear enemy that gets attacked multiple times... a good speech focuses only on one enemy.

Some thoughts:

Germany is still the 3 largest economy by total gdp output after US and China... But we are more and more lacking behind. I made some research over the last days. What I found out was that we are very good in engineering and also in heavy manufacturing, we are good in services in general for worldwide B2B, but what is missing are the big tech consumer players that have high margin with software and data. We have no Google, Meta, Microsoft, Apple, LinkedIn, Snapchat, (YouTube)... when I think of stuff that I use on my phone there is no big German / European player. Why does it matter? because they are the high margin business models and they have the data...

So we in Germany miss the big tech consumer software players.

Secondly I was thinking what is the problem for me of starting a startup in Germany right now? I found two major points.

First: I cannot fire someone fast (if you read biographies of great founders, this was always crucial) the employee has in Germany to many rights that you have not the ability to kick out people of the team fast. Because as we know one spoiled apple spoils very fast all other apples - same for teams.

Second: People in Germany are not anymore used to suffering and working 6–7 days a week, they also want to enjoy life. I feel this is still different here in the US, where you can pay people 750k a year salary but then they also grind all night long.

I was curious about what you think about it...?

Because you seem like thinking a lot about Europe and Germany and how to speed up progress again.

it's basically penetrating a wall with a hamour and when you just take a hit everyday it is only a matter of time when the wall brakes. trust in time.

add: I texted also the 6th time person from tokenize It to cancel the contract with them that every month leads us to pay 580€ randomly to them.

And i figured out... I just will keep messaging them until they cancel it. I don't care how often they say no. they said allready 8 times no, and if it's one more 8 times. I don't care. and I figured out this gives enourmous power and strenght. Because I know over time they will give up and I will win. To learn that you just have to keep beeing stubborn is the greatest weapon was allready so often helpfull for me. and you then can get everything.

I hope nobody will read this here... if so, please keep it for you.

today is christmas, and I worked yesterday until 3am and woke up at 10 today... my family is celebrating in germany. I started working on LinkedIn posts yesterday. I posted 10 to test what might work and what not. then I delete the bad performing and only keep the good performing... and analyze why they performed good, to get better.

Also yesterday was the first day after 7-8 months where I am at Zero "schulden" again. We had for 3 hours a long conversation, me and konstantin over money and then made everyting set to zero his bank accounts and my. We cleaned everything up. deleted bank accounts so everyone of us has only one.

oh, one more thing, people at arcadia didn't liked us anymore. So we called 15 friends to take us over on a couch and got to one new place after some struggle with the bart. We are now near the San Francisco Golden Gate Park, actually really beatifull. Yesterday at 23:00 we went to a grocery shop, everything was raining and we bought for 110 Dollars groceryies and made the best chicken wings with rice and coconut milk sauce ever. We ate them like people that did not ate for a long time a good meal (was actually also true, we didn't ate over the past week something) because of lack of money. so this was a meal from heaven. How could we bought the stuff?? we got the first payment of the deal with Zion to make a video production for him for 6k.

Yeah so time here is kind of painfull but also the greatest ever. it is freedom.

I also finished the Benjamin Franklin Autobiographie and Biographie. Now I started a 44h Biography of Adolf Hittler. It is interesting to see how he catched and captivated the masses.

We figured out that we can listen to every audiobook on nearly 2-3x and get things so fast done this day.

I also started to love coffee beans. I allways just eat them raw. They are like crack for me. But hopefully not so devistating.

We are still searching for meaning. But the fog gets clearer.

Oh and the 10 posts i made yesterday got today allready 7k impressions, this is good for analyzing.

today I work on the spectacles AR glasses application.

Yesterday I wrote a long letter to my other grandparents that I normallly don't do so much..

Sex is still missing.

this will be the first day of the days where I take more care about how I write what I write here... I be carefull is one of the most important trades to make something great. I decided that this here, I want to be something great. something with real inner thoughts, struggles, emotions and inteligence. so let's start:

"Greenlight" today i got a new greenlight, suddenly in my bank account was standing +300€ and there was no other way, then that it came from them. from the most loving grandparents I have. Money: money makes you happy when you have no money. money makes your actions bigger, when you have allready money. money is a measurement of how much value you bring to the world. so when you earn low money, you bring low value to humanity. So it is guid to thrive for money, because you only become a lot if you bring value for humanity. I think people don't want to believe this. because they are envy. money also makes you not a bad or a good person. money just amplifies everything that is in your personality. and since every human has a dark side, oyu just think that these people are more mean or do more bad, but in reality they just play a bigger game and therefore their dark side is also bigger. MONEY JUST EMPLIFIES, it is like a good Megaphone, the megaphone doesn't make you ssay good or bad things, it is still the person behind it. But the megaphone makes you hear this things louder. So when the person has dark thoughts, you hear them louder. When the person has good thoughts you here them louder.

And since humans are trained to see the bad things, or the enemy's better then the good sides of something we just get lost focusing on bad stuff of rich people. Therefore a lot of people don't like rich people.

They don't understand the law of amplifying.

today something weird happened. We got Money. and it is interesting how fast you then come into the mode of spending it.

i got today a christmas present from my dad via amazon, we now interact more again with each other, this is good.

i bought books from people to learn more about history, I bought Benjamin Franklin, Adolf Hittler and some other biographies. "I would allways spent money for a good book".

flights to germany still 340€

flights to germany still 370€.

I watched yesterday a doku about how the iphone actually got produced. Learning: "everything is a process", there where no such thing like one great Idea of the iphone and then they build it... it was a konstant struggle with it and refinemend, refinemend over a long period of time. so basically everything is just a process. every great thing that we think got invented from one smart person, was just a long process with a lot of smart people involved in it.

Everything is a process.

no sitting here in the Haas in Berkely, everything empty, I'm the single one student here. there are no other people on the whole campus. everything empty.

today got clear that I will be for the first time in history not with my family at christmas. This is like a migratory bird that went south alone to find the right place to life and love. it is not easy. and it is painfull.. it is the rule of everything. You allways want what you not have, and you appreciate it more if you have less from something. These days I appreciate my family more then ever before. I'm proud, loved and in love with them. But still beeing here in US to catch more greenlights.

what should change in the world? Humanity should not die. Humanity should further develop and get stronger. Humanity should be happy.

the only difference between people writing an exam and us is that we get our grade not direct afterwards. Our exam is building the greatest consumer brand and company out there to make billions of lives better. I truly believe this is my meaning of life.

second day where we slept on the couch here in frontier tower: elon musk "i think if you want to start a company you have to have a high trashhold of pain"

looking everything about the best entrepeneurs.. how they worked, what they learned, analyzed and read biografies of all of them.. together with konstantin we look every old possible video of elon, steve, lary ellison and everyone that created great companies.

how they get teams together, what they focus on, how they showcase products... etc... how they speak. It's like we are doing what people normally do before they have to write an exam. they learn everything they can about the topic. We do it for great companies.

my plan: finish filming job, programm AR glasses, go to snap office get AR glasses, go 24. to germany, meet family, programm more AR experience, go to munich, show it Darius, get 50k, go to bali, then india, then china, build first janta product.

i want a bit more movie type shit again. what do you think?

stories to tell: -birthday present from konstantin (cake with arcadians) -4 chicken in bag party + morning Eli with gun -china dinner with chinese guys -china clothing brand office idk there are more.

there are some simple things to get more confident that allways work: fresh haircut skincare workout smile +travel

had today call with doug, sales call with zion to make production video for them... Konstantin yesterday made like for 350$ a some design work. I feel motivation again. I see a small stripe on the horizont.. the fog is getting less dense. isnt it interesting.

I could go home for christmas theoretically? lol. and today something weird happened. darius called me, he actually appreciates my willingness to do things that other people would not do. he actually was one of the single people that would bet on me, when others think controversal. I highly value this. he would invest 50k with his new fund when we get the thing running and can showcase him the social interaction app. thats motivating... also what is the win in the game of products... the win is developing faster in silents then anybody als and then release something insane great with a big bang. the big bang is the moment where you can be proud. so there is no other way to play the game. just build it until it is so good that you have to show it to people. I finally figured it out, what the game it is that we crafters, sellers, builders, play.

isn't it interesting?

I watched yesterday all the old videos with konstantin and we experiences a lot. actually a lot. this is awesome.

there is light on the horizon.

life is kind of weird. it is the first time that I will maybe not have christmas together with my fam? or maybe not? when we have fast enough some cash in idk, 5k or somoething i would go for it. maybe there is actually a way to do it. I have tomorrow a call with a guy for christmas video stuff. I will close with him the deal and then we will go to germany for christmas.

but in generall it is actually interesting what life does with you, when you try to change the world. but also don't know yet what... what is important? love, friends, experiences, impact.. money, what is not important? dump people. but actually there are a lot of people in the void. and less people that actually build. konstanin is a builder. he is doing stuff very fast and just build them. appreciate this.

a good haircut is worth millions of self confidence.. so buy it :) Saw the girl that I was looking for over the last weeks... went to her, asked her, got a "I have a boyfriend", but feels good. Now uncertenty is away. Uncertenty is way harder than getting a "no". Nice.

struggling around with uncertainty is really painful. But i figured out that most of the great people had this period. I talked with Spencer Kinney, he was in this for two years straight before now he had something that seems to work out with the greatest investors in the bay area you can get. He started working on 4 completely different things before. Same story I heard from Sophie Defauw, he know founders that changed a lot and then built the successful wolrd changing thing. We are playing here a power law game... so everything will feel like failure... and success is unimaginable 1000x bigger. So there is nothing like everage pain and everage succes. this game is eather you are in the state of death or you win very, very big.

we changed the location from Berkely Arcadia to 20 min walks away Berkeley Hills. Thanks to Eli AI-Shamari, he lets us stay at his founder co-living here in the mountains for free for two weeks. We still have a shortage of money, but I still told the girl that I met yesterday and we walked the fire trails around to see the whole buty of berkely and San Francisco in Moonlight, that some day "I will change the lives of millions of people", but she had a friend. But like men do, they think this doesn't matter so I was trying to poje here out of the relationship, not so good. So we went back, but we talked about live, sex and mission and it was kind of cool, maybe around 7°C. Eli made here a big party and we had firsthand the standart american experience. One guy called Shaileesh brought 4 chickens in a bag with him.. other people brought wine and coocies and we created ginger bred houses. Still most of the time im thinking about what is truly true. What changes the world.

today in the morning I stood up and went upstairs to the living room and the first thing that I see is Eli with a gun shooting coca cola cans - America I guess. Second one was I called the two 14 year old girls to coach them in the right direction. And then Konstantin cutted my hair, no I look like a half chinese but german boy with "Topfschnitt".

Berkely is such a oddly place. Sitting at strada, walking around the law school, seeing the bell tower and all this young people. I called yesterday in the night the mom of the girl that I talked with... she lived in Dresden 20 years ago. Now she is an AI tutor at deepmind, together with his husband. His doughter really impressed me, but she has a friend.?

no I'm sitting here, it feels a bit like a switzerland alps Hut, in the hills with great view and the friends you work and party together. I'm really thankfull to have such an experience rich life.

had today a good talk with my mother also about china and us... I'm really thankfull of beeing so close with my mom.

also there were this Lary Ellison talk when he was young... He was also in Berkely :) Same for steve Jobs... he was in Berkely... Same for xyz. so many great people have a relationship to berkely, I Like it.

also there was this girl today at strada... I watched here, I saw here allready again 4 times before there.. today I putted a self painted business card in her back. maybe she will message me maybe not. I don't have the expactations for it, so I only can win.

now I'm sitting on the roof of the law school seeing the sun and listening to the only 01099. "ich bin auf dem weg keine zeit zu verlieren... sag wie soll es anders sein?"

Berkeley is the best place in the world to search with this 8 Billion other humans for the meaning of life. It seems like that everyone, age 57, age 38, age 28, age 21, age 18, age 15 are looking for it.

We all suffer with it, we all search for meaning, we all search for a place in a world. And everybody thinks that he is the only person that faces this... THIS IS WRONG. I founder that everyone is at enytime in search of meaning and the correct answers for life. Which leads to the "erkenntnis" that it is allways like this... that I have to like it. because I will otherwise hate my whole life. Thankyou Wolfram Thurm for this opening thoughts.

Today happened also something very special. the first time since two years my dad become a HERO for me again. He was one of the major people that built a School from scratch in Dresden for 50 Million Euros. This is insane.. He lead two of his kids to the best magicians in their age groups in germany. I'm finally proud of him again for something - which brings me to tears. I'm really proud when I hear this.

Having parents that are Hero's feels as is one of the most important thing.

He constructed kind of a factory for educated humans from scratch. There was nothing before... There was just dirt farmland erea and know is standing there one of the most hightech waldorfschools in Germany. He constructed the buildings, made sure to get goverment support, got investments from other people, made decisions, took the risk with 10 other people on their own sholders when it fails. thats bold. Thats strong.

But he also told me about his "visions Suche" which showed me... everyone is all the time in search. I thought you figure it some day out. But it seems not to be true...

The only thing that changes is that you get more used to it over time.

also I'm not scared anymore. you know, I will never die, by not having money anymore. It will maybe be disgusting, but never so that it is killing you.

we got today 2 weeks more of free housing, which is very helpfull, because it will lead to time, where we can just think and build.

I think when you ask a lot of young people what they are most missing these days it is connections with the people direct next to them. It’s weird, we live in a hyper connected world but still everyone is telling about loneliness.

Today we live in two worlds, there is the digital world and the real world and we spend more time in the digital than in the real world on a given day. For me it makes no sense why we have to live in two worlds. Why can't we have one merged world?

There is one company that tries this, but they really don’t get the point. They try to replicate the phone in front of you. I think they are villains and they would get the complete monopoly about connections when they are the company that succeeds. They are the villain.

this thing should be built by people that truly have a sense of art. Otherwise it will hurt humanity.

currently we learn to endure pain... but I wrote this allready one year ago, and again the year before. maybe this is just life?

i have this thing in mind and it is not leaving. a hyper conected world in realworld. conectivity and informations presented seamless and in realtime. You have just by a blink of your eye all available informations about a person. you can ping, experience people in your own world but in the real world.. imagen you inviting your friends playing a overlay of the realworld together. Imagen you can generate every artefact that you want direct in front of you. imagen having like you have different maps in polytopia, you having different real worlds that you can select every morning to play?

when you just look in the faces of young people this is interesting. You see all there worries, all there struggles and yu know the interesting thing is. Everyone has it. Everyone has his own shit they struggle with. Is this not insane? is this not insane that our brain allways searches for something that it can struggle with? it lies in human nature.

What would happen if you could see fro every person struggle? What would happen if everyone shares his struggle with the people around them? Would people help each other? would this create extraordinary less pain in the world?

would a perfect world come out of beeing hyper conected in real life? right now we spent more time beeing conected in the artificial world then in the real world. which leads to less relationships in the real world, which leads to less sex in the real world, which leads to a declining humanity.

what if we could create this same conection / conecting feeling but in the real world? Why not just pining a girl that is sitting next to you instead of waiting until she puts of her headphones...?

why make womans allways weird things to your mind in the wrong situations?

now I'm in the fighter mode. Nobody will kill me, nobody will win against us. We will destroy them. Nobody will stop us in making the world a better place. I truly believe this and janta will be know in not so long time.

we will fuck you!

tokenizeIt is fucking us 6 more month :)

missing my family. coding here to change the world and singing christmas songs by myself. no money, no family. just work and changing the world to a better place.

First: When I was 14, I convinced my dad to open a stock account for me and I started investing. I put all my savings into it, and it quickly grew to €3,000. Then I thought I was the smartest person on earth and started investing in riskier things. One week later, I had lost almost everything. I was 15 at the time and I thought my life was over. I had messed it up. I deleted everything and stopped for a month.

Then I realized that life goes on and that I could learn and improve. I went deep into company analysis, fundamental analysis, and every book and source of knowledge I could find about investing. By the time I was 17, I had built my portfolio back up to €20,000.

This lesson was extremely important for me because I learned that life always goes on. In the hardest moments, it is just a matter of keeping going, learning, and pushing through. I have had several moments like this growing up, and I think I am in one again right now. It is painful, challenging, and also exciting, but most of all it is the moment to push through and reach greater heights.

Second: The most important thing is not which dragon you fight, but who you fight with.

When I was 16, I worked as the youngest intern in the biggest insurance company in Europe, and I had the best coach in the entire company. Not only that, but the department I worked in was the youngest and the fastest-growing in Europe.

This taught me not only how to deal with rejection, which you get a lot of in sales, but more importantly that the people around me have the biggest influence on my success. Since then, I have taken this very seriously. I would rather be hungry than be surrounded by the wrong people.

This also applies to the company we are building. It pushes me to only hire people I genuinely admire and want to become more like myself. In my opinion, this is one of the most important lessons of my life because it affects every part of it. I always try to surround myself with greatness to become a bit greater myself.

Third: Not caring about other people’s opinions is a skill I developed over time by actually executing on things.

I learned that when you care more about the mission than about what other people think, you get much further. I dropped out of high school at the end of school, not because it was too difficult, I was actually very good at it, but because I believed I was learning the wrong things.

Everyone told me to stay and said it was the stupidest decision of my life. Today, I believe it was one of the most important decisions I ever made. It proved to me that it does not matter how strongly people tell you not to do something if you truly believe in yourself and make your own decisions.

Since then, it has given me a strong sense of being different and trusting myself. That trust leads to higher self-confidence, which then leads to faster execution and faster learning in every area of life.

I'm confident it was the right decision, but it still feels horrible.

the first time I fired someone from the team. It's actually not nice. It's sad. You pull from someone else the visions, the motivation, the work etc.. from the earth. It's horrible.

Yotam -> Fired.

if you would decide for beeing special or beeing hungry, what would you choose? i think I'M special. I'm different and therefore I need to do everything that other people don't do. My live is forced to do things that seem not possible to the normal ones. the world is very difficult when you try to make things simple.

"I think we just have to have fun and appreciate the situation, some day we will look back and very likely say -> this was actually a fun time. this was the time where I had nothing to eat, don't know anything, but also nothing to loose. So enjoy the time" It feels this days hard to enjoy, because we are pushing on the limit, to build something that helps all of humanity. we sacrefice our own life to help humanity make progress forward. this is the bigger mission.

but still it is not everyday fun. not every moment is fun. there are moments more often, where we don't have money to afford food.

but arcadia is the best, we are living in arcadia with the smartest people in the world and get every day exposed to it.

Arcadia will and has shaped me allready in the best possible way.

simplifieng does magic. Steve Jobs, Elon Musk and 20 other biographies that I read have in common that the great people try to delete "unnecessity". I try to practice it too.

teaching people and yourself is allways highest priority!!!

reading is the path to succes.. when I can read everything 3x faster I will be 5x faster then the other people. I read currently on 2x pace everything that I need.

like bill gates said: read a lot of biographies. AGREE. Biographies is the best source to learn about live without experiencing it. Biographies have a naturell filter for good decisions. You experience the most succesfulls peoples decisions and thoughts in First Person View.

I think it is the right decision to fire Yotam from the team. He is not capable enough. We have to be rigorous or we will die.

Talked with a chinese VC today, they are insane termsheets. Be carefull. But they are also way more outcome driven then US VCs -> probably because they have less money.

We now built JANTA -> to create the biggest tech company in the world. I think our biggest product will be AR. Because AR will fundamental change how people see the world.

this is interesting. some weeks ago I started making konstantin think better infiltrated in him the thinking of true thinking and now he is doing the same on me and is infiltrating the thing of skilling up yourself into me. hard but true.

healthinsurance is actually pain. trying to raise small amount to don't die.

arrived yesterday back in the US, wuhu. now grind it out to get some angels and build the product.

the aircrofts lifts up slowly his wheels from the ground and with every breething of a second we see more and more of the skyline of Shenzhen. and it feels again like a moovie. It feels like beeing part of the greatest live possible.

with less then 20 dollars left in total but a life worht living. a live like a movie. and I'm highly thankfull for that. sitting here in the plain again. seeing all this "fremd" people.. seeing the clouds. sitting next to my best mindshared person and experiencing the world. the world in his roughness, beaty, flaws, richness, lovlyness.

thinking about how to make the world a better place. about how I can contribute. about to make things that matter happen and help to make this place here on earth, here in the solar system more exciting and worth living for everyone else.

I'm very gratefull of experiencing this kind of movie.

tommor morning before we flew at 1pm we visited a big clothing brand and manufacturer here in China. they produce so high quality products - a t-shirt for 6-9 dollars, a hoody for 11-16 a zipper for 12-18... and allready shpped here. the women in the entrance bought us food for breakfest in a local small shop and showed us the chinese breakfest tradition. she was so kind and she was so happy that we were there. it was kind of stunning. all the people want to make pictures with us and you feel like you'r the god, the hero. thank you for this awesome experience China. we so clothing, in the highest quality. for big western brands... all manufactured there. and she showed us around. -> then we want for 1h with the DIDI (uber) to Shenzhen airport, made a very seamless checking and while waiting for boarding having calls with US/europe investors to make the thing happen. idk. what to say.

also yesterday was a crazy day. we visited 4 hardware Factories that assemble and produce chips and other electronic boards and devices.. the one company builds boards for Infineon,nvidia, intel and other major players!!! everything here in Shenzhen and the cities around. it is incredible to see how hard these people work here to make the live in our western cultures happen. we got invited for dinner from our last company that we visited and had a incridible rich and foodfull dinner with them. we head around 4h dinner all chinese quisine and tradition, they showed us around and told about China, Chinas plans and what is important for them.

actually we in the US think a lot about China and worry.. actually China don't really thinks about the US... they just think about how they can grow faster and develop faster. they don't really care about US.. they care about China. also she told us and a lot of other chinese people told us the same... that China is now heavily trying to improve their quality of products.. they hate the image of bad quality for made in China products. they want that this is a sign for high quality.

the evening was also out of a moovie. they payed for everything. they invited us to local other stores to drink hot milk and experience chinese culture... when we wanted to leave they wanted to wait all the time until our Didi is arrived. it was a long wait... because we had again a lot of trouble with the chinese firewall and app system. everything gets blocked and when I wanted to connect with the chinese women on WeChat... I needed to auth... with my ID to get here contact. so this is something that is really annoying here. we were at an local egg store 2 day ago and konstantin needed to use his ID and need to make a KYC for his scrambled eggs.

so the whole experience is a movie. sometimes it feels like a escape room, sometimes like your the prince, sometimes just like humans living there live.

Shenzhen is clearly developing very very fast... all of China is developing very very fast.

I'm thinking sometimes what are the problems of other people? when I see people what do they struggle with?? because it deemed on me, that actually everyone struggles with something. i'm currently thinking of a girl. not only to fuck, but to have love. just love. also Idk. if chinese girls are my type. but we will see. and this money part, we need to solve this problem of insurance, we need to make the world a better place -> so we have to find someone who supports this!

thinking in thee plane / flight about how we get this deal over the finishline... from where and whom. currently flying above shanghai and getting insane good food and service on board. flying to corea and then from korea to SF. --> and hopefully they let us into US... otherwise idk. this would be very, very bad if not. -> then we have the last money to get to the hacker house. and then we need to find a angel to back us.

flying to China Shenzhen... isn't it insane :) see the world at 20 and make the life insane. like a moovie. feeling the movie here. and all this experience together with a loved person.

i feel very thankful for that. also I feel like life is for every human the same... there is no human in the world that has no fear, or nothing that he is not worrieng about, or that he is not sure about or stuff... like that. every human is fighting the same game. isn't that insane?

the insanity of life. is that we allways think other people that have what we have, other people have only good days, other people have only fun, other people only have success................ thats wrong.

it's me flying right now above the clouds. it's mee seeing the world. it's me living a assymetric life.

broke but insane.

someday I will look back at this time -> I will have a lot of money and think. what the fuck was that a awesome time... where you didn't had a lot of money and just was broke but going insane in the world.

thankyou for having an insane live.

when we were boarding the airplane -> we were not fully checked in. so they pulled us out. we were the last people. they phoned around and just 8 people were talking, clicking in insane speed on their computers. and dadaa.. the tickets were in our hands 3 minutes later. they asked for visas and stuff... I was thinking oh no shit. did we missed something? but no. we just were right.

the thing that nobody tells you is that the only way to get a joyfull live is to bake it full of joy and enjoy it. i feel like a loot of humans have this problem. they don't see the beaty of live anymore.

Okay, we go all in.

I texted Muis mom.

"Hi, bitte erzähl Miu nichts davon. Wie geht es euch? Wie geht es Miu? Kannst du mir sagen ob sie aktuell einen Freund hat oder ähnliches und ist sie schon in Australien oder noch in Dresden? Liebe Grüße, Tade"

Saw this bolivood moovie with the Indian heroes. That didn't wait. They just do it. Gor inspired from them to just start...

I feel like I need here just mentally. If he can love me like this here. Without money but with a mission. Then she is the right one.

She knows me best. She believes in me. She can give me the energy to get this 10M round done.

Maybe I got right now more trouble. But live is only fun with trouble.

Miss u

every application based on social interaction will work good.

ar will change how we see the world. it's not a replacement of the phone, it is something completely different.

the thing that will make AR going viral are social interaction applications.

we live in a world of screens and we screen the hole day long and the best thing we do is screening... everything happens on screens.... we are a screening society.

what we do is putting a overlay of the real world, putting a flexible screen into an onto the real world. my guess is that the most viral thing of it will be seeing informations in realtime about other humans. store informations attached to humans... not somewhere in the web.... just directly atttached to a human beside his face. looking into a street seeing what the people do, which music they here etc... these days the displays gotten good enough (META Displays). the killer applications will be everything that searches the net... and helps to kategorize people / storing informations about people around there head etc... I think the first thing that you allways want to have when you look at a person is: -Name -Age -Backround -Current Goals -what you talked about before with this person.

I can imagen everyone living in a different world but all in the same place. Why should not everyone have their hyper personlized world. Why should not everyone have the ability to change the colors or the brightness of their real world?

also I sleep here on a selfmade couch bed in the living room basement in arcadia. it doesn matter. it's shitty. but the right people sourround us. therefore it is good.

we have no mony to spent anymore... just 500 dollars for the next 2 weeks. thats not a lot. because we also go to china etc... so basiclly we have nothing. but we will survive. we allways survive. and the goal is to fight the problem. but for context my later self is hopefully proud of me not giving up.

-teached yotam. setted some goals. new tasks for the next days... it's just about executing the right things. fast. I like how we right now shape the company after our own thoughts how we bring things in to grow faster and build the best working team together. started with the book rule. everyone can put into everyones else calender just a book to read with a deadline. and when there is this book. everything else does not matter. the only thing that matter is to finish this book until the deadline. because growing and teaching is the most important thing. I kind of like this. secondly we really have as our advantage communitacion and fast execution. the is the highest lever that we can pull. we keep going with the podcasts. keep going with the other stuff and just allways pull the levers of faster... and better communication, which lead s to not working on stupid stuff.

how I'm? idk. if everything will work after plan. I feel like there are so many unknows. and we need to be so fast. that is insane. also this money raising part of 10M preseed is a huge thing. for firsttime founders raising 10M some people say maybe insane. so wee need to know why we actually need so much. to defend it and articulate it clearly.

-were today together with yotam and konstantin in escape room -worked on the risk model the hole night. -listened to book from book rule (jensen huang..) -started outreach to angels. -had 4h disscussion with konstantin and Yotam -had discussion with konstantin about how to integrate yotam... + how to upgrade comm. and learning. -booked flights back from china to SF. -> btw. idk if they will let us in. hopefully. I mean we make this country actually great. so we try to change something here in the country. so this is important! -there are so many things that can go wrong. and so many things that can go right. the difficult part is to go into the right direction and don't get messed up by noise. so the most important part is that we solve the problem. the problem of a bad health insurance that everyone hates.

i'm not exciting about it, I'm not worried about it... it's just a thing that have to get done. and so far there is noone that I trust that will solve that problem. no other company that I have seen. nobody. so we are the only valid company in the world that actually might be able to change this. so we should allways keep going. no matter what. no matter how hard we are to die. this problem causes people pain. and thats not needed!

today was demo day here in Arcadia... is cool to see some smart people presenting their ideas. and also I appreciate way more know this place here. the pixels come together... there were so many interesting people here in Berkeley, living here and building great stuff. I'm really thankful to have this sourrounding here, this berkeley sourrounding.

btw. I did not wrote a lot in here in the last days. i have some doubts on Yotam. He is not the smartest person... but idk. the people that he said are impressing are not impressive. had a long convo. with konstantin about him. I'm not sure... every story of founding something succesfull is that you hear you need to be hyper pickey about who you pick for your team... so why do we have Yotam on the team? he is not technical, not really smart and also has a limited mindset. but he is maybe fast in execution. actually I think konstantin grew a lot over the last year. he got also decent technical, so I'm proud of him. and proud of his mind how it developed. I think I pushed him especially good into the direction to question more things and ask more often if this is actually true.... he often now these days troubles me up with the term. this migh not be true. which mean he developed this good sense.

also I figured out that actually asking good questions is the most important skill these days. there are answers for everything but the questions are the streets to new answers.

so developing the magic of questions is all the time worth high.

also here is so much noise in SF.... so many people that have a startup. but a startup means nothing!!! a startup could mean you started yesterday... or you have millions of users. so don't trust people that say they have a startup. everyone can tell stories. view can actually build.

called with Joey (hiteyjit) today. I think I could help them to get motivation again to keep going. That's good.

I want to thank to Julia Harms, Rome Thorstenson, Marmik Chaudhari, Spencer Kinney, Yiğit Kılıçoğlu, Alessio Toniolo, Erik Bach Ryhl that right now here in Arcadia make me think faster.

I started developing as a leader the plan with Konstantin and Yotam, how the most customer friendly insurance on the planet integrated in a new health system could look like and what we need to build.

We sat down foe 4h and made the tasks ready fir the nwxt 6d. Idk. Where this will go and if after the next 6d I will say it was wrong to go with a random guy named yota to explore and build stuff. But I trust my gut. And my gut says it is worth testing it.

Basically the goal is to build in 6 days a fully production ready and functionell insurance that was never done before + a new health system around it that nobody build so far so detailed and integrated. Sounds cool? Yeah, it's a lot of work.

It's meaningfully work.

From a company perspektive we tap into the most valuable thing in this century (data). So our goal is to collect and connect as much data sources as possible aggregate it under one user and the mage magic with it.

Today I feel actually really good. Because today since a long time I see a clear path again hiw this might work.

Still yotam in our room is searching, I hate him for that. But yes the founder livestream is really boring but we get free food here, what is good. The outside is not as beautiful as Berkeley, but you need contrast to value what is good.

Without contrast everything would seem Grey. So we need the bad stuff to see good. We need poor people to feel rich, we need unhealthy food to eat healthy.

The only way to appreciate stuff is by seeing a contrast. So when I go and travel alone that's the best thing I can do, because often we see a contrast.

Today there where some "mahnungen" I'm briefcases so yeah, was not so cool when my mom sent it to me. Hopefully she will be not so worried about it.

And still there is this weird -750 bill from scalable that doesn't go out of my had. So it is the struggle in the building and always changes of moods in every second that make it so.... yeah.

You always get kicked in your ass wgen things work good. But you also always overlive things that are hardly bad, where you think that's the end.

arrived at the actioners house for the actioners week... (https://live.actioners.com/). feels a bit tasteless and empty everything. this is crazy but, arcadia is one of the single places that actually feel like family so far. Arcadia is a family. here it feels again like artificially grouping people but with out conection with each other. But we will see. so far not the place to live longer then for some days.

so for me the most important thing si to help humanity solve some important problems.

idk. why but elon nailed it: "if we are succesfull does it matter to the world"... this is maybe the single best question to qustion your work.

but the believe to have a meaningful live is burning.

today I coded mainly right.. helped the german waldorf girls @freya to get a interview with tokio hotel and follow her dreams. I mean to believe in yourself is one of the most important things you need to learn. I actually believe these days it is the most valuable skill that you can have. because executing is not anymore a thing of smartness... because we have these days smartness in a bottle (AI) which means you only need to have the will and believe to start executing.

the last weeks was a bit weird. because i was not really motivated to execute stuff... because it was very diffiucult to understand the world. by understand the world I mean. it is dificult to understand why humans life and what is the meaning of life. so yeah. this brought me to read Nitzsche, Socrates, Asimov, Biografies of Obama and other stuff that I could found.

also the china thing made everything more and more confusing. idk why. but I feel that china might be the most important country in the future. because all this americans worry about and china only focus to get stronger. China works. US demonstrates. but this makes the whole scene more weird. because every european founder says to you... "go to US, when you want to have meaning". but this is not actually true maybe anymore? but people say it.

also I started to watch porn again. Idk. why but probably to have a time don't thinking about how the world looks and what the role of humans are.

this thing made me very thoughful and confused. like why do we exist as humans? how are we different to AI?

but most important the question that is still floating in my had is: what is the most important thing to work on.

idk why... but allways when I start something i think emediatly is this actually important. which often leads then to the conclusion no.. and my motivation goes down...

I found out that I have this 3 month cycles. I have an idea or a thing.... i go deeper in it I understand the problems -> new idea is coming into my head... think it is a better one... and the cycle starts from new... this is bad.

anyway.

it is so difficult to find out what is true and what not about life.

but I feel this makes you go forward. founders are basically people that predict the future and then try to build on this prediction.

so it feels that I should learn how to predict better. but for this I need to understand the world.

so today I helped the german girl (she is 14, smart). -programmed my stuff (this site to the end, so that it is now officially on the web). -still thinking about my goals for this year.

i was calling this year (living my 21 year on earth.) the year of achieving. every goal this year is something related to an achievement... the last year was the year of learning and experience... this year is fully achieving.. which means executing a lot of stuff..

my grandfather and grandmather donated me 500€ just on my birthday for the china travel. Im really thankful for that. I was a bit scared from it. because it was just out of the blue and I looked on my phone. but I'm actually so thankful. thanks grandpa, and grandma. your the best that I could imagen. I want to give them back so much. They are truly great. i'm currently still broke in a sense that I have zero money and our gmbh has a runway of 1-2 month ish...

but this thing makes me also shown I don't want to be dependent on my family. i want to have the succecfull startup. i feel the chip on my shoulder, because there is no other way. there is only the way of having success with the startup. id dropped out of school. so they expact that I will get things running. I also believe in it. but I still have fear. and doubts.

I just wrote this at 2am so it is still valid to say it is the 3. november. :)

sometimes I think I'm crazy, sometimes I just want to change the world and sometimes I only want to be a kid again.

Today was my 20. birthday. yeah. and actually it was really cool. but not that cool that you expected. I worked mainly and had a video call with my family. We were calling the day I showed them berkely. because I'm rigth now in the USA in berkely. actually.

it was really cool to see my family together again. i mean there is some bad vibes some day. and mom, dad are not happy with each other. and this spreads over. but today was cool.

also my one grandmother that I do not have so much contact with had a awesome thing to tell about how they produce there morning act.

• yeah so took some call with founders from sf for insurance -> im still not sure if this is the way to go...

• figured out today that i need to set goals. because that's the only way live is not so confusing. Goals makes live easier to understand, because you can channel your focus on things that you think are important.

• also I still believe we have no free will and everything is actually only a matter of what we observe which leads to, that our goals are also only a matter of what we observe. yes, but hopefully I observed good things.

• im still broke (around -600€ on the bank) but confidente to change the world to something positive. I still believe that those who think they can change the world and thos who think they can't are both usually right.